you don’t realize how important lunch is until you’re wandering around thinking about how unloveable and untalented and uniquely cursed you are and then it’s 4pm and you finally eat lunch and you go Oh. oh right.

why does loneliness sit so heavy?

I think people would be less suicidal if they were allowed to talk about being suicidal without risk of being sent to the Torture Dungeon

i love you mirror versions i love you possession i love you cloning i love you simulacrums i love you shadow selves i love you digital copies of a mind i love you alternate timeline versions i love you tropes that play with identity and what it means to be a certain person

imo the term "walkable" in "walkable cities" should be understood to mean "wheelchair accessible" as well, not just literally "possible to walk in". the act of walking in a city doesn't automatically make it walkable

sometimes i can’t tell if i’m pulling away on purpose or just leaving first so it hurts less when i get abandoned

Quiet bpd is dangerous because you feel so much pain and rage inside you but all you can do is take it out on yourself. You don't want to hurt anyone else. You can't bring yourself to be angry with others despite what they do, under the premise that they will hate or leave you.

What doesn't kill you leaves you bleeding for the rest of your life wishing it did