#next chapter

starting over hurts mostly because you probably didn’t ask for it

but you can miss what almost worked and resent the reset besides

look at you, alive and kicking in this plot twist you didn't audition for

Everyone has their vices, right?

I don't need sleep, I need answers. Just one more chapter.

My dear ones, even if a little later than planned, here I am with the collective reading I promised. For this reading I used my beloved cat tarot deck inspired by the famous Rider Waite Smith tarots th the Loputyn’s Oracle. This reading focuses on the next chapter awaiting us, that’s resonates beautifully with the arrival of spring, but it can meet you at any point along your path, so it’s open to anyone and at any time. One of the main themes the cards brought forward is transformation, although each pile carries its own nuances and pieces of advice. For the images I chose three paintings that I love very much, and at the end of the reading you will find links where you can see the artworks in their entirety.

Take a moment to breathe and choose the image that instinctively calls to you. Try not to overthink it. Follow your intuition! Since this is a collective reading, it may not resonate with everyone, so simply take what feels meaningful to you and leave the rest behind.

Thank you, and I hope you enjoy this p.a.p.!

Noor~🪻

Pile 1

Vulnerability; Death of the Ego; Four of Pentacles reversed; Eight of Wands upright; Ten of Wands reversed; Eight of Cups; Three of Wands.

Precious Pile 1, your cards show how dedicated you are to your work. You likely hold yourselves to very high standards and may even slip into a kind of perfectionism that ends up slowing you down. Yet when you suspend judgment and allow knowledge, study, and the desire to understand more deeply to guide the way you look at yourselves, you begin to question the structures of the ego that have been built over time. Often, part of what we believe we are comes from distorted information, from the expectations of others, or from judgments we have absorbed without even noticing. Reflecting on this can help you deconstruct a sense of self that has become rigid and that may be quietly leading you away from what you truly wish to become. It’s exactly in this moment that something you have been holding onto for a long time begins to surface. Perhaps out of fear of losing stability, perhaps out of a need for control, you have clung to situations, roles, or images of yourselves that have gradually become heavy to carry. This new phase seems to begin right here, in the act of letting go. It’s not a loss, but the space appears when you stop gripping so tightly to something that no longer belongs to you. Accepting this step also means recognizing the value of vulnerability. Leaving a battle without wounds does not mean you are stronger. In fact, it can create a distorted image of strength. Wounds, emotions, and sensitivity are part of growth. Sensitivity is not a flaw, but a gift. It allows you to perceive what is happening both within and around you, deepening your understanding of your own emotions and those of the people you love. As you begin to open your hands and accept this more authentic part of yourselves, something will shift in the movement of your life as well. A more powerful energy seems to enter the scene, and what once felt stuck begins to accelerate. Communications, sudden developments, decisions taking shape more quickly than expected. It’s as if something that had been suspended finally finds a clear direction. The flow begins again, and you are asked to move with it rather than resist it. In this process, a real sense of relief also emerges. A burden you have been carrying starts to lighten. You are no longer meant to hold everything on your own. There is relief here, but also maturity. Part of that maturity shows itself in your ability to step away from what no longer nourishes you emotionally. This is not an impulsive escape, but a conscious choice. You have already given enough and learned what needed to be learned. Now you are moving toward something that resonates more deeply with who you are becoming. Stop defending a constructed image of yourselves and allow your sensitivity to exist without shame.

If this is your pile, ask yourselves: what might happen if you stopped holding so tightly to what you fear leaving behind, and allowed change to carry you exactly where you need to go?

The painting: Corteo delle principesse (Parade of princesses) by Vittorio Zecchin, 1914

Pile 2

Prosperity; Transmutation; Escape from oneself; Joy; Compromise; Five of Wands reversed; Justice reversed; Judgment upright; The Emperor reversed.

My kind Pile 2, the cards in your spread appeared to me like chapters of a small inner journey. You are going through a phase of deep transformation. This change is happening from within, almost as if a part of you, like a snake shedding their skin. At first, this process can feel disorienting and people around you may sense that something is different, and you yourselves might not fully recognize the person you used to be. But this is not a sterile kind of confusion. It’s the sign that you are making space for a more authentic version of yourselves. With this transition, appears the theme of running away from yourselves. I also sense a strong connection with the concept of power, or with figures of authority in your life. You may be emerging from a period marked by tension, competition, or constant comparison, finally realizing that you no longer need to prove anything. Instead, this is a moment to choose peace, even if that means stepping back or changing your perspective. The conflict that has colored your recent experiences may have grown from something that felt unfair. Perhaps you felt that you gave more than you received, or that you were judged too harshly. Now the question arises: are you truly listening to your inner truth, or are you still seeking validation from the outside world? Some beliefs, perhaps shaped by your upbringing or by limiting thoughts absorbed along the way, may have built small inner cages over time. Now you feel the urge to break them and walk a freer path. Yet it’s important to remain honest with yourselves, because change should not become an excuse to avoid what frightens you. Growth happens when we face what challenges us, not when we find ways to bypass it. Along this path, however, there will not only be trials. There is also a lightness appearing, a reminder that life still holds space for laughter, irony, and for those moments when you allow yourselves not to take everything so seriously. This energy helps you avoid becoming trapped in heavy reflections, allowing you instead to glide over certain difficulties with grace. With time, you may also learn the value of compromise. Not as a form of surrender, but as a balance that is sometimes necessary. The ability to stand in the middle, to accept what is without fighting every battle, to breathe, slow down, and let some tensions pass like clouds across the sky. When this balance begins to settle, a form of prosperity may emerge. Not only material prosperity, but emotional and personal fulfillment as well. What you have built with dedication may finally become something you can recognize, protect, and share with those close to you. Remember that true balance comes from within. And the cards suggest that you are approaching this realization, because they speak of a calling and a moment of sudden awareness. You may come to understand something that you will no longer be able to ignore.

If this is your pile, ask yourselves: why are you searching for justice outside, when the real decision belongs to you? The painting: Sirena (Siren) by Giulio Aristide Sartorio, 1893

Pile 3

Admonition; Unconditional love; Surprise; Sacrifice; Queen of Pentacles reversed; Eight of Cups reversed; The Sun upright; Ace of Swords reversed; Page of Swords reversed; Ten of Pentacles reversed.

Oh, sweet, sweet Pile 3! Your cards show that you are moving through a period of change. The cards want to remind you that when you are learning something new about yourselves, it’s completely normal to feel uncertain. These new inner tools are in your hands like objects you have just discovered. At first, it is not always easy to know how to use them with precision. For this reason, try to be gentle with yourselves. Making mistakes is not proof of incapacity; it is part of the learning process. Every mistake is only a draft, not the final version of who you are becoming. Love yourselves unconditionally, because accepting your opposites means allowing them to coexist instead of constantly fighting them. I sense a lot of energy being scattered through inner dialogue and thoughts that are not always kind toward yourselves. Yet awareness will arrive like a warm ray of light. The invitation here is to return to self care. You may have given a great deal to others, to projects, and to responsibilities, while forgetting to nourish yourselves with the same attention. This new phase asks you to place yourselves back at the center in a practical and grounded way. There also seems to be something, or someone, that is very difficult for you to step away from. Because of habit, fear, or emotional attachment, you may still be staying in a situation that has not been aligned with you for some time. There is hesitation here. You are no longer the same person you once were, yet a part of you may not feel ready to fully turn the page. The spread also speaks about the arrival of a surprise, something unexpected that disrupts your routine. At first it may feel destabilizing, but it does not necessarily represent an obstacle. Instead, it may allow you to do something different from your usual patterns and discover aspects of yourselves that you had not yet explored. Flexibility becomes the key that transforms the unexpected into opportunity. Another theme that appears is sacrifice, that doesn’t speak of sterile loss, but of conscious choice. Every meaningful goal requires leaving something behind: habits, fears, old securities, or pieces of the past that are no longer useful. The real question is not what you must lose, but what is truly worth protecting and nurturing. When you understand what truly matters, sacrifice no longer feels like deprivation, but becomes an act of clarity. There is also an energy of bright renewal here. Joy, truth, and illumination begin to shine over what once felt confused, but this light requires honesty. Communication may still feel blocked or restrained. You might be holding back words, or experiencing mental confusion. Be mindful not to fall into self sabotage or repetitive thought patterns. The clarity is already present, but it needs to be integrated. It is not enough to sense the truth; it must also be lived and expressed. You are on the verge of releasing a mental and emotional weight that has accompanied you for a long time. First you will recognize where you have been neglecting yourselves, and then you will illuminate the situation with truth and awareness.

If this is your pile, ask yourselves: what would change if I chose my happiness without guilt?

The painting: Refugium Peccatorum by Luigi Nono, 1880

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