Indoctrination
This post is highly personal, as a warning, but I make a general point at the end (after a --), I promise.
Over the last year or so of my life I've started to notice something about people that I dislike. I had a period of time where I liked to think I was extroverted and generally accepting of other people, mostly because I used to be rather inwardly drawn about social interaction. But this has managed to almost reverse it, again.
There is a dangerous combination that comes with someone being simultaneously well-intentioned and hard-headed. When they find something they deem is the most ideal thing they can believe in, they lock themselves out of everything else. They become lost in it; consumed by it, until it is all that is left to describe their character.
For anyone reading this, you can relate to the worst of the Tumblr SJ crowd. For me, I'm talking about something more personal.
My roommates, starting around last summer, started getting closer with a church group centered around our college area. It was very open and accepting; in fact they tried to invite me to an event every week!
Every week.
Admittedly, it might be my fault that I don't feel as close to them. It was my decision to decline their invitations, to retreat to my room when they invited their church-exclusive buddies over - they told me on multiple occasions I could mingle, and I certainly couldn't tell them I didn't want to. That would be unsociable. No, I was just busy - I'd do it some other time. There's nothing wrong with anything they're doing, right? It's just church!
It's not like they were bigoted either, if you have some preconceptions about Christians. By and large I think they're pretty normal in terms of prejudice (as I believe everyone has a little bit of prejudice in them). That isn't why I'm uncomfortable.
In fact I talked about this before - and my opinion hasn't changed. If anything, it's gotten worse, since now I can explain it.
I am simply uncomfortable with the fact that they have forsaken their individuality for what they believe to be a greater cause. I can't tell them their methods are wrong, and that in itself is a problem I face. To believe so heavily in christianity, for those unaware, it means that your primary life goal has to be to serve the lord and to spread the word to people unaware of it.
But not everyone agrees, and that's the truth of it. It's a truth that they can't see.
Just like in the story I linked about someone's personal experience with SJ's, they get brainwashed into the belief that their way is right, and therefore, no other way can be right, and that anyone who disagrees is a lost lamb that they must herd or excommunicate.
Honestly I didn't think they'd be capable of the latter. They're my friends, after all. But they did give me an ultimatum one day, in the form of a passive-aggressive action.
Without warning, they decided they weren't going to room at the same apartment anymore. Without telling me. By the time I asked, it was only a few days before I had to sign up for next year's housing. I wouldn't have time for all but the most hasty of decisions. But lucky me for having such thoughtful roommates - they gave me the option to move into a house off campus with them.
A house - not an apartment, close to everything else on campus - a house. Isolated and far from everything. My choice was clear - either join them, or be alone.
Of course, they didn't phrase it that way. Otherwise their intentions would be obvious. But as I was already fed up with them, I chose the latter and found another person to room with.
Every move I make seems to have meaning for them and their agenda. If I express discomfort about anything at all, it's like they know I'm harboring disgust for their activities. They poke at it every single time, and I just can't speak to them anymore without the looming threat of being invited to attend a church service with them.
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Essentially, when people become heavily indoctrinated in anything, they become a missionary. They believe they have to make everyone else understand their righteousness, because there's just no other way. And in certain cases, nobody can tell them they're wrong without being politically incorrect or punished for it. It's a very, very specific form of micro-oppression in the form of smaller groups of people and their acquaintances.
Accepting something 100% is always dangerous. Investing yourself in something with the idea to absolutely refuse everything else is extremely bad logic, no matter how hard you fight for your cause. It's refusing criticism, denying the chance to broaden your mind, and more than anything else, disrespecting the idea that anyone can rightfully think differently. It's draconian and archaic, in this day and age, yet it prevails because of how many people will support you in punishing the opposition.
It is a socially justified narcissism. And it has cost me the respect of people I used to call close friends.








