im max. maxmaxxing. max4max. if you will

Time to start MAXMAXXING. I will DO EVERYTHING. BE EVERYTHING. FEEL NOTHING. HOLLOW MYSELF OUT AND BECOME THE PERFECT VESSEL. FROM NOW ON, I AM ONLY EATING CANNED SARDINES AND DRINKINKING MY OWN BATH WATER!!! I WILL BE MEWING AND MOGGING 25 MISERABLE HOURS A DAY!!!!!! FUCK YOU!!!!

thinking about experiencing my first sensation soon

work tomorrow is one of the worst things that can happen to you

rmbr when they all went to ronan’s childhood home and gansey was like “i rmbr when u used to smell like this” to him  like that was a regular thing to say 

fake tarot readings this beefing with declan that. my favorite thing that adam does in the dreamer trilogy is when ronan calls him to tell him about the weird parental doppelgangers he saw and how some guy keeps appearing in his dreams to spout ominous shit. and that hey i might be losing my grip on reality. and adams reaction is to be like. im going to spontaneously take a 12 plus hour motorcycle ride to check in on you without warning. break into your house. casually talk you down from shooting me in the head because you dont know whats real and i didnt warn you i was coming over. then ill ask if you want to fuck and THEN instead of even doing that im going to fuck up scrying so bad ill be basically auditioning for The Exorcist in your bed forcing you to stab me to bring me back into my body. and then ill leave in like an hour because i have an exam tomorrowwww

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