i am not normal 😀

About a week ago I posted this.

I’ve been getting horrible messages like this in my ask for months, including:

and my personal favorite

After getting the message saying “Just go kill yourself” I was completely done dealing with this person’s horrible messages and replied with just an “Okay.” and logged off tumblr.

About a week later I logged back on with 17 messages in my ask, most of them from the anon. I scrolled down and at first when I logged off, the anon messaged me things like

I scrolled up more and all of a sudden they started sending me more and more messages like

This was extremely surprising to me. I thought “After all those horrible messages you sent to me for MONTHS about hating me and wanting me dead, you say ‘sorry’ and that you ‘cant be responsible for someone’s suicide’?”

But I guess the lesson goes like this:

Like it’s actually insane

ANYWYAY

Protect the lives of those around you. Protect the lives of the people you see online.

Dont be a fucking douche canoe.

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yeah that's right, ROCKY is the #1 simon apologist. bet you didn't see that coming. ok nvm you probably did, but yeah whatever. we'll get more into it in the next pages

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Simon's lying btw, he loves them

I've already made a post about head engineer Mark and Simon being twins but I shoved Wilford in there too this time. Mostly because I've been watching Wilford videos. Also because I just think he's neat.

Grace died a couple months after getting to Erid because his body kept rejecting food after being malnourished for so long that he “haunts” the biodome.

Perhaps an Eridian has some type of sixth sense or mutation that allows them to sense spirits through subtle vibrations and it deeply unsettles the ones that can sense them.

If we go Bloodymary, Simon shows up on Erid because of the God. Grace can also dreamwalk once Simon is on Erid and since Simon has nightmares so often, Grace can help make the nightmares more bearable by being there. Simon has no clue who this strange, blond man in his nightmares is, but he’s not complaining too much since the nightmares seem to be less nightmare with him there.

If we wanna go Angel Grace as well then the Ignorant God from Iron Lung somehow finds Grace in the PHM universe and is like, “huh? He seems kinda cool and nice. Would be a shame if he fucken died before I get the fucked up Convict to him.” A couple days after it found him, Grace fucken dies from something and the God is just like, “are you fucking kidding me right now?! I just found this asshole!” or something like that. It ends up bringing Ghost Grace to the place Simon was when he first saw the God and asks if he wants another chance at life or something. He would come back different and it would be painful as fuck (because wings growing out of your back would have to be painful!). Grace is confused, a bit scared, but also extremely curious as to why a giant eye is talking to him while he stands ankle deep in blood. He asks what the changes would be exactly and the God is just like, “idk. Could become and angel type thing or turn out really fucked up.” Grace takes a deep breath and thanks for a good few minutes then agrees. He wants this chance to see Rocky, his best friend again.

Grace is sent back to Erid, still a spirit, but can actually do a bit more than he could. He can be corporeal now but not for long and he doesn’t realize when he is! He can also hear the God when it wants to talk to him and he can sometimes start the conversation himself! 

After dreamwalking in Simon’s dreams for a few months, they kinda got to know each other, but Simon wasn’t sure if it was the eel making this dream man up or if the man was something he made up himself. He kinda wishes he knew why Grace is in his nightmares as often as he is. He asks Rocky who the fuck the man in his dreams is and Rocky shows him a little memorial thing the Eridians made for Grace after he died. Simon would wake up, do some gardening (they would have a greenhouse), and whatever else, and just randomly see Grace on the beach sometimes. Simon thinks he’s going a little insane (he’s not) and tries to not look at the beach much. This is also around the time when Grace’s angel wings start to grow so he is starting to hurt. Grace stops dreamwalking for a while because the pain is just too much at times. It takes about 2 months for the wings to be done growing out of his back and to full size, but the feathers still need to grow in (the feathers do not hurt to grow, but they make him itchy and his back a bit more sensitive). Simon’s nightmares didn’t get as bad as they were, but they did start sucking again after Grace took a break from dreamwalking.

Grace did start dreamwalking again after the pain finally subsided and Simon was just a little shidded to see that Grace had Angel wings now because what do you mean this man just grew wings?! Was he always an actual angel or is this new?! Simon is immediately more aware of what he says to and around Grace due to the angel thing.

The God that made Grace an angel yoinks him to the one place they first met and tells him that he will slowly have a physical body again. Grace is reasonably confused because what do you mean he’s gonna have a physical body again? The God doesn’t say anything else and sends Grace back. The blood that he was standing in clung to his shoes so he took them and his socks off so he wasn’t uncomfortable (this is the first time the blood actually sticks to his clothing in some way).

It was still daytime in the biodome so Grace walked on the beach, checked out the greenhouse, went to the classroom he taught at for a month before things got really bad for him, and then laid on the floor of what is now Simon’s house. That took him most of the day so he just closed his eyes and dozed off.

Grace doesn’t know how long he was asleep for, but when he woke up Simon was hovering over him. Grace wasn’t expecting that. Simon was looking directly into his eyes and it was unsettling to say the least and when Simon goes to poke at Grace like a bug, Grace does not expect himself to actually be corporeal. He didn’t actually know he could be corporeal. 

I wanna give Angel Grace a halo with a bunch of eyes and he gets migraines because there are so many eyes he can see out of. He eventually learns how to close the halo eyes so the migraines aren’t nearly as frequent or bad, but they still happen.

Simon's mutations are most likely going to be large amounts of coral sticking through is body.

I wanna thank all the people that have given me ideas in the Aroace Bloodymary Discord! Thank you all so much for supporting me in this. I love you all!

Bloodymary fantasy au someone?

I feel like I can create a whole comic about them omg beware

Had to update my Simon design before we get deeper into the reverse AU stuff. Reverse AU Simon you mean so much to me 😭

TATTOO TOUR!!!

-bad stick and poke tattoos from his teenage incarnation days

-BIG old tree on the back of his neck to cover his cult brand after he was released in his mid 20s.

-Ephesians 1:7 after he healed the worst of his religious trauma and found new comfort in the idea of god (he’s agnostic) this is the verse: “In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of our trespasses, according to the riches of his grace”

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-The old scars are from cult punishments (only the deepest ones are still visible)

-His nose scar is the most recent he got it in the explosion just before being sent off on the Hail Mary.