light through the trees

okay i decided i’m staying home to get some rest

i wanna call out but i’ve been at work the past few days and like yes i’ve been still sick and wearing a mask and carrying hand sanitizer on my person and coughing and taking meds every four hours like my life depended on it but ive been there working and pretending to be okay but now i feel worse again almost as bad as the day i went home and i think pushing myself is catching up to me especially after a very stressful “days off” and being on my period the whole fucking time. i think im just. fuckin beat dude.

showered and am drinking tea for my throat but i honestly don’t feel much better. without the meds i am 100% still sick. it’s been like this all fucking week. i took a day and a half off why is that not enough? i know deep down what i should do. weather or not ill listen to that idk. like i really just need rest. even when i was at work again the last two days on the meds i was functioning but by the end of my shift i really started to fade fast. idk. i’m just exhausted.

bruh why the fuck do i feel WORSE

hate stop bein sick bro