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The original tweet summarizes it pretty well. Fanfic tends to be popular among certain types of neurodivergent people (aka people most likely to read excessively as a child, and have burnout as an adult) for the same reasons that we tend to hyperfixate–neurochemical signaling (I hope I’m using that phrase correctly). What I mean is, for people who are really dependent on changes in dopamine/serotonin/neurotransmitter levels, who have low levels or wonky neural reward systems (perhaps the most common types of neurodivergence)…people like us rely on dependable external sources of those neurochemicals. In order to function, we spend a lot of our free time trying to level out our brain chemistry using things that can reliably bring us a steady stream of joyful moments (rewards) without costing too much of the mental effort that is already in short supply. 

significantly: the investment of reading has to be balanced with a steady “return on investment”–and this return has to start fairly quickly. because again, we don’t have a lot of attention/energy to invest on tiring things. we have perpetual “low batteries” in that regard.

that doesn’t mean these stories are “simple,” or that they lack complexity or value–only that the reward has to come in short regular intervals, and it has to have a low “upfront cost.” these stories are only “easy” to read in the sense that the effort we put into them is rewarded in a timely manner. which is why fanfic stories are so perfectly formulated for neurodivergent readers–they are often beautifully written, but skip a lot of the upfront costs (of introducing new characters, of world-building, of getting the audience emotionally connected to the story elements).

the nature of fanfiction is that the reader has a pre-existing relationship with this world and these characters. that–combined with the shorter average length of fics–means that fan fics very quickly start rewarding the reader in a way that traditional fiction struggles to. that’s not a bad thing! and maybe it’s something more traditionally published writers should be paying attention to.

I also rarely listen to new music/new artists. I mostly stick to albums/artists I already know and love, have loved since childhood.

Hi anon,

Essentially it’s a generic darkfic warning.

The name comes from a scene in Arrested Development where a character finds a package in a refrigerator labelled, “DEAD DOVE: Do Not Eat!”

Curious, he opens the package anyway and discovers it contains exactly what the label says: a dead dove. The character then says to himself, “I don’t know what I expected.”

“I don’t know what I expected” became a meme in and of itself, used in situations where people choose to look at things that are probably going to be unpleasant, and find out that they are, indeed, unpleasant.

Hey, nonnie. I'm sure you're not the only one weirded out. But hobbies don't stop after kids. I'm not going to make any apologies about being a mom and posting what I choose to on my blog. If it's weird or strange to you, feel free to unfollow or filter out "navybrat rambles". Maybe I'll make a brand new tag just for my family talk.

And maybe you truly didn't mean it as a slight or to shame me, but I don't get the weirdness of age or who has kids or not on this site.

I’m so fucking over it.

Do you know that when you turn 30, you don't become a 80+ grandma?

Do you know that women's sex lives don't end after they have kids?

Do you know that hobbies aren't just for teenage girls, but also grown ass women?

Do you know that ageism is fucked up and problematic?

Do you know that moms had passions and thoughts and feelings and opinions and desires before they had kids – and they didn't disappear as soon as they gave birth?

I'm not a mother. But I get so disgusted how people on here treat women they know are older than them and/or are mothers. Women can be mothers and write smut. They are not mutually exclusives, you absolute idiots.

A lot of posts like this defend that women are allowed to have hobbies/outlets even after they're 30, and obviously yes true, but also women are allowed to have hobbies even after they've procreated.

Women are people with hobbies. Women are people.

I am a person and I am a mom COEXIST. It isn't I am a mom, therefore I am no longer a separate person.

THAT IS A WONDERFUL THING. Every person I know who is different from me has something to teach me, and I become a more complex, compassionate and enriched person as a result.

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That thought isn’t helpful right now.

Now is not the time to think about it. I can think about it later.

This is irrational. I’m going to let it go.

I won’t argue with an irrational thought.

This is not an emergency. I can slow down and think clearly about what I need.

This feels threatening and urgent, but it really isn’t.

I don’t have to be perfect to be OK.

I don’t have to figure out this question. The best thing to do is just drop it.

It’s OK to make mistakes.

I already know from my past experiences that these fears are irrational.

I have to take risks in order to be free. I’m willing to take this risk.

It’s OK that I just had that thought/image, and it doesn’t mean anything. I don’t have to pay attention to it.

I’m ready to move on now.

I can handle being wrong.

I don’t have to suffer like this. I deserve to feel comfortable.

That’s not my responsibility.

That’s not my problem.

I’ve done the best I can.

humans are fucking terrible and this awful world we live in will fucking kill you but if you are kind, if you are brave and clever and try really hard, you can defy it. you can impose on this bleak and monstrous structure something beautiful. even if it’s temporary. even if it doesn’t heal anything inside you that’s been hurt.  

it just requires that you be kind. viciously. vengefully. you fight back. you plant flowers. give to charity. play games. pet someone’s dog. scream into the dark. paint and write and dance, tell jokes, sing songs, bake cookies. you have been hurt and you don’t have to deny that hurt. you just have to recognize it in other people, and take their hand, and say: no more. enough. fuck this. no more. 

have a cookie.

2. A good quote: There are two kinds of people. Those who think, “I don’t want anyone to suffer like I did.” And those who think, “I suffered; why shouldn’t they?”

3. Two good quotes by Kurt Vonnegut: “Hello babies. Welcome to Earth. It’s hot in the summer and cold in the winter. It’s round and wet and crowded. On the outside, babies, you’ve got a hundred years here. There’s only one rule that I know of, babies-“God damn it, you’ve got to be kind.”

“I. THIS IS NOT A GAME.

II. HERE AND NOW, WE ARE ALIVE.”

You can be kind and fuel it with rage. You can be kind and fuel it with a bitter twist, or you can be kind and fuel your kindness with righteous anger, or you can be kind and fuel it with love or spite or ecstatic joy. And no matter what your fuel is, you still can make kindness happen in the world so that people can warm themselves by it.

Kindness isn’t an emotion, kids. That’s the thing. Kindness is action. Kindness is choosing to take your emotions and channel them towards doing the most good where you can; to choose the targets of your actions carefully; to spread a little joy behind you, when you have a little to spare.

Kindness can mean a gentle word or a shouted imperative. It can be a warm meal or a gentle hug or a clean death. Kindness can manifest in many ways, and not all of them are one hundred percent nice. The kind thing to do may be doing nothing at all. 

But kindness is, above all else, an action. We are imperfect humans, and we cannot control our emotions–but we can control what we do as a result. We can control the actions that our emotions and experiences propel us to perform. 

The darkness is nothing but the absence of light, you know. It is endless and nihilistic and all enveloping. A lit candle has no hope against it.

But if enough of us light small candles and little matches behind us as we walk through this wide, uncaring universe, we can light up that sky. We can take an empty world and we can fill it with each other. 

“We’re each of us alone, to be sure. What can you do but hold your hand out in the dark?” - Ursula K. LeGuin, The Wind’s Twelve Quarters, Volume 1

“It is our suffering that brings us together. It is not love. Love does not obey the mind, and turns to hate when forced. The bond that binds us is beyond choice. We are brothers. We are brothers in what we share. In pain, which each of us must suffer alone, in hunger, in poverty, in hope, we know our brotherhood. We know it, because we have had to learn it. We know that there is no help for us but from one another, that no hand will save us if we do not reach out our hand. And the hand that you reach out is empty, as mine is. You have nothing. you possess nothing. You own nothing. You are free. All you have is what you are, and what you give.” - Ursula K. LeGuin, The Dispossessed

Here are some links to reinforce the importance of what is said here: 1. Human beings consistently become more cooperative, compassionate, and constructive following major disasters.

2. Normalcy bias, also called bystander syndrome, is what happens when people don’t know how to react to an emergency, so they wait for someone else to move first. 

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A well deserved cup of coffee after a bloody hard work☕️🩸

Stephen, while looking through alternate universes, discovers that he is connected to Everett Ross in more ways that he thought was possible. - (Originally posted on my insta @/bannersodinson)