Well, we’ve gotten to know each other pretty well, so I’ll let you guys know something in confidence.
I feel a strange sense of schadenfreude watching the Gaiman situation. Not for the people who were Gaiman’s victims, but for the people who were fans of his and who loved his work.
Don’t get me wrong, I know this sucks. This absolutely sucks and I do sympathize, really I do. I know you feel devastated. Heartbroken even, because Gaiman was someone you thought was safe and who you were proud made a thing you liked, who made something that shaped who you are today and that you STILL love in spite of who created it.
And you know WHY I sympathize with all that?
Because Rowling was exactly the same way for me. And when she broke our hearts, when she finally took away all plausible deniability and outed herself as a bigot to people who adored and trusted her, you know what a certain subsection of people did?
All they could do, while I was in agonizing pain, was point me to Neil Fucking Gaiman. For months and months, all I heard (among how I should’ve somehow known she was secretly bigoted the whole time and how I was a horrible evil person for not turning all my most valued possessions into composting), was how wonderful and perfect and unproblematic and utterly godly Neil Gaiman was. All anyone could tell me, when they weren’t breathlessly trying to guess things about my character from my favourite book series, was that I had wasted any second I had lived before I read Neil Gaiman.
And I know good people, people I know and care about are heartbroken. I’m trying to be kind, really I am. But I can’t help feeling a little smug watching the same people who smugly watched my heartbreak years ago scrambling through the same coping mechanisms we all tried.
Yeah, they’re doing everything. We’re talking “I knew all along,” “drop it right now or you’re evil” we even got “Hatsune Miku made [thing]” for people who wanna enjoy stuff and don’t wanna fight about it (people have complaints about that one, I think it’s fine, whatever). And considering how Gaiman’s acolytes treated Harry Potter fans who employed these same tactics? I find this absolutely hysterical.
You know I don’t really know what the point of this little tantrum was. Maybe it was just a means to vent. Maybe it’s a five-year-old overdue snap at people who decided to shove alternatives at me while I was grieving, and then call me a bad person for not wanting them. Or maybe I just am a huge bitch and I just wanted to put that on display for you.
I won’t ask you not to be mad, because if you see me smugly staring at you like “not so fun, is it?” and you wanna hit me, that’s totally fair. If you read this hoping I’d have advice or sage wisdom, then, I’m sorry. I don’t. I don’t think there is any. I won’t tell you “you should’ve known” or “now you have to stop loving [thing]” or “you should never be a fan of anything ever at all,” because that’s all really stupid advice. It’s also all real advice I got during the Rowling incident.
But I will say, to you, fan of [thing Gaiman wrote], welcome to the club. You’re a member of this club now. It’s a shit club and no one wanted to be a member, but honestly, everyone is gonna be one eventually, so grab a bean bag chair and dig into the snacks before the other normies get here. I’m sorry a cringe harry potter fan is the one to welcome you.
Yeah I was already a member because of Rowling. And I get the reaction to deny/grieve, as well as op’s vindictive satisfaction. Cause in both cases it’s demoralizing but misery does love company, especially when ppl were smug in the past.
I think because of my experience with Rowling (and other creators) I’m less surprised and more disappointed with Gaiman. Though actually in his case there’s a lot more darkness in his works, so again, not entirely surprised, more just sad. Cause now I can see how certain aspects of his work that made me uncomfortable, despite enjoying the overall text, align with his behavior. Hindsight is 20-20 and all that.
I’ve been processing this for several months now and I don’t think I have a conclusion. But at the end of the day, I think it’s important that we have these conversations within fandom. After all, this is just the neighbors reacting to a local atrocity (“he was always so sweet. How could we have known?”) on an international scale. Allowing space to process emotions is important, regardless of how that may present itself. So is acknowledging that it’s difficult to separate ourselves entirely from works that inspired us.
Unfortunately, this isn’t the first time nor will it be the last time an author turns out to be bigoted/ racist/ abusive/ etc. It’s a reminder that at the end of the day, authors are people. And people are capable of some pretty messed up things, especially when put in positions where they have power over others.
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N.B. I’m not planning on reading the most recent article, as I really don’t have the mental space. I’m perfectly fine getting the highlights online/ I already read one when the story first broke and that was horrifying enough













