i can't stop thinking about kleya. this is a lot of processing, and i feel like it might piss people off towards the end. saying ahead of time that i really don't want to argue or even debate with anyone. if my ramblings don't resonate, keep scrolling. if you like this, hi please be my friend <3 this is the first day of my kleya marki special interest, but i also love mon mothma and i want to talk about them all the time!!!!!!!
i'm thinking about kleya marki sending a desperate emergency call, then pacing for who knows how long with a blaster in her hand, preparing to meet a fate just like luthen's. she's pulled the plug for him and is ready to do the same for herself. she's not scared of being caught and tortured because she would never let that happen. she's scared because she's carrying a secret that could save millions of lives, and she's carrying it alone. the entire rebellion on her shoulders.
i'm thinking about how kleya hates the idea of yavin and the rebels, how she desperately tells cassian everything she knows without even considering the possibility of telling them herself. her whole life has been a mission for the cause that the rebel alliance is still finding its feet in. she's only just now at risk, and she's still in control, carefully orchestrated and thought through with intention.
i think about how she calls for cassian not to save herself but to save real, ordinary people. kleya marki didn't risk exposure breaking into that hospital for revenge; she did it to withhold luthen's knowledge from the empire and to protect a rebel alliance that hates him. that blaster isn't in her hand because she never saw the sunrise; she's ready and willing to use it to withhold her knowledge from the empire and to protect a rebel alliance that doesn't believe her. she waits for someone to get her message, wondering if this secret will die with her, and instead of ending the anxiety, she holds it as long as she possibly can. never once considering that someone would come for her.
i'm thinking about how many people credit luthen for his sacrifice and how enraged cassian is at the lack of recognition he receives. but luthen had kleya, even after what he took from her. she cared more about the cause. she makes herself an island, starved of community, a child soldier. trained to be the child who spares her stand-in father from a torturous fate, no matter what it costs her. now he's gone. and what is kleya left with? her mind, a blaster, the biggest secret in the galaxy, an impossibly powerful enemy getting closer with every second, and a radio she made herself out of desperate scraps.
she doesn't try to run away like cassian has. she has no one to mentor, no one to remind her she's slipping. she is alone the way luthen trained her to be. she hides in that ship as a child because she wants to live, and the man she relies on turns her into a soldier. she wants justice. she wants people to be saved. but her life? only worth it in relation to the endgame. and never once does she whisper even to herself that she wants to see the sunrise.
i'm thinking about how kleya marki is only briefly mentioned at a table of rebel leaders. it's luthen. i'm thinking about how cassian is given the title of messenger. i'm thinking about how kleya sacrificed just as much as either of them. she's doomed by the narrative like cassian, and she chooses to tie herself to it like luthen. but between the three of them, kleya marki is the only one who lives to see the sunrise.
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