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Warnings: angst, compliant Leader(=Whumpee), ambiguous villain, doll whump, emotional whump, noncon nudity(not sexual), brief unclear mention of SA (to say it didn't happen), dehumanisation(x2), panic attack
Before Leader opened his eyes, he could feel his body ache. He didn't feel rested and he was fighting to crawl his way into consciousness. His eyelids were heavy, so heavy. Still, the light of a lamp made its way to him, then the outline of a room appeared around him. Wooden walls and purple velvet.
Where was he? It wasn't his room. If it wasn't his room it meant he had been captured. Again.
His stomach folded around a heavy weight. He had been abandoned by Superhero and left to die. He was all on his own.
And it was Villain who captured him. And they liked doing things their way. His heart pulsed erratically in his chest, each breath was more difficult to take than the previous one. Villain wasn't interested by anything the other ones wanted. Last time they had asked for people in exchange of the money they had stolen.
People.
Usually it was the other way around, usually, villains captured people to get ransoms. Villain didn't.
Adrenaline pushed him to sit. His whole body protested, his stomach hurt and his arms felt like they were made of wood. He hissed between his teeth as his hands stung but continued. Why wasn't he tied up? What was going to happen to him?
He was on a bed covered by colourful furry blankets and silken sheets. There were stuffed pillows under his hands. Uncomfortable warmth wrapped around his body. What was going to happen to him?
He needed to flee or negotiate his way out of it. Then he would have to explain himself to Superhero, then he would have to go back to his usual tasks with extra ones for his failure and then… too many things to do. The headache only gripped his head tighter.
Wait!
There were people - no, mannequins - all around the canopy bed. He had just noticed them. He needed to focus. His mind was going haywire again.
Deep breath…
…deep breath…
…one thing at a time.
First, he needed to know whether he could walk on his own. All on his own.
-Ah. Darling! You're awake.
Too late. Fall back. He needed to negotiate his way out of this. He tried to say his standard sentences for the situations where he got kidnapped but he was interrupted by Villain's gasp followed by excited words.
-You're so gorgeous in that light. I will need to keep you just a little longer to take pictures of you.
What?
-There are so many clothes in my collection that I'd like to make you try.
Villain was jumping excitedly, their white fur coat followed their movements as they continued spilling their sentences:
-I've been obsessed with your silhouette ever since I saw you in that admiral outfit on the TV.
Villain ran by his side and took Leader's hand. He didn't have the time to catch up, his brain felt muddled and slow.
-Come with me. We're going to have so much fun together.
Leader's arm was guided a little higher. Pain spread through his strained muscles. Before he could stop it, a small sound left him. It wasn't much, but it was enough to make Villain stop in their tracks.
They observed him with a gaze he didn't know how to decipher. It was halfway through concern and scandalised. Their excited smile was replaced with a frown, a foreboding frown. Their voice had lost its softness, it was scathing, almost.
-What was that Darling?
An invisible hand grasped Leader's throat, halting another whimper. A long foreboding silence settled. He scrambled for something, anything that would save him. He managed to push out:
-Nothing.
Villain took one step closer, touching the edge of the bed. Leader stiffened despite the pain and braced himself for what would happen next. A hit, a shout, a cut, the prick of a needle. Anything.
Instead, Villain lifted his head softly, cupping his cheek in a warm hand. His nape ached, the discomfort in his back soared. Yet, he was paralysed. His very thoughts were stuck in place, afraid to risk showing in his eyes.
Usually, his captors would be violent and brash and loud.
But Villain…they wrapped a warning in a honeyed whisper, caressing his cheek:
-You owe me. I saved your life it is only normal you would act as my little doll for a while.
Leader's world was swaying. Fear ate away at him. Those quiet words were roaring in his mind, repeating themselves, louder and louder. He swallowed, the lump in his throat burnt. He answered in a breath:
-Yes, sir.
Villain nodded. Their frown was still there. This time there was glee in their order.
-Photos are non negotiable now.
Leader didn't want to risk negotiating. Not right away. Not when he didn't know how dangerous Villain could be. How dangerous they truly were. They could be hiding so much behind their fluffy and regal fur coat, beneath their velvet words and their gentle mannerisms.
No one messed with them, only Superhero to an extent. There was a reason for this and it eluded Leader.
He managed to whisper:
-Yes, sir.
A gentle smile graced their lips again yet the atmosphere didn't get any lighter. The pressure on Leader's chest still kept him from breathing.
-Do you think you can stand up? You were almost buried under debris, it must have taken a toll on you.
This wasn't a question. This wasn't even a suggestion. Leader wasn't about to risk it. He gritted his teeth and forced himself up. Everything was burning and stinging. The world was spinning but if he faltered those would be the least of his concerns.
He didn't have his weight on his feet yet but sweat was already soaking his forehead. Still he assured, breathless:
-I can stand up.
He stood on his legs. He could barely see as dark twinkling spots and blinding pulsing stars grew in front of him. Everything in his body was on fire. The room flipped as he dropped backward. His weight was resting on an arm.
His mind gave out.
———
He resurfaced again. Instead of pain, he was met with a numb sensation. Numb sensation…numb…
His breath caught in his throat. His heart was racing again. It meant he had been drugged. What did Villain do when he was out? Oh no… he hadn't done as he was told.
Superhero would…no, Villain would be mad. His stomach felt like it was eating at itself. It tore off a chunk when a hand combed through his hair. His heart jolted, it felt like an electrical shock. A silken voice murmured:
-Darling. I know you are awake.
Leader forced himself to open his burning eyes. His eyelids felt heavy, it would be so easy to close them again. Especially since Villain caressed his head, leaving a trail of warmth behind. The blanket was so soft against his skin.
-Do you think you can get up?
This question startled him. He had failed once. What would happen if he faltered again? His stiffened limbs unfolded. The pain wasn't as bad. He was laying on a velvet sofa.
-Careful, I wouldn't want you to pass out again. I have so much to do with you.
Why didn't they want to do those things while he was unconscious? Did they want a stronger reaction? He hauled himself on his feet, the floor was cold, he was surprised to see the room he was in clearly. There were dressed and naked mannequins along the walls and a table with papers and fabrics on them.
Villain wrapped around his arm, taking on some of his weight and giving him some warmth as the coldness of the room bit his skin. Leader realised he was naked and vulnerable, more than what he already was. He didn't think Villain took advantage of him, not this way at least, he would have felt different. He still tried to protect some of his dignity behind his hand.
A satisfied hum filled his ear as he was moved on a podium and left there, in front of a mirror. His legs were sore but it wasn't unbearable. Did he just have painkillers? His eyes roamed over his scarred and bruised body, stopping on each purple spots and dark red marks. He met his own terrified gaze.
-Darling, what's your favourite colour?
There was fearful confusion in his eyes. He hesitated before turning towards Villain. They looked too happy. Not answering felt like a big mistake.
-I…
He didn't have a favourite colour. He had never thought about something like this. He weakly blurted out the first colour that came in mind:
-I-blue…I like blue.
-But is it your favourite colour?
His heartbeat spiked he answered maybe a little too fast, maybe a little too uncertain:
-Yes, sir.
Villain smiled. He didn't like that smile at all. They crooned:
-Perfect, my little Darling.
"Their little Darling". Was that what Leader would become? In a flash he remembered the words Villain had used earlier "my little doll".
He forced himself to breathe correctly. He needed to leave, he needed to find a way out and quickly. Before Villain could do irreparable damage. He also needed to bide his time, at least to be able to walk on his own.
Either way he was trapped, completely and utterly. No one would come for him. He dreaded what he would have to do to stay alive, to save himself. It wouldn't be the first time he would have to abandon his morals…but it was always so painful. Can he even save himself with Villain?
Villain had stopped moving beside him. He looked at them as his heart grew a little louder. Their smile was bright and their eyes were proud as they pointed a piece of clothing with their hands.
A dress?
-Wouldn't you look pretty in this? Pretty like a little doll.
It was a white and blue dress, with floral lace at the top and blue and white frou-frou for the bottom. Would he…have to wear that?
-Turn around, Darling.
He did as he was told and observed Villain's reflection in the mirror carefully. He didn't want to be touched by them. He whispered:
-I can put it on, if you'd like.
-No, you don't get to move unless I say so. I want to have the honour to dress you.
Was it an honour or was it a way to humiliate him? He didn't dare say another word after this. He stayed pliant as Villain moved him around and…dressed…him. Each touch from Villain was uncomfortably warm, disturbing in its proximity.
He didn't see the point in fighting. The debris maybe didn't crush him, yet he still felt broken.
-You look like a flower, an ivory and blue rose.
He nodded. Maybe, he did look like a flower. So utterly vulnerable and frail. No one would come for him. Maybe, like a flower, he was stuck in place. He didn't have the strength to escape this time. Maybe he didn't want to fight and he didn't want to be hurt anymore.
Villain had put his arms up to make adjustments to the dress. His arms were trembling and burning, the pain was too much. He hid his eyes beneath his hands and murmured, scared and soft, breaking all the way.
-I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I can't hold this position anymore.
He didn't want to see. He didn't want to face Villain's cold fury and their frown. All he got was a hand rubbing his forearm. It was that much more scary, what was the procedure for this?
-Little Darling. Don't worry, dolls aren't supposed to be able to keep their arms up aren't they?
Tears were escaping him.
-I don't think so.
-Will you stay nice and gentle for me?
He begged:
-Yes I will. Yes, I will. Please, I will.
Villain took his hands in theirs. Leader kept his head low and his eyes shut. They could see everything, he knew it. His small sobs were shaking his shoulders. Villain cradled his cheeks, wiping the tears away. They shushed him:
-Good. Stop crying, dolls don't cry, do they?
-They don't.
He took a breath and tried to keep the tears at bay. They only came back with more force, tearing a sob from him. He hid his trembling lips behind his shaking hand. Why couldn't he do as he was told?
He kept repeating:
-I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
Everything else happened in a blur of panic. Villain got him to sit down. He shielded himself with his arms. His whole body was shaking, his whole body was burning up and aching.
What would happen to him?
He was messing everything up. Villain would be mad. What did they do to people who were in their way? Were they going to lobotomize him? To brainwash him? To break his spine so he wouldn't go away?
He curled even more on himself, hiding his face once again. He was too young for all of this, he wished he would have lived happily with parents and friends. His ragged breath barely kept enough air in his lungs.
He had something soft and fluffy in his hands. He hid himself beneath it. It was useless but he needed it, he needed to feel protected. In the darkness and the warmth some of his senses came back to him.
He managed to reign his racing thoughts first. He had a procedure for this.
First, deep breath…
…deep breath…
…he could always negotiate something.
It would be unpleasant but he could. He wiped away the warm wet trails on his cheeks and brought his breath back under control. There was only the pounding of his heart, beating frantically in his whole body, the soreness and the exhaustion.
After another deep breath, he took the blanket off of his head. The dim lights allowed his eyes to go directly towards Villain. They had only a black slim tank top, and yet, they managed to look majestic.
-Darling, you must be exhausted.
His head went to the blanket in his arms. It was Villain's fur coat.
-My apologies.
He tried to give Villain's coat back but his arms protested. Villain themselves brought his arms lower.
-None of this. You need to go to sleep.
What did they mean? Was he going to get sedated? He was lifted up in bridal carry. Villain had sculpted muscles under their white regal coat. Leader was almost relieved not to have to walk on his own legs.
He was installed on the vintage sofa and Villain laid him down, like they would do with…a doll. His legs were supported by the cushions. What would happen?
-Now, my little Darling, you sleep.
-Here?
-Where else?
He didn't respond to that. He only nodded. What else could he do but follow Villain's orders? Especially after what happened. He closed his eyes and did his best not to move. He didn't want to know what would happen if he were to do so of his own accord.
He was too exhausted to disobey either way.
He was relieved when slumber pulled him in its embrace
Ohhhh I loved this!!! It REALLY takes your heart and crushes it to dust though XD (but isn’t that what we whump-lovers are here for? ;P)
Anyways, I needed to comment on this without the character limit of tags so I’m just spilling everything like this (hope that’s okay)
Poor Leader’s really going through it, isn’t he? He’s in pain and alone and has just regained consciousness – but instead of trying to flee right away he’s trying to figure out how to survive. That he was adapting right away, trying to mold himself to his capturer’s wishes almost on instinct really says A lot! He’s obviously got experience already with being manipulated and formed and expected to obey. How nonchalantly he thinks about being captured AGAIN (with fear and a heavy heart of course, but rather like something that just periodically happens, like a dentist’s appointment, that you may hate but still have to endure for you own good) caught me off guard and made me want to shield him from any kind of new pain right away!
~ He needed to flee or negotiate his way out of it. Then he would have to explain himself to Superhero, then he would have to go back to his usual tasks with extra ones for his failure and then…~
Not even the thought of escaping brings any kind of hope or relief it’s just duty, exhaustion, getting scolded, being ‚not enough‘ again and again and again...
I’m not gonna lie, the mannequins were creepy – even more so when I realized that they are what Leader is supposed to be now for villain: pretty, docile little dolls that Villain can dress and pose and play with however he likes. (By the way if Villain asked for people before… then where are they?? Did they send them home after a while? Are they still there? Are they DEAD??)
The ‚deep breath‘ mantra makes it seem like Leader has absolutely worked through one to many stressful situation and/or panic attack before, he seems so… used to it. It’s incredibly sad.
~ He tried to say his standard sentences for the situations where he got kidnapped but he was interrupted...~
His.. his STANDARD SENTENCE?? Oh, you poor sweetheart. How many times were you left behind and then taken and hurt as you had to find your way out all alone? TT
~I will need to keep you just a little longer to take pictures of you.~
What… pictures? What KIND of pictures? What are they for? ‚Art‘? Blackmail? Humiliation? O.o
~ An invisible hand grasped Leader's throat, halting another whimper [...] He scrambled for something, anything that would save him. He […] braced himself for what would happen next. A hit, a shout, a cut, the prick of a needle. Anything. ~
Oh no. Poor thing. Always expecting the worst (probably because in his experience that’s EXACTLY what happens if you show any kind of ‚weakness‘ or disobedience TT)
~... afraid to risk showing in his eyes.~
„Eyes are the window to the soul“, right? So despite everything he’s still trying to protect his soul. That somehow makes me hopeful...
~ You owe me. I saved your life it is only normal you would act as my little doll for a while.~
Nope, Leader doesn’t owe you shit! Leave him alone! (Or rather take care of him, but not like THIS, please TT)
~ Leader's world was swaying. Fear ate away at him. [...] He answered in a breath: Yes, sir.~
Oh. I expected anything but that. Silence, maybe, or defense. But this? Oh, this is bad! (A testement to Leader’s awful mental state, not bad writing of course XD)
~They could be hiding so much behind their fluffy and regal fur coat, beneath their velvet words and their gentle mannerisms.~
No comment from me, just admiration for this very beautiful sentence :3
~This wasn't a question. This wasn't even a suggestion. Leader wasn't about to risk it. He gritted his teeth and forced himself up. ~
But it WAS a question! What kind of environment is Leader used to, to hear a question and immediately see it as an order – one that he has to fulfill no matter what. (Superhero, I hate you -.-)
~ He didn't have his weight on his feet yet but sweat was already soaking his forehead. Still he assured, breathless: I can stand up. ~
Because the punishment for failing would be worse than the current kind of pain and injury and fear, is that it? (Superhero, you’re an abusive asshole!)
I was almost grateful that Leader passed out again :(
~ What did Villain do when he was out? Oh no… he hadn't done as he was told.~
Did I read thatright and he fears the consequences for ‚disobedience‘ MORE than whatever villain could have possibly done to him while he was unconscious??? (Superhero, you’re f*d up!!)
~Superhero would…no, Villain would be mad. ~
THAT SLIP UP! OMG TT Getting stabbed in the chest would have been kinder!
~ His stomach felt like it was eating at itself. It tore off a chunk when a hand combed through his hair. His heart jolted, it felt like an electrical shock.~
When even kindness feels like a punsihment then something is seriously wrong!!! (SUPERHERO, I’M COMING FOR YOU!!!!)
~ Why didn't they want to do those things while he was unconscious? Did they want a stronger reaction?~
Ouch. What a way to think. Can I hug him, please?
~ He didn't think Villain took advantage of him, not this way at least, he would have felt different.~
That’s a statement. Not a question.
How… how does he know that?
~ His eyes roamed over his scarred and bruised body, stopping on each purple spots and dark red marks. He met his own terrified gaze.~
Such a powerful (horrible) picture, being put on a podium and having to look at yourself like that, almost seeing yourself through your captor’s eyes.
~He didn't have a favourite colour. He had never thought about something like this.~
Oh. Oh no. People tend to have favourites of a lot of things, even when they’re young or busy. Unless they don’t get to chose. Unless their voice doesn’t count and someone else decides for them and they don’t get to do anything else but obey and agree and take what they’re given...
~ Before Villain could do irreparable damage. ~
Oh honey, I think superhero has already done plenty of that..
~No one would come for him. He dreaded what he would have to do to stay alive, to save himself. It wouldn't be the first time he would have to abandon his morals…but it was always so painful.~
He’s so sure of it, that no one will even TRY to come save him. Superhero is an asshole (we already established that, plenty XD but what about the others, the rest of the team? Did no one care for him at all? TT
Also reading that part feels like walking across shards of glass and every new phrase like „always“ and „abandon“ and „wouldn't be the first time“ is another bloody cut.
~ He didn't want to be touched by them. He whispered: I can put it on, if you'd like.~
So Leader’s way of trying to maintain boundaries isn’t to say ‚No‘ or to tell someone he doesn’t want to; it’s doing the thing he doesn’t want to happen to him by himself to try and keep at least a miniscule amount of pretend-control… That’s great. Not devastating at all :) *lies*
~He didn't see the point in fighting. The debris maybe didn't crush him, yet he still felt broken~
TT
~You look like a flower, an ivory and blue rose.
He nodded. Maybe, he did look like a flower. So utterly vulnerable and frail. No one would come for him. Maybe, like a flower, he was stuck in place. He didn't have the strength to escape this time. Maybe he didn't want to fight and he didn't want to be hurt anymore.~
Someone (okay, his KIDNAPPER, but I’m making a point here) is telling him he looks like a flower, and instead of ‚beautiful‘ or ‚pretty‘ or ‚worth admiring‘ leader hears ‚fragile‘, and ‚unprotected‘, and ‚easy to crush‘. Okay. I’m fine. It’s totally fine :)
~He hid his eyes beneath his hands and murmured, scared and soft, breaking all the way. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I can't hold this position anymore. ~
Still trying to hide away, I see :(((
~All he got was a hand rubbing his forearm. It was that much more scary, what was the procedure for this?~
Darling, there is no ‚procedure‘, you’re a HUMAN BEING with FEELINGS and FEARS and… someone needs to drop superhero into a bucket of icewater -.-
~ Good. Stop crying, dolls don't cry, do they?~
Dolls also don’t beg, but you just mADE HIM!
~He hid his trembling lips behind his shaking hand. Why couldn't he do as he was told?~
Because you’re NOT A DOLL! And you don’t deserve any of this!!!
~ Were they going to lobotomize him? To brainwash him? To break his spine so he wouldn't go away?~
He’s so.. methodical in his way of thinking about all the awful things that could be done to him, still effective and logical, even inmidst a complete breakdown. He could have been a force to be reckoned with when nurtured, but instead Superhero chose to tear him down.
~He had a procedure for this. First, deep breath……deep breath……he could always negotiate something.
It would be unpleasant but he could. ~
Of course. A procedure. A bargain. Even if it means suffering and ‚abandoning his morals‘, all for the greater good, to get back to superhero (and then be used all over again.)
Also I’m kinda touched that villain gave him the coat – but I still don’t like them. They’re too fixated on their own pleasure, of getting some ‚pretty doll‘ to play with. Maybe (hopefully?) they’ll get to see the person behind their ‚toy‘ and take better care of Leader soon.)
~His head went to the blanket in his arms. It was Villain's fur coat. -My apologies.~
Apologizing for recieveing comfort that was willingly given. How very on point for Leader.
Now, that kinda got longer than I thought, but I have so many feelings about this (excuse the yelling and Superhero-threatening, please XD)
Also I somehow just now saw that there is also a ‚good‘ (or not so good) version already where villain shows leader actual kindness? I’ll go read that now!
Thank you for writing and sharing (and tagging me!!!)
Wow. This was such a thorough explanation of this story. I took a little while to respond because: wow. You don’t know how many cartwheels my writer heart did in my chest and how many times I’ve reread your repost (I learn new things every time I reread it by the way).
You described things I didn’t even realise about Leader. And how telling it was of Superhero, to be honest I didn’t even clock this part until reading your gigantic and wonderful essay.
Some of Leader’s personality traits were on point: used to be obedient and moulding himself into what his “superiors” or captors want of him. The fact he doesn’t want to be in the way, to be a problem, to take too much(like Villain’s coat).
I especially love your sentence “effective and logical, even inmidst a breakdown” because that’s the kind of character I wanted him to be, the broken version of a strategist.
Also I didn’t pay much attention to the flower metaphor until you pointed it out. To me, it was just something superficial but when you put it in contrast with what being like a flower usually means, it holds much more meaning. I didn’t know my writing could have this many layers.
You caught so many little things I didn’t think of, you made my story so much richer, visceral and coherent than I thought it was with the little details:
Escaping that doesn’t give any relief. The mannequins who represent what Leader is supposed to be. The mirror that allows Leader to see himself in his captors’ eyes. The mention of SA to say it didn’t happen but actually it may mean it might have been anterior to the story (oops my bad). The deep breath mantra. Leader’s procedures and bargains.
I didn’t know my own writing could evoke such vivid emotions either “walking across shards of glass”, “takes your heart and crushes it to dust”, “being stabbed in the chest would have been kinder”. Am I the author who did that to you? Don’t mind me if I do that again >:)
Honestly, I would need to write an essay to properly respond to your comment.
This has been all over the place (way less coherent than what you did, props to you by the way). I’ll write the next part now. I’m a little scared it won’t be as good as the first one.
PS: would you allow me to print your answer and hang it on a wall? :3
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I’m once again tagging most of the people I know, the UK have had laws about ID verification for years and Tumblr does this only now. The reasons about why this age verification sounds fishy at best are better explained here.
People don’t have to participate for all those days and don’t even have to participate. I’m just spreading the word.
@cassiavioletblue, @hoshi-no-koinu, @dakshii, @asch-3it, @cesspitoflove, @piplupfluffwritingstuff2, @just-a-space-rabbit, @the-modern-typewriter, @soosmain (I’m calling you once more for the Warhammer community), @reekatillion, @neon-kazoo, @ruins-of-a-lover, @lemonlimekodkod, @bloodiedbriars, @befuddled-calico-whump, @whooooomp, @foundfamilywhump, @yourlocalfandomfriendo I think this might interest you too, @birdie-likes, @waterc0l0r
Also just a reminder that Tumblr isn’t the only platform out there. I’m also personally also on Pillowfort and I’ve got links to access this site. The site isn’t Tumblr (there’s way less activity there) but for as far as I know, they don’t have age verification implemented and people have much more freedom over what they post.
Welcome to the masterlist dedicated to Leader and his multiple iterations. The stories themselves won't be written in order and stories will be added from other masterlists (the links and summaries will shamelessly be copy-pasted).
But I'll try my best to make this as chronological and coherent as possible.
On Leader: A rough outline of the timelines featuring Leader.
Main timeline 1 (I have yet to name those timelines and truly organise them)
Hard beginning: Young!Leader
Blue and white: Leader had been saved by Villain after Superhero had left him to die. Villain was happy to have a doll which they can dress whoever they wanted. Leader's feelings about the situation evolved as time passed.
Themes: doll whump, compliant Leader, ambiguous Villain, whump to comfort
Caged
Tied
Moodboard for Caged and Tied, made by @cassiavioletblue as well :D
Bound
Trapped, Quiet life
Trapped, The special place
Unsure Steps: In-between Young!Leader and Older!Leader
A dance: Leader is anxious at the idea of negotiating peace with Supervillain during the ball. Fortunately Villain’s presence dispels those concerns, especially when they ask him for a dance. Leader x villain, ball room, dance, character being dipped (if it interests someone :) ), comfort
Warm Bloom: Older!Leader
Triangle sandwich: Villain and Leader have a sweet conversation in the kitchen as Leader prepares triangle sandwiches for dinner. Leader x Lover!Villain, domestic fluff, sweet
A good, relaxing time: Leader is exhausted after a long day. However, Villain always has the perfect way to make him spend a good night regardless. spicy, comfort, consent, Leader x Lover!Villain
tumblr just added an update that requires you to verify your age in order to view "mature content". I'm not sure how they do the verification (haven't yet checked), but given recent similar updates from things like Discord, it most likely involves sending them a photo of either your face or your ID.
In addition, over the past few months, and also years in the long-term, tumblr has been incorrectly marking things as mature content. These include:
Notifications about missing persons and requests for help
Posts about youth liberation
Posts about sex education
Posts about how the mature content is poorly implemented
Posts about being trans, more specifically about trans women and transmisogyny by both tumblr and users on tumblr
Non-sexual selfies by trans women/transfems
Trans womens'/transefems' ENTIRE BLOGS even if the blog contains no sexual content
Reblogs made by various blogs, mostly trans women, which add no additional content but somehow are marked as containing mature content, when the original post is not
Posts talking about racism and antiblackness both on and off tumblr
Posts by black people, especially black trans people, that are non-sexual
And likely many more I haven't seen
In essence, this update has mandated that a majority of users (within the UK and Brazil) must either a) submit their personal information to tumblr, a website whose moderation has been EXTREMELY biased against marginalised people and who I would not trust with my ID, or b) be excluded from absolutely all conversations tumblr decides are "mature content", whether they are actually sexual in nature or not. Furthermore, anyone not over 18 will also not be allowed to take part in these conversations, or even see them, or interact with many trans women or people of colour on this site, as tumblr decides.
This update is complete bullshit designed to censor and exclude marginalised people, poorly hidden under a guise of "protecting teenagers from sexual content", and they know it.
EDIT: This update apparently only affects users in the UK or Brazil, like me. This is still bullshit even if it's just some people.
When I looked at some of the comment, I've seen someone say the age verification law in the UK was already present before and Tumblr is doing this just now.
I don't know what to make of this honestly.
@cassiavioletblue, @cesspitoflove (I don't know if you've already reblogged something like this), @just-a-space-rabbit, @piplupfluffwritingstuff2
@blackout-strike would it be wise to make a black out for this?
for those like me who cannot install alternative android forks on their phone because the phone in question is thoroughly unrootable, I would recommend downloading anyapk on your phone while you still can. In their own words:
anyapk is a lightweight Android application installer that bypasses Google's developer verification requirements by using local ADB (Android Debug Bridge) connections. Smoothly install any APK file on your device without restrictions, gatekeepers, or corporate approval.
If you're reading this after Google's lockdown date and are unable to install anyapk the regular way, there is a method outlined on the github linked above which tells you how to install anyapk on your phone by plugging it into a computer with ADB installed on it. Once you have anyapk on your phone, you will not have to do that ever again (unless you delete anyapk off your phone)
[Description for the second image: a post from jrepin that reads:
"Sideloading" is the rentseeker word for "being able to run software of your choosing on a computing device you purchased". There is no reasonable case for an operating system developer having a say over what programs you run on your hardware.
--Eugen Rochko of Mastodon https://mastodon.social/@Gargron/115093185284473606]
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So, at first I wanted it to be fluffy with just a little bit of spice. Then I tripped and spilled my spice all over the story.
Themes: romance, spice, healthy relationship, Leader x Lover!Villain
Leader was stuck in his thoughts. He stared at his work with no satisfying compromise to the issue with one of the villains of the city. He hadn't even gotten out of his uniform since he came home.
He kept circling between the same few answers, absentmindedly turning his ring around his finger.
-Leader.
He turned to Villain who was leaning against the wall. They had this look in their eyes, it promised "a good, relaxing time" as they liked to call it. Well, he had to admit, his mind was always clearer after Villain's careful ministrations followed by a full night of sleep.
-Are you coming?
He checked the time. It wouldn't be a full night but it would certainly be a qualitative one. He didn't have to feel guilty, he wasn't getting anything done either way.
He got up on heavy feet and made his way to Villain's arms. Their hands intertwined, Villain's ring was warm against his skin. Their floral scent both evoked fiery evenings and long nights simply cuddling safely in their embrace. He longed for them, all of them.
They covered his head and neck in a quick succession of rapturous kisses.
-You look like you could use a good time.
-I think so too.
They continued to pepper kisses all over his face. His fingers and knuckles were given the same passionate treatment. Villain asked in a gentle tone, gaze nonjudgmental:
-Did you eat tonight?
One more reason to let himself get carried to the soft sheets of their bed.
-Not yet.
-You could use some midnight snacks as well.
Everything that came out of Villain's mouth seemed like such a good idea, so sweet and clever. Leader didn't want to do too much thinking. His eyes were warmer and heavier than usual, his body felt stiff and heavy. He just wanted to…to relax. It still felt strange for him to want those kind of things.
A hand slipped under his vest while the other kept him close. With a small gasp, he was brought to the present. It looked like one of those evenings when Villain were particularly…hungry. As they softly rubbed his side with one hand, he let out in half a whine:
-Villain!
They whispered in his ear.
-I love when you say my name like this.
He said it again with a better inflection, one he knew Villain couldn't resist.
-Villain~
They brought his hips closer to theirs. They had a ravenous glint in their eyes and a handsome smile etched on their lips. Their sultry voice dripped like honey in his ears.
-I haven't even touched you yet and you're already using those spells on me.
Leader tried to contain his grin and failed. Villain could take him in and out of consciousness to their leisure, yet it didn't mean he couldn't make Villain squirm in his own ways. Villain scoffed, more for themselves than anything.
Their fingers traced his hips and stomach tenderly, contained and trembling, aching to do more. It was Villain who set the pace yet they restrained themselves. They were still trying to be careful for him, a year ago Leader had still been skittish about those kind of things. It filled him with warmth to be treated kindly despite them knowing he got stronger.
-Ah, Leader would you allow me to undress you? Or would you just like to cuddle?
The warmth travelled lower down his stomach and didn't stop there. Villain remained gallant despite their lust. It made him that much more inclined to let Villain pleasure the both of them, however they liked.
A longing whisper crossed his lips:
-Undress me.
Villain exchanged their places in one smooth motion. His back was guided against a wall. He already crossed his wrists. Villain just had to take a hold of them and raise them above his head, keeping them in place. They held him like they didn't dream of letting go, taking their sweet time to unbutton the vest of his uniform.
They were surrounding him. This tantalising scent wrapped its way around him, filling his mind with the memories of all the nights they had spent together. How he longed for them, for him to belong all to them. They were towering over him with their confident smile. Everything was…hot.
A leg found its way between his own releasing a fuzzy wave of pleasure that washed all over him. His legs might just buckle right at this instant. He managed to gasp:
-You're such a tease.
Their smile turned a little mischievous.
-Do you want me to stop?
-No. Please don't. It's so, so good.
He was rewarded by a deep, insatiable kiss. They made their already charming voice take a suave undertone:
-Good boy.
The praise resonated in his ears. Another surge of pleasure took hold of his entire being. A small scream passed his lips. He whined:
-Villain~
Villain laughed in his ear. It was a satisfied hum that filled him with honey. They let go of his wrists and delicately slipped his vest off of his shoulders.
Yay, more of leader and his many encounters with villains :D
(I haven’t caught up on everything that happened for leader to end up in a relationship with one, but I couldn’t resist reading this part nonetheless :3)
What I love about this (besides the characters, obviously) is that there’s so clearly respect and love and a whole catalogue of CONSENT between those two that gets addressed through small little hints and lovely gestures.
Knowing what leader went through before, with all his boundaries having been crossed
(or rather, their existence not even having been acknowledged in the first place) makes what’s happening right now all the sweeter :3)
Villain doesn’t hug him or touch him right away; they address him, then let leader come to them on his own. It’s leader who initiates the first contact and only THEN does villain follow. I bet it makes leader feel so safe and loved and cared for *sighs dreamily*
Also, them knowing each other so intimately that one look is enough for leader to know what will follow? Very sexy ;)
(There is a tiny little bit of the younger, insecure leader still left in this one, though, the one that has been trained to be useful at all times/above all else: when he justifies wanting to enjoy himself and not being productive because he „wasn't getting anything done either way“… as if he still needs to do that, as if he still can’t be ‚lazy‘ or seeking pleasure just for the fun of it TT)
Villain not going for sex right away and instead checking if leader has eaten, while being "gentle" and "nonjudgmental" (to make sure leader doesn’t feel accused and spirals into trying to justify himself or apologize like he probably had to do with superhero before), makes me feel all warm and fuzzy...
Villain CARES. For real.
I wonder how long it took leader to realize and actually accept that as the truth (because here he does an amazing job of it, and I feel so proud of him :3 He admits that "It still [feels] strange for him to want those kind of things.“ but lets villain take care of him nonetheless. He's grown so much TT)
Of course, this part feeds right into this as well, and I love it: „They were still trying to be careful for him, a year ago Leader had still been skittish about those kind of things. It filled him with warmth to be treated kindly despite them knowing he got stronger.“
And then villain asks for PERMISSION to undress him—and even gives him an out, telling him that cuddles are fine too… villain really is perfect for leader, aren’t they? TT
Leader allowing villain to do as they please and letting them take care of the leader "however they liked“ is such a sweet (and sexy) sign of their trust and affection towards the other.
(And still, villain checks in with him and asks leader if he wants them to stop because to them, it MATTERS what the leader wants at any point during their interaction.
(Small, nsfw addition: Leader has a praise kink, huh? Figures, honestly. He’s been conditioned to want to be ‚good‘ so desperately, for so long, he didn’t stand a chance XD)
I can’t wait to catch up on how these two met and fell in love (something leader surely felt guilty for in the beginning) when I’ve got more free time on my hands.
Hello, there. I’m happy you enjoyed this story although it’s extremely different from the whumpy aspect of Leader’s life. It’s also always nice to read your thoughts about Leader.
As usual you saw more nuances than I thought I put in the story with the first step of consent where Villain doesn’t touch Leader right away, although they do tend to be extremely touchy.
If we take Triangle sandwich, Villain doesn’t wait for Leader there. Why not make things sexy and they make the conscious decision to give space before sex?
You’re right Villain cares a lot about Leader. I like to think it’s thanks to them that Leader grew more confident. Villain really enjoys having someone to protect and nurture (and tease sometimes ;) ), it gives them a purpose and something to look forward to.
When they saw insecure and terrified Leader trying to hold together a sinking ship with an impassive mask and a humble and compassionate demeanour, they fell head over heels. So, Leader is also perfect for them.
There’s still some insecure Leader there because in my first timeline, I would put this scene a little after their marriage when Leader is away from Superhero for a longer period of time. He’s basically in a phase where he’s living in a supportive environment (instead of being plunged in toxicity).
In this story, Leader does trust Villain with his body, soul and mind. They both know each other “intimately” so he knows he can just let Villain have their way and nothing bad will happen. I’m glad you find that part sweet and sexy because I agree with you.
To finish this part of the answer, I’m proud to tell you Leader indeed has a praise kink and Villain does use it to both their advantage.
Also, I didn’t write the moment they met nor the moment when Leader realised he was in love, so there’s nothing to catch up for the moment. I think I’m going to write Leader’s story a bit out of order, follow the inspiration of the moment with the timelines that inspires me the most.
I wonder, should I make a masterlist dedicated to Leader (like what I did with my Malice’s series but in a looser way) ?
One last thing: SLEEP! It’s important, you can read my story later, it will still be there (unless my account gets nuked from the stratosphere and even then I’m also on Pillowfort).
i want to enter a new fandom (bcs for reasons i had to leave an old one)
and bcs of my puny brain i can only process so many at a time before i start to implode
so basically what im saying is
( ͡~ ͜ʖ ͡° )?
FNAF (lemme be so fr, i am here for sun&moon with a lil michael angst)
Dandy's World (THE ANGST POTENTIAL WITH LITERALLY ANYBODY)
(secret third option where i chicken out and join neither)
Voting ended onApr 29
now with the FNAF it has been a slow steady fall as most things are, i regularly get recommended sun&moon content til today but have never directly engaged with any part of the fandom or its fanworks
for DW, ill be fr, i originally fell HARD, but i had no one to play with and the fandom with very toxic so i fell out in maybe a month or two, but i recently got back into playing and i remember why i loved it so much
Again, I know bills like this take a while to come into effect, but this still absolutely sucks regardless!
UK UNDER 16 SOCIAL MEDIA BAN UPDATE! ⭐️🇬🇧
This is corrupt as hell!
They literally forced it in even though nobody wanted it, and a majority voted against it!
I am BEGGING you guys in the UK to actively KEEP FIGHTING against this! You still have time even though it passef to stop this!
This is tyranny and facism if your government is able to override the majority! There is no democracy if they are able to do this!
❗️THIS SHOULD CONCERN YOU❗️
- PLEASE start holding parents accountable and call them out!
-PLEASE hold your government and reps accountable for this corruption!
🇬🇧✊️⭐️Contact your reps who will listen! Sign petitions and PLEASE PROTEST THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT IN YOUR SITUATION SEEING AS YOUR GOVERNMENT WILL NOT LISTEN!⭐️✊️🇬🇧
(Thank you, @candyguts-blog , for this news :) 🙏❤️! Please keep fighting out there! I am sorry your government is forcing this upon you even though nobody wanted it! We are all in this together since this is a global issue now affecting multiple countries and spreading fast! ✊️⚔️🌐)
At first, I thought it was just a problem with Ellipsus and that they were secretly supporting Israel or something because I got a little popup thing on the side of my screen saying "This website or company has been flagged as non-compliant with 🍉 campaign!" I thought it was just ellipsus, but then it also flagged Tumblr and DuckDuckGo. I just tested it on Protonmail and Wikipedia too and it flagged those sites too.
So for context, Boycat is basically an app/browser extention that tells you when a brand is something meant to be boycotted. It typically flags brands that support Israel and the occupation of Palestine. I think it also flags other brands that support bad things, but those are the main ones. Like for example, if I went to Amazon and looked up Coca Cola, it would flag Coca Cola with a little angry cat holding a sign with a red x on it because Coca Cola is a company with a history of shady activity and supporting Israel in the Palestinian genocide.
The thing about it was though that Boycat can only check products on a store. It didn't used to flag websites. I don't know if the devs are trying something new or something but something is up because Boycat is flagging every website I go to as "Not in compliance" and giving this full message:
This post was originally going to be about Ellipsus getting flagged by Boycat and the concerns that brought, but looking closer, it's clearly something going on with Boycat itself. Like I get that some of these websites aren't completely ethically sound. I know Tumblr has a transphobia problem as well as alledged zionism on the staff. Some website's servers are hosted by Israel. But Boycat is flagging everything. Including indie websites like Melonland.
Personally I'm gonna disable the browser extention until this is resolved, but if anyone knows why this is happening and has an explanation, please let me know. This is probably just a glitch or a new feature that they're trying to code in in all likelyhood from my understanding.
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Protect Internet Freedom from now until forever. It's important existentially! Americans stand with UK citizens in our struggle against government censorship
Y'all if you're American please email your politicians and senators against the parents decide act. I'm fucking begging because we're reaching a tipping point.
Quick and easy link to both find your congressmen/women and giving you a quick and easy way to copy / paste the message into it. You want to oppose. It's an act that will demand that all major OS makers integrate a direct forced age verification control into all OS.
I received a comment on this that I figured would be very helpful- it's a template for communicating with your representatives. Be sure to use it for reference
Dear Representative [Name],
I am writing to express my strong opposition to H.R. 8250 (The "Parents Decide Act"). As your constituent and a concerned citizen, I believe this bill introduces unprecedented risks to digital privacy and security.
Specifically, I am alarmed by:
SEC. 2(a)(1)(B): Requiring age verification to even use an operating system creates a mandatory "hardware lockout" that ends anonymous computing and forces users to hand over sensitive identification data to major corporations just to power on their devices.
SEC. 2(a)(3): Mandating that OS providers create a system for all app developers to access verification data is a massive security vulnerability. This effectively creates a centralized API of user identities accessible to thousands of third-party developers, many of whom may lack adequate data protection.
This bill does not protect children; it creates a centralized surveillance infrastructure at the OS level. I urge you to protect the privacy of your constituents and vote NO on H.R. 8250.
This is a hell that us down under in Australia are already living in, and it’s not even effective at what it claims to do in protecting children.
Given that, in the wake of this mandatory identification policy, my country seems to be moving to hand over its citizens biometric data, like fingerprints, Face ID files, and identification documents, over to the USA and to ICE to maintain the visa free travel (ESTA) we have, I strongly urge any US resident to send these emails, or make calls.
But if you can’t do that, the most powerful thing you can do is spread the word. Tell your friends, family, coworkers, anyone who can help.
My reach will likely be small, and so I don’t know if this will mean very much in the grand scheme of things, but I cannot stand to see this tracking happen to another population as it did to mine.
And if you think it won’t affect you, it will. All anonymity goes out the window when your accounts can be linked via your personal ID
I wish you all luck in preventing this act from going through.
