i'm Kaya! Black transneu goth femme lesbian. this is my main blog, hereās (most) of my face
interests include: EGL, purple (the color), ballroom history+culture, lesbianism generally & studfem(me) especially, food, communism, burlesque, fashion, disability justice, anything goth, art+writing, loc hairstyles, sewing, HRT, medieval West and North Africa, transfeminism, and more
this blog is mostly sfw, but i'm an adult and would still prefer to keep it 18+ thanks :)
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things are tagged very simply because my memory is awful
photos of me is #self
things i feel describe me is #k.core
egl is #lolita #gothic lolita
#recall is my tag to save stuff
#collections is like a personal art gallery of my fave artworks on here
#booklist is. the book list lol
#lifelog is a sliver of my life
i keep a tag of posts/asks for continuous crowdfunding rqs, #cf or #aid
everything else tends to be rather self explanatory
i am autistic+otherwise disabled and love meeting other disabled lesbians š«¶š¾
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There are SIX questions total in reblogs, the end will be marked by large green text. If you donāt see all six, check reblogs and grab the version with the ending note.
1/6 - Do you identify as some flavor of white?
White
Non-white
Only considered white outside of imperial core
Insecure Mixed Person externalizing my family racial issues here
Remaining time: 12 hours 40 minutes
Answers amended from the 2025 census based on feedback. If youāre mixed, choose what feels right to you Iām not here to do phrenology or paper bag test you but donāt make it my problem either. When in doubt, ask yourself: would the whites kill you too in the race war?
This census is US-centric because so is tumblr, unfortunately. This poll is also starting with a heavy Black/racialized bias due to my personal followers. The main point of this census is to see how white-dominant the site is currently compared to prior years, as well
For the purpose of this census, Imperial Core will be defined as the following: United States, Canada, Australia, Aotearoa, basically all of Western Europe, Japan, and Israel. If you want to argue about any of these designations, too bad maybe they should stop colonizing.
Otherwise cultural gender (please share I wanna know!!)
Other not listed
Cisgender
Remaining time: 12 hours 50 minutes
Note for clarification:
*For those who donāt know, TMA means transmisogyny affected (such as trans women, some non-binary people, etc.) whereas TME means transmisogyny exempt (Cis men, cis women, transmasculine individuals, etc). If you want to ask for clarification for which applies to you for the purposes of this poll, feel free to ask and Iāll try to reply, but if you try to argue or quibble about the terms themselves, Iāll block you.
6/6! How many TMA* (Transfemme, some non-binary, etc.) people would *actually* call YOU their friend?
Iām TME, 0
Iām TME, 1-2
Iām TME, 1-2 but I have <8 friends
Iām TME, 3-6
Iām TME, 7+
Iām TMA, 0
Iām TMA, 1-2
Iām TMA, 1-2 but I have <8 friends
Iām TMA, 3-6
Iām TMA, 7+
I have less than 3 friends total
Remaining time: 13 hours 3 minutes
*For those who donāt know, TMA means transmisogyny affected (such as trans women, some non-binary people, etc.) whereas TME means transmisogyny exempt (Cis men, cis women, transmasculine individuals, etc). If you want to ask for clarification for which applies to you for the purposes of this poll, feel free to ask and Iāll try to reply, but if you try to argue or quibble about the terms themselves, Iāll block you.
THIS IS THE END! Please reblog for bigger sample pool ššš½
Two years ago, the occupation destroyed our home, turning our dreams, memories, and everything we owned into piles of rubble and ash, as seen in this picture.
Since that day, my family and I have been living in a tattered tent that offers no protection from the bitter cold of winter or the scorching heat of summer. Two years of continuous suffering under this worn-out fabric that neither shelters our bodies nor provides any shelter for our family. Today, I appeal to you with all my pain and suffering, asking for your support and assistance so that we can repair our tent and obtain food and water. I hope you will stand with us and not ignore us, friends.
Please help us through this ordeal and live a dignified life.Your support will make a huge difference in our lives and help us persevere and secure the most basic necessities and warmth for my family. Please don't leave us alone.
My friend Ahmed has been enduring unthinkable conditions. He has gone without clean water and nutritious food for long periods. He has become severely anemic and made dizzy with hunger. He is suffering in the heat in a densely populated refugee camp, afraid of bombings that could come at any time. Ahmed deserves love and support. Please help him!
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I'll make a more eloquent post on both substack and Patreon, but I'm having to push back on writing right now, as I am severely burned out. Like, your fae can barely think, nevermind write 80k words for faer second novel. So, I won't be getting my next check for a while, and I don't know when I'll start getting royalties, so I'm going to have to ask all of you lovely people to help keep me and my family afloat. It'll be at least until September-October, and in that time I'll be trying to write a few short stories here and there, but honestly, I'm one bad day away from checking myself into a hospital. So! To avoid that, and if you'd like to support me and my work:
Paypal.me/marsinaries
Venmo.com/fluoresensitive
Patreon.com/fluoresensitive
And of course, you can always purchase ON SUNDAYS, SHE PICKED FLOWERS anywhere you can buy books. But not Amazon.
Redoing my mutual aid post as the other post is very big but with not many donations. I'm in between checks and unable to do much writing due to very intense burnout, I don't know when I'll get paid next. um! So yeah, if you'd like to support a Black nonbinary lesbian, your favorite horror author's favorite horror author, drop some coins! Pretty much supporting my whole family so really everything is swell.
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I just published my first Cento poetry compilation, Weaving the Stories: Poetry as Spellcasting Arrangements.
This compilation is a roughly 30 page series of Cento arrangements crafted from the book Poetry as Spellcasting, which was edited by Lisbeth White, Destiny Hemphill, and Tamiko Beyer. This is being published with their consent, entirely free and attributed to each respective author.
2026 UPDATE:
There's now a recorded version on streaming (Youtube, Spotify, and Apple Music primarily) and free to download on Bandcamp!
If you don't have the time to check out the whole thing, at minimum listen to We Are: A Spell For Cracking Shells, which has the voices of myself and eight other dolls, collectively The Kallai for this piece :)
If you could read/listen to and share it, Iād be deeply grateful. The work is rooted in Black Transfeminism/Transfeminist Womanism, and is written with Black trans women in mind, although it has value for everyone - especially trans women.
Come become spellbound and help find yourself. š
Hey y'all, I updated this post for the release of the recorded version of Weaving the Stories! Please give it a listen, download it for free, and share it where you can, I'd really appreciate it <3 I've never recorded and put out something like this before, but i'm so fuckin excited about this.
This Mother's Day, remember the mothers of Palestine.
Mother's Day, 1986 by Silman Mansour
My friend Laila is mother to two beautiful children, Sally and Mohammad. For over a year I have seen her do everything she can to support, protect, and provide for them amidst the scarcity and terror of the war on Gaza. For Mother's Day, please consider donating to her campaign, even a small amount, to help her. If you can't donate, please share this post.
We are Palestinians. We are exhausted. And we are still under fire. šµšøšHello dear friends around the world š, my name is Layla, I am 25 year
Go to paypal.me/eanner and type in the amount. Since itās PayPal, it's easy and secure. Donāt have a PayPal account? No worries.
donating through PayPal please include a note āfor Lailaā.
Laila has been vetted & her campaigns shared by @bilal-sala7 (#53), @a-shade-of-blue, @90-ghost, and other trusted sources.
If I die, remember that I begged you and asked you for a small donation or to share my post. I will not forgive anyone who sees this post and does not support me with a single word or a small donation and ignores me.
I'm writing this post with tears in my eyes from the intense pain I'm experiencing. I've suffered from severe pain and multiple fainting spells this past two week due to my severe anemia and my inability to afford all the medications I need because of their high cost. All I wish for is to never faint again, so I hope you will stand by me and help me buy my medications quickly. Please donate.
Worse still, I was injured when our house was bombed while we were inside. I was hit by shrapnel that is still embedded in my body, and I need urgent surgery to remove it. Throughout this time, I have been suffering from constant pain. My surgery is very expensive, and I don't have enough money for it. Now I can't sleep because of the intense pain, and I can't afford my medications and painkillers to stop the pain because of their high price.
I need your help to stop my pain and save myself as quickly as possible. Please, I don't want to die. Please help me raise the money for my medication and surgery as soon as possible. Please stand by me. Please donate.
Thank you so much to everyone who asked about me during my absence from Tumblr since the day before yesterday. I've been experiencing fainting spells and loss of consciousness for the past two days.
My health is very poor, and I can barely write this reblog to tell you that I desperately need your help right now. Please help me so I can buy my medication as soon as possible and raise the funds for my travel and surgery. Please donate
You can access it here. Please reblog this post when you see it so more folks can get access and so I can get more recommendations to add to it lmfao
This archive isn't complete, as no archive ever is. I'm constantly taking suggestions on what to add to it or changes to make. If you'd like to see something added to the archives or are having technical difficulties, please send me a DM. Current content categories and archivist's note below cut.
"Anonsee, what is Transfeminist Womanism?"
Transfeminist Womanism itself is a synthesis of both eponymous ideologies, seeking to fill the gaps formed within each that often leave out Black trans women - racism within transfeminism, transmisogyny within womanism - when Black trans women are often the people that need those ideologies the most. Transfeminist Womanism is a primarily Abolitionist ideology, finding value in the rhetoric, knowledge, tactics, and tools of anarchism, communism, and other ideologies without falling directly into any of those categories.
Additionally, I've curated a "Foundational" folder that gives guided reading to help understand the underlying principles and thoughts behind Transfeminist Womanism.
If you're an author of works in the archives and you'd like to be added to the tip list, please send me a DM and I'll add your information. For fiction titles and art, I'm only accepting works from Black and/or transfemme authors/artists to be added to the archives.
NEW: If you are Black and/or Transfemme and would like to potentially include your art in the archive - visual, audio, or otherwise so long as its digital, DM me!
If you'd like to tip me for curating this archive, you can do so through vmo @AnonseeStoryweaver or Cshapp $tshenta
Works within these archives primarily focus on the following topics:
-Transfeminism
-Womanism ("Black Feminism")
-Disability Justice
-Restorative and Transformative Justice
-Ecofeminism
and subjects related to them.
001. Foundational - 63 items
002. Transfeminism - 49 items
003. Womanism - 25 items
004. Disability Justice - 6 items
005. Studies - 15 items
006. History, General Non-Fiction, and Poetry - 54 items
007. Resources, Pamphlets, and Instructions - 21 items
008. Fiction - 2 items
009. Religion, Theology, and Spirituality - 28 items
010. Art (non-written) - 5 items
Archivist's note: Remade the post because I updated a bunch of file organization and standardized the file naming much to my chagrin the past several days. This should make it easier to find items AND search the archives. Thank y'all so much for your support in this, it really really means a lot.
this a beautiful archive, and includes work by one of my elders and mentors Lorenzo Kom'boa Ervin who, along with his wife Jonina Ervin, are organizers, writers, and all around lovely people currently living and agitating in Chattanooga, Tennessee. Lorenzo needs emergency dental surgery, and they are raising $$ via fundrazr. i feel appreciative to live in a time where i can support living members of a rich political tradition, who have fresh ideas on the path forward and hands on knowledge of what works and what doesn't with regards to organizing. their work is foundational to my thought processes, as well as many active organizers today - please consider engaging with both their writings and contributing to their current life expenses!
Anonsee has painstakingly curated a thorough archive for people to educate ourselves on transfeminist womanism and be good allies with. There was never an excuse to not learn to be better but now even less so. Please go through and share this archive!
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Iāve been thinking about this poem a lot with the United Statesā Artemis 2 mission. And I feel a sense of loss at my own apathy towards it - that I canāt find it within myself to look at the new pictures of the Earth and Moon in wonder. I feel nothing seeing them. And space is a domain where I think people are very easily moved by our own ability to capture it with photographs and other instruments. It invites you to think about humanity as a single, universal entity. Looking atĀ photos of Saturn taken by the Cassini space probeĀ doesnāt make me think of myself but of every human being thatās ever lived. It invokes a feeling of utter humility and smallness. Itās hard not to think I am bearing witness to the face of god.
But it is impossible to access those feelings now with the US conducting and aiding in genocides and bombings in Palestine and Iran and Lebanon and on and on and on. They are using the same technology to explore space as they are for levelling cities. And I know there has always been something terrible happening in the world whenever manned rockets are launched into space, so itās not like this is new. There was never a time in which we ājustā explored beyond our atmosphere. But the present moment feels inescapable, and I find myself unable to divorce what is happening down here from the photos we receive from the Artemis above us.