ay lmao

if you’re feeling bad about yourself, an alarmist post about how you’re literally harming yourself with jokes does not resonate well. just count the number of people making jokes to that end in the notes.

Do you guys ... not know ... what the mundane meaning of a Muse IS???

SORRY. AND THANK YOU. 

I want to thank you all for making this fandom fun, crazy, intense and full of amazing and talented people.

Since all the chaos i put you all through i feel like a behind the scenes is the least i can do or you can call it my classic villain long ass annoying explanation.

And yeah, I, because i’m one (1) stupid ass bitch.

What started this?

Well, i was obviously angry for everything.

Then Misha posted a video where he threw the “rogue translator” under the bus and said “But I’m confident you guys can sort that part out as your writing, art, and imaginations play the story out past the last frames we filmed.“

And so i did.

That one line fueled so much anger in me, because after everything, we really do need to fix it ourselves? Then watch me do it. In this moment i got basically possessed by revenge, anger and inspiration. Many of you figured out how i did it but let me walk you through it! I downloaded the first confession video i could find on youtube, decided the part i wanted to dub and started digging. I looked up all supernatural scripts, then i had to go to Vampire diaries and whatever the frick that legions spinoff was, then all the Twilight movies, then One Tree Hill, Marley & I and so on. It was pure suffering. Each time i found a matching word i had to check the episode to find out if the intonation was right, if there was music, or if the dubber even had the same tone of voice so i went to a lot of youtube clips and streamings that i absolutely didnt want to watch. After 24 hours i had heard so many “ti amo” and “castiel” i started to hear them when editing the background. In the end, of all the stuff i found most of it was trash and not worth to be on this leak, so i had to dig again. And i found it, the “i love you”, it comes from The Office, the PDA episode. I still feel bad about putting that one there but it was the only one that somehow worked wit the lipsync (Yeah, i also looked at that, what the fuck is wrong with me?). While as for the “anch’io” that dean says it comes from the 2x20 and the so much loved and apreciated “Castiel" and “i’m sorry” is from the 8x17. So yeah i worked so much for nothing, but i was still proud of what i had.   (you can now imagine a montage of me trying to edit out the background music for hours from random voice clips just to throw them all away in the end) As for the background music i zoomed in as much as possible and basically hand stitched the music to make it sound seamless, and GOD Yes i even went through the whole original soundtrack to see if there was anything i could use to just slap and replace but obvs not, so back to hand stitching and hearing voices for like 2-3 hours. it was now 8 am and i heard that clip so many times it didnt make sense anymore, so i slept for like, three hours before waking up with the worst idea i ever had. I was running on like, a total of 5 hours of sleep in two days because i also had a fever and ANYWAY. I thought “what if i make this real, like, real real” Thats when the LEAK idea was born, that same morning of the 27. I did some googling, i looked up a in studio picture and saw the counter, that i couldnt recreate with any program i had (btw, i only used imovie for this disaster) i tried them all and at that point i just wanted it to end so i was  FUCK THIS. FUCK. And went to youtube, and, well. I found what i was sure was gonna get me busted. This. When i put this in the video i knew someone was gonna get me, and i was 70% sure it would have been this. Then, i slapped everything together and decided what to do with the logo. So i did the most logical thing and googled “remove watermark from video“ and this is the 30% of the other thing that would have gotten me busted, because it was crap and obvious but i was running on zero sleep and my brain was on fire and i was not thinking anymore at that point. The video was done, and now i just had to put it on my tv (AND I WANT TO MAKE THIS CLEAR, I READ ALL OF YOUR POSTS AND COMMENTS AND CALLING MY POOR TV OLD AND ANCIENT HURT ME WAY MORE THAN ALL THE OTHER THINGS YOU GUYS CALLED ME, but i guess its fair) i turned on my ps4 and went on this cursed blog where i already posted the hd version of the video, i made a recording of the tv and then deleted the hd one and posted the phone recorded one. Spammed it at random people that were online at the time (according to tumblr) and waited. I want also to say that after watching this clip an infinite number of times that the ORIGINAL editing si absolute trash, there are music skips and cgi bugs, then the camera cuts are absolutely random and they 100& cut a shit ton of video, and took away some random lines says when thrown on the gorund. And in this moment i was thinking about the CW, about how they buried our gays again. But that grave is big enough for everyone working on that network spreading hate, homophobia, racism ableism and so on. Your time will come too.  Anyway, when i started to come to my sense and wonder if what i did was right or wrong. I still don’t know if i would do it again. I feel like i was giving hope, i really did, because if this lie could hold a bit longer, then it would be real for a moment more. I’m sorry for making anyone feel bad about this, i really am, if its of any consolation i went through hell and i will never blame anyone for hating me. I just couldn’t make this fandom end on such a bittersweet note, not like that. I hope that whoever tried to debunk this had some fun, and maybe made some good memories with friends over this.

The edit in itself is fine but the fact that you went through all that trouble to make it look real, the fact that you shared it on twitter as if it was a real leak. This is just trolling and is in no way a “nice” or “fun” thing to do to a fandom, especially one that was already in such shambles. Now the damage is done and we, that are actually serious about calling out the CW fuckup, will have to take energy and time to explain to people why your video was fake and why it shouldn’t be regarded as evidence.