put the blinds down.

🙋🏼‍♀️The quick rundown: I’m Sisi, 28, she/her (cis female). I’m queer, autistic, an ADHD haver, trauma survivor, chronic illness haver, and a mental illness pusher througher. I recently relocated to Colorado after living much of my life in Idaho.

🚫DNI: Minors, Trump supporters, ICE supporters, homophobic, transphobic, racist, any general DNI criteria. My block finger is very itchy and I'm not afraid to protect my space the way(s) I see fit. Blank blogs and blogs with no age will also be blocked if I see them.

🍓How I got here: When I was little, I was eating at the mall food court with my family and I saw the (at the time) biggest guy I’ve ever seen. I couldn’t take my eyes off of him, my mom noticed, and told me it was rude to stare. I’ve since been able to tell her that I wasn’t staring to be rude, but that I found it extremely attractive before I even knew was attraction was. I’m NOT a gainer, foodee, or feedee. I’m strictly an FFA, feeder, and encourager, and not interested in gaining.

🌲Anything personal to share? I love writing, art, Jesus (I’m not weird about it, I promise), music, sports, collecting journals, tea, autumn, blankets, ballet/dance, yoga/pilates, whimsy girlhood, garden salsa sun chips, orange drinks, and water in strawberry cups. I have mental health issues that manifest in the forms of depression, anxiety, and suicidal ideation. I've been in a 10+ year long struggle with an eating disorder and need reminders to eat very often. I'm very susceptible to headaches and migraines and am also chronically ill. I'm the "notorious" law school dropout and I'm currently going to school to be a children's therapist.

🧡Love life? I really love to yap about my partner, my boyfriend, the person who makes my soul feel like walking on air, so that’ll probably be seen once in awhile (and if you’re friends with me and have my burner account then you’ll know this for sure). He’s the best and he makes my heart happy and he weighs over 600 pounds and is my favorite person in the world actually! :)

🪴What am I into? I’m pretty exclusively into soft feedism and I’ve never been interested in anything forceful (force feeding is an automatic no for me at first, but if someone was into it then I would do it). I’m also exclusively submissive, there’s unlikely to be a dom bone in my body. Very rarely a dom side of me does come out, and it’s rare that it happens, so it’ll probably be in history books one day.

👎🏻What am I not into? Again, I’m not interested in talking to minors. This area is 18+ so please don’t interact with anything I put on my blog, whether it’s reblogged or written by me.

I’m not into emeto (vomiting), farting, scat, piss, pregnancy, anything non consensual, fantasy/sci fi, anything intox, or vore. I keep it pretty vanilla here.

I’m absolutely 100% NOT attracted to starter bellies. I’m not out here trying to waste my time with people who think 200 pounds is a lot and then ghosts, never to be seen again. I’m way more into someone being well into their gain (and still gaining is preferred but if you’re holding steady at a specific weight then that’s okay too) so I know to not waste my time.

✉️How to contact me: My DM’s and IM’s are open for now. I close them once in awhile but I haven’t had to for a little bit. I generally say when that happens, if it does.

I truly do love to make friends and talk with people on here! I can be really endearingly unhinged (my brother says I’m chaotic good) sometimes and at times I feel like I can be intimidating, but I promise I’m not. I’m just a really weird girl who likes to write and obsess over cute people on here.

Reaching out first is hard for me to do because I have anxiety and a fear of rejection in any kind of way, so if you’re reading this, please know that I probably do want to talk to you! But you probably seem way too cool for me to reach out to. Because I am a weirdo.

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Yoooo he's not just my boyfriend, he's my entire reason to live more often than not. That's husband, that's twin, that's soulmate, that's best friend. I've been in love with him for three years and I cannot have pictured a better three years of my life. Years ago someone on here drove me to attempt su*c*de and he was the one who glued me back together and thank God he used super glue. He means everything to me.

We're still together and we're together forever.

Wow sometimes life is actually good for once!

ALSO I didn't ever mention it (I don't think I did) but I am OFFICIALLY a resident of the beautiful state of COLORADO :)

I BOUGHT A HOUSE! :)

New state, new timezone, new era, new me.

The sale closes soon-ish and that's so exciting for me. Tomorrow I'm moving into a different Airbnb and then I'm *hopefully* BUYING A NEW CAR :) My car I'd had since 2020 was totaled late last year and I've been blessed to have my mom's car to be traveling around the country in.

This trip has been so life changing for me and my personal life. Originally I left my town in Idaho for Lent because I really wanted to give up something major for 40 days but now I have a new home. A new place to be.

Not to be super mushy, but I think I needed this trip in a million more ways than just one.

I'd like to thank God, my dad, *****, my mom, my boyfriend, my other family members, my other loved once, twisted rainbow punch sweet tarts ropes, and fruit punch.

In that order.

I cannot wait to make this house my home in my own little ways.

Grateful, grateful, grateful.

I've been busy traveling and doing all the things I used to really enjoy and it's been a lot of fun doing those things again.

Aaaaand I'm moving. At some point. ETA on when, but I definitely know where at this point.