I am unknowable.

like yes things suck but at least ur not 15 again. and castiel is gay.

Sometimes I genuinely forget some destiel scenes are real and not fanfiction. Like wdym Dean went against Alastair who he panically feared because he almost killed Cas and it was when they barely knew each other yet in s4. The "we've been through so much together, you and I. I just wanted to say I'm sorry it ended this way" line. "Hey, Cas, not for nothing, but last person looked at me like that... I got laid". "Aw, ain't he a little angel" in the middle of the apocalypse. "I prayed to you, Cas, every night" for a YEAR. Dean changing his memories just not to have to deal with the fact that Cas could've left him voluntarily. "I need you" while on his knees and about to be killed. Gently petting Cas' knee and holding his face while Sam's also half dead in the background. Cain/Colette parallel. "You're pining for somebody" right after he talks to who he thinks is Cas, then overpowering connection with God's sister because he was worried for Cas more. The mixtape. "We've lost everything, and now you're gonna bring him back". Being generally suicidal every time Cas dies and once actively trying to kill himself, straight up saying he doesn't have faith if Cas is dead. Crying, praying on his knees in the middle of the monsterland and begging Cas to forgive him and to come back to him. In an illusion that Chuck shows Sam Dean giving up completely again "after I had to bury him in the ma'alak box". NOT PICKING UP THE CALL FROM SAM AFTER THE CONFESSION. WHILE GOD IS KILLING EVERYONE.

watching romeo + juliet with my wife and i casually say “do you see those very unique bright blue neon crosses behind romeo in this scene?” and my wife goes “is this gonna be about supernatural?”. and what so what if it was. god forbid.

I genuinely don't like Valentine's day until I picture 47 year old Dean Winchester trying to put together a little cute basket with things that Cas likes so he can ask him to be his Valentine and starting the sentence with "hey man.."

#he's dying inside #serves him right for cockblocking for all these years lmao #if they had just banged it out in 2013 none of these intricate rituals would be needed (via @ilarual)