èhakihès

50% duck at the store 🙏🏽 i've missed the sale the last several months so i bought all 5. now i must rearrange the freezer. i know i just said pantry cooking for the foreseeable future but i saved 90 dollars okay

cooked for fridge restock.... i love to make something out of nothing. tomatoes were about to turn so made kidney beans w tomatoes and onion.... found tofu in back of fridge so marinated and fried it crispy.... we are running out of cornstarch but found tapioca starch so mixed them together. almost at the end of our 40lb bag of short grain rice from last yearish or maybe the year before so made rice w quinoa bc trying to increase the fiber always. and cooked collards out of the freezer from the fall. now we will not go hungry

there is so much to process all the time it's kinda crazy. lets make tofu and rice about it

also my roommates who are moving out have been out of town and are coming home today can you tell (<- cynical posting just began again). we are all so excited for them to move out to live our artistic lives

the thing is is that im artistic and people dont like that about me. it shouldnt matter but i think they are denying their artistic selves and so it is upsetting and they take it out on me. but it doesnt really have anything to do with me so i just am standing there while they are upset that i read a book in the living room or something

slept thru my hs reunion after grief group this morning. now up at 230 am thinking ab watching svu after reading machado's short story ft stabler and benson (and abler and henson). trying to plan more fun things to do this summer in addition to hardcore attacking my mental health/trauma etc

sometimes when i'm in these coporate offices i'm like maybe i should just get regular get one of these jobs and drink sparkling waters and coffee all day like all these other people but i know it would be pissing me off and making me angry about how unethical the world is. so i guess i'll just be here

all these years and still trying to make something of my life

sobbing my way thru tuesday therapy long convo with sobbing afterwards with CA couples tonight and reg therapy on friday. if i dont get well soon....

voluntary therapy twice this week plus couples therapy. i will be cured by the time my insurance runs out i promise

i have a huge heat rash 😭