Chapter 4 Part 2.... I gave birth to my second baby boy. He was amazing. My family felt complete. But the trauma from a man who hated me began. His father demanded he wasn’t his because I supposedly cheated on him with a black man... this is far from the truth as my son came out to be clearly white. He disappeared. He was out of our lives and I was okay with that. I raised my 3 beautiful children on my own. And then he decided the stalking and harassment would begin.... intimidation was his tactic and it worked. He didn’t care about our child. He cared about not being able to control me. He cared about scaring me and trying to hurt me. It was a constant battle. Constantly knowing someone was watching me. Constantly judging and trying to control my every move. A protection order did nothing. He violated it by sitting outside my house. Or down the road. The cops didn’t care. I was told until he was physically on my property they would do nothing for me. I felt lost, scared, and defeated. No one would help me from a man who only cared about control. No one deserves to live this way. So once again I made a choice. I chose to move my family out of that city and get away where we could be free. And it worked. We were finally free. We started over away from everyone we knew. We loved it. We were happy. We were no longer scared. We felt as if we could fly high and spread our wings. But that feeling didn’t last long.... the trauma continues and this time even worse then ever before.
