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let's leave it at we're both too good for this world, yeah? i'm glad we don't have to live in one where we'd have to figure out what to do without each other 'cause i'm perfectly happy having you in my life. i think people see a character as "just a role," but when you've spent so many years growing up alongside them, it's impossible not to leave a little piece of yourself behind when it's over. eleven gave me so much, and saying goodbye was always going to hurt, no matter how ready i thought i was (and i never was, never will). hearing you say that makes me feel a little less silly for grieving it. and you're the cutest. i think i'm just very lucky with the people i find along the way, and you're definitely one of them. having you as my honorary sister is something i'd choose every single time. i honestly can't imagine my life without you in it anymore.

I'm willing to agree to that. No need to argue when we can settle on such a lovely sentiment. I refuse to acknowledge that there could be a world in which we don't know each other. That just feels too cruel to be a reality I want to exist in. I agree wholeheartedly. It stops being just a role when you've built a life for yourself around it. For you, Stranger Things wasn't a TV show, it became a family and that's hard to let go. I know how much you loved Eleven and that ending was honestly one of the most brutal things I've ever witnessed. I'm just so sorry you felt so alone with your emotions. Please, don't ever feel silly for feeling something, it's far better than the alternative of being emotionally stunted. See, I think it's everyone else who's lucky to have you in their lives. I wouldn't want to live mine any other way than to have you close at all times.

funny you should ask, because i landed a broadway role not too long ago, so that definitely counts as the next big adventure. it's something i can tick off my bucket list since that's been a dream for a long time, and it's unreal that it's happening next year. and the great thing is you don't even have to keep that a secret since it's already been announced. i feel like you've painted a picture that i'm a bit of a workaholic, and that's only half true. i love being at home just as much as working, though i feel like being a dad has made me sort my priorities a little differently than i used to. things have to be worth it to be away from home, you know? though broadway very much is. but what about you? any projects i should be on the lookout for?

Broadway? Wow, that's incredible. I'm so happy for you, David. I hope I'm able to make one of your shows. I would love to see you in action, on stage. Being able to do something you have always dreamed of is such a huge achievement. Seriously, congratulations. I'll have to take you out to celebrate sometime. It must be so nice after all the secrecy you're under with your DC contract to be a part of something you can so openly talk about. No, not a workaholic, I just know you take great pride in the work you do and fully immerse yourself into each project. I must admit though, it's always so nice to know that you do take time out when you need it. Are you a bit of a home body then? Being a parent really must set your priorities in a different path. I understand you must take a lot of caution with each thing you agree to. You want to be around to watch your child grow. Broadway is a different kind of beast, isn't it? Yeah, I actually have quite a lot on my plate these days. Four movies and a tv show. Now that I think about it... maybe I'm the workaholic.

i know you've done so many different period dramas. i feel you should get an award just for surviving those costumes. i don't think i could ever do it, i love my sweats and sneakers too much. @lilyjcms

Oh, thank you very much. I've definitely been in some extremely uncomfortable costumes, but anything for the art of my craft. I feel lucky with each thing I'm cast in, so I can't complain. Do you always search for more modern pieces to work in then? Entirely understandable. I love to see a women knowing exactly what she likes and refusing to apologise for that.

can't say i've missed it, but even if i had, after we broke up, my mum stayed with me for a while and i honestly thought she might've got rid of it. don't remind me about the red wine… looking back, i probably did look like i was on the verge of tears. i think i held myself together more than i thought myself capable of! of course not. you know i don't say things just for the sake of saying them. i'd happily spare you the embarrassment, but it's also the truth. i'm really sorry for how i handled things. i never wanted to put that distance between us, especially not without being honest with you first. you didn't deserve to be left wondering why i seemed to disappear or feeling like you were annoying me or anything. that was unfair on you. i do miss you, lil. i really do. and i think you're right, we probably were both dealing with more than we realised at the time. maybe we do owe it to ourselves to look at things with clearer heads now. oh, that damn wig. at least this one looks better. i'm very happy you're watching it and enjoying me with decent blond hair. …really? i don't think you ever really left my mind either. you should know that whenever i think of us, it's always the good things that come first. i don't know if you can ever recreate what you once had, but i do know i'd rather have you in my life.

Wouldn't put it past your mom. She always knew that if she didn't bin something, you would probably hoard everything you ever touched. A wise women, really. Okay, we won't bring up the war, but I know what your football shirts mean to you and if it helps, I did feel really bad about it. You didn't actually cry, so that goes to show you are extremely capable of keeping your emotions together and that's impressive in its own way. Well then, you should know that I'm happy we're talking right now. I wasn't sure if reaching out was the right thing to do, but apparently, it was exactly what we both needed. Speaking to you again feels right somehow, like I'm rediscovering pieces of myself I didn't know I was missing. I understand. The situation was hard to comprehend at first and I was hurt and angry that you could vanish so easily from my life like it didn't matter, but I realise now how difficult the whole thing was. We were too naive to think we could fall straight back into a friendship after all the history we shared, but I miss you. I'm willing to reevaluate the entire situation if you are? You have a very striking face. The blonde only further highlights that, but I fancied you when you were bald, so I might be entirely biased in my evaluation. I don't know? You never reached out and I didn't want to assume you thought about me at all. It would hurt to much if I was confronted with the idea of you totally erasing me from your life. I'm not trying to recreate the past, but I know I definitely want you in my future, in whatever capacity you allow that to be.

i always make sure that i have cafeine around me when i am working. can't miss a beat. i don't have it much on my days off though. i have the fresh air and the beach with my dogs. i just send who is not busy at that time on a coffee run and when i am not busy i do the same thing for other cast members. we all have the same ammount of work load, so we all hang in there together. you are right though it is the life that we chose and i wouldn't change a thing.

A wise decision, honestly. I find caffeine usually helps solve most of my problems. Sometimes a beach and your dog is all you really need to make it through the day. Seems like it's working just fine for you. It's nice that you all pitch in. Occasionally, there will be that one guy on set who doesn't want to help out and that always brings the mood down. I'm glad you don't have to deal with that.

your version of "andante, andante" in the second "mamma mia" movie still lives rent-free in my head even though it's been what.. over six years ? and i know you've done a lot of great projects since then ― i loved every single one, obviously, and i should just move on. but i can't. i'm stuck playing that song on repeat every other week. maybe it's your voice. or maybe it's because young donna just inspires me. minus the getting pregnant and not knowing who the father is part. are you planning to mix music and film again in the near future ? so i can switch it up a little. i'm not asking, i'm pleading. get me out of my "touch me gently like a summer evening breeze" loop. / @lilyjcms

Has it really been that long? It only feels like yesterday, but thank you so much. Working on that movie was so much fun and knowing people still care about it is more than I could have ever imagined. Thank you for being so kind, wow, I'm actually blushing right now. There are certain songs that just stick with us, aren't there? I'm really happy yours happens to be something I had a hand in. Young Donna was a force and other than the whole baby situation, she really had such a drive going for her. People tell me, more often than you think, how much they love her and that always warms my heart. I think a lot of that is owed to Meryl though. She really laid the foundations that gave me room to grow Donna beyond what we saw in the first film. Can't say for certain, but I wouldn't rule it out. Singing can be intimidating, but if the right project came along, I would jump at the opportunity.

Giselle: my beauty, when you look like that? i'm swooning, you're so sweet! honestly, i love those fashion events, but sometimes meeting people like you make them a thousand times better!

LILY: That's so kind of you to say, but I'm not entirely convinced your real. You're so perfect, I'm a little blown away. I agree. I love the fashion shows, but sometimes it's the company that makes the whole thing worthwhile.

Lils, you're too good for this world. That genuinely means more to me than I know how to put into words. It really did feel like saying goodbye to an entire chapter of my life, and I don't think anything can quite prepare you for that, no matter how much you know it's coming. I'm incredibly lucky to have grown up with that cast, but it definitely made letting go so much harder. You saying you found a sister in me me has completely melted my heart! It's not like I have shortage of sisters but you're definitely one to me. You're the best, and I hope you know the feeling's mutual, the offer goes both ways.

Personally, I think you're the one too good for this world. What would I do without you? Living and growing in an enviroment like that comes with a sense of safety. You feel so protected by the world you've build and naturally in turn, you become an extention of the character you've taken on. It makes sense and it's totally normal for you to grieve what you had. I mean, it's a loss. People might not take it seriously, but it was important to you and I think you've been entirely rational over the whole thing. You're too loveable. No wonder so many people find themselves creating a sibling dymanic with you. I just feel fortunate that you care about me enough to consider me to be like a sister. Couldn't imagine not knowing you.

I can't believe you've had it all along, but I'm even more surprised that it survived one of your great clean-outs. Poor thing must've been buried for years throughout all those 'I'll deal with this later'. Of all things, that really is a relic. And for what it's worth, I'm glad you reached out. You don't have to feel embarrassed about it, at all. Plus, if we're admitting things now, I should say that you've been in my mind for quite some time now. I know it sounds false 'cause I haven't said anything to you myself, but didn't know what the reaction would be and I can only be ghosted by you a couple of times before my ego gets fatally hurt. It's really nice hearing from you, Lil. Are you watching the show? If you are, I hope you're liking it so far! I like being on your mind, that I can't deny, hopefully it's all good things but I know for a fact that I might've earned to be in your bad books. I'd be surprised if it were all fond memories.

Blame my poor organisational skills. That shirt could be inducted into a sports history museum with how long it must have been gathering dust. Surprised you haven't missed it. I know you have a few different versions of their kit, but you're usually so possessive over them. Remember the time I accidentally spilt red wine over you when you were wearing one? I felt awful, I thought you were going to cry. Wait, you're not just saying that so I don't feel weird, are you? If this conversation makes you uncomfortable, I would completely understand. You did opt out of whatever strange dymanic we have and I am kind of intruding on the space you created. Do you actually miss me? That doesn't sound real. I don't know, I've never really ghosted you, Matt. You were the one that slowly disappeared from my life. At a certain point, there was only so much I could do without feeling like I was annoying you. Maybe we should reevaluate? We were both in an emotional state and that could have made us act irrationally. Of course I'm watching. Very found of you in a long, blonde wig if you're curious. Matt, I don't think you ever really left my mind. At least, not fully. There were bad moments, but they're entirely eclipsed by all the good memories we shared. Sometimes I find myself thinking back in those times and wishing we could go back. We were so happy then and I guess I miss it more than I thought I did.

Its been there since I can remember. I remember when my dad did the same thing but the game is way different now than when my own dad played. Exactly, I will be very focused but you also gotta have fun as well. Its an amazing experience for sure.

I had no idea your dad played too. That's such a cool family tradition you've carried on. I'm guessing your love from the sport came from him then? There's a certain balance you have to find that works for you and it seems you know what that is.

what's it like getting to be a disney princess? i imagine it's like what every little girls dreams to be, but i figured it would be nice to hear firsthand experience because i just know playing cinderella had to be a dream come true. plus, you looked so gorgeous in that ball gown they had you in. did you ever wish you got to keep it? // @lilyjcms

Honestly, it was overwhelming. Obviously, it was so magical and I really felt so incredibly lucky to have had the opportunity to play someone as iconic as Cinderella, but this was really before the huge trend of the live action movies, so we weren't sure if it was going to resonate with an audience. Fortunately it did and I still get little girls running up to me, which in itself is so special. It did feel like a dream come true and that dress was heavenly. I couldn't breath that well it in, but it felt like a piece of art. Of course, I wish I could have kept it, but I think it's probably best Disney has it. I would have just kept it in storage and it deserved far more than that. How about you? Which Disney princess would you like to play if you were given the chance?

𝓉𝑒𝓍𝓉 𝓉𝑜: lily james

Lily: Oh, darling, of course I remember you. You're Giselle and I remember I spent most of the show in awe at your beauty rather than focusing on the clothes. Not sure the brand appreciated it, but I had a wonderful time.

Thank you so much. I mean i love when we win but we play 162 games we can't be excited about all of them. We just gotta keep focus and our eyes on the prize if that makes sense. Well, I made a dog and named it the belli bomb. It contains mayo, mustard, jalapenos, cheese of your choice, chili cheese Fritos and nacho cheese. It was so good.

162 games might be a little excessive, but it is nice to take a moment out occasionally and realise how incredible the work is you do. Staying focused is the main point to ensure you're going to keep doing these incredible things and I'm sure your teammates appreciate your dedication. Okay, I'm writing it down and getting that exact order. Chili cheese Fritos will be a new expierence for me, but I'm not entirely against it.

it’s been a long week, but that is what happens when you start filming for sweeps you eat sleep and breathe set. the people around you become like family. we ran out of coffee this morning and we are all feeling it. we can’t even skip it because drivers are not allowed on set.

That sounds rough. I'm sorry you're having so many sleepless nights, but that is a common thing that happens in our line of work. It's only made that much worse when you're hit with a major lack of caffeine. Sorry to hear that. Have you considered bringing your own brand from home? It's not exactly the same, but might help for a short period. At least you're comfortable with the cast around you. I'm sure you're all suffering.