I had a new persona, not of my choosing. I was Average Dumb Woman Married to Average Shitty Man. He had single-handedly de-amazed Amazing Amy.

I think about it a lot. Killing myself. I have ever since I was a child. A lot of times, I think the world would be a much better place without me in it. But I don’t do it. You’re a better woman than me. And if I don’t deserve to die, then you definitely don’t. I’m sorry you feel alone in your pain, but so do I. So does everybody. That’s life.

There’s nothing wrong with being alone. There’s nothing wrong with taking time for yourself to work out who you are, because how can you offer who you are if you don’t know who you are?

I May Destroy You (TV Series 2020– )

FKA twigs in Honey Boy (2019)

I knew that I needed to be in that water, deep within it. 

Louise Bourgeois (French/American, 1911-2010), Mother, 2008. Gouache on paper, 60 x 45.7 cm.

Portrait of a Lady on Fire (2019) dir. Céline Sciamma L’Avventura (1960) dir. Michelangelo Antonioni Our Little Sister (2015) dir. Hirokazu Koreeda I Walked with a Zombie (1943) dir. Jacques Tourneur Y tu mamá también (2001) dir. Alfonso Cuarón Persona (1966) dir. Ingmar Bergman Atlantics (2019) dir. Mati Diop Humoresque (1946) dir. Jean Negulesco

Haley Lu Richardson in Columbus (Kogonada, 2017)

Smash Capitalism”

favourite films watched in 2019

Redesigned Gillian Flynn book covers 

you’ll always have me. (C.B) (8.7.17)

Hélène Delmaire shares her process and sketches while creating the ‘Portrait’ Criterion Collection DVD/Blu-ray cover (article linked in source)