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Lee Bodecker x f!reader
warnings: filth! daddy kink, overstimulation, restraints, praise, slight degradation, cursing, unprotected sex (wrap it pls, your life isnât fiction), oral (f receiving), petnames, fluff
synopsis: Youâve been taking cooking classes to surprise Lee for your anniversary. You try to keep it a secret from him and he finds out that youâve been lying about where youâve been going.
a/n: absolutely had too much fun writing this. if you couldnât tell, Lee is my baby. enjoy, and let me know what you think babes!
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What was a cute little crush on the townâs sheriff, becomes something else entirely when you receive more that you bargain for
Pairing: SoftDark!Lee Bodecker x Fem!Innocent!Reader
Warnings: Cursing, age gap (reader early 20's, Lee late 30's), Dub-con, Loss of virginity, smut, blood, dirty talking, hummiliation, degradation, REJECTION from a parent, Being kicked out of the house by a parent, angst town, a little twisted fluff at the end
+18 MINORS DNI
Notes: My first Lee Bodecker! Hope you enjoy, I really strugled with representing that southern drawl of his...
Word count: 2.6 k
He wasnât the most handsome, nor the most galant, in fact, you have heard your father multiple times referred to him as âThat bastardâ or alternatively, âThat fat motherfuckerâ but you saw past that, you only listened attentively what your father had to say about the townâs sheriff
You liked him
By the sole menton of his name your legs turn to jelly and you feel your face getting as heated as that time you got sunburned under the summer sun
You didnât know if it was his steel blue eyes, or the way he spoke with that southern brawl, or the gestures he made with his thick hands, the way he moved, or the way he smiled one side while his hands where perched on his hips
He was a handsome man
You felt your cheeks heated at the thought or sight of him, you felt nervous, like your stomach was filled with little butterflies.
You had a crush on him, on Lee Bodecker
You had become a lady now, you just finished college, (a rare occurrence for ladies) and you had to come back home, to Knockemstiff, to help your father with the family business. the biggest hardware store in town. He remained here, in his birthplace.
You were an adult now, and you wanted to act on your feelings towards the sheriff. It's about time you had your love story, with a handsome, strong, galantt man, like the Sheriff himself.
You looked at him, he was behind the sheriff office stand, watching over the townâs farmers market, and you knew it was your chance. You just smiled, as you walked towards him, with your trademark cherry pie you had learned how to bake from your deceased motherâs recipe. According to your dad it was the best dessert he had eaten, so you just had to make it for him.
âGood morning Sheriffâ he wasnât alone, he was accompanied by two of his deputies, but only one look from him and they disappeared and splitted into the crowd, smiling widely, unknown to you why
âGood mornin' sweetieâ he greeted, and immediately you felt your cheeks heated
âI B-baked this, f-for youâ your damned stutter, showed up in the least convenient situations
âFor me?â he asked, stunned, and happy, receiving the pie you just handed to him, you nodded with your head, smiling widely at him, âArenât you the sweetest? You are Earl (Y/L/N)âs kid, right?â he drawled, only his voice and that one sided smile could make your knees buckle and your hands sweaty
âIâm not a kid Sirâ you remarked, your sweaty hands hiding behind your back
âYou got that rightâ he purred, lookin up and down at you, oh you were certainly nervous now, âThank for the pie, but I donât know what I did to deserve itâ
âYou are the sheriffâ you said simply, but regretted it, it seemed like you were interested in him only by his standing, âNo thatâs not what I meant, I meanâŚâ he laughed, loudly
âItâs ok sweet girlâ he comforted you, âHow can I thank you for this delicious gift?â he asked, leaning in, looking at you with those steel blue eyes you liked so much
âI w-was wonderingâŚâ you started, âI want toâŚâ
âYou want to go on a date with me, sweetheart?â your heart jumped inside your chest and you got so excited you had to fight not to let out an excited shriek
âYes Sheriffâ you said, toying with your fingers behind your back, âIâd like that very muchâ
âVery well then, are you comfortable with friday? pick you up at 6?â you just nodded, not being able to talk of how excited you were
You told him to wait for you down the hill from your house. You knew your father disliked him, and would never let you go on a date with him, so you hid it from him.
It should have ring a bell in your little, naive head that the sheriff was all too keen of just wait for you hidden in his cruiser between some trees, instead of taking off his sheriff hat, going up the tree steps to the porch of your house, and present himself to your father as the âGentleman who was taking his daughter out for dinnerâ But you didnât care, you were so excited
âWhere are we going, Sheriff?â you asked him, as you put on your seatbelt on, you were so excited it took you hours to get ready
âYouâll see sweetyâ he purred, âAnd you can call me Leeâ your hands get clammy while grasping the strap of the seatbelt
âLeeâ you savoured his name in your mouth and you liked what you felt
âYour pie was the sweetest, more delicious thing Iâve eaten little girlâ he purred, and you couldn't be happier
âYou liked it?â you asked, amazed
âOh man, what I would give to eat more of itâ
âI can make you anotherâ you offered, with a shy smile
âIâd like thatâ he responded, leaving your eyes to look upon the road
There weren't many places to go have dinner in Knockemstiff, maybe thatâs the reason he drove all the way to Meade, but it wasnât a restaurant he took you to, not even a diner, you parked and stopped in a three floor apartment building. He got off his official police vehicle, and went around it, only to open the door for you, and you were so happy at his chivalry, he took your hand in his and softly led you towards a set of stairs, to go to the second floor to his place.
He lived alone, you could tell, his house, even if he had new and somehow modern appliances, lacked warmth, lacked pictures hanging from the walls showing stories and happy faces, his open kitchen lacked ingredients and tools to make a home cooked meal. The couch looked cozy but empty, everything did.
âYou brought me to your house?â you asked softly, kind of excited, did he truly wanted to show you the place he lived? That was certainly exciting, wasn't it? something private, and more intimate.
âI wanted to get to know you betterâ he said simply, offering you a seat on his big leather couch, one that you took, âYou want something to drink?â he asked, âI got some⌠beer, and well, water, maybe a coffee?â
âWater is fineâ you said simply, you disliked the taste of beer, you still remembered the bitterness of that sip your dad offered you when you were 15 years old, and never tried it again since.
He brought you a glass, with a beer for himself and he seated in the couch right next to you, you sipped your water, silently thinking about how hungry you were, but it didn't matter, you were with Lee Bodecker by your side, in his house, you should feel fortunate, lucky even.
You couldn't help but wince when you felt his hand, caressing your hair
âYou are so pretty, little girlâ he purred
âYou think so, Sir?â you asked him
âI told you to call me LeeâŚâ he continued, you accomodate to turn to him, more comfortably
âSorry Sir, I mean⌠Leeâ you grumbled, âYou live here alone?â you asked him
âYes sweety, Iâm a big manâ he chuckled
âOh, yes I knowâ you muttered, embarrassed
âAnd you? you live with your pops?â you nodded
âYes, just the two of usâ you sai, smiling shyly
âOh good, you ainât got no siblings?â you shook your head
âDo you?â you asked
âOnly my sister, she is married nowâ he answered simply
âDo you want to get married?â you asked, innocently
âOne day I mightâ he chuckled, his eyes, those beautiful blue eyes burning your face with embarrassment, feeling scrutinized under his gaze, âAnd you? Sweet thing?â
âI would like to get marriedâ you answered sincerely, âAnd have a couple babiesâ
âIs that so?â he purred
He leaned in, and you felt intimidated, but didnât move until he reached you, and covered your mouth with his, you gasped in his mouth, not believing what was happening, the sheriff! your platonic love was kissing you! you dropped the empty glass and it fell on the carpet, whole, so it didnât take importance as he cradled your face, and leaned in so much over you, you got trapped completely between the couch and his big body. You tried to respond to him, but couldn't, he was more experienced than you.
His hands left your face, to fondle with his clothes, you didn't know what he wanted until you heard his belt being opened, the unmistakably metal sound the buckle made at being open made you curious. He left your face then, standing right in front of you, opening his pants, and taking out⌠his⌠You could only gasp at the sight
You had never seen one before, it looked angry, red, his tip shiny since droplets of a white liquid came out of it
âWhat? Are you going shy on me all of a sudden?â he asked, mocking you, he leaned in and grabbed you by the back of your neck, rawin you towards him⌠towards hisâŚ. manhood, you react by placing your hand over his thighs, to try to stop him, you didnât want your face near it, it scare you, so he stopped
âSorryâŚâ you whimpered, âI gotâŚâ he grabbed your hand and made you wrap it around his cock. It was warm, but soft, and incredibly hard. It felt weird in your hand, weird but good, kind of⌠exciting⌠you felt a thrill by holding it, stroking it, putting pressure in your fingers, drawing noises from him you liked
âYou want to go to the main course, sweety pie?â you nodded, not knowing what he ment, but wanting something else, something other than this
This isnât what you imagined a date with the sheriff would be like, but fear took a hold on you, a fear of disappointing him, a feared that crippled you into believe that if you didnât want to go ahead with this he would reject you, and throw you aside
He grabbed and almost threw you over the couch, kneeling in its cushions, you fell over the backrest, grabbing it tightly to keep you grounded, you got scared all of a sudden, not knowing what to do, or what he intended⌠but you discovered it very swiftly when he grabbed the hem of your dress and pushed it up, past your hips, uncovering your behind
âSheriff?â you asked, suddenly scared
âOh, this is what I wanted to see.â Your butt was on display for him, and your cotton white panties you wore that day, and then⌠his hands, grabbing your ass, squishing your cheeks. You heard his growled and you were so stunned you couldn't even move, âThis is what Iâm talking about,â he growled, satisfied, an you jumped on your spot when you felt his chubby fingers moving your underwear aside, to start caressing you in your pussy, rubbing you, splitting your folds open for him.
This couldnât be happening
Were all the horrible things your father told you about boys, were all true? was sex the only thing they looked for? No, no not necessary, perhaps he truly saw you as a woman, and this is what women and men did, right?
Impatiently, he grabbed your panties and dragged them down your legs, taking them out of the way.
âLee⌠SirâŚâ you called, trying to look back at him, but you were interrupted
âIâm getting there sweet girlâ he purred
You felt the tip of his dick searching for your entrance, and you quivered trying to escape his grip but failed, he was stronger and bigger than you, he barely even noticed you had moved. And then⌠you felt him⌠his fat cock finally finding your folds and trying, hardly, to sneak inside your virgin passage, you whimpered, cried but it was smothered by the leatherback of the couch, that silenced your whimpers of pain.
He didnât wait, he wasnât gentle, he slammed into you until he gave you all his length in one hard thrust, burying himself to the hilt inside you. You had never been stabbed but surely it felt like it, it felt like he was stabbing you, it hurt, it burned your insides leaving fire and lava inside your walls
âThis is all you wanted all along, you fucking whoreâ you whimpered at the shameful words, âThrowing yourself all over the sheriff, you shameless slutâ
You wanted to say something, to say no, to tell him that all you wanted was a date, for him to open the door for you and to hold his big hand in yours, and then maybe, just maybe, he would lean in and kiss your cheek at the end of the night when he dropped you safely in the porch of your house. He did kiss your cheek, leaving a trail of drool as he started thrusting roughly into you from behind
âThis is what you wanted wasnât it?â he growled in your ear as he kept pounding into you, âThis sweet pussy is so tightâ you opened your mouth to protest but the only thing that came out of it was a whimper, a pained one, it still burned but your own body helped you, lubricating itself, âMy pussy, right?â he asked, seating himself deeply inside you until you felt his belly over your ass, but he took himself out,almost⌠and then he pushed inside you again, starting a hard sawy that made the couch squeak under you both
It didnât burn anymore but it was far of being pleasurable, until you noticed his hands grabbing your hips more tightly, his grunts and moans more elevated in sound, an you felt it⌠he speared inside you harder this time, and he didn't retreat, he stood there, still inside you, grunting. You felt something warm, and sticky, filling your insides and you just moaned at the unknown feeling, only assuming he had finished
âOh sweetheartâ he growled, satisfied, he pulled himself off of you and you couldnât help but wince at the feeling, âThat was soâŚâ he interrupted himself. You didnât know what happened since you couldnât see him, but what he saw had left him speechless. His dick was stained with your blood.
He looked at you and he felt a tinge of guilt clawing at his chest, you were hugging the back of the couch tightly, and he heard you sob softly, you were in pain. Your gasps and whines werenât signs of pleasure, they were signs of pain and when you reached out behind you to grab him wasnât because you needed to feel him, it was because you wanted him to stop. You were a virgin, it was your first time, and he had been careless and even rough with you
âOh sweety pieâ he said, almost mocking you, âDid I just pop your cherry?â you sniffed, trying to turn around to see him, you wiped your tears with the back of your hand and nodded
âYes Sirâ you whispered, you finally looked at him when you sat on the couch, he saw you flinched when the abused flesh of your ass and your pussy touched the surface of the couch. You finally looked at his face, he was looking at you with adoration, or how he would look at a cute puppy. You tried to breathe, to relax, and when you managed to do just that, you felt the awkwardness, he just stood there, watching you, and you could have done anything to escape his gaze, so thatâs what you were going to do
âI have to goâ you sniffed, trying to stand up from the couch, fixing your underwear, but he stopped you, grabbing your shoulders
âNo sweety pieâ he drawled, âYou are not going anywhereâ
âWhat do you mean Sr?â you asked, suddenly scared of him
âI can't just let you go now, can I?â, his finger trailed your wetted cheeks and down to your jaw, âI just popped your cherry, what kind of man would I be if I just let you go like you were a whore?â
âBut my fatherâŚâ you muttered, scared of what would happen if you didn't come back soon
âIâll deal with your paâ tomorrowâ he leaned in and kissed you again, sloppily, âRight now Iâll teach you how to ride me, to ride a manâ you felt nervousness prickling at your skin, but you let yourself get dragged by him towards his bedroom
You didnât even get to look around since he was over you in a second, devouring your mouth until you couldn't breathe. He was passionate, strong, and you tried to keep up with him but it was so hard he ate you whole, and you let him, going almost limp in his arms
He separated from you, to look at you with his darkened eyes that almost looked black
âLet me help you get this offâ he didnât care about buttons, of delicacy for that matter, he grabbed the hem of the dress and pulled it over you, leaving you in underwear, one that he had spoiled, at least the bottom part. He licked his lips, in a manner that made you feel insecure and unseasy.
He undressed himself, uncovering his pudgy belly, his hairy chest, and finally, he undid his pants, to release his already hard cock, ready for you again
âLook what you provoqueâ he murmured, and you couldnât get your eyes off his dick, âAlready hard, and itâs all for youâ you still feel that stickiness between your folds, but in some weird way, you still wanted to please him, âYou wannaâ ride me? uh?â you just nodded, he smiled, and he proceeded to get rid of the rest of your underwear, leaving you totally naked in front of him, âYou are beautiful, gorgeousâ he purred, his hands tickling you on their way to touch your breasts, feeling them in his bigs hands, squeezing them a little bit, feeling them, only when you moaned softly and your nipples were hard and pebbled, he stopped, smiling widely
âT-thank you sirâ you whimpered, still scared in his hands and under his gaze
He seated on the bed, and still grabbing your hand he made you jump over him, straddling him, your knees on both sides of his thighs, his cock standing proudly. You let yourself be accommodated by him over him, your pussy just over him
âLeeâ you called
âWhat sweet girl?â he asked
âIt hurt the last timeâ
âItâll be better now, I promiseâ and it was, he lowered you, impaling you with his length, and splitting you open once again, but he was right, it didn't burn like the last time, it felt better, you felt places inside of you being caressed by his manhood and you enjoyed it much more.
You rode him alright, he moved your hips, making you go up and down his hard cock, and you couldn'tâ stop the soft moans that came out of your mouth, you did enjoyed it, vey much, also because this time you could see his face, his smile as he looked at you with adoration in his yes, and he stole short lived kisses on your lips and all over your face, making you smile, and enjoy more the moment, since it was more intimate, and he was being more careful.
âYou are a quick learnerâ he praised, âI think I want to keep you sweet girl, would you like that?â
âYes Sir!â you begged, your voice high and pitched by this marvelous climax of sensations he made feel. But he kept controlling your movements untl he cummed inside you again.
He was a rough man, you knew this now, and he not very carefully but with certainly good intentions, helped you get inside the bed, and once you were under the covers, he also joined you, grabbing you and slamming you against his own body, finally feeling his warmth, his nakedness against your, and he held you tightly, searching your face with his to drop kisses all over your face and also some in your lips
âI stand correctedâ he murmured against your lips, âYour pie isnât the sweetest thing iâve tasted, you are, my own cherry pieâ
âYou mean it?â you asked
âHell yes I doâ he responded
The ride home the next morning was awkward and in silence, and as the cruiser left the main road to drive up a secondary gravel avenue, this time, he drove up right into the front of the entrance to the house, no hiding, you looked at him, expecting something, but he only looked at the front of the car as he sighed
âT-thank you sheriffâ you stammered, and before he could say anything, you opened the door and jumped off the cruiser. You tried fixing your dress, but it was fruitless, you could tell you were wearing the exact same clothes you did yesterday
âWhat is the meaning of this?â you tried to hide between your shoulders when your father popped out of your house, he was upset, and mad, as he should be, since you haven't come home since you left last afternoon. You winced when you heard the door of the cruiser opening it up and closing behind you, âSheriffâ your father called, and you knew he was trying to control himself, âWhatâs going on?â you looked over your shoulder to see Lee take his hat off of his head, he shared looks with you fleetingly before returning his full attention to your father. âGet in here, both of you!â he demanded, and he, as you as if he were a teenager, obeyed him
You three seated in the dinner table, and you couldnât stop shaking, your father was ruthless, and he could be very vey mean
âShe spent the night with you?â he asked, and you looked over at Lee, you had seen him with other men that believed were over his head, but no one was, he put them in their place swiftly and unmistakingly
âYes Sirâ he answered back
âI told youâ he yelled at you, âI didnât want you anywhere near himâ
âI like himâ you mumbled, and he just chuckled, in a mean, shivering making way
âAnd I told you he was only after what old man want with young pretty ladies such as yourselfâ he answered
âSir, thatâs notâŚâ he tried to reply
âOh so you expect me to believe he spent all night with you doing what? playing chess?â
âDad⌠Iâm sorryâ
âYou are a whore!â
âSirâ Lee called, strongly, made you wince, the thickness of the air was unbearable, the tension between them both, and between you, âI care about your daughterâ he responded, and you looked at him, surprised. One of his thick arms surrounded your shoulders
âWell, if you care about her so much, you can take her with you!â your father growled and thatâs when bitter tears fell down your eyes, âI donât want this whore in my houseâ you couldnât help your sob, the rejection of your own father burning inside your chest
âShe ain't no whore, Sirâ Lee growled, his arm tightening around your shoulders, letting you breathe more freely, feeling protected, âShe is a sweet girlâ
âThen take her, she is all yoursâ he said, slapping the table as he rose up on his feet, âI donât want âer, I have no use for a shameless slut here in my house,â new and fat tears fell from your eyes, âTrying to raise you good for you to only open your legs for the first bastard that looks at you funnyâ
âDadâ you managed to cry, âPlease!â you looked at him but you were only met with disgust and disappointing
âGet your shit, and get out of my houseâ
With trembling hands and legs you stood up from the table, and grabbed some garbage bags that were located under the sink, and you went towards the stairs slowly, taking everything in, you stumbled upon the first steps but Lee was right behind you, placing one of his big hands on your lower back to help you keep your balance and give you the strength to go up the stairs towards your room
He stood silently by the door of your room as he watched you carefully grab your clothes from the closet and throw them inside the black bag, also a couple of shoes, and when you made sure you had everything that fitted you, you grabbed some personal items of yours to take.
It was kind of sad to fit all your life in two medium size trash bags.
And there was Lee again, to lean in and grab the bags from your hand. You looked into his face to see if you sensed something, anything, really, like annoyance, and sadness, but all you saw was a calculating frowned face
âIâm sorry for all this sweety pie,â he mumbled under his breath. You couldnât even talk, so you just shook your head and muster all your strength to only say a meek denial of âthis isnât your faultâ kind of gibberish
But panic started to take a grip on your quivering body when he slammed the door of his cruiser shut. Everything started to sink into your little head
Lee was going to leave you too, you barely knew each other, he didnât love you, he wasnât going to walk to your house and ask your father for your hand in marriage and then respect you until you wedding night after you walk down the aisle wearing white, you jumped ahead of all that and now he was going to kick you off as well, like your father just did
Nobody wanted you
He got inside the cruiser that moved under his weight, the leather making some squeaky noises when he accommodated himself. He didnât say anything as he took off his hat and threw it in the back seat, he grumbled under his breath while he put the keys into the ignition and and put on his seatbelt
âPlease Sirâ you whimpered, you saw in the corner of your eye Lee stopping his movements to look directly at you, âI donât have anywhere else to goâ you cried, âI can clean, and cook for youâ you finally looked at him and he was surprised at your sudden outburst, looking at you with those blue eyes opened in surprise, âI wonât bother you at all Sir, please, don't leave me, donât throw me into the streetsâ you begged.
âOh my sweet cherry pieâ he whispered softly, his hand cradling your cheek, âAinât ever letting you goâ he said, leaning into you until his forehead was against yours, âAre you going to be my pretty little housewife?â
âYou mean it Sir?â you asked. Your chest burned with relief, love and adoration
âIâm gonna wife yaâ sweet girlâ he confirmed, his eyes on yours, âWould you like that? to be the wife of this fat olâ bastard?â
âYes Sirâ you said firmly and happily
âAinât that right sweet girl?â then you saw in his eyes something different, something warm and sweet, âYes Sir?â he repeated, âArenât you just an obedient little thing?â you just nodded, relieved and happy
âYes, Thank you Sirâ one of his thick arms surrounded you and eliminated the distance between your bodies, nesting you against his chest
âAre you going to cook for me?â
âYesâ you answered swettly and without hesitation
âClean our house?â you just nodded against him, âWait for me when I got home from work?â he asked, hopefully
âYes Sirâ you said happily
âAre you gonnaâ give me some pretty babies?â he purred, without leaving your touch, you just stayed there, cuddled into his warm and pudgy body
âWould you like that?â you asked, excited
âOh yeah sweet girlâ he purred over your head, âI wanâ at least 4â you shrieked out of pure excitement, âAll girls as sweet as their motherâ
The moment he realised he had âpopped your cherryâ is the minute he truly felt like the most lucky bastard that had stepped on this earth
He thought you were just a little whore, playing it nice with the sheriff to save yourself some trouble, that your heated cheeks, your naive looks, and childish demeanor were only a ruse. Oh he never felt happier of being wrong.
You truly were innocent, you truly had a childish crush on him, and you truly wanted him
You were such a sweet little thing, so innocent and ready to please
âGrief, Iâve learned, is really love. Itâs all the love you want to give but cannot give. The more you loved someone, the more you grieve. All of that unspent love gathers up in the corners of your eyes and in that part of your chest that gets empty and hollow feeling. The happiness of love turns to sadness when unspent. Grief is just love with no place to go.â
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Fuck, this reminds me of this good post I saw on I believe Twitter. Canât find it and even so Iâd rather not repost it if it can be helped but it was basically some dude crawling into bed w/ his girlfriend/wife and he was clearly upset and she offers him sex to make him feel better but he declines so instead she cuddles him and he starts crying and says thank you. Super cute and sweet.
Also kill the idea that physical affection with men has to lead to sex. And kill the idea that you have to be in a relationship with said man to give him physical affection, even if it is just hugs.
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iâm concerned about boys with mental illnesses and eating disorders and abusive relationships and sexual assault survivor stories and self-harming tendencies who never get the attention or care or help they need because all of those things âdonât happen to menâ or because âall men are horrible monstersâ and i just wanna say if youâre a boy and youâre struggling with something hard, your gender doesnât diminish or dismiss your struggles or make them any less significant or difficult and i love you and iâm here for you
executive dysfunction be like *wants to do something* *doesnt do it* *feels bad* *wants to do something* *doesnt do it* *feels bad* *wants to do something* *doesnt do it* *feels ba
I recently learnt that executive dysfunction can be broken down into two main categories: anxiety that your attempt won't be satisfactory, or confusion about where to start or how to break it down into steps. As much as we feel bad about it, it's extremely important to remember that it is NOT laziness and we in fact shouldn't feel bad.
If someone tells you they have run all their dynamics with the same rules, or in any other way expresses that their way of being a dom does not change when their partner changes, thatâs a red flag. Someone who thinks this is appropriate will not value you as an individual, or ever see you as something other than their current âgeneric subâ. People who cop to running all their subs the same way should be further examined for mysogynistic and narcissistic tendencies.
HUGE RED FLAG! Each and every person has different needs. We are ALL different. Submissives ARE NOT ROBOTS! A Dom that says this first of all doesnât give a FUCK about the submissives needs and that is the FIRST THING they should care about. When you encounter a Dom like this RUN. He will have a LONG list of rules that are not custom tailored to you and what you need. Remember you are a person with needs and wants. We all fit into a different BOX and cannot be forced to fit into another âmouldâ.
unrelated to last post but topical: as the child of lawyers, I got one thing drilled into me from age 10: donât fucken talk to cops. never talk to cops.
Donât talk to cops about insignificant things, itâs a trick to get you into a talking-mode to gradually work to more sensitive questions.
Donât talk to workers inside a police station (medics, cleaners, people bringing bitter cold coffee), assume theyâre all cops.
If you absolutely must talk to a medic, deliver your essential medical information to them in one sentence and go back to âno commentâ after that. Do not get in a conversation.
Donât accept a lawyer offered by the cops or a lawyer you donât know. ONLY take the lawyer provided by the activist organization youâre part of and ask to see their ID. Do not believe people who claim they represent the same firm. If in doubt, keep your mouth shut.Â
I've been detained. I've been arrested. I know the instinct when you're around other human beings is to try to relate to them on a human level. I get it, being detained is scary, you're in cuffs, maybe you're in the back of a squad car, or in a van in the event of mass arrest. The first thing you're going to want to do is just... Talk to someone. Anyone. To remember that we're all human here, or to try to win them over.
Don't. Cops aren't people. They aren't your friends, and they aren't there to protect you. They're the bloodhounds of the state. Every comment is a hint, every question has ulterior motives, and they are just trying to pump your for information.
The coffee is a trick, your one call is monitored, they are not your fucking friends. You're an enemy combatant and every single interaction you have with them is a component of an interrogation. Close your mouth, ask for legal counsel, and always remember, cops aren't just allowed to lie to you, it's one of their favorite things to do.
you cannot win a cop over. you cannot befriend a cop. a cop does not see you as a person, they see you as a perpetrator - you should view them the same.
Also be careful about anyone in the same arrest van / cell as you because
- cops are known to put undercovers in cells to interrogate the arrested
- everything is monitored all the time
Comfort and support your comrades, but do not share personal details or discuss anything that could be used against you.
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Better questionâŚwhy does it matter? Why does it matter if sheâs worked in porn? Does having sex with a camera on suddenly render you unable to function as a human being? This makes zero sense. âHey there is someone who makes money while having sex! Get a real job!â *gets a ârealâ job* âYouâve worked in porn! You canât work this job anymore!â Sheâs a fast food worker, what threat does her work history pose here?
Itâs not about a threat posed by someoneâs work history, itâs about performative morality and the fucked-up idea a lot of people have that, if they donât express public disapproval for someone elseâs choices, itâs somehow morally equal to approving of those choices. Itâs about punishing another person for making choices someone else finds objectionable.