Collective name is Luminae or Lumina, They/Them (theirself or selves is fine) for collective pronouns. Feel free to call us Lumi affectionately if we are mutuals. We are bisexual and nonbinary collectively.
Bodily: 20 years old, latine 🇲🇽, perisex.
Interaction is highly encouraged! Even a single like to our posts makes our day, reblogs are amazing, and golly we'd love asks.
Main fronters:
Danny✨️ - Frontstuck host
Daena 🌑 - Reformed persecutor, Local edgelord (/aff)
For term nerds like us:
Specutien / Proxy system
Monoconcious
Dni under the cut bc long, tldr: Exclus, r@dqueer, transmed, sysmed, right-wing, anti good faith "contradictory" labels, pr0ship/c0mship, t3rf, sw3rf, r4dfem, discourse only blogs and NSFW blogs (interact through other blogs please), anti alterhuman, proshitrael, racist, ableist, bigots in general.
DNI is a long list, we block very freely, but here are the highlights.
Sysmeds, Anti-endogenic systems. We are very pro endogenic!
Anti parogenic/willogenic/tulpamancy/Created systems (we support both terminologies, we feel like it's s not really our place to intervene as a very latine system!)
Blogs that are fully and only for syscourse. (Feel free to interact through other blogs, just don't reblog our stuff in there please). Or any blog that is only for any discourse, really
Believe "Demo systems" are a thing
Fakeclaimer of systems, or anything really.
R@dqueers + Tr@nsid/tr@nsx (Arissomei, biid, and Chronosians welcome!)
Pro/complex contact harmful paras (we are pro-recovery, dont feel afraid if you have something like p-ocd! But if you are encouraging those sorts of things and/or celebrating them, please don't interact.)
On that topic, anti kink/sex work (whatever consenting adults do behind closed doors is none of your business)
Tr@nsmeds, T3rfs, sw3rfs, r4dfems, think nonbinary isn't real/valid, are weird about multigender people and their sexualities, etc. It's all transphobia
Think trans men & transmascs don't deserve their own word for their discrimination / anti transandrophobia
Anti Mspec mono (Bi lesbians/gays for example), anti he/him lesbians and she/her gays, anti lesboys and turigirls, etc. Basically anti good-faith "contradictory" identities that "make us look like a joke" (nice bootlicking, very clean. They surely will pick you)
Think lesbian is "nonman loving nonman" and viceversa (excludes multigender people, exorsexist)
Aro/Ace exclusionists. Yes, an Ace heteroromantic cisgender perisexual man is still lgbtq, and is not "invading our spaces"
Anti xenogender/neogenders, anti mogai, anti neopronouns, anti microlabels in general.
Being weird about nonbinary people in general, aka exorsexism.
Use amab and afab as a new binary to fit nonbianry people into
Intersexist, weird about the sexualities and genders of intersex people, weird about transfem afabs and transmasc amabs
PR0SHIP/C0MSHIP, C0NSANG, "Fiction doesn't affect reality in any way" (We have a more nuanced opinion than just "never depict anything bad, everything sanitized!" Hyper-antiship, but we are definitely not pr0ship. Ew.)
Proud and non/anti-recovering (N0)-M4Ps, Z00s, N3cros
Nsfw/kink blogs (nothing wrong! Just uhhhh, this is a sfw blog, and we'd like to keep it that way. Feel free to interact through another blog!)
Sexualizes age regression / pet regression or is anti these two (it's a coping thing)
Anti otherkin, otherhearted, otherlink, copinglink, alterhuman in general. (Host is cathearted/copinglink! @alterhuman-shenanigans )
Anti casual kin or "kin for fun". We understand the dilution of the term is a real problem, but please correct people and give alternatives, or just block and move on. Don't harrass people!
Think suibaiting and harrasment is okay under any circumstances. Even the most "evil" people don't deserve harassment. Block and report and move on.
Ableist of any kind. This blog is run by a very tired neurodivergent and undiagnosed physically disabled system.
That includes anti (informed and reasearched) self diagnosis. Yes, even for physical stuff, though that requires a ton more research and acceptance that you may be wrong (please seek professional help if you can, though that is a privilege, we know.)
Demonizes Cluster B personality disorders, weird about personality disorders in general, think Narc abuse is real (abuse is not an inevitable Evil Disorder thing)
Uses the R-slur (ableist af!), uses autistic as an insult, or uses "is it acoustic?" as a joke
Uses slurs that you cannot reclaim
Anti reclamation of terms used against us (Dy, Tr, Fa, etc.), think Queer is a slur, think Butch and Femme are Lesbian Only (careful with that t3rf koolaid)
Anti-ACAB, Anti-BLM, Pro-Shitrael, "Neutral" on the Palestinian Genocide, Right wing in general, "both sides are equally bad" ultra centralist bs (just say you are right-wing and/or accept that staying silent is still supporting abusers)
Antisemitic, think all Jewish people are Zionists and harrass them. (we are antishitrael, read above point)
Antichoice ("pr0life", but as soon as the kid is born don't care about providing support to the kid and their parent(s).)
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Even if some of us are still in denial, we wouldn't want it any other way.
Don't think I need to say this but ofc some of us are more vivid and distinct than others, but really, so many of us are subtle in the way we present. We also didnt draw aaalll of us at the end, too lazy to draw all of us lmao. Way too many.
When I was a child, I watched an episode of Criminal Minds where a man had a split personality. A woman who killed other women who threatened the man she formed to protect. I remember her sitting in the dark on a couch, a cigarette in hand beside a lamp, as she spoke to an Agent about why she had to kill them, that it was to protect him. It was her entire purpose for existing.
As a child, I used to pace empty halls in the middle of the night and lay in bed, repeating in my mind that I would be the only being in my body. I will not break into multiple people. I will be in control. I have to be because, at the time, I believed I could break into those monstrous plurals you see on TV. The ones that killed their family after years of neglect, abuse, and wrongdoing. The ones you should be afraid of ever becoming, no matter who you are or your situation.
So I became terrified.
And yet, nearly every night, I'd look up at the sky or the ceiling and beg for something to change—to not be alone. I was stuck pretending I was a different character, a type of escapism that sometimes got out of hand, lost in an identity that wasn't my own. Looking up and imagining being taken away, every character I adored was by my side, caring for me in return. I had to keep going, be them, and exist in a world with them.
I'd made up stories, different realities, and places in my mind to escape to, as well as explanations for things my underdeveloped brain couldn't comprehend in the place I found myself within. I clung to concepts, characters, and situations that reflected my own, and soon, I no longer felt alone—not with all the escapism I conjured up, not with the different identities to help me face what was happening.
But I was in control. I was one being. No matter what. I had to be a single being because that was good. I had to be good.
I would never hurt anyone, and being many meant being bad. I couldn't be bad.
When I was a teenager, I started researching and getting involved in minority and disabled spaces. I loved being informed, the stories, the many perspectives, and the complexity of humanity. So it was no surprise when I shared a plural headcanon with a friend, and they felt safe coming out to me. They were many. They took my hand and guided me through a community I was fascinated with and wanted to aid and represent like so many others.
I spent years learning, staying silent as others spoke, just listening to everything I could. But then, one day, like so many others, I spoke through a different facet, a different identity I had created as a child. The many faces of me represented things I could not be, I could not hold, nor could I handle. I was struggling; some of me wanted to lash out. So she did. She lashed out.
As always, I was faced with kindness, listening ears, and aid that then pushed me more to the surface from drowning. But I never left; just another part of me was lost, right? Of course. People are complex. I deal with my emotions in a complex way. Of course.
My plurally disabled friend watched as I became more comfortable speaking through the identities I had, whether they were facets of myself or characters that helped me. Soon enough, the continuous "role-play" and "emotional processing" developed into normal conversation, a comfort, a relief.
They kindly approached me and asked if I was a system, too. They had never met anyone who spoke to themselves like I do, definitely not any singlets. None of our other friends did, in person or not, not even people in our families. It was just us.
The fear from my childhood arose. I couldn't be multiple; I couldn't be more than one. It was bad. But hadn't I learned about Plurality? All its ups and downs? Its complexities and nuances? I accepted it wholeheartedly; I learned and evolved from the demonized perception I was given as a child. So, why was it still bad?
Because I must be lying; I must be a fake, a poser. It was the only reason, wasn't it? I had seen so many conversations and arguments about fakes, those who wished to be special. Had I somehow become the harm they spoke of? How could I do this to a community I swore to listen to and fight for?
I obsessed over it, forcing the panic, dissociation, habit, and ease of speaking in multiple identities and beings of myself away. I buried it as deep as I could for the betterment of everyone else. The community didn't deserve such harm, and I wouldn't bring it to their doorstep if I claimed it to be something I'm not.
The loathing became so present it formed into tics that caused aches and disruptions in my life. Multiple stressors--along with an identity crisis--will do that to someone. So my shoulder and neck muscles ached from shrugging, flexing, and all the repetitive movements I couldn't stop without crying from the suppression. So I didn't. I let it disrupt and hurt.
Then, one day, someone, some random, unknown system to me out in the world, spoke about how it didn't matter what was real or not; it didn't hurt anyone. Plurality and the belief of it didn't hurt anyone. It hurt no one to discover themselves, to test the waters, to simply pry into yourself and learn. There was no shame in figuring yourself, or yourselves, out. There was no right or wrong, nothing to be ashamed of or fearful of. Just another part of living.
So I did. I poked and prodded. I gave my parts names, spoke to them in the middle of the night, asked questions, got to know them, and learned we couldn't talk through words at first but could emotions and sensations. I realized I couldn't find where my Plurality started or where it ended, that we—oh god, we—the idea was so surreal but...comforting—were so combined, living without specific individuality outside of me that there was no separation in sight. Not that I could figure out. For so long, I believed everything was just me. Only me.
But now it was someone else, too. These things that made no sense, these things that felt out of place or special, unique, and ever-changing could be someone else.
Someone else.
The more I reflected, learned, applied, and prodded, the more things made sense. Until one day, I looked at my friends, held my breath, and spoke. Stated that it like it was a sin for me of all people to say.
I was plural.
No one blinked an eye. No one questioned it outside of boundaries and clarification. It wasn't surprising that their childhood friend was many. How surprising could it be when they used so many different names for different parts of themselves to express hard things?
It was astonishing.
And here we are, years and years later, grown and still learning, living, fighting, but more in touch with ourselves than ever before with so many more sys friends and aquatints. More experiences, a better understanding.
It's not shameful to learn, apply, and reflect. You take nothing from anyone but your time and open-minded exploration of the world and yourself(ves). There is no evil in being human, living life, phase or not. There is nothing wrong with you, any of you, for existing or living. You just are. I embrace you, I embrace us, and I embrace everything that comes with a life of many.
So, if you're struggling, just know you're not alone outside the body. We know, and so do many others. It's going to be okay; you'll find yourself in time. Don't rush it. There will always be time.
Shoutout to my fellow Median and Blurian systems, those brothers and sisters where the lines between alters begin to blur. I know your pain. And I know how hard it is to fight the self-doubt and fakeclaiming that comes with it...
To the Blurians: your lack of amnesia barriers does not disqualify you as a system. And no matter what anyone tells you, amnesia barriers are not origin dependent; you can be traumagenic without amnesia, and you can have amnesia as an endo. Everyone's mind handles plurality differently, and you are allowed to be the system nobody expected.
Blurian systems come with just as many challenges as benefits. I know how you feel; It's not just the privilege of remembering and the ease of communication, its also the burden of confusion and lack of quiet. Not knowing who's memories are whos, struggling to keep straight who likes what, frequent switching, inconsistencies, and constantly blurry front. Ignorance really is bliss, but unfortunately, you don't have such luxuries. And when you try to get some alone time to think, but you have to question which thoughts are even yours... I know your pain, and you are not suffering alone.
We see you. You are real. You are loved.
To the Medians: All the things your headmates have in common do not disqualify you as a system. And no matter what anyone tells you, they do not disqualify you from your origin. There is no requirement that traumagenic or fictive-heavy systems be a random assortment of characters. Nor is there any requirement that endogenic systems have any sort of deliberate order to them. Whether you have a host identity or not, your origin is still valid regardless. Everyone's mind handles plurality differently, and you are allowed to be the system nobody expected.
Median systems come with just as many challenges as benefits. I know how you feel; It's not just the unity and connection with the rest of the system, it's also the confused/unknown front, struggling to find your individual identity, trying to force individuality on yourself just to feel like you're real... Frequent switching can also be a problem here, as the lines between the alters are thinner. Doing things the same way as your headmates, sharing common interests, having the same opinions and emotions... These are all very human things to do, especially with people you hold so close. And still, it becomes so easy to doubt yourself, so hard to find yourself, and in the end they will claim that you are just pretending to suffer through these confusing feelings... I know your pain, and you are not suffering alone.
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not sure how unique this is, but we wanted to share. we're a median system and basically in a constant state of experiencing emotional amnesia. we find it hard to tell when we've switched or who the fronter is, especially since we're monoconscious, but a lot of the time we can tell 'im not the same person i was 10 minutes/an hour/etc ago'. we literally don't know how it feels to experience emotions unless we're actively experiencing them, and afterwards we won't remember how it felt.
basically J is our host, and for example K is J, but J isn't K. K will do something or experience something and have a strong emotional reaction to it outwardly, then after a while J will switch in and be like 'why the freak was i so upset' and i wont remember how 'i' acted or how 'i' felt, or why.
it's difficult to tell because it's all 'me.' all the thoughts and feelings are being processed by the same consciousness, the same 'person', but looking back on events i know im not the same person who experienced it. all of our memories are just knowing things happened, we dont know how it felt to be in that moment because it was a different person, unless 'i' am actively that person or in that moment
this doesnt make much sense, sorry. just wanted to put it out there and see if anyone else& experienced things similarly
THIS MAKES A LOT OF SENSE!
This is exactly what our own system goes through when we're highly stressed! The fronter who's emotionally breaking down might switch out with someone else who can't relate or empathize with our previous fronter's outburst or extreme thoughts. Our system struggles the most with emotional amnesia!
Sometimes it even affects remembering why we were so happy in the first place, but it's not as common since that's not very useful to forget nor does it keep our brain away from stress.
We highly relate to this, and I think you might have even worded what we experienced word-to-word. The only thing is we're not necessarily median, just blurian so a lot of our memories are shared amongst the entire system.
Silly quirks — Gets flustered easily when complimented!! Listens to mostly instrumental music, especially chiptune!! Loves super sweet breakfasts, especially syrup-coated pancakes!!
We've been an anon for a while but were too shy to get a signoff, but I think its time to be brave. Could we claim this anon tag?
-🌙🦄 ✨(Moonicorn sparkle anon, or just moonicorn anon)
To celebrate, how about a transmasc unicorn-human iridescent/ethereal/moon themed headmate? Plus pumpkin cake without the extra role description please!
Silly quirks — Polishes his horn weekly!! Only eats fruits and veggies while fronting!! Loves opening up the window early in the morning, letting in cool morning air while he meditates!!
(aka I don’t consider these to all be hot takes, because some of them are, in my opinion, warranting of a “well, duh”.)
Not every system has to be miserable to be valid
Endogenic systems are valid
Traumagenic but nondisordered systems are valid
Mixed origins systems are valid
Systems who have no fucking clue where their system came from are valid
Tiny systems are valid
Gigantic systems are valid
Systems that are all Brainmade are valid
Systems that are mostly introjects are valid
Introjects are not their source, but if they wanna be seen as their source that’s fine
Systems whose alters are different as night and day are valid
Systems whose alters are similar are valid
Anti-endos are sanist
Willogenics are not “roleplaying DID”
IT IS NOT FAKING A DISORDER IF YOU ARE NOT CLAIMING TO HAVE A DISORDER.
Plurality should be more informed about— it should be normalized to be accommodating of plurals
Final fusion is not a necessary step of the recovery process
Being a system can be hard. Being a system can be happy. The two can coexist.
You should always respect what different systems want to be called; some like alters. Some like parts. Some like headmates. Whatever their preference, respect it.
HEADMATES WHO SEE THEMSELVES AS PEOPLE ARE PEOPLE.
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trying to get something started for people with imaginary friends, paras without paracosms, inner and outer visualizations, etc
Didn't find what I was looking for in Immersive Daydreaming or Tulpamancy places.
And there's an odd concept floating around that making a non-sentient thoughtform = cruel or unethical? Which seems backwards, if someone doesn't want or isn't prepared for that, it's like getting someone a pet rabbit for Easter when they're better off with a stuffed animal.
And while looking I've found people who have expressed interest, so...
Imagimancy (?)
(eh-maj-eh-manse-see)
Trying to make a community/tag for people with non-autonomous (or fauxtonomous) imaginaries and thoughtform constructs, NPCs and such.
focusing more on visualization/imagination tips/talk, ideas for useful constructs, etc. No pushing people into making thoughtforms autonomous if they don't want to!
(currently very alterhuman heavy / ties to alterhumanity in general but isn't required or officially an alterhuman thing)
not trying to reinvent and re-label things, there's just a gap between communities here
Feeling very lonely and tempted to do rash decisions like making a new headmate just because. Instead, I think I'll try and fix/better my relationship with Daena. they're already here after all.
Does anyone have ideas for spending time with headmates? Like... bonding activities you can do while in the same body (besides small talk and stuff)
Racism in the plural community is a real problem. Racism in the medical community is a real, dangerous problem.
Pour one out for POC DID/OSDD systems that go undiagnosed or misdiagnosed because the psychiatric institution dismisses them.
Pour one out for all POC systems who feel isolated because the online community often conflates plurality with whiteness.
Pour one out for POC systems who get called racist or appropriative because their systems incorporate aspects of their own culture, but people automatically assume they must be white.
Pour one out for POC systems whose voices are silenced because of their ethnicity.
Uplift POC systems. Talk to POC systems, not over them.
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And maybe this is a cold take but you guys need to really stop checking things that upset you/insult you/make you feel not real. Stop checking r/syscringe. Stop checking syscourse tags. Stop interacting with things that hurt your mental health more. Ultimately, it doesn’t matter. And it won’t get better just because you keep checking back on it.
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