Submissive and Disciplined

"Did you do that so I wouldn't make you return them when I found out how out of budget they were?"

I shrugged. I didn't want to admit it.

"Did you?"

"I didn't think about it."

"Are you lying?"

My stomach was in knots. He knew. I knew he knew and he knew that I knew it. I nodded once.

My rear end was already bruised from the first spanking. He pulled me by the hair from our bedroom to the bathroom and shoved a bar of soap in my mouth. "You used that mouth for lying," he said. "I'm going to wash those lies out." I was already sobbing when he made me face the mirror so I could watch the tears roll down my face, the soap foam around my lips, and the pain on my face as he brought the heavy wooden hairbrush down on an already pained butt.

He. Did. Not. Go. Light.

He didn't go light on my corner time afterward. I literally spent the rest of the night until bedtime in the corner - more than an hour - before comfort care and my deepest humble apologies.

It's so humiliating, earning a spanking. It was such a dumb move on my part and here I am the next day with a terribly bruised butt that is tender, knowing I have maintenance tomorrow.

This has been quite a few weeks for us recently. I don't know why my attitude has been pretty shit. I've been punished but this one was the harshest. I'm now on orgasm restriction "until further notice." I hope all of this works to help me become as submissive as I'm happiest feeling.

I've consented already. We have a free-use relationship as part of our d/s dynamic. He's a deeper sleeper than I am, and is slow to awaken, so it's pretty rare for him to fuck me while I'm asleep because he usually falls asleep faster and harder (heh) than I do.

The only time I've ever not consented to him using my body for his pleasure is while I was six weeks postpartum after both babies were born and he was completely respectful of that.

We've been for about a month so it hasn't been that long, but it's definitely been fun doing it ;)

Lately Sir has been extremely dominant at night. I know I've talked before about how our d/s tends to ebb and flow, but the thing is, it usually ebbs and flows based on my needs more than his. He recognizes when I'm in a state where he needs to back of and when I'm in a state where I need more dominance in my life. (Usually, we exist somewhere in between). I don't know what it is, but the last month he's just taken on himself to be extra dominant and I have to say I'm loving it.

The kids naps lately have only been overlapping by about a half hour, and he's been having me spend that time either cockwarming while he works or sitting naked on a stool with my legs spread in front of him while he works or offering up my pussy to him or laying me over his lap for a quick spanking.....just whatever he feels like. Then at night he's had me wait to do the dinner dishes until after the kids go to bed so he can watch me do it in the nude (kitchen and hallways are both gated - kids can't get in there so don't worry), then he either takes me right there in the kitchen or marches me up to the bedroom for some bondage or more spanking or whatever he decides. A few nights ago he fucked me in my sleep - though I woke up partway through I pretended to sleep through it.

Well there's no third baby yet. Just an agreement to try for a third. Our kids are almost three and seventeen months old right now. Sir brought up a third kid when the second was about six months and I got him to agree to wait until he was a year old before we seriously discussed it. So we've been talking on and off and I knew I'd want to try soon and the time just feels right.

I texted Sir that I would have a surprise for him when he got home. My sister got the kids at four, and I worked quickly because Sir gets home around five. When he got home, the house was spotless, and I was sitting naked by the front door with my legs spread.

He laughed and was like, "Hey where are the kids?" So I told him and he got really excited. Honestly it's been a while since we've had a good long BDSM session. He wanted to get started immediately, but I told him I had one more surprise for him.

"What?" he asked eagerly.

"I'm ready to try for a third baby. And if I'm counting the days right, I should be ovulating either today or in the next couple days."

The way my man's face lit up! My gosh, I love him so much.