ADHD-addled, ace/pan-arospec, asocial mess of aĀ LokeanĀ potato all wrapped up in a pretty bow of depression and paranoia. Actual jeweller, occasional writer, theoretical adult. They/them or may your bacon always burn. Queer as in fuck you. āš I run on spite and chocolate cake.
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Several wildfires are forcing members of a number of First Nations to flee their homes in northern Ontario.
āI had time to run home and pack a bag and get to the beach where the boats were waiting,ā said a member of Namaygoosisagagun First Nation (Collins). āWe literally had minutes to get on the boats and flee before it took our town.
āOnce we left my house finally after packing what I could in a pack sack, the fire was right behind our place. We had to run to the beach and once we got there, it was only moments before the fire had jumped over the (train) track and was coming for us.ā
it has since been confirmed that namaygoosisagagun first nation has completely burnt to the ground. if you would like to help the community navigate an ongoing crisis, i urge you to donate to the anishinabek nation 7th generation, a registered charity seeking to improve the lives of first nations people. donations are going directly to members of namaygoosisagagun first nation.
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Iāve never been hurt by the fact that my stepfather loved my sister more than me. For me, itās just that- a fact.
I donāt remember my real dad at all, really. He passed away when I was around two or three years old. I remember meeting Dale for the first time, although even thatās getting pretty fuzzy. I remember the giant of a man kneeling down to my level, stone faced and solemn.
Then he reached forward and gave my hand a shake. āYou like spaghetti?ā He asked. I only nodded, too shy to speak. He just grunted and headed to the kitchen to start throwing dinner together. Dale can make a killer spaghetti. And I didnāt even like spaghetti until then.
Iām not saying he doesnāt love me. He definitely does, back then he did his best to connect with a shy kid thatād rather color than talk to people. He had also been married before, married and divorced with a son that was much older than I was. Max was already seventeen when I was only six. And it was at six years old that my mom and Dale had my sister, Harmony-Rose. Just Harmony for short, of course.
The moment that tiny baby was handed to Dale I knew heād completely fallen in love. I was little, but I could tell he was doing his best to hold back tears. An effort that was wasted, as a tear trickled down his cheek as he sat down and rocked her back and forth.
Dale took a pay cut to be able to work from home for the first few years of Harmonyās life. Mom once said he got up for more midnight feedings and diaper changes than she did. Maybe back then I got a little jealous now and then, but Iād only need to look at Harmonyās sweet face to realize why he loved her so much. She was perfect. An easy going baby who laughed and cooed with everyone but daddyās girl all the way, I couldnāt be mad at her. I love Harmony too.
Sheās never stopped being an amazing little sister either. From a sweet baby to a well mannered toddler, all the way up till spring of this year, she has always been just the best. I did get closer to Max as the years went by, when I stopped being a little kid and became a teenager you could actually have a conversation with, but Harmony was just always there.
Iām not saying she stopped being the best. Iām just saying thatās when⦠well⦠she got sick.
Iād just turned eighteen, Harmony now a go getting twelve year old. She was a part of her schoolās gymnastics team, had all the friends, but she always gave me a tackle hug when she came home. She told me about all the boys she thought were cute, and the ones that werenāt so much. Iād promise to stomp in the faces of any that made her cry, and Harmony would make a point of poking my bicep and raising an eyebrow. No words needed. Iām a wimp.
Mom and Dale just thought it was just a flu bug that wouldnāt go away. I did too. And Harmony, well, what else would she think it was? She always had bruises from gymnastics practice, the fact they werenāt going away didnāt occur to any of us that there was a further problem.
By the time we went to the doctor, the damage had already been done.
Leukemia. Fucking leukemia. How could Harmony have leukemia? It doesnāt run in our family and up until then sheād rarely even gotten a cold. Leukemia diagnoses happens to other families, other kids. Not Harmony. It couldnāt happen to Harmony.
My mom told me that when the doctor broke the news, Dale fell to his knees. Both her and the doctor thought he was about to pass out, his face was white with shock. Dale doted on Harmony, was always in her corner when she needed back up, and she was one of the few people heād drop the stern outer shell for to show his soft heart. And now there was something he couldnāt fight for her, no matter how hard he tried.
Harmony tried to be positive at first. āIām a tough kidā, sheād said, mock flexing and reassuring her dad that sheād beat this. She went into chemo treatments with a smile on her face, and as her hair fell out sheād had me help shave her head, cracking jokes about how she now looked like season one Eleven from Stranger Things.
I think even then she was putting on a brave face. The doctors hadnāt lied, her form of leukemia was particularly aggressive. Maybe if weād caught it sooner, weād be better off, but that just wasnāt how the cards played out.
Harmony was dying. We all knew she was dying. The spunky girl with the energy of a lighting strike faded away rapidly, turning into a pale child with sunken dull eyes and barely a smile. She was always tired, and as the months passed with no real improvement, her sense of humor waned and Iād often catch her lost in thought.
Two months ago she called me to her bedroom, asking if she could talk with me alone. Dale actually quit his job so he could be with her 24/7, caring for her every need. It was hard for us to get sibling time, just the two of us hanging out together.
Harmony was staring out her window as I slipped into her bedroom, clearly a lot on her mind. On her lap was a folded over piece of notebook paper. She didnāt say anything, just handed me the paper and calmly waited as I unfolded it and began to read it.
It hit me like a fucking truck when I realized what it was.
ā⦠A will?ā I asked quietly.
Harmony shuddered and nodded, dropping all pretenses of false bravado. āYou can donate my books for me, right? Or give some to Max, I think Jayce would love them when he gets old enough.ā
I wanted to say she wasnāt going to die. I wanted to tell her she could still beat this. But I think she knew better than the rest of us that we werenāt going to get lucky. I read through this little girlās will carefully, having to reread every line as my vision was blurring with tears. āI can do that. Donāt think this is legally binding though,ā I tried to joke.
Harmony smiled, just for a second. āWell, tough, lawyers arenāt cheap.ā Taking another deep breath, her gaze returned out the window. āThis isnāt fair,ā She murmured.
I nodded, folding her will back up. āNo, it isnāt,ā I agreed.
Harmony sighed with relief, flopping forward and burying her face in her hands. āWhy did I have to get sick? Itās bullshit, I didnāt do anything wrong! Iām healthier than all of you, or I was, I just⦠this is bullshit,ā She said, talking so fast I could barely make it out.
I reached forward and patted her head. āIt is complete bullshit. If I could swap places with you, I would.ā I meant it too.
āDonāt even put that out there, you dumb fuck.ā
I laughed, I couldnāt help it. āDonāt let Dale hear you say that. Heāll never recover knowing that his baby girl knows the word āfuckā,ā I said.
She looked back up, shaking her head but she was smiling. She was⦠at peace. I could just see the burden lifted off her shoulders. āThank you, Joel. Keep that will somewhere safe for me,ā She said.
āI promise.ā
I pulled her into a tight hug. I knew that this will meant the end was near and that Harmony was fully aware of that. The Grim Reaper was around the corner and she wanted to be ready for him.
When I left her bedroom, I saw that Daleās office door was cracked open, but didnāt think much of it, and didnāt bother to check if he was in there. Dale was usually in bed by then anyway.
I donāt think he was. I think he heard every word that passed between me and Harmony that night. That his baby girl had made a will for all her belongings, from her treasured stuffed animals to her collection of colorful rocks sheād bought from various museums and zoos over the years. I had every intention of following that will as closely as possible when she did pass.
But that broke Dale. So thatās why he did what he did. Thatās the difference between me and him, really. Iād be willing to give up anything, even my life, to save Harmony-Rose⦠but he was willing to set the world on fire and let it burn, all for her.
My bedroom window faces into the back yard, right into the forest that stretches around our property for miles. I was having trouble going to sleep that night, that day in particular had been especially bad for Harmony. It had been a week after Iād been given her handwritten will and it was clear sheād finally given up the fight. I was afraid if I went to sleep, Iād wake up and sheād be gone.
I was finally starting to doze off when I saw Dale in the backyard, cradling Harmony in his arms. Heād not been able to really carry her these last few years, but sheād shrunk so much she looked like a skeleton in his arms. For a second, I thought she might be dead, but I saw her shift in his arms. She was just asleep, too tired to even stir.
Daleās face was completely blank and devoid of any emotion. Heād spent the last few days like that, almost completely oblivious to the world around him. He hugged her tight, looked into the woods, and started walking. I watched him until he vanished into the trees.
I fell asleep after that. I didnāt even know how to even remotely process what Iād just seen, and when I woke up the next morning Iād thought it was just a dream.
I went to Harmonyās room after Iād gotten dressed, expecting to walk in and see her still asleep.
Instead, I saw a glimpse of the girl sheād been all before this diagnosis. She was still bald, but the color had returned to her face and she was up and out of bed, looking just as puzzled as I felt. She looked up at me.
āJoel, I feel⦠I feel okay. And I feel hungry. Can you ask Dad for pancakes?ā
For a girl whoād not had an appetite in months, this was mind blowing. She ended up having a whole stack of blueberry pancakes, all the while Dale looked on, pleased as could be. He took her to the doctorās right after breakfast, and for once I tagged along since Mom had to go to work. I didnāt really like hospitals and no one ever made me go anyway, but this time I wanted to see if this was just a āgood dayā.
Instead, we were given the best news we could ever imagine. Suddenly, after months of radiation and chemotherapy doing jack shit, Harmonyās leukemia had finally gone into remission. A complete and total 180 from her last appointment. The only explanation the doctors could give?
āItās a miracle. It really is a miracle.ā
And well, it kinda was. Just not one that came without cost.
It started right when we were heading home. Harmony and Dale were over the moon, already planning to order out for Hawaiian pizza while I openly judged them for wanting to ruin a perfectly good pizza with pineapple. We turned the corner and saw two police cars in front of our neighborās driveway.
Like I said before, weāre surrounded by woods, but thereās a few other families in the immediate area. Itās the kind of place where everyone has a driveway at least a quarter of a mile long, if youāve lived in a place like that you know what Iām talking about. The family closest to us and the one with the police presence was the Fosters. They have a son thatās close to my age but heās an asshole, so I tend to avoid him, but his parents are all right.
I saw Dale grip the steering wheel a little tighter but he didnāt attempt to even slow down to see what was going on. Harmony frowned. āShouldnāt we go make sure Mr. and Mrs. Foster are okay?ā She asked.
āAfter the cops leave, we donāt want to get in their way,ā He said in a tone I wasnāt used to hearing- the kind of sound a person has in their voice when they lie. Harmony hadnāt missed it either, but she just changed the subject back to Hawaiian pizza and what to do for dessert afterwards.
Once we got back, I dropped my stuff off in my room and immediately beelined for the back door. I just barely stepped out the back door when I heard someone clear their throat. I looked behind me to see that Harmony was waiting for me, her arms crossed and giving me an āare you kidding me?ā look.
āWhat, did you really think you were gonna check out what happened to the Fosters on your own?ā
I did attempt to come up with an excuse as to why Harmony should hold back on this one, but instead I just sighed and started walking, my little sister hot on my heels. I imagine she was suffering from a bit of cabin fever, itās hard going out and doing shit when youāre on deathās door.
I might not have cared much for Daniel Foster, but since he was on the back porch having a smoke from his watermelon vape, I figured he was the best line for questioning.
Daniel gave us both a stink eye as we emerged from the woods, blowing a mouthful of sickly sweet smoke in our direction. Harmony plopped down on the swingset that was still in the Fosterās backyard despite the fact it hadnāt been used since Daniel was younger than she was. I walked up to the porch. āSaw the cop cars at the mouth of your driveway. Weāre just here to check in if youāre okay,ā I said.
After glaring for a second more, Daniel sighed and hopped off the porch, jamming his hands in his jeans pockets. āSomething broke in last night, attacked the dogs, trashed the house. Dadās out of town and you know how shit cellphone signalās out here. We couldnāt connect to 911 so mom and I just barricaded ourselves in her room,ā He said.
Harmony cocked her head to the side. āSomething?ā She asked.
Daniel gestured for us to follow him. āIt definitely wasnāt a person. It was probably a bear, its claw marks are everywhere,ā He said as we walked to the other side of the house.
My skin crawled as I saw the large score marks under the bedroom window that was still blocked by a wardrobe. Harmony reached forward and brushed her fingers against the decimated siding. āWow,ā She said in her shock.
āDid you see it? The bear, I mean,ā I asked.
Daniel shook his head. āNah. Didnāt want to. Had the gun ready just in case it got into the room, but it didnāt. It scratched up Bella and Griffin real good, theyāre both at the vet now getting patched up.ā
Bella and Griffin were a pair of large rottweilers, big babies really, they were the main upside to come visit the Fosters. āWill they be okay?ā I asked.
āShould be.ā Daniel took a deep breath and shuddered. āI- I think my mom was really scared. She kept saying it didnāt move like a bear, but all she got was a glimpse before we hid. Bears⦠bears make roaring sounds, right? Like a lion or a tiger?ā
Harmony frowned and straightened up, glancing at me for the answer that she was pretty certain about herself. The description enough definitely puzzled me. āHonestly, bears tend to be pretty quiet. When theyāre freaked out, theyāre more likely to make huffing or grunting sounds, and they definitely donāt sound like wildcats,ā I said.
āFucking weirdo,ā Daniel turned away, jamming his shaking hands into his pockets, probably hoping I couldnāt see them. āWhat do you do, just go out and watch bears on the weekend?ā
āHey, you asked, dumbass. Come on, Harmony,ā I gestured for my little sister to follow along, not at all in the mood to deal with Danielās shittiness.
āWait. So you know what bear prints look like too then?ā
I paused. āAre there prints?ā I asked.
Daniel walked over to the treeline and motioned us over. Hesitantly, I followed.
The print that was there was sure as hell not a bearās print, and I think Daniel knew that too. The mud captured the print perfectly, long spindly fingers carving deep scratches into the mud with smaller palms. It was like a person had dragged their hand through the mud, but it wasnāt quite right.
I snapped a picture of it with my phone. āYeah, I⦠I donāt think thatās a bear print,ā I said, trying to keep my voice level. Something about it set the hair on my neck standing straight up.
āThen what is it?ā Daniel asked.
I sent the picture to Dale with the message āfound this near the Fosterās, what made this trackā. āI have no freaking clue,ā I admitted.
Harmony bent down next to it. āItās so weird,ā She muttered.
I didnāt expect my phone to immediately buzz, Dale was god awful at responding to texts at a decent time. I turned my phone back on to an even more shocking response.
āCome home right now. I donāt want you back in the woods now.ā
āDale doesnāt know either, and heās telling us to come home ASAP,ā I gave Harmonyās shoulder a tap and that got her attention. āLetās go, sis. See you, Daniel. Stay safe, man.ā
He just grunted in response and jogged back into his house.
Once we got back, Dale explained his for his curt demand was that he was worried about that bear that came after the Fosters. Apparently heād called Mrs. Foster the moment we got back and got the story from her. If it was so bold to break into a personās house, god knows what itād do to me wandering out alone out there⦠and I especially shouldnāt bring Harmony-Rose out there.
I did hear Harmony mutter something along the lines of āscrew thatā as we got ready to go pick up the pizza for dinner. Not that I blamed her, since she was finally feeling better to go out and about. But that track still made me super curious. So the next day, I went to the other person who might know a thing about animal tracks- my older stepbrother, Max.
The visit was first pretty normal, just light chatter about the warm weather and how things have been going at Maxās work. I got to play with Jayce, who was ecstatic to see his āUncle Joelā and of course Maxās wife Lisa popped in to ask how I was doing and if I was seeing anyone (girls or boys, she always makes sure to specify), and then she had to bustle right back out because she had to run errands.
After we got all the small talk out of the way, Max set his coffee mug down and brought up the biggest news to date.
āSo, Harmony. Sheās better?ā He asked.
I shrugged. āCancerās suddenly beating a hasty retreat. Doctors say be cautious but hopeful. Said itās a real miracle,ā I said.
āHmm. Thatās⦠interesting,ā Maxās brow knitted in concern, āAnd sheās going back for more tests? Just to be sure? I mean, any false hope will actually kill Dad.ā
āYeah, she should be going back for more tests by the end of the week. But you should see her, it really is a complete 180 with how sheās acting,ā I shook my head, āI barely believe it. But she had like six slices of pizza last night, and sheād eaten breakfast that morning, a stack of Daleās pancakes. And she didnāt throw up.ā
Maxās concerned expression didnāt vanish as he went for another sip, āMaybe, just keep an eye on her- oh fuck that!ā
I barely dodged the surge of coffee spilling in my direction as Max literally threw the contents across the table. I was about to ask what the hell was wrong with him when I saw it.
A centipede, two of them actually, squirming and writhing in the pooling dark liquid. Max quietly gagged before heading to the sink. āDidnāt even see those little bastards crawl in there. Really hope I wasnāt drinking centipede coffee this whole time.ā He turned on the tap and looked back at me. āYou want something to drink? I promise, it wonāt have a bug infestation.ā
I opened my mouth to say a glass of water wouldnāt be so bad when I looked at the flow coming from the faucet and the words wouldnāt come out of my mouth.
It wasnāt like it was just red or rusty colored water. Water and blood have different consistencies, and the thick scarlet liquid now overflowing Maxās mug and dripping down his hand was sure as hell not water. Max looked confused at my likely shocked face and was probably about to ask what was up when we both smelled it. The smell that always shows up when you have a bloody nose, except a thousand times more potent and bittersweet, like it was rotting.
Max stared at his sink now filling up with blood, and I bolted for his bathroom to throw up. Iām not good around blood. I barely made it to the sink before I puked my breakfast and the chocolate shake Iād picked up at the corner store before I hit up Maxās place.
After coughing a bit, I made the mistake of trying to wash down the puke down the drain. Thankfully it only took one crimson drop from the faucet for me to turn it back off. I sunk to the floor, my world going topsy turvy as I did my best to keep breathing so I wouldnāt pass out. I barely succeeded. Max had to help me get out of the bathroom and put me up in his guest room while he went to figure out just what the hell was up with their plumbing. I was just about as useful as wet noodle so he let me be while Jayce showed me all his dinosaur toys to make me feel better. Obviously, any intention of showing him the strange tracks went out the window as I was struggling just to be a living person.
It wasnāt just Maxās house having āplumbing issuesā. While I lived in the middle of the woods, he had settled down in a nice neighborhood that was just missing white picket fences to complete the perfect vibe. All up and down the street people were turning on the water to have blood come squirting out of their faucets. One poor person had gone in for a late shower and had an actual to god panic attack as they were coated in disgusting red fluid. The ambulance showed up and everything to make sure they were all right.
I felt like absolute garbage until I got home, driven there by Max. But when I walked through the door and saw Harmony dancing along to some song on the radio, I felt like a million bucks seeing her like this. Bright. Vibrant. Pain free. A complete and total turn around. I did tell her about the blood spewing out of our brotherās sink and she was naturally quite horrified by that turn of events, but we came to the conclusion it wasnāt actually blood. I mean, it couldnāt be blood. A lot of things would have to be dead to have every faucet bleeding on my brotherās street.
Harmony made leaps and strides in terms of recovery in the matter of a week. Every test came back with confirmation the disease that was going to cut her short life off was retreating at unnatural speeds. I encouraged her to start practicing her gymnastic moves, knowing if she kept bouncing back like this sheād want to rejoin her team. With Harmony getting better, the house seemed generally so much happier. My mom only cried with joy whenever she saw Harmony practically skipping around the house and Dale⦠man, Dale. Truly the happiest about this all was Dale.
Plans began taking form. Trips to Disney, a vacation out west to go visit all the national parks, the future that weād originally thought might have been robbed from us was suddenly now in our grasp again. I was just as excited as my parents to be honest. I love Harmony, so much. I wanted to just focus on her now.
But as our house began to gain life, everyone elseās began to⦠fall apart. Rot from the corners and collapse.
Even if I was focused mostly on my little sister, I couldnāt help but notice that things were different. More bloody plumbing began popping up all over town, to the point where a notice was put out about not drinking any tap water until they find the source of this. Apparently some professional talking out their ass said it was more than likely some kind of infestation of mold, and all they needed to do was find the source and all would be okay again.
Thing is, they couldnāt find a source. I donāt know how much time was spent or how much money the town poured into to tear open water mains or go through every centimeter of the treatment plant, but it was turning up squat.
Dale was still not letting us out in the woods. If I so much as looked at the back door he was the first to ask me to ādo the dishesā or ārun an errand into townā for him. Not until they found the bear, which I still didnāt feel was right. Bears didnāt leave prints like that. Bears just⦠werenāt like that.
Then I got that call from Daniel.
I had given my number to Daniel freaking ages ago. My parents made me because they wanted us to be friends. Yeah, no, Iād rather not be friends with the jackass who insulted me literally every other sentence. Around three AM I heard my phone start to ring and I had to scramble to get it. I nearly missed the call and didnāt even check the caller ID before I answered it I was in such a rush. I couldnāt even ask who it was before Daniel scream-whispered into my ear,
āSomethingās wrong with the dogs!ā
I wiped the sleep from my eyes. āThe fuck?ā I managed to get out, my voice slurring with sleep.
āThey⦠they were just so quietā¦ā I heard Daniel swear quietly and the sound of someone checking the lock on a door. āWhen they came back, they looked fine and were patched up, but they were just so fucking quiet. I didnāt give a shit, but I just got home from a night out, and- oh my god, thereās so much blood?ā Daniel sniffled and I realized he was starting to cry.
āI canāt find my dad, my momās⦠sheās passed out, she got bit real bad. I got her wrapped up real good but thereās not much else I can do. The dogs, Christ, Joel⦠the dogs. Theyāre so fucked up. They tried to get me too but Iām hiding in my parentās room. Called 911, Iām freaking the fuck out, I donāt know when theyāre going to get here, and fuck knows if theyāll get to the right house. Please, man, you gotta help me. I donāt wantā¦ā Danielās voice cracked, my neighbor now starting to sob. āI donāt want my mom to die, man.ā
Maybe Iām not friends with Daniel, but I sure as hell wasnāt going to leave him in a jam like that. I assumed rabies, because you know, thatās the closest thing to a rational explanation I could come to.
I woke Dale up and told him what Daniel told me. I didnāt want to go over there alone, and although Dale had been acting a bit off, I expected heād help me at least get Mrs. Foster and Daniel out of the house.
He did follow me over. But he also grabbed his hunting knife, and he made sure his rifle was loaded before he swung it over his back.
Dale really didnāt hunt often, only going when his buddies asking him to tag along. I thought Dale was a lousy shot, since he never brought anything home he killed himself. I figured it was just an excuse to go out and drink beer.
We entered the Foster house and it was just as Daniel said- the living room covered in blood. I barely managed to swallow my vertigo as I followed Dale, the silence so much it felt like it was going to swallow me. It was only quiet for a few seconds though, then I heard the unsettling sound- the jingling of a dogās tags.
One of the rottweilers ambled into the living room and even with how dark it was, my initial assumptions of the dogs being rabid was immediately put out of my mind. Rabies doesnāt give you large tumorous growths sprouting from under your bandages that oozed a reddish pus. The dog cocked its head to the side for just a moment before its lips curled back, a thin rusty colored film covering its teeth and tongue. It tensed up, ready to pounce⦠and Dale fired a shot right into its skull.
It dropped with not even a whimper, a perfect kill shot. The other rottweiler skidded in after its friend and I nearly vomited at the sight of even more tumors growing from its neck and back. This dog also had a tail. Yes, I know, rotties are known for those little stumpy tails, but I swear to god, this dog now had a tail sprouting from its backside, arched over its body like a scorpionās tail. I didnāt get a better look until Dale downed that dog too. Despite having to swallow down the urge to puke again, I walked up to the second dogās body. The name reflecting back from its tag read āGriffinā.
This wasnāt the Griffin I knew. The ātailā hadnāt sprouted from its actual tail, it had come from in front of it. A closer look at Bellaās body and I saw that skin and fur had rotted away from some of her side, revealing putrid decaying flesh stretched over cracked ribs that had were turning black.
I ended up having to collapse on the couch to avoid passing out on the disgusting floor, leaving Dale alone to stride back into the bedrooms to find Daniel and his mom.
When the ambulances finally arrived, Mrs. Foster was dead. Mr. Fosterās body was found in the kitchen, practically ripped limb from limb. Daniel was catatonic, his eyes glazed over as he was wrapped in a shock blanket, and leaving Dale to explain that by the time heād gotten in there Mrs. Foster had already passed, the bite must have severed her brachial artery. Her body was covered when it was wheeled out, but I caught a glimpse of her bitten arm, and how it was already growing bulbous tumors like that was on the dogs.
I also noticed that Daleās hunting knife was now conspicuously missing.
When we got home, he pulled me aside and quietly told me one thing:
āDonāt tell your mother. Or your sister.ā
I didnāt need to ask what he didnāt want me to tell. I kept my mouth shut. Maybe if I didnāt talk about it, it wasnāt real. The mutant rottweilers from hell, the fact that Mrs. Foster was now dead and how I had this gut feeling that something really bad had gone down in that room when Dale went in there.
There were more attacks. Reports of shadowy, long legged beasts roaming around our neck of the woods, that moved too quickly for anyone to get a good look, and pets would vanish only to turn up torn to pieces. Probably a better fate than what happened to the Fosterās rottweilers.
Only one person was directly attacked other than the Fosters. Mr. Green was taking his garbage out when he was pounced by what his wife described as ātwo thin beasts with overly long legsā. They literally ate his face off, god, it makes me sick to even say that. She managed to get them away and call 911, but with her signal going in and out it took them forever to get there. They took the somehow still living Mr. Green to the hospital, but he didnāt last. He developed a fever that went far beyond the livable temperatures, and even if he did live I imagined it would be kind of a shitty life, since his face was entirely gone.
I didnāt get to hear if there were any more tumors, since I had to listen in on this conversation between Mrs. Green and my mom. Poor widow was clearly traumatized by what she saw.
In town wasnāt much better though, as Iād find out when I went to go visit Max. The start of the most fucked up day.
āLisaās taking time off work. She doesnāt want Jayce at daycare.ā
Max looked, well, a mess. The water still hadnāt been fixed, and it looked like he hadnāt had a decent shave or a bath in days, probably since this all started.
āHeās been such a fussy kid lately,ā Max flopped back on his position on the couch with a loud sigh. āSame with all the other kids who go to that daycare.ā
āThink itās the bad water?ā I asked, nodding to the absolute mountain of water bottles by the front door, barely contained in their garbage bags.
Max shrugged, running his hands through his hair. āI just⦠I donāt know. His eczema is acting up again too, but that might just be because of the heat. Weāve been using bottled water for almost everything, including baths. I feel like I need a long shower, but every time we turn on the pipes itās just,ā he shuddered, āWell, you know.ā
I patted my brotherās back. āMaybe you can come over and stay at our house for a bit? I doubt Dale will mind.ā
Max was quiet, shifting uncomfortably and staring at his clasped hands before he spoke up.
āJoel, did Dad- did Dale do anything weird, leading up to Harmonyās recovery? Was he acting quiet, or did⦠did he go out to the woods late at night?ā
I remembered what happened the night before Harmonyās miracle. Up till then, Iād made myself believe it was really some kind of dream. I swallowed. āWhy?ā I responded, trying to keep my voice level.
It didnāt work. Maxās eyes narrowed and I could tell he knew I knew something. āWhen did he go out there, Joel?ā He said, his voice quiet and icy cold.
āWhy does it matter?ā I asked, still trying to avoid answering the question.
Max chewed on his lip, a small speck of blood forming when he ripped off a piece of dried skin. āIt matters, Joel. Youāre not his blood, so I donāt blame him for not telling you, but⦠thereās something you do need to know about those woods. About the far back, past the lake, through the wet cave, thereās a patch of trees-ā
Max was cut off by a loud crash from the kitchen. I just about jumped out of my skin and Max was up, bolting for the source of the sound.
āLisa!? Lisa! Whatās wrong?ā
I got up and followed behind Max, nearly bumping into him as he stood frozen in the doorway.
Lisa was on all fours, groping wildly at the floor and murmuring something to herself that I couldnāt quite make out. My heart hammering in my chest, I pushed past Max and slowly walked into the kitchen. āLisa? You all right?ā I asked.
I nearly stepped on it, since it mostly blended into the white linoleum floor. But at the last second I saw the red stumps protruding from the back of the small white orbs. I nudged one with my foot and I actually pissed my pants a little when I saw the light brown irises of Lisaās eyes staring back at me.
āMy⦠my eyesā¦ā
The hair on my neck stood right up as I looked towards Lisa, whoās head lifted up in my direction, likely hearing my panicked breathing.
āH-help me find my eyes?ā
I stared into the black sockets of Lisaās skull, her face pale as her hands continued to blindly grope along the kitchen floor. A maggot crawled out of her left eye, squirming onto her cheek before dropping onto the floor.
I screamed. I ran. I ran right into the front door and knocked myself out. Not exactly a thing to be proud of, but fuck it. I saw a woman searching for her fallen out eyes. When I came to, the ambulance was there, rushing Lisa to the hospital while another EMT was making sure I didnāt accidentally give myself a concussion in my panic to get away. I didnāt, but it didnāt matter. Max had already headed to the hospital with Jayce and I was left in their home alone, unable to get the image of Lisaās eyeless face out of my mind.
I had Dale pick me up, but I was too scared to ask him about the wet cave and the patch of woods behind it.
There was one other person I could ask what went down that night though. I could ask my sister, Harmony-Rose.
I found her in her bedroom that night, sitting at the foot of her bed and staring into her mirror. In her hands was clutched the light pink handkerchief sheād used to cover her head once the chemo took her hair away.
I sat on the bed behind her, waiting for her to come out of whatever thought she was in. We sat in silence for a few minutes before she turned around.
āJoel? I think somethingās wrong with me.ā
My stomach turned. I was about to ask if she was feeling sick again when I looked at her⦠I mean, really looked at her.
Sure, she had been bouncing back, but she looked almost entirely back to normal now. The weight had been put back on in a matter of days, and her hair was already regrowing, reaching to cover her ears⦠but it wasnāt really her hair, either.
Harmony-Rose had our motherās hair, dark brown, sleek and smooth. And I had heard about how when a chemo patientās hair grows back, sometimes it looks a bit different. The textureās changed, the colorās lightened or darkened.
The texture had changed, now it was much curlier, but the color was what got me. Parts were the same, but other locks had grown in a shocking shade of silver. I reached forward to give her hair a tussle and was surprised by how thick it had become. āDo you feel different?ā I asked.
Harmony shook her head. āI feel⦠fine. Too fine. Recovery shouldnāt- it just doesnāt go like this. I shouldnāt be building back muscle so fast, I shouldnāt be,ā She ran her hands through her new grown hair, āmy hair should be taking its time, and itās almost normal now, except for the⦠colorā¦ā She shuddered. āJoel, whatās happening to me?ā
I shook my head. āI donāt know. But I have a theory.ā
I told her about what I saw the night before her recovery began. When I finished, Harmony had gone white as a sheet, but her eyes lit up with the return of some memories of that night.
āI thought I was asleep,ā Harmony tugged at the strands of her hair, āAnd just had some really whacked out dreams.ā
āWhat happened?ā I urged her to say.
Harmony took a deep breath to clear her thoughts.
āI remember Dad carrying me out back. Like when I was little and Iād fall asleep on the couch during a movie. I knew I could feel I was outside, because it was windy, but I was too tired to really do anything except lay still. Dad carried me for a long time, I remember hearing the leaves crunching under his feet. Then we walked through someplace⦠maybe underground? His footsteps echoed off the walls. And then when we left that he set me down on my feet. Told me to walk alongside him. There was wet needles under my feet and the place smelled like bad breath and something sickly sweet. We were surrounded by pine trees. I didnāt really open my eyes, I was so tired, but when I did, I saw⦠things. Eyes looking out from between the branches. Big, yellow eyes. I couldnāt even make out what they belonged to, dad just hurried me along and told me I couldnāt stop.
āWe came to this large⦠rock. I think. There was someone sitting on top, with very long legs and arms. Like twice the size they shouldāve been. Dad helped me lie down in the dirt in front of the rock and told me to go back to sleep. I tried, but his voice kept me awake. I think he was talking to the person on the rock, told them he had the key, and was willing to make an exchange,ā Harmony reached up, touching the locks of hair that were now colorless, āAnd something wet and slimy touched my head⦠I was too scared to reopen my eyes. And I heard⦠I heard someone else say that it would be done. Suddenly I was just so cold, I couldnāt stop shivering, and it feels like thereās hundreds of bugs crawling all over me⦠ the next thing I know Iām waking up in bed, and Iām hungry, and I donāt feel like a pile of garbage.
I glanced out back to the forest that had surrounded my home. The very thought that something was actually dangerous in there was, well, it felt stupid. I played back there almost every day as a kid and saw nothing more than squirrels and birds, maybe the occasional garter snake or deer. But nothing like what she described.
āIām going to go see.ā
I donāt know why I felt like it was so important for me to go check it out, but I had to be sure for myself.
I was barely out the back door when I heard a click and saw the beam of a flashlight. I turned to see Harmony right behind me, wearing a coat that finally fit her again instead of making her look like she was drowning in cloth. I originally opened my mouth to object to her coming along, but I shut it just as quickly and started walking.
The far back of the woods. Past the lake and the wet cave. Harmony and I walked in almost complete silence, only hearing the croaking of frogs and chirping crickets that hung heavily on the night air. Iād been back here so often I knew what Max was talking about. Iād only gone in the cave once, but since it was so gross I only poked my head in and never went back. When I walked through it this time, I felt Harmonyās hand in mine, I felt it shake.
When we exited into the forest behind the cave, we were officially in a place I had never been before. Even the trees looked different, the flashlight casting long shadows along the pebbles that looked like claws. While my steps got more uncertain on the stone path, Harmonyās pace picked up.
āI remember⦠this. I remember this.ā
Harmony breathed in slowly, her gaze flicking back and forth. āWhatever you do, Joel, donāt look to the sides. Theyāll eat you alive,ā She said.
I knew better than to ask how the hell she knew that. āWhy wonāt they eat you?ā I asked, the hair on my neck standing up. Back here not even the crickets were making a racket, the only sounds were my breathing and the occasional snap of a twig past the treeline, just enough to let me know that we werenāt alone.
āBecause whatever my dad did to me, it made me a part of them.ā
Harmony and I kept walking until we reached the clearing, where the heavy silence was finally broken by something else. Arguing.
It took me longer than normal to recognize Maxās voice, his words were colliding and slurring together so they were barely recognizable. Harmonyās grip on my hand turned so tight it nearly cut off circulation, and we both ducked behind a tree before peering around to see Max.
He was so drunk he was barely standing up straight, his cheeks bright red and his hair sticking up with sweat. At the very back of the small clearing was something I recognized as an obelisk, made of a black flecked gray stone and carved with letters I couldnāt recognize. And by the obelisk was Dale.
āSo all those years⦠every fuckinā year you told me that it was the most important fuckinā responsibility,ā Max swayed back and forth, barely catching himself from just falling to the ground, āYou were just talking out of your ass? Because the moment you need something, you c-come back here and let them out?!ā
Dale was quiet, his face expressionless. ā⦠We were out of-ā
āDonāt. Donāt fucking give me that shit, dad!ā Max burst into messy sobs, tears rolling down his cheeks and snot dribbling from his nose. āLisaās dead! So many people are dead, because you took the key and let them out to save Harmony!ā
āSheās your sister-ā
āSo what about other peopleās sisters?!ā Max pointed an accusatory finger at Dale, spittle flying from his mouth as he began to scream at his father. āWhat about other peopleās wives?! Other peopleās s-s-sooonnsā¦.ā Max trailed off before he threw his head back and screamed into the sky.
Dale finally showed something other than apathy, blinking a few times in shock before he looked concerned. āWhat happened to Jayce?ā He asked softly.
āI donāt fucking know, how about you ask your fucking monsters?!ā Max pointed up and I finally noticed there was someone sitting on top of the obelisk.
It was just as Harmony recounted for me earlier, a man with limbs twice as long as they shouldāve been, but his face⦠the gray skin was stretched so tightly over his skull, his lips parted in a painful looking smile as his yellow eyes stared down at the arguing pair.
Dale glanced up at that⦠that thing. āWhat happened to Jayce, then, Balem?ā
Balem yawned, revealing rows upon rows of needle teeth in his mouth that stretched back down his throat and covered his pointed tongue that was dripping in a thick white saliva. When he spoke, his mouth moved a moment slower than the words leaving him, like he was lipsyncing along to his speech. āWhat happened to the rest of the children at that Greenhill daycare. The carpet cleaner was diluted with water- tap water. They were infested.ā Balemās manic grin returned.
Daleās face went white as a sheet. He stammered for a few moments, trying to come up with a response. āIām so sorry, Max, I didnāt mean for this-ā
āAnd you still did it!ā Max cackled, his eyes rolling into his head to only show their whites as he continued to laugh without sounding a least bit amused. When he finally stopped, his face twisted in such a way I could barely recognize him as my stepbrother anymore. āYou fucking hypocrite. You traded everyoneās lives for Harmony, the same thing you told me not to do for anyone- not even mom.ā
Dale stared at his shoes. I think he knew he was in the wrong here, but there was really no coming back from what heād done. ā⦠Itāll only be for a bit more, Max, a week or two more and Harmony will be completely healed,ā He said.
āAnd whatāll happen during those two weeks!?ā Max shook his head. āUnbelievable. So, whatās the deal? As long as sheās alive and recovering in town, these freaks get full run of the place? I can think of a good way to end that.ā
My heart almost stopped at the implication. Dale looked ready to be sick. āNo, no, you canāt! If you hurt her, then all of this would be for nothing!ā
āIt already was!ā Max began winding his way through the clearing. āYouāre responsible for everyone whoās getting hurt and killed! You did! You might as well have put a gun to their head! At least when I kill Harmony, itāll be peaceful, and sheāll never know her life was paid for with her nephewās blood-ā
It happened so fast. Max took a step too close to Dale and Dale grabbed Max by the head, slamming his son into the obelisk so hard his skull cracking sounded like a gunshot.
Max slid to the ground, his smashed head leaving a streak of blood on the stone. A shrieking laugh echoed through the clearing and I looked up to see this āBalemā clapping, rocking back and forth on his obelisk. I now saw there was a chain wrapped around his neck, with a padlock hanging open from one of the links.
āToo good! Too good, Dale!ā Balemās chattering his jaw, his teeth making a disturbing clattering sound. āThe drama has been made perfect with the audience!ā Balemās gaze landed right where we were and he pointed one of his long fingers towards us.
Dale slowly turned, the blood of his son dripping down his hands from where he bashed Maxās head into the stone. Harmony shoved me down into the ground before she stepped out from behind the tree, muttering āstay stillā as she walked into plain view of Balem and Dale.
āDad?ā Harmony looked at Maxās body before back to their father. āYou killed Max?ā
Dale began to shake, the once imposing man turning into a shadow of his former self. He dropped to his knees, burying his face in his hands as he began to sob, sputtering out half apologies and weak explanations about this being the only choice.
āI couldnāt lose you, Harmony Rose. Iād sacrifice the world for you,ā were the only words that were really clear, since the rest was slurred out by his sobbing and crying.
Harmony just shook her head before glancing up the obelisk. Silently she approached it, where Balem leaned down, actually managing to get down to her level. āArenāt you going to thank me?ā The monster said, cocking his head to the side, his ever grinning face looking downright smug.
Harmony took a deep breath. āAs long as the lockās open,ā She pointed to the padlock, āyou and⦠everything else can go wherever you want?ā
Balem nodded. āAnd your blood cancer will continue to fade. Once itās gone, youāll live to a hundred and two, thanks to my interference,ā He said.
For several long seconds, Harmony just stood there, still as a statue. Then she reached up and clicked the padlock shut.
Nothing monumental happened- Balem didnāt start melting into goo, and I didnāt hear the screams of several monsters being forced back into their forest prison. Balem didnāt even stop smiling, only reaching up to pat Harmony gently on the head. āYou still stand a chance to beat it, since I healed it enough to where treatment might actually make a difference. Youāre welcome, and youāre such a good girl, so I hope to see you again. I havenāt made a bargain with your family for years. It was great fun. Now go home, girl, and take your half brother with you. I think youāll both want to miss the final act of this drama.ā
Nodding, Harmony backed away from Balem before turning around and sprinting back to the treeline, yanking me back up to my feet. We bolted down the path, together. I took a single look back to see Dale, still on his knees, while swarms of long legged pure black creatures began to swarm him.
Itās been a month. Maxās body was found, but there was no mention of an obelisk, and Dale was just gone. Harmonyās recovery is starting to slide, but where it is now, it is far more likely sheāll beat it. Sheās been quiet, running her fingers through the still silvery curls on her head. She hasnāt said it, but we both hope if her hair falls out this time, itāll grow back the way it used to be. Momās been a wreck, losing Dale, Max, Lisa and Jayce has really fucked her up. But weāll make it through this.
I found something though. Last night, after both Harmony and my mom went to bed, I heard someone knock at the door and opened it to find a small leather pouch on the porch. I dumped the contents into my hand and I felt sick.
Itās a key. A key made of the same material the obelisk was, just the right size for the padlock attached to the chain on Balemās neck.
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