Rogue Ashes

You would find me at the beachIn every life, through every door

Well... Yes and no.

The last time Ryland Grace was CONSCIOUS of any human touch was when he was knocked out. Absolutely true.

But the last human contact he would have had was Yao and Ilyukhina. Who were told that he was scared about panicking during launch and asked to be sedated. Who did all the pre flight checks before the Hail Mary launched. Who would have carefully, gently carried Grace to his bed in the dormitory, made sure he was secure, and initiated his coma procedure.

There would have been love there. Remember Ilyukhina throwing her hands high and saying "welcome to crew!" Remember Yao saying how he hoped Grace would say yes. Remember how much the crew trusted Grace, Stratt's First Officer, the guy who helped them so much, and was so kind to them, and was the one who they entrusted their preferred methods of suicide to. Who thought they were wonderful and brave.

They would have tucked him in. Maybe brushed his hair out of his face. Maybe said something kind to him before initiating their own coma procedures.

back in January, my friend @bustedjaws on tumblr dot com came to me and told me i needed to make markiplier and ryan gosling gay, and then i did. in February, i posted it, and (to my knowledge) it is the first fanart made of bloodstar, now deemed by the fandom bloodymary AND IM HONORED TO HAVE CREATED THIS SHIP

AND THEN MARKIPLIER ACKNOWLEDGED OUR EXISTENCE (timestamp) AND HONESTLY IM SO FUCKING HAPPY DUDE

all jokes aside, even if this ship wasn't nearly as big as it currently is, i would still be shipping it to this day. and as big of an ego i have about this, this fandom and community wouldn't be what it is without everybody that ships them. like yeah did i technically make them? probably, but it's not important to me that people know my contributions to the bloodymary fandom, it's important to me that people came together to ship these two.

so many people in the fandom either stumbled across this or thought of this on their own and then found that there was a community and fandom for all of this. because the community is so kind and happy about wanting these two doomed spacemen to be happy together.

i like it too :)

step 1. go here (create new site skin page). (if you don't have an ao3 account you'll need to make one. i promise it is so so so easy and you'll get to read a bunch of member-locked fics u didn't know existed)

step 2. copy paste this:

body:has(.userstuff p.font-claude-response-body) #outer, body:has(.userstuff p.font-claude-response-body) #main, body:has(.userstuff p.font-claude-response-body) .userstuff, body:has(.userstuff p.font-claude-response-body) .userstuff p, body:has(.userstuff p.font-claude-response-body) .userstuff div { background: #ff0000 !important; color: #ffffff !important; }

in the css box, name it whatever u want, and, if you are NOT using a site skin already, click submit.

if you ARE using a site skin already, click "show advanced" (takes your hand. i will protect you. i promise). click the box next to "parent only." now click submit.

step 3. if you're already using a site skin, find it and click edit. scroll down to "parent skins" and add the one you just made. click update.

now if you click on a fic where the author copy-pasted claude directly into the work text box, the whole screen will turn bright red 👍 (or, if you go into the skin you just made and change #ff0000 to another hex code, it can be whatever color u want) (the world is your oyster. go my scallops)

Wacom recently asked me to talk about why I make queer comics, and given there are multiple bills right now floating around in congress that are effectively "we will kill your livelihood if we get a sniff of queer" I had some pretty strong, simply feelings to relay.

But this is still crazy, right?

I think we can all agree that fandom culture is Different these days, okay? It's a lot of mindless consuming. Looking at art and reading fanfiction and looking at posts. Dropping a like or a kudos and being on with it. Not actually commenting on the work or engaging with the creator. I find myself guilty of this sometimes, too. It's become less normalized to vocalize your excitement for something someone has created.

Which, without getting into it as much as I could, is a really big reason I never finish things. Simplified, it's because I stop caring because people stop caring. And you can preach to me all day about creating for the joy of yourself - and that's absolutely true - but it's hard to stay motivated on one project when it feels like I'm the only one who cares about it. So I make a lot of projects and never actually finish them.

But it does really feel different with the people putting phm and iron lung together? Like. The genuine engagement I've gotten with it has been ridiculous compared to literally anything else i've written for or been involved in. My fic with just above 2,000 hits has forty comment threads. People reply and reblog and add tags on my posts. I feel like I'm actually talking to a community instead of posting to a void of hypothetical people that don't care enough to say anything.

I SCREAMED ALOUD