nahmann

Level 22 | She/Her | adhd | bi | and that’s all she wrote

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Meanwhile what Judy sees:

Richard will brush Henry’s hair off of his forhead whenever he gets the chance, ie leaning in for a kiss, admiring Henry’s sleeping face while laying side by side in bed

When Henry’s got a hold on his waist, Richard, in turn, likes to grasp at his shoulders. It feels like completing a unit, closing a feedback loop.

In disagreements, Henry isn’t the type to yell. He may be icy or sharp, but rarely does he raise his voice. This is very appealing to Richard.

After having a little bicker Rich might flip Henry’s tie over his shoulder to bug him.

Richard worries he’s only a passing fancy to Henry; a dalliance that will burn bright but fast. Henry’s devotion and intensity regarding their relationship do nothing to placate him as Henry is intense about everything.

Before leaving for work, Rich’ll come up behind Henry while he’s working at his desk to press a quick goodbye kiss to the side of his neck.

Its Henry who says “I love you” first, it made Richard smile so hard even he didn’t believe him one bit

Loving and being loved by a man goes crazy with Richard’s daddy issues.

Rich likes to hit Henry with an ironic “Honey, I’m home” at the door when coming from his dorm or back from work.

Richard will use the bath at Henry’s cus the dorms have only showers, Henry’s not really the type to want to take a bath together tho (he’s too big for that, it wouldn’t be practical) but he will pull a kitchen chair up next to the tub and read so they can still be together.

Henry likes to take Rich’s chin between his thumb and forefinger and direct his gaze, Richard likes the intense way Henry looks at him when he does this, his face so enthralled despite the motion being a controlling one

A blush is more pronounced through Henry’s pale complexion.

Henry will non verbally tell Rich to chill by reaching for his face with one hand and smoothing over the furrowed line between his brows with the thumb of his other before toping it all off with a little brush of a kiss over that spot.

Similarly, Richard will push Henry’s glasses up onto the top of his head, lean in and graze his lips over each eyelid in a kiss before pulling back and replacing the glasses back on his nose once more

Henry doesn’t always make eye contact when speaking to someone so on occasion when Rich finds their gazes suddenly meeting, intense eyes locked into him, it makes him forget what he was going to say.

Henry’s got the impulse to constantly groom Richard, ie smooth down his shirt collar, reach over and brush a leaf or speck of lint out of his hair, wipe away any smudges on his face.

Henry finds deep satisfaction and contentment in the weight of Richard laying on his chest and the warm flutter of his breath against his skin.

They take walks together in the morning, side by side, hands in their coat pockets, either deep in conversation or silent in parallel contemplation.

Henry’s not above holding something over his head to keep it out of Richard’s reach.

Henry enjoys when Richard answers the phone and you can still hear sleep in his voice.

Richard tries twice as hard to appear apathetic regarding Henry in front of the rest of the Greek class in order to conceal their dynamic and compensate for his intense feelings.

Most of their misunderstandings stem from Richard intentionally keeping his feelings to himself to avoid having to be vulnerable and/or Henry assuming his own feelings were obvious when in fact they were not.

Henry: control freak, Richard: like herding a cat

Richard:

As a child he’d fantasize about running away over the breakfast table. Milk carton kids weren’t a thing yet, but were they, I imagine he’d be quite enamored with the idea of being one.

Will flip through Rolling Stone, Circus, etc. magazine whenever coming across one in book/grocery stores, or on the rare occasion when buying cigarettes or topping off Henry’s BMW at a gas station. Likes NME or Smash Hits too if he can get his hands on them.

Thought ironically of summer nights sleeping with a portable fan proped in his open bedroom window while lying awake shivering in the warehouse, in that place between sleep and awake he could’ve almost sworn he heard that fan running

Had to learn how to huff cough + Started side sleeping for ease of breathing + His laugh had a rattle in it for months after he recovered from pneumonia.

Startles easily/ jumpy

Keeps a messy journal that he’ll write in for a few days straight before forgetting about it for weeks at a time. He doesn’t code it in Greek or anything but he is very melodramatic and cryptic so if anyone were to read it they wouldn’t get any tea, just lyrical bitching and the odd contextless jotting. I just know instagram notes would hate to see him coming.

U can practically see when a, shall we say, dark thought passes through him cus his eye twitches

Borrows Judy’s Sony Walkman sometimes, she's a social butterfly and keeps herself booked and busy so she doesn't miss it much, he pesters her about getting new tapes, less “chick stuff.”

He's already got a permanent line between his brows from being perpetually posted up with an attitude. From afar, ppl think he's confronatational and aloof (and that suits him just fine) but in actuality he’s just shy or lost in overthinking.

He’s an angry cryer, absolutely hates it when he can’t hold back the tears as he works so hard to curate a carefully constructed image. Not being able to control his emotional responses makes him feel ridiculous and feeble.

Jude:

Car girl, it was a daddy-daughter hobby when she was a kid + she has an oversized sleepshirt with the Mattel hot wheels logo (from the 80s obvs) on it. She got it from a car show in the valley that had irl cars next to their miniature toy counterpart.

Naturally curly hair pattern, but heat damage keeps it from holding as tight as it otherwise would, but hey, no need to perm

U can find at least three of her scrunchies in Richard’s room at any given time, he picks them up and deposits them back in her room (cus they mess up his vibe and he doesn’t want ppl thinking he has a girl), but they always find their way back. She has a habit of putting her hair up and taking it back down multiple times within the hour, and so, when in her room, her car, or her friend’s rooms, she’s content to throw the scrunchy wherever and leave it where it lies. Likewise if she needs one, all she has to do is look around and chances are there's one within arms reach.

Keeps a scrap book of fabric swatches, sizing notes, sketches, magazine cutouts that were used as references, and playbills from shows she's worked on.

Milly:

Has a special appreciation for days that are overcast but warm.

Rarely swears but absolutely does not shy away from vulgar topics. Charles is the just the opposite, a real profanitist but oddly coquettish about certain subjects.

She’s got a little watch with a thin brown leather strap and argent metal (she’s a silver girly almost exclusively, being cool toned) that she wears everyday.

Every so often, instead of dinner, she’ll make herself and Charles a charcuterie board to pick at throughout the evening. He likes the fruits: dried apricot, fig, berries, pomegranate seeds, as well as nuts and breads, while she likes the cheese, crackers, meats, and chocolate. They compete for the olives.

A happy drunk, you can tell she’s buzzed by if she’s wearing a perpetual little smile or laughing too easily

Bit jealous of Richard’s friendship w/ Judy, both because she doesn't like to share Richard’s attention and because she begrudgingly finds Judy interesting despite knowing Jude would have nothing to do with her after the spilled drink incident <- some cognitive dissonance there as Cam likes to look down on ppl like her for being “simple” yet finds her open demeanor and magnetic personality compelling (attractive?? question mark?? From a distance that is).

Bralette wearer, has fashion boobs so it’s not like she needs the support + she strikes me as a person who will sleep in panties and nothing else, or panties and Charles’ big sweaters/socks if its cold

Henry:

If Richard doesn’t pick up the phone on days when Henry knows he’s not out, he might try Judy’s number to see if he’s down the hall at her’s. She hates having to speak to him, and chewed Richard out for giving him her number (even if their exchanges are akin to just “Hello, is he in?” “No.” “Thank you, goodbye.” Or “Yes.” “Will you put him on please?”) but she stays relatively cordial for Richard’s sake. Henry has no idea why she might dislike him, nor does he take notice of it in the first place.

His leg aches when the weather turns + he’s got a compression sleeve for it

Gets motion sick when riding as a passenger on long car rides; too much ambient sensory input. It won’t happen if he’s the driver or if it’s nighttime. If he absolutely has to be a passenger during a long ride, for whatever reason, he’ll take Dramamine to knock out and sleep through as much of it as possible.

When he gets migraines, the aura will be in the left eye, not always, but mostly.

Rapid blinking, flared nostrils, and a thousand yard stare indicate when he’s on the verge of a crash out.

Bunny:

He got the milkshake to share w/ Marion, he was waiting for her in the mess when Charles walked by.

Fucks heavy with zotz candy, made Henry try some one Halloween back when they were roommates, neglected to mention they were fizzy…he didn't like it. Went as far as to spit it out and then brush his teeth for good measure.

He scrunches his nose like a rabbit when he’s pissed. (I’ll never tire of Bunny having rabbit characteristics, no matter how on the nose (ha))

Charles:

The stomach sleeper to Francis’ back sleeper.

Sneezes loud as hell. It makes Richard jump and gets a side eye from Henry for being disruptive

In the context of looks, implicates Camilla with the usage of an “us” instead of me/I, ie “Ever thought of growing your hair out a bit more?” “No it doesn’t suit us.”

Francis:

Likes seafood

There’s a garden at the old house; when the Greek class visits, he takes the opportunity to pick rosemary and put it in his shampoo bottles (thinning hair runs in the family and he’ll be damned if).

His favorite color is red, but it clashes with ginger hair so he doesn’t get to wear it much :(

He keeps/steals flowers from special events: a bit off a wedding centerpiece, taken from someone’s lapel late in the night, picked from landscaping or flower arrangements, or pieces saved from given/received bouquets, and keeps them in a book of pressings, each page containing a few flowers/petals and labeled with the date of the occasion from which they were taken.

Following that vein, I think that in addition to the yuppie/ New England/ Ivy league prep style everyone is sporting vv

it would be cool if Francis still retains influences of his parents’ fashion during his formative years and incorporate that into his personal style with aspects of Eastern mysticism, art nouveau revival, and/or Victorian + Edwardian flourishes vv

to make something akin to this, at least in my mind (I can't imagine someone who wears a pince nez being any less avant garde). vv

I also saw an artist depict his fashion (post) with new wave influences as well, genius vv