when it's cold i'd like to die

We were in that hellscape together, that's true. Mike and El had been the central dynamic since season one and the ending was soul crushing for not just us, but everyone involved. I'm glad it provided you with some comfort knowing you weren't the only one upset by what happened in the end. I'm not just saying that. You know me. If I thought you were ugly, I'd say it, but you weren't. You pull off everything. Baldness, crying, even that stupid meme of you singing Imagine is adorable. That's not true at all, I go all red, my face screws up, it's not a look for me, but if you think I'm cute then I'm not about to argue with you. I like that you think that way about me. You really did go through the most and I'm not discrediting that. I also know you cared the most about your character and having her killed off was awful for you. Come on, there is no other world where some other kids got lucky enough to play El and Mike. They belong to us and I don't want to imagine any other reality. You're actually saved as the Mage in my contact. Not sure you knew that, but now you do. Mills, it's not silly to need reassurance. I know it's scary to go out into the world and not know what's happening next, but you can always count on me. Okay, you can remind me of what an idiot I am anytime you feel the need to. I won't even get offended. I will, however, pretend like you insulted my entire bloodline. Are you free now? I don't know your schedule, but you know you're welcome to any show. People will demand a refund if I spend most of the show laughing at you. You care too much. It's not necessarily a bad thing, but I do think it's makes you particular hard on yourself and you don't deserve that kind of treament from anyone. Don't worry, I'll bribe her with treats and plenty of tummy rubs. She's going to become my second shadow.

yeah, i know. part of me wishes it would've been different, but at least with this ending i wasn't the only one who felt completely wrecked, and that genuinely helped more than you probably realise. now you're just talking shit, finnie boy. i didn't look good bad, at all! i could forgive you for lying saying i look good crying, but no hair millie? yeah, the worst look of my career. the imagine meme will follow me forever. nah, still looking good, mister! that's just how i see you, i don't think i've ever seen you looking bad, ever. it's nice to think we're mike and eleven in every universe, i don't care about the circumstances, we were meant to be them. excuse me, i am absolutely keeping the fact that i'm saved as the mage in your phone forever. that's honestly one of the most adorable things i've ever heard. i'll change yours to the storyteller now. don't worry, i will absolutely take advantage of your offer to remind you that you're an idiot when necessary. lovingly, of course. i am free, and i would love to come to one of your shows. you know i love seeing you do what you love, and if i can embarrass you by singing loudly from the audience, even better. i think you're right that i care a lot, sometimes too much, and that can make me put impossible pressure on myself. having people like you around who remind me to stop being ridiculous is something i don't take for granted. you'll become her favourite in no time! above me, even.

We really do fall victim to the hands of time, but for once, it feels as though the tides are changing and we're going to be able spend more time together. Or maybe that's my blind hope, but I'm counting on that sleepover happening. I'm already mentally planning which pyjamas I should be packing. Come on, Mills, you know that cute guy was Jude Bellingham. I mean, you spent half the match yelling at that one player for tackling him. Who knew you were so passionate about soccer? I'm sorry, you know I would have stayed, but well, he invited me to the match and it would have been weird if I'd ignored him afterwards. Don't worry though, you'll still the love of my life. I'd like to think I'm less predictable than that, but since you're my other half, I guess it makes sense that you know me so well. Oh, definitely. We're the ones with all the power here. It didn't matter what happened on the pitch, our manifestation brought that trophy to Spain. That's how powerful we are.

i'm choosing to believe it's not blind hope, because i desperately need this sleepover to happen now. you've already started planning the pyjamas, so technically there's no going back. i'll just have to make sure my suitcase is ready too. yeah, i'll admit it, maybe i got a little invested. can you blame me though? i had to protect my people. i completely understand you leaving with him, i'm just going to continue pretending you abandoned me for the drama of it all because it's funnier. you're lucky i love you. and yes, exactly, our power cannot be underestimated. everyone else can talk about tactics and training, but we know the truth: spain won because two women (us) decided it was going to happen. the trophy was basically ours before anyone even lifted it. now we just need to manifest that sleepover with the same energy.

We should send him a nice gift basket so he knows how thankful we truly are. Oh darling, are you in for a ride. There's always a story to tell with those five. Well, the Spice Girls were set to announce a tour this year, but Geri pulled out and Mel B was really angry, and you know those two used to have a thing back in the 90s. I think they've made up now, they attended Mel C's wedding recently, but there's always a story with that group. I wish them all the best, they've been through a lot together. I think it's incredibly sweet that even after all the time you've spent together, both you and David can't get enough and want to star in another project alongside one another. The feeling must be mutual, Millie, he doesn't seem like the kind of man to do things he doesn't want to do. You're a wonderful actress and I know if you've signed onto a project, it's going to make a fantastic watch. Saturn makes sense, you truly are out of this world and I'm so lucky that you somehow blessed me with your other worldly presence.

we should! now that the show doesn't exist anymore, he can't invite us back, otherwise i'd already be demanding another afternoon there with you. ohh, there's never peace in that band. every time you think things have settled, another story pops up. i'm glad they seem to have patched things up, though. after everything they've shared, i'd hate for any of them to fall out for good. but i can't lie, i would love to go to a show... maybe show them photos of the chickens i named after them. the bond with david is definitely strong! we've had our little disagreements over the years, but i suppose that's true of any dad and his daughter. you can't have light without a little darkness. i think he must like me at least a bit if he willingly signed up to work with me again. the first time he didn't really know what he was getting himself into… this time? he had no excuses. and oh, shush! you're only making me adore you even more with all that sweet talking.

why are you trying to expose me when i came here all embarrassed to tell you that i thought i was going to be your boyfriend one day, millie? i really need to learn how to keep my mouth shut. don't you think you're a bit out of my league? do you actually think i would have a chance? it's a shame you've never worn a barça shirt, i'll have to fix that and get one for you! i don't think i'll ever be on good terms with a real madrid player, but maybe i'll send vini jr. a dm just to make him jealous, dunno if he would actually read it because my last interaction with him? i told him to shut up & play football. i can't believe it! you're way too perfect to do anything embarrassing.

only because it's way too funny not to tease you about it. well, i just hate the whole "out of your league" thing. it's such a ridiculous, self-defeating expression. you're asking far too many questions now, but i'll answer this one: no, i'm not out of your league. and neither is anyone else, really! well, okay, maybe women who are significantly older than you, but i reckon you already know that, right? my dad would have my head if i started wearing anything other than a liverpool shirt. he was the one who turned me into a proper supporter, so you can blame him for that. but if it's to make someone you had a little fight with, then i will do it. if you knew half the painfully awkward things i've done, you'd feel a whole lot better about yourself.

You're telling me. I've been heartbroken my this entire situation. Personally, I think you've been the busy one. Between the Enola Holmes press tour and other people vying for your attention, it's been rather hard for me to track you down. I love that you're out there doing your thing, but it really has put a dampener on our plans. I say we stop all the excuses, make a plan and actually stick to it this time. Since I'm free, I'm more than happy to put in the travelling miles. Our hot girl summer will happen, I refuse to let this season go without seeing us skin kissed and happy. Where are you? I will genuinely pack a bag right now if you want me to.

okay, first of all, i refuse to accept any of the blame here. i'm busy, sure, but you're impossible to get hold of! i completely agree, we're done making plans that never leave the chat. if you're genuinely willing to do the travelling, then that's it, no more excuses. we'll pick a date, commit to it, and protect it with our lives. our hot girl summer will happen, even if it turns into hot girl late summer. i'm actually in atlanta right now, so don't tempt me by saying you'll pack a bag if you're not really doing it! getting to be in the same place as you for a while? oh yeah, i need that.

i think we're the same age and i've always believed that one day you'd fall in love with me, but my friends keep telling me you're way out of my league. and now i think your heart belongs to someone else, but i just wanted to tell you that you were my crush for years. and i think i've seen you wearing a barcelona jersey before, unless it was ai. but if it had my number on the back, it would've been even more perfect & i would die. either way, if you ever want a lesson in how to embarrass yourself, i'd be more than happy to teach you. i'm basically an expert.

wait, that's funny! that's information that would've been very useful. i would've bragged about this to my brother, he'd have hated it... well, i might just do it now anyways. your friends are talking absolute nonsense. the whole way out of your league thing? i never bought it. oh, i think i've never worn a fc barcelona jersey before, so it might be ai but i will tell you this, i definitely like barça more than real madrid so you can brag about it to your mates, if you are in good terms with any real madrid players, that is! i know there's a historic rivalry there. oh, you haven't embarrassed yourself and even if you did, trust me, i've done more embarrassing things in my life.

knowing me, i'd end up making friends with one of the security guards and they'd let me in anyway. thirty seconds is a long time at parties like yours, i'm sure i'd miss half the fun if i arrived that late. oh, am i your favourite? how many people do you tell that to every day? look me in the eyes and tell me you're not lying. but you're welcome! i'm glad you're doing well, i keep an eye on sadie too, because i know that girl never gives herself a break. you know i'd drop any job in a heartbeat if it meant any of you could have it instead. yes, that's called being hyper, i'm convinced i've accidentally had a redbull that grants infinite energy, because i simply cannot sit still..

true, you absolutely would. that's the problem. sometimes i love your ridiculous charisma and sometimes i hate it, you somehow manage to win everyone over. it's actually unfair. those parties are only cool when you're there. if it's just americans... no offence to them, but it's not quite the same. my parties require the funniest brits around, which basically means you and me. i lie to everyone else, never to you. especially not after you were the only one who said eleven was alive. i haven't forgotten that. sadie's always off doing something. it's incredibly rude, because i never get enough sadie time, but i suppose we'll let it slide since she's absolutely smashing it career-wise. no no, don't drop anything. i just watched the rings of power teaser and it looks ridiculously good. is there actually anything you can't do? i knew you had something up your sleeve to be this energetic all the time. come on then, what's the secret?

he's going to grow up and be a little heartbreaker, but for now he's only got eyes for one woman and it's not his mom. it's a certain british babe who looks like a disney princess. i think you should do a few all-ages projects soon, if not for my son's approval, then to enlarge the fan-base to include the younger generation. oh, stop it! i tell him that and he'll demand to meet you so unless you're willing to follow through... i won't tell him a thing.

has excellent taste. clearly he already has a very refined eye for a good disney princess-looking british babe. i won't let that go to certain baddie's head. exactly, gaining the approval of the younger generation is now an important career milestone. i'll take it very seriously. hey, i definitely need to meet him now! it's a must. although now you've created a lot of pressure because apparently i have a tiny fan expecting this grand first meet up. i'll have to make sure i don't disappoint, disappointing kids is one of my worst fears.

do you usually notice a difference when you get to work with other Brits versus working with other nationalities? i don't know if that's a dumb question but i'm from the south and whenever i meet other folks from the deep south, there's this deeper understanding that i don't share with people from somewhere. did you work in collaboration with a stylist to make these looks? do you usually get a lot of input into what you wear on the red carpet? best of both worlds situation, eh? i ove that for you. have you done any traveling? i love touring, especially since a lot of my team are also my friends so it doesn't feel lonely on the road. i'm tired all the time lmao, but i also feel really alive every day, if that makes any sense? you should come to a show, i would love to have you there. if you're free?

oh, it happens all the time, you made perfect sense! whenever i'm working with other brits, there's this unspoken shorthand that comes from growing up with the same references, the same humour, the same way of talking. you don't have to explain half the jokes because everyone just gets them. also, the food choices. i've been lucky enough to work with people from all over, and before long you end up stealing little bits from each other. it's definitely a collaboration, i work with a stylist but i'm lucky that they really listen to what i like and what i feel comfortable in. i'm always involved because at the end of the day i'm the one wearing it, so i want it to feel like me. although getting to wear clothes i'd never have the confidence to buy for myself is one of the perks. yes, i've managed to squeeze in a little travelling while i've had some time off! which has been lovely because i know things are about to get busy again. your description of touring actually makes perfect sense to me. i imagine it's exhausting, you go to bed completely shattered but knowing you've done something you love. having your friends with you must make such a difference too. i would absolutely love to come to one of your shows if our schedules ever line up. consider that a promise. just let me know where and when, and if i'm free, i'll be there cheering you on.

Thrill of my life. Still can't believe it happened. I'm telling you, we are soulmates, it was meant to be. We can't stay away from each other for too long, it's been decided by the laws of the universe. Next time, we'll see each other for more than a couple hours. I'm talking full blown sleep over because one day is never enough. Yeah, I was so upset for you guys. I know how much the team and the fans wanted it. Guess we just have to cheer extra loud for Spain this year. Wow... can't believe you would call me out like that. Am I really so obvious? But you know me, I cling to you like glue. You're stuck with me in this life and the next, no one coukd never take your place.

i hate how we had been saying "we need to see each other" for what felt like forever, but glad that somehow it happened at a football match of all places. if that's not fate doing its thing, i don't know what is. and don't tempt me with the sleepover idea because now i'm going to hold you to it. one evening is nowhere near enough, plus you left with that cute guy and left me to my own devices. as for you clinging to me like glue... was that ever really in doubt? you're about as subtle as a flashing neon sign, but i wouldn't have it any other way. i quite like being your designated person. do you think spain took the cup home because of our manifestation and cheering? i'm sure.

He might not have been the one that booked us, but it was his show and I'm giving him full credit. Things worked out the way they did for a reason. The universe knew we needed to meet and strike up this wonderful friendship. Is this where we start our deep dive on The Spice Girls again? Have you been keeping up with the latest drama? I'm hooked. Being in a cast like that for as long as you did and having those relationships become so impactful makes sense. You love those you're surrounded by and I hope you are able to maintain those relationships. You're working with David Harbour again, aren't you? That's a huge step in the right direction and the premise of the series is so captivating. I will be tuning in. You have a good heart Millie, they're lucky to have someone as caring as you in their lives. Hearing that you're in a much better place with Eleven warms my heart and well, not to be annoying or anything, but when I watched, I truly did believe she might still be out there. That might be the nicest compliment I have ever recieved. Seriously, what planet did you arrive from? You can't be human, you're far too perfect for that.

if he ever asks, i'll happily tell him he accidentally facilitated one of my favourite friendships. don't even get me started on the spice girls because every time i think the drama couldn't possibly get any messier, they somehow prove me wrong. they know we're all invested but i genuinely don't know what's the latest drama. i really hope those friendships last forever too. we've all grown up together in such a strange little bubble that it would feel wrong to lose that, and getting to work with david again genuinely feels like coming home a bit, he's like a father to me and i'm forever grateful for him. i'm so excited for people to see what we'll do, 'cause i already know it's gonna be a great one. i made peace with it, it's fine… i cried many tears already, i met my quota now. stop saying things like that, you'll have me blushing! i'm definitely human, i don't know if i could say the same about you, but i always thought saturn was so cool so maybe from there.