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You wanna know what happens once you kill yourself? Your mother comes home from work and finds her baby dead and she screams and runs over to you and tries to get you to wake up but you won’t and she keeps screaming and shaking you and her tears are dripping onto your face and your dad hears all the screaming and runs into the room and he can’t even speak because the child that he loved and the child that he watched grow up is gone forever and finally your little sister runs into the room to see what all the fuss is about and she sees you dead. The person she looked up to and loved. The person she bragged about to  her friends, the person she wanted to be just like when she grew up, the person that made her feel safe. But she’s never really going to get to grow up and smile and laugh and love because she’ll always be consumed with this feeling of missing you. And now there’s something missing from your family and they can barely look at each other anymore because everything reminds them of you but you’re gone and hurts more than anything. and you think that your mom never cared because she was always busy and yelling at you to finish your homework and clean your room and forgot to say I love you sometimes but really, she loved you more than anything and she doesn’t leave the house anymore, she can’t even get out of bed and she’s getting thinner and thinner because it’s too hard to eat. Your father had to quit his job and he doesn’t sleep anymore, every time he closes his eyes he sees his baby dead, and the image never goes away no matter how much alcohol he drinks. And at school your best friend sees that your seat is empty and she gets this sick feeling in her stomach and that’s when she hears the announcement. You killed yourself. And suddenly she’s screaming and crying in the middle of class and no one even bothers comforting because they’re all  busy sitting there staring at your empty seat with tears dripping down their cheeks and all she wants is for you to hug her and tell her it’s gonna be okay like you always did, but this time, you’re not there to do it, everything is dark now that you’re gone and her grades are slipping, she barely goes to school anymore and she ended up in hospital after taking too many pills because she wanted to see you again. the girls who used to make fun of the way you dressed feel their throats get tight, they don’t talk to each other anymore, they don’t talk to anyone, they’re all in therapy trying so hard not to blame themselves but nothing works. and your teacher who always gave you a hard time stares blankly at the wall, she quits her job a few days later. And then your boyfriend hears the news and he can’t breathe, he still calls you a lot just to hear your voice and he talks to you on facebook but you never message him back, he can’t fall in love again because every girl he meets reminds him of you, he’s never going to get over you, he loved you and he cries himself to sleep every night, hating himself and slicing his skin because he couldn’t save you and he’s never going to hold you in his arms or hear you laugh again. Now everyone who knew you, whether they were a big part of your life or someone you passed in the hallway a few times a week, they carry this aching feeling around inside them because you’re gone, and they miss you, and they don’t know why you left but it must’ve been their fault and they should’ve stopped you and they should’ve told you they loved you more and that feeling is never going to go away. And so you killed yourself

If you’re in a crisis now, do not hesitate to call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline:

1-800-273-TALK (8255)

To chat online with a counsellor, click here: http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/GetHelp/LifelineChat.aspx

The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline website: http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

Castle In The Sky (1986) Grave of the Fireflies (1988) My Neighbor Totoro (1988) Kiki’s Delivery Service (1989) Only Yesterday (1991) Porco Rosso (1992) Pom Poko (1994) Whisper of the Heart (1995) Princess Mononoke (1997) My Neighbors the Yamadas (1999) Spirited Away (2001) The Cat Returns (2002) Howl’s Moving Castle (2004) Tales from Earthsea (2006) Ponyo On A Cliff From The Sea (2008) The Secret World of Arrietty/The Borrower Arrietty (2010) From Up on Poppy Hill (2011)

If any of the links stop working, please let me know so I can fix it.

Something I haven’t seen any posts on yet (I’m sure they’re out there though) are about keeping stim toys clean.

I’m not an expert but this is how we clean toys and materials in the preschool where I work and how I clean mine at home.

Hard plastics (such as tangles): Hot soapy water and a cloth. Dry well.

Soft plastics, silicone, rubber, metals, wood: Damp soft cloth and a little soap. Use a clean damp cloth to clean any soap residue. Objects with holes such as rubber ducks can go mouldy so dry well.

Soft things that cannot be submerged (pom pom keyrings, stress balls, weighted blankets etc): spot clean with a damp cloth. Keep hands clean when using and avoid these toys as outside stim toys when possible.

Pacifiers and similiar chewing stim toys: rest in boiling water to sterilise before use and use hot soapy water to clean after each use.

Soft toys and fabrics: wash in laundry as directed on products’ labels. If they have rattles inside you can sometimes put them into a net laundry bag or a pillowcase in a normal laundry wash (some may require spot cleaning only).

You can use diluted bleach or other sterilising cleaner (such as those for baby bottles and toys) every few weeks to kill germs. 

When using slime, kinetic sand and other toys (such as beanbags) that cannot be cleaned, try to wash your hands before and after you use them and keep them in an air-tight container. 

This Free Crochet pattern teaches you how crochet Meladora’s Butterfly Stitch. I updated the tutorials in HD. Hope you enjoy!

Pattern and tutorials for both right and left handed. http://www.meladorascreations.com/meladoras-butterfly-stitch-free-crochet-pattern/

Free crochet pattern! :)