oh my god we forgot the baby

another week another snippet, tyyy for the tags @barnbert @jackiemerrick @nerdyfangirl76 @dreamer-of-ships mwah 💛💛

Robert shouldn't even be here. By rights, he should have left the village ages ago, and the only reason he didn't was because his family needed him, because Andy begged him to stay. It's why he's still here, why he's been here, why he's stuck working himself to the bone on a farm he doesn't even like and fighting with Dingles day in and day out. Because apparently Robert is good enough to be used as fodder for this generational feud, but he's too much of a disappointment to represent the family he's giving all of himself to support when it really matters. Fucking figures. He's so busy stewing in his own fury and misery that he doesn't notice he's made it all the way down to the village until he bumps into someone, head jerking back up enough to notice he's on the corner of Main Street. "Watch where you're going," a voice says irritably, and Robert shifts his gaze to see who it is he's ran into, only for his face to fall when he sees it's none other than the current source of all his grief. "You." Aaron Dingle stares back at him, eyes heated with resentment and a barely-simmering anger that matches the one Robert currently feels coursing through him. Robert doesn't know Aaron all that well, really. They've lived in same village for years now, ever since Aaron stumbled back into it after he ran away and came to live with Chas when he was sixteen, but they've mostly stayed out of each other's way since then. Aaron will gladly finish fights when the Sugdens bring them to him, but he rarely starts anything the way Robert often will. As it is, the extent of their history remains mostly limited to trading passing insults and the odd time they'll go head to head when Aaron gets roped into helping out whichever family member of his has pissed off Robert that day, and not much more. Well, other than that one time. Aaron huffs. "Get off me," he says gruffly.

yes this was supposed to be published for fmi yes i said it would be done by sunday yes i was in fact wrong about that. it is what it is, no clue when this will actually be published now but hopefully it'll be sometime this week <3

Thanks @nerdyfangirl76, @jackiemerrick, @barnbert and @stuckinanothertimezone

Gonna start posting my sentences sparingly haha. I gotta leave some stuff for the actual posting of the story lmfao. Progress is slow but i'm getting theeeeere!!

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A wave of apprehension washes over him, a familiar dread that has clung to him for years. He can feel the weight of the bridge from where he watched the funeral, pressing down on his shoulders more than it has in years. The grave is also weathered, adorned by another bouquet of flowers sitting pride of place, but not by him. He walks towards it, but he doesn't kneel in front of it. Instead he just stands there, his hands held staunchly inside his leather jacket as he swallows down all the regret, and residual anger and mourning that swells together inside his chest like some weird amalgamation of feeling.

"Good to see you, Dad," he says. Because it's true. But it's also a lie. He doesn't know where the truth ends and the lie begins.

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Not who has or hasn't posted yet as I've been at work, so sorry if you're double tagged or already shared something. It just means extra love for you lmao!!

I was tagged by @jackiemerrick @stuckinanothertimezone and @barnbert 😊

Here’s a little bit of chapter four of I’m Coming Home to You.

“I’ve never been so scared in my life,” Robert said quietly. Aaron reached over and threaded their fingers together. “I was fine, Robert.” “Yeah, but I didn’t know that.” Robert’s voice was low. “When Chas called… all I heard was Aaron’s been in an accident.” His grip tightened around Aaron’s hand. “My head went straight to the worst possible place.” “I wanted you there,” Aaron said. “I needed you there.” Robert swallowed. The memory of the waiting room still stung. “They wouldn’t let me in.” Aaron sighed. “I told them it was okay for you to be there.” Robert looked at him. “They still said family only.” For a moment neither spoke. Then Robert frowned. “If we were married, they’d have to let me in.” Aaron blinked. “Well… yeah.” Another pause. “But we’re not, so…” Robert turned onto his side. “So marry me.” Aaron stared at him. “What?” “You heard me.” Robert looked completely serious. “Marry me.” “Aaron sat up so quickly he immediately regretted it. “Ow.” “Sorry.” “No, forget that.” Aaron pointed at him. “Did you just propose?” “Maybe.” “Maybe?” “Fine. Yes.” Aaron gaped at him. “Are you mental?” Robert laughed. “A little bit.” “Robert, we’re eighteen.” “So?”

I'm revisiting the works that I put on pause for FMI, so here's a bit from a doc titled "robron emotional thing" aka extra vulnerable Robert Sugden because that's how I roll in here 😅.

“Well, well, I’d like to say I’m surprised, but not really.” Cain’s tone is almost amused as he leans against the doorframe, a little smirk playing at his lips, “I hope you’re not distracting Aaron too much, Sugden.”

Aaron feels himself tensing, ready to step in if needed. 

“I’m only providing my very professional expertise." Robert says, smooth and bright. He’s still smiling, looking calm and-

Beautiful. He’s so beautiful and he matters so much that Aaron has to curl his hands into fists, his fingernails digging into the soft flesh of his palms so he doesn’t think about it, doesn’t think about himself, because it really shouldn’t matter now.

“Haven’t lost your touch, eh?” Cain hums, taking a step closer, looking at fiat 500 Aaron has been working on, “Looking good. Why don’t you go have a pint? Tell Chas to put it on me, I’ll stop by after closing up here.”

“I think we’ll pass.” Aaron says, taking his overalls off and quickly wiping his hands before making his way to Robert, touching his elbow, “Do you want to hop off?”

Robert nods, looking distracted, and he follows Aaron’s touch as he slides off the table. He wobbles a little when he lands on the floor, leaning forward, and Aaron’s hand flies to wrap around his waist instinctively, making sure to keep him upright. Robert exhales deeply, leaning into him, and his thin shirt is sweated through on the small of his back, clinging to Aaron’s arm, the damp heat making him breathless. 

Robert’s breathing hitches, and Aaron tries to swallow around the pressure in his chest.

Going back to my OG fic. My first baby 🥹🥹

Here is a snippet from, "I've Been Living with Devils and Angels."

“Loving you, yes, it has been like nothing else I’ve been gone through but, neither has being without you; the misery I felt staring at your picture, that cut deep. The days where I would have your grumpy tone on repeat because I’d forced you out the bed, to go to work, that’s misery. The endless moments of our vows and our wedding, both of them, knowing I cut that vow away without giving you, us, a chance to prove prison couldn’t beat us? Yeah that killed me.” Robert had to take a moment but he still looked towards Aaron with absolute certainty. “The messy stuff, the hospital rooms, watching you almost die? It hurts and I want to punch every wall and every man for even letting the world entertain the idea of you not existing in it, but, I would want to go through it with you, than live a life of emptiness without you. You make everything possible, you are my everything. I will never stop fighting for you. I did that once and I regretted it for six years. I’m not doing it any longer.” Robert let the silence have an opportunity for impact. Aaron’s face crumbling with emotion, his jaw shaking as he tried to sustain confidence in his vocal ability. “We have always been messy.” Aaron choked out. “Coming out of prison, it was supposed to give you chance for better.”

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thank you @barnbert for starting us off and for the tag @stuckinanothertimezone <33

“Robert, your breakfast.”  He presents it to him like a butler serves food to his master. Robert takes the plate and accepts the chaste kiss that Aaron is also offering, “Thank you. Where’s yours?” Aaron falters, the emotion in his eyes empties and he blinks blankly at Robert a couple of times. Then, like he’s a computer rebooting himself, he says, “I’m not hungry. I’ll get something later.” Worry flares up in Robert’s head; Aaron has a habit of skipping meals when he’s self-flagellating but he doesn’t want to cause an argument the morning after they get back together so he lets it go. If he notices a habit forming, he’ll bring it up.  Aaron plonks himself down on the sofa cushion beside Robert, not leaving an inch of space between them. He rests a hand on Robert’s thigh while he’s eating, laying his head on his shoulder and sighing contentedly. Vic watches them with a look of complete bafflement on her face until it winds Robert up enough that he snaps, “Shouldn’t you be heading to the pub, sis?” She glares at him and slams her empty coffee cup down on the coffee table. She doesn’t say a word as she gathers her bag and her chef hat and storms out of the house. Robert feels his appetite shrivel into nothing, only halfway through his breakfast. Aaron’s hand rubs at his thigh, “You should move back in,” he murmurs, “What?” “She’s clearly unhappy that we’re together. You should move back in. Move back home.” Home. Robert’s next breath shudders in his chest, “I’d really like that.” It’s when Aaron takes his plate from him to put it back in the kitchen that it clinks against his finger and Robert realises that he’s put his wedding ring back on.

Take my hand and we'll do it together. You ready?

25 days of robron