hi

[no beers in] do you think im ever going to belong somewhere

knowing how it tends to go with male authors and their wives it was probably marge who wrote the odyssey

thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

reverse gaslighting where i pretend to know exactly what you are talking about

Rewatched x-men (2000) and can I just say magneto's plan (turning all those politicians into mutants) was objectively hilarious. Like can you imagine. Somebody's firing the transgenderization beam into congress

The only reason he was the bad guy in that one was cuz he didn't do rigorous scientific testing to make sure it would just mutate them and not goo-pile them.

Well what's a little liquified senator between friends

Very stupid that I can't take the muscles out of my neck & upper back & beat them with a meat tenderizer. I think that would fix me