My Selfish World

I was choosing you over me

At least she actually conquered herself, as for conquering the world let the others chase it

Even in my world of selfishness, her name stood up thousand times.

In the world of fantasy, I'll run another failure with her on every chance, and still happily tortured.

Maybe silence is the only cure, otherwise it would be a sign of death thoughts.

Some people choose addicted to being hurt than being lonely, tortured sounds more fun when compared to being no one.

This is so sad that a man has only himself when the world turn against him. His foolishness came at it’s peak when he also expected his women to back him up.

There are some form of love that hurtfull to do, but I have to. And sometimes I feel addicted to it.

Most of the worst hatred all raised by good memories.

…and the life feels like spinning fast, sweeping emotions, granting new hopes, and cycle like an engine who never runs out of fuel. While somehow in the past, it feels like a clock refuse to tick, trap me into beautiful sadness, dig down very deep that hold every breath coming from my mouth.

This is not my first time of getting drunk, even this is my first time of alcohol. She already had me perfect hangover, for years.