My Ways Of Healing

Outside symptoms

Offering comfort and compassion while never receiving or asking

You’re hyper-independent and never ask for help

You downplay all the pain you felt thru your childhood

You’re so scared of failure it’s difficult to start anything

You struggle to take credit for things you did

You’ve can sense other people’s emotions as if they’re yours

You feel obliged to nurture, please and care for others

You struggle with chronic exhaustion and chronic pain

You don’t complain because ‘others have it worse’

You have the ability to endure everything to prove you’re strong

Living your life in fiction and Magical thinking

You had/have experiences with self harm

You’re scared to cut off toxic people from your life

Loud noises and figures of authority give you anxiety

Overtaking responsibility for everything

You feel compulsed to ‘act normal’ in every situation

You blame yourself for being stressed and procrastinating

You struggle with deep breathing, palpitations, overheating, dry mouth

Inside symptoms

Emotional symptoms of long term abuse

You have low self esteem and experience self-hatred

You feel that you need to be perfect, but others don’t have to

You crave approval from others very intensely

Anxiety while doing mundane tasks (cooking, cleaning, going out)

You don’t take happiness for granted, it scares you instead

You constantly feel pain and like ‘you need to get it together’

You’re afraid to feel your own emotions, you need a permission

You wish you had a physical evidence of abuse so it would count

You feel overwhelming guilt for things that happened to you

Confusing gaps in memory

You have cptsd symptoms

You struggle with intrusive thoughts and images

You’re always thinking ‘it wasn’t that bad’

You’re uncomfortable with being comforted

You feel as if you crave abuse

You have trauma symptoms from childhood abuse

You have a sense of foreshortened future

You believe a tougher life will make you stronger