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I would like to read the rant about the doll community and anti blackness if you ever feel like sharing it 😮💨
I am so down for it, I just didn't want to derail your post too much talking in the tags!
I've been interested in dolls my entire life, and active in the broader doll community for probably the better part of a decade. There have been times when I have been more or less active in it, and a great deal of this come-and-go activity has been due to racism (among other issues regarding fatphobia, anti-native racism in particular, and other general clownery).
[I do want to lead with what dolls I am primarily interested in, so that there is context for which spaces in particular I am active in and may bring up as examples for this kind of behavior: Monster High, Rainbow High, Barbie, BJD, and doll customization. I also want to lead with mentioning I am native Cherokee, so will have a hint of the Native experience mixed into this rant as well.]
I feel that doll-collecting as a hobby lends itself as a breeding ground for antiblackness. I've found the bulk of the issues that I have run into are related to white fragility, and what happens when that delicate balance of white feelings is upset. Regardless of whether it is the dehumanization or fetishization of black women, it can still trigger that white fragility.
For starters, people being emotionally attached to particular characters that, by the nature of dolls, are often being interpreted based purely off of a character design, sets up a scenario in which white people can easily feel fragile. I have seen more than once a white person get inordinately upset when a BIPOC brings up a popular headcanon, or even outright black-coding of a doll. 99% of the time, this sudden protectiveness over the whiteness of a doll that they like comes following a completely friendly comment from a black person.
Why is this? Because, to them, black is the worst thing that a person can be. A BIPOC expressing a colored headcanon for a doll is therefore read by some white doll fans as an insult. This results in torrents of microaggressions similar to what many black gamers experience in gaming communities: "why do they have to be black?" While masked behind the curtain of "artistic preference" and "just giving criticism," it really boils down to racism.
[examples to back up my point: the whitewashing of Delilah Fields (Rainbow High), who is black with albinism and upsets a LOT of white folk; and G1 Clawdeen Wolf (Monster High), who I have seen be put through the "she's not black, she's a werewolf. That's why she's brown" argument more times than I can count.]
Additionally, there is the issue of, should black doll collectors (or other collectors of color), want to carve out a space to discuss this without incurring constant comments from white folk, white people feel entitled to black spaces.
I was a part of the Rainbow High subreddit for some time, and, following the release of Delilah Fields (or thereabouts in that time frame), a woman of color from that subreddit made her own separate subreddit for Rainbow High collectors of color to discuss headcanons and opinions without white people adding antiblackness to the conversation. I'm sure you can guess what happened next: floods of hate on the subreddit whenever any conversations surrounding blackness would get brought up, ultimately leading to the subreddit being deleted. This is just one example from my admittedly very small doll-focused pond, but illustrates my point of white fragility leading to some people feeling defensive over their favorite dolls to the point of harassing POC.
And that is nothing to say of white collectors who, like you pointed out in your post, conveniently have a "preference" for white, light-skinned, or fantasy-tone dolls. I've seen white collectors who argue that the lack of textured hair in dolls (a problem that I believe has improved over the years) isn't rooted in racism, and it's just because producing textured hairstyles in dolls is more expensive from a manufacturing standpoint. I've seen it argued that dark-skinned dolls are more expensive and not worth it due to the dolls needing more dark-colored dye to produce.
Regardless of whether or not black dolls do actually cost more to make, the willingness of white fans to jump at the defense of white doll designers centering whiteness is again a symptom of pervasive antiblackness within this community. At its very worst, I've even seen a white collector argue that little black girls aren't as interested in dolls, and it's okay that there are more white dolls than black for this reason (which in turn relates back to the racist, antiblack idea that little black girls are "more grown" than little white girls).
Doll customization lends to a particular kind of antiblackness. Doll customization, by nature of being related to makeovers (from the hair to makeup, clothes, and body modifications of a doll), faces the additional problem of fetishization of black women. These issues coexist as a matter of antiblackness: they manage to both adopt black aesthetics in their redesigns and AAVE in the way they talk about their process (I am not going to list any particular creators due to not wanting to encourage harassment, but it's the same kind of AAVE adopted by white folk who are fans of drag) while also maintaining antiblack ideals. White women are "curvy," whereas black women are "thicc." The differences in the ways lightskinned vs. darkskinned doll bodies are talked about, the ways this manifests as the kinds of body types dolls are given, the aesthetics and personalities assigned to white vs. light-skinned vs. dark-skinned dolls; it all boils down to antiblackness.
hey so filming people without their consent is weird. you know that right? filming people you don't know and they aren't aware of what you're doing is creepy. posting strangers online is fucking weird. we're too comfortable with doing it now for shits and giggles, chasing some sort of viral hit instead of reckoning with the fact that you posted someone who did not consent to their body and face being publically used.
we're being pushed these Meta Glasses as if mass surveillance of strangers is fun and normal! it's weird!!! there are already reports that people are using these to film women without them knowing and sharing it to communities who get off on this shit. who else knows who people are filming. these glasses with cameras are not obvious and that is dangerous.
I'm not even kidding it's so clear that everyone sees black people and especially black women as some sort of alternate species. I'm getting into doll collection & customization videos because I've been getting into collecting myself and toys and art are supposed to bring me happiness and even there I can't escape the anti blackness. Like... you're lucky if you find a character or doll that's consistently brown skinned and carefully designed in popular brands. Collectors will always favor light skin or fantasy colors anyways. I had to watch a white creator call a custom Garnet doll "dummy thicc" and describe her in progress proportions as "female rappery" why couldn't you just have said curvy? You're not funny or cool and I'm very tired
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But when I say the “wholesome and funny” YouTube short I have been handed of students surprise showing their teachers 10+ year old photos of themselves and most them were emo/goth in some way and every single one now has medium brown beach waves and is wearing head to toe beige and immediately screams and hides the photo like it’s the most embarrassing thing in the world is a hallmark of a deeply insidious tendency to associate socially acceptable WASPy aesthetics with maturity and responsibility and perpetuates the idea that everyone grows up, “gets right” and becomes the most digestible unobtrusive heterosexual I’m “taking it too seriously”
“It’s not that serious” oh but it issssss because every day we perpetuate the idea that non-conformity of any kind to the white straight middle class standard is inherently immature and gets “left behind” when someone becomes a socially acceptable adult
when people who want to be vaguely progressive say 'nature' all secular style but it's painfully obvious they mean 'god' while thinking they don't mean god
“Culture tends to argue that it forbids only that which is unnatural. But from a biological perspective, nothing is unnatural. Whatever is possible is by definition also natural. A truly unnatural behaviour, one that goes against the laws of nature, simply cannot exist, so it would need no prohibition.”
- Yuval Noah Harari
As someone who is both trans and has a child, absolutely hilarious to me that society presents one of these as absolutely only to be done if you are 110% certain and have proved to several people that you want it bad enough and are ready, and the other is like. You might as well everyone else does. Just do it nobody feels ready. You don’t want to? Yes you do
Especially since one of those is pretty reversible if you change your mind after a couple years and the other one, well, technically but that’s pretty frowned upon
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"Going a couple hours without eating a single kind of food? No thanks, I would rather kill a child" is such a wildly horrifying take to see MULTIPLE people proudly stating.
incredibly bizarre and confusing seeing ppl call themselves "chuds" all the sudden b/c like
thats what we call neo nazis and shitty conservative bros? or at least its what we used to call them? why are ppl calling themselves "chuds" affectionately now
what is happening
yall know chud means fascist right like please tell me yall know that
im hoping this is a case of "younger folks on the internet adopting Silly Word b/c its Silly and not realizing it actually means something"
so here's me educating! you're calling yourselves fascists! thats what you're doing! maybe don't do that and use your head before you start using every goofy word you see!
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being too warm during the day: well, this sucks, but this temperature makes sense because the sun is up, and the sun is making me warm. i am unhappy but logically i can deal with it for now.
being too warm at night: what if i kill everybody.