duality rambling

Bloodymary, the post was the 3rd chapter, I was reading the description when the app closed

It's called "Mary on a (mary on a cross)"

https://www.tumblr.com/orderly-ao3/818453570699575296/mary-on-a-mary-on-a-cross?source=share

THANK YOUUUUU

Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433

LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255

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Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743

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Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000

Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253

Also I can't with the fact she stutters at saying the "or she" part like it's an after thought omfg

My pfp in the zoom meetings is literally an octopus with the nonbinary flag behind it, she ought to be expecting a fight at this point if she keeps going with that bullshit

The first day she had us do the classic present yourselves game bs and I made three things clear about me

1 I'm autistic so be patient

2 I'm nonbinary and go by they/them

3 quoting myself here "misgender me and I will riot"

Because they both volunteered to board the Project Hail Mary to search for a solution to astrophage, they were both willing to die in order to give the rest of humanity a fighting chance of making it.

And they both died before ever even seeing Tau Ceti.

And it feels so unfair, because they went all that way for nothing, they died without even getting to try and save the people they were going for.

So they died for nothing.

Except they DIDN’T.

Because their deaths saved Grace, and in turn, saved Rocky and Erid. Without the surplus coma slurry, Grace wouldn’t have been able to go back and take Rocky home, and Erid would have had a much harder time with astrophage.

This isn’t particularly coherent, but I can’t stop thinking about these two people who were willing to die for their world, died before getting the chance to fight for their species survival, and yet their deaths meant the sole survivor of their crew could save both their home, and another.

Dubois wished to die painlessly by going into the EVA suit and filling it with nitrogen. He'd pass out and die without even feeling it. "(...) Nitrogen asphyxiation. All my research shows it is among the least painful ways to die" chapter 21

The surplus of nitrogen tanks is what let's grace fix everything after the taomeba 85 leak

Grace literally mentions how it was all possible because of him "Again, I owe my life to DuBois’s preferred method of suicide." -chapter 27

I find that so fascinating. How a man's death was another's salvation

Because they both volunteered to board the Project Hail Mary to search for a solution to astrophage, they were both willing to die in order to give the rest of humanity a fighting chance of making it.

And they both died before ever even seeing Tau Ceti.

And it feels so unfair, because they went all that way for nothing, they died without even getting to try and save the people they were going for.

So they died for nothing.

Except they DIDN’T.

Because their deaths saved Grace, and in turn, saved Rocky and Erid. Without the surplus coma slurry, Grace wouldn’t have been able to go back and take Rocky home, and Erid would have had a much harder time with astrophage.

This isn’t particularly coherent, but I can’t stop thinking about these two people who were willing to die for their world, died before getting the chance to fight for their species survival, and yet their deaths meant the sole survivor of their crew could save both their home, and another.

Dubois wished to die painlessly by going into the EVA suit and filling it with nitrogen. He'd pass out and die without even feeling it. "(...) Nitrogen asphyxiation. All my research shows it is among the least painful ways to die" chapter 21

The surplus of nitrogen tanks is what let's grace fix everything after the taomeba 85 leak

Grace literally mentions how it was all possible because of him "Again, I owe my life to DuBois’s preferred method of suicide." -chapter 27

I find that so fascinating. How a man's death was another's salvation

>>I've seen people draw him as a typical circus ringmaster from posters/young lad/etc. And! Mostly, I agree with this vision—

>>But he would really rock the blue-green glasses and the wounds on his face. I mean-- He's flying dentures with eyes, folks!! Give him some bit of creepiness!

>>Bonus sketch.

Black hole Sungrace. Sungrace who instead of becoming a star, becomes the bottomless void that consumes them. Sungrace who's god, but not a benevolent one. Sungrace who, like the astrophagi that he was supposed to stop, looked at the universe full of planets and stars and just felt hungry. Sungrace, whose hunger was so great that he began to swallow celestial bodies one by one. Sungrace who instead of saving the stars, caused a Silent Rapture.

WOAGH THAT'S SO COOL!!! That image is surprisingly haunting