Pronouns: he/him, Er/Ihn (yes i know that's he/him in german, i like being called that though, so you can use them when talking to me in english too) and anything but she/her and they/them (basically neopronouns, it/its, those cool pronouns that count as neopronouns but their like star/starself)
I am a member of the lgbtq+, I have multiple neurological disability's/I am neurodivergent, I’m mentally ill (working on what i can, but some of the mental illnesses wont go away, and some of them are “scary” mental illnesses that can cause me to seem kinda unhinged at times), and I’m Jewish (not a zionist, if you accuse me of being on simply because I’m Jewish your getting blocked)
I am a communist (technically an anarcho-syndicalist but most people don’t know what that is so I call myself communist), so if for some reason you don't like that, dni
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I speak English and some German and I'm trying to learn Irish Gaelic and I’m eventually gonna try to learn Korean!!
If I say something that might be insensitive, please tell me kindly! It was probably a mistake and I don’t want anyone to be uncomfortable! I have autism and NPD so I can say stuff that I think is fine but it might not be and if I do hold me accountable!!
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and to the children in the notes saying we need this fucking baby talk to get around censorship online; there's been no credible evidence that any site other that YouTube (which will only demonetize your video, ftr) will actually censor or hide content that include words like rape, pedophile, gun, terrorist, etc. etc. and even if we take as a given they were (which, again, they are not), do not fucking comply in advance, you absolute fucking coward. and ESPECIALLY do not comply by altering your real life fucking vocabulary. don't let the technocrats dictate what words you say holy fucking shit dude!!!!!!!!!!!!
I love writing Wesker with a little touch of what he seems to hate so much... humanity.
The one core aspect of his persona is that he was manufactured - abused - created.
The Executive Training School intended to produce sets of controllable psycho-sociopaths - a class worth. Human beings, more complex than tools, rarely turn out how they are meant to - neither Birkin nor Wesker were controllable.
Lisa Trevor was a threat and an intimidation tactic as much as she was an experiment - "this will be you if you don't do what we say", essentially.
Wesker, Birkin, and Alexia were all groomed (literal) under the Doctrine, meant to take over in Spencer's stead when he passed (and meant to fight for the position).
Birkin's hate for Alexia was an intentional machination of Spencer. Wesker was intended to experience it towards Birkin eventually, but ultimately did not.
There is only so much death you can voyeur - unwillingly, willingly, it doesn't change the outcome - until you are no longer empathetic to it.
He's a victim of an insurmountable magnitude of intentional happenings whose scale approaches the Truman trope.
His natural, base inclination is not violence.
Birkin had a much higher kill count than he did in the beginning of his arduous and terrible journey, one that they had both started with the desire for a positive change even after they grew up watching their peers picked off like carrion by Marcus.
Wesker's comment to Birkin after the murder of Marcus is that he does not feel anything - good or bad - and that Marcus was "just another monster".
In RE4, he is more than willing to let people solve his own problems without directly, violently interfering to reach his goals. Only when they require violence does he portray it - his first suggestions aren't needlessly cruel ("ring the church bell", "take advantage of the distraction [Leon] is causing", "use [Leon] to clean up Saddler").
When Wesker initially became suspicious of the Arklays, and he looked upon what he perceived was Spencer's goal, he found the idea of it completely revolting even at its' smallest scale. But he could not flee.
The Arklays were meant to produce a viable strain that Spencer could then himself perfect after shedding the Arklays as a testing ground; it was intentionally set up for the event of Raccoon City to occur, but it was not intended for it to occur at the time that it did.
Spencer admits that he - and Project W as a whole - were raised intentionally to produce tools who would become eugenicists in a similar fashion.
Eventually that bitter lie becomes so numb to Wesker's tongue that it begins to taste sweet. "A lie repeated twice is truth" is a known and very evil propaganda tactic employed by cults and fascists - it is called the 'illusion of truth' in psychology, the curse of familiarity.
He was not born evil, and he's a broken dichotomy of a person who is fundamentally incompatible with life.
two recent comics; an au where wesker saves birkin via an over the top action sequence like their kids have, and some more bb sherry and wesker bc I enjoy them :`)
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i think i don't really vibe with most other fans of my favorite male characters is because they usually depict them too much of a man, and i am not interested in men, i am interested in The Character. and i am not saying that they should depict them as women, or nonbinary, or should depict them as feminine, no, not at all. but there's like, you know, you can depict a male character as The Character, and you can depict them as The Man. do you get me? like, i go to the fandom looking for art and fics, and it's just, regardless of his actual characterization, it's all just fantasizing about some kind of an abstract dominant patriarch, wearing my favorite character's face. it may be the most totally-wouldnt-have-normal-relationships (and sometimes even would-literally-abuse-you) kind of guy, and you join a dedicated space for his fans, and all they talk about is how they want to marry and start a tradcore 50s style nuclear family with him. it can be a guy who's arrogance and attempts of domination are explicitly shown to be a facade that hide the fact that he's actually kind of a massive pathetic wet loser, and you go to his fics, and they're all depicting him as a caricaturish daddy dom. at this point it's like, do you even like the character at all, or do you just like The Man, and project this man onto whatever character you find visually attractive? and these people kind of, really really poison actual discussion of the character, who is kind of a fucked up evil person (i only like *those* types, so im talking about them) because they see analysis of the actual character as an attack on their fantasized daddy dom husband, who is actually isn't The Character at all, and is simply a face of the day for The Man
Thinking about the implications that Albert did not want to kill S.T.A.R.S.
The only member he killed with his own two hands was Enrico, and judging by his situation when Jill and Chris confront him, he seems to be injured and very well could have been infected from the creatures roaming the NEST facility. Which could be presumed to be a mercy kill covered up with the perception of being to hide his secrets. But that still wouldn't make sense when he planned to reveal them anyway.
Wesker received orders from Umbrella to dispose of S.T.A.R.S. They were his pride and joy. He called them his pet project, yet his residential quarters in the Spencer Mansion is COVERED in numerous articles and newspaper clippings of their accomplishments and exploits. It would be one thing if this were something in his private office, but why keep them in his Umbrella residence? Especially in such a public seating area where other scientists visiting his research area would see them. He was proud of his teams and their accomplishments. He was showing off their notoriety.
He had their affection. Their loyalty. Their love and respect. All of S.T.A.R.S. trusted him. He was proud of them. They were HIS. His accomplishment that was solely his and his alone. Not Umbrella's. Nobody else could take credit for it. Not Spencer. Not Umbrella. This was all his hard work and training put into a team that functioned efficiently and effectively. Sure Alpha was his favorite by far because it was his specifically, but Bravo was quite impressive in their own right as well.
The orders for him to get rid of S.T.A.R.S. and collect the combat data against the Bioweapons in the Spencer Mansion came a week before the U.B.C.S. recruits would begin their own training. Training that would have relied on the specialized skill set and curated techniques of an elite fighting force such as S.T.A.R.S. and the accumulated combat data from fighting various different Bioweapons. Many of which the U.B.C.S. is being trained to deal with.
If Albert Wesker had succeeded in getting rid of S.T.A.R.S. and followed his orders like the loyal drone Spencer expected of him, the U.B.C.S would have thrived under his tutelage and strategic intellect, and would have been far better prepared for an event such as Raccoon City.
Yet Albert failed.
He failed because he couldn't bring himself to harm his own team. Albert is an impressive marksman as showcased in the very beginning of RE1 when he snipes a Cerberus out of the air with a handgun in the dark dense forest to save Chris.
But every single time he attempts to "take out" one of his own team (excluding Enrico which was an impressive shot much like the Cerberus), he 'misses' any vital spots or can't bring himself to pull the trigger at all.
He aims at Rebecca and hits her bulletproof vest dead center instead knowing the shock and impact would be enough to knock her out for the short time he'd need to confront Chris privately. He doesn't pull the trigger on Chris. He can't bring himself to harm Jill or Barry, both of which would have been very easy for him to do.
Albert pretends to be condescending. He tries to downplay their skills and abilities but Albert knows the true value of his team. He has stacks upon stacks of articles detailing their real value that he has kept like personal trophies. Every single one of his team was a valuable asset and he curated their strengths to make Alpha team (and Bravo team) a formidable force in its own right.
Had both teams been aware of what they were walking into ahead of time they may have survived with far better odds, but at the end of the day only 6 members were lost. That's a 50% casualty rate. In a situation with no preparation or knowledge shared ahead of time. They went above and beyond, just as they always did.
He could have returned to finish the job after faking his death. He could have hunted down Barry and his family, taken care of Rebecca, ended Brad, and assassinated Jill. He could have finished the job many times over, and he kept a very close eye on all of them, Chris especially, but Albert never wanted to. He watched from a distance. He kept surveillance on them all. He observed and he continued to be proud. Chris did what Umbrella never could succeed in doing with the U.B.C.S, and that was building the BSAA.
His team strived, thrived and overcame every obstacle, and found success where Umbrella only ever found failure. Albert could never bring himself to kill them, because they became the one creation he nurtured solely as his own, that far exceeded anything Spencer could have come up with, and they made it their personal goal to destroy the same people who ruined Albert's entire life. Whether they knew it or not.
His team unknowingly, and indirectly, avenged him.
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there are fanfic writers who are: "I want to write about this prompt but other people have already done it before, unfortunately. I would have loved to write it 😢"
and then there's me who unapologetically writes about the same prompt, same trope (that has absolutely been written by other people before), same ship — in slightly different ways, at least 200 times in across 200 different fics of mine.
two recent comics; an au where wesker saves birkin via an over the top action sequence like their kids have, and some more bb sherry and wesker bc I enjoy them :`)
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Also Wesker and Birkin edits from like almost 2 years ago. The bingus one is my all time favourite, and one of the reasons I call William Birkin "Billy Binky".