#-danny

Man, the awful thing about having auditory hallucinations is that now I am questioning everything I believe about myself to see if it could be a delusion.

And well, the first thing to question is the stereotypical "talking to the voices in your head!". Could I be really talking to myself and not another headmate? Daena says I'm stupid and she is very much real but I don't know what to think anymore

Our syscovery was years before the start of these recent symptoms so, maybe that is proof enough that we are truly a system, or maybe it is proof that I have actually been psychotic (as in. Having psychosis symptoms) for years and need to tell my therapist about my 'system' to try and get help for my delusion.

I don't even want it to be a delusion, I like the company of Daena, they are very nice to me in their own way, even if a bit rough around the edges. Maybe they did start out as an antagonist but she has proven very useful in taking care of ourself, they have talked me out of stupid things and been there to comfort me when nobody was available...

I don't know if I should try and ignore her and make her go away. If we are a system, it will be very asshole-ey of me to do and will set back a lot of progress we have made, but if I am not a system and I am truly just stuck in a long term delusion, then I should really try to get out of it, I think...