I'm like if a girl was miserable all the time for reasons which are easily identifiable but nevertheless impossible to do anything about

How to stop feeling like I'm not meant for this world

sad to announce that I am having thoughts and emotions again and it is not a pleasant experience

probably needed a hug. went completely nonverbal and dissociated instead

ok note to self i gotta leave the house regularly so that i dont feel like im slowly transforming into an evil fucking shadow clone of myself

So as it turns out your sense of self doesnt exist in a vacuum. You gotta actually use it and bounce it off of other people like echolocation to see where you are as a person and shit. So if you dont regularly interact with other people the echoes just get weaker and weaker and before you know it your personality is a blurry fucked up fog clone of its former self. which it sucks because this makes it really hard to interact with people again but yknow