I'm always changing and growing, revising my life and what I'm blogging about. I joke that I'm a gossip columnist (because I do refer to other celebrities besides Jared Padalecki and Jensen Ackles), but it's only to share my other interests.
So what are my interests? The purpose behind this blog?
Many things. I title it Ramblings Of A Writer for a reason. I write and boy, do I ramble!
I’ll also be redoing my masterlists to make it easier for folks to find certain posts. I won’t be redoing posts—no need to do that, but perhaps reposting information being redone. Like “Version 2 with new stuff” or better organized information and having those on the masterlists instead.
Let's begin with me:
Who am I?
My online nickname: Raye
Pronouns: She/her
Astrology: (Western) Pisces, (Eastern) Metal Monkey
Country: United States
I am anti (and I make no apologies):
Anti Danneel/Anti Elta
Anti Misha
Anti AAs
Anti Destiel
Anti Hellers
Anti Cockles
Anti Abuse
My ‘custom’ tags:
#Jensen Supportive (I believe I'm the originator)
#Music Choices by lightofraye
#lightofraye on abuse
I also frequently use #Jensen Concern, though I am not the originator (like I thought I was!).
What I’m reading:
Fictional: The Dresden Files, currently Battle Ground and Peace Talks
Non-fiction: The Body Keeps The Score
Where am I at with my writing:
BA Script: Judging by the math… 1/2 of the way through. Loving it! First draft!
Pre-plotting my horror/thriller
Vikings? VIKINGS!
So many more planned. Someone knock out my muse. 😅
What am I watching?
Burn Notice (finally getting the last season!)
Daredevil (again!)
Once Upon A Time
Supernatural (forever and ever, ahem)
The Good Place
A Discovery of Witches
About this blog:
I really, honest to gods, did not start this blog to be an anti. I know my anons would disagree with me and claim I always “hated” Danneel, but that just isn’t the truth. I came to Tumblr to find a new kind of social media as I was feeling soured by Facebook, disliked how Twitter had changed, escaped Livejournal years ago, not a fan of Reddit, and the “newer” social media sites weren’t my thing. Plus I’ve kept seeing hilarious screenshots from Tumblr on Facebook and decided to check it out!
I initially started by following pages about Supernatural, Sam and Dean Winchester, the actors Jared Padalecki and Jensen Ackles. I did not go seeking anti-Danneel posts; they more or less fell into my lap. When I started reading a few posts, something clicked in my mind, explained why I was struggling with how I felt about her. I kept analyzing her behavior for a long while, what she said, and thought maybe something was being seen by fans that wasn’t being seen by me.
The explanations made sense. I felt I could breathe again. That’s when I remembered the least recognized method of abuse: emotional and mental. That fit Danneel to a T. Especially the more I looked into what she’s said and wrote over the years and saw how Jensen behaved around her in videos and photos. Even when they were supposedly trying to push the “happy couple” narrative, it just did not look true. Especially given Jensen’s talent as an actor! If he couldn’t even fake being happy or in love with her….
So I’m an Anti-Danneel. I’m also Anti-Misha for his behavior over the years, towards Jared, towards Jensen, the lies he’s peddled and keeps peddling. (For instance, no, Castiel would not have ‘fucked’ Dean upon pulling him out of Hell. No, CW was not being homophobic.)
I am absolutely very pro-Jared and pro-Jensen. I know, I know…. “But Raye, you’ve written posts criticizing Jensen! How can you be pro-Jensen??”
My answer is a variation of this: “Because I care! I am not blind to the flaws of either men! I am wildly concerned about Jensen, about what seems—to me—as excessive drinking, ‘empty’ eyes, unhappy and stressed smiles.”
For the vast majority of the AAs, it seems I’m not pro-Jensen if I don’t see him as flawless, a god upon the perfect pedestal, the Ken doll That breaks my heart. He is flawed. He is imperfect. I see more than just the pretty mask. I want to see and know the man. He isn’t just a beautiful trophy for us to ogle.
He’s caught in a rock and a hard place and I acknowledge that hard. It’s just only the negativity is seen and not the love and support. 😕
What can I tell you about me?
I could say so much. I’m the third child of a family of four kids, and the only daughter. (So that was fun.) I’m a gamer, read comics (still read a few, such as ElfQuest), got into reading fantasy books (Dragonlance’s War of the Lance was my first!), have a massive interest in psychology, in wanting to understand the human mind. I’m fluent in two languages—English and American Sign Language.
Ah, that last one might surprise some folks. No, I am not deaf—but my parents, two of my three brothers, and everyone on my mother’s side of the family are. I half-joke that my first language is ASL, not speaking with a voice. It’s not a joke though; it’s more or less accurate.
I’m a writer. I’m working on several screenplays, have plans for novels, dabble in poetry. I’m an amateur artist—have sketched with pencil and Photoshop. I haven’t done so in a while, but I love art. I do a lot under the creative umbrella, and most of it is as an amateur—photography, wishing to learn pottery, and so forth.
I’m a mother. I’m divorced (happily so, trust me). I have born children of my body and I have children of my heart. I have suffered loss deeply profound that I wish people would talk more about so we all realize we aren’t as alone as we fear.
I’m an advocate for better, stronger laws against abuse, of the protection and services for survivors. Largely because I’m a survivor, but also because I give a damn about people. I’ve experienced it all, starting from childhood to my (thankfully) now-ex-husband. I am hoping to start a series of reels explaining the red flags of abuse, how to recognize them, how to get out if you are in an abusive situation, and what organizations exist to contact for help (if any do exist). Keep an eye out for those when I start posting them!
A link to the ever-in-progress masterlist.
First masterlist, largely anti Danneel posts (needs to be updated; the links are a dead-end right now; my sincerest apologies). (My thorough anti Danneel post, highly recommend reading it.)
Second masterlist, more anti Danneel (also dead-end links, need to be updated).
Third masterlist, assorted posts (same as above; my apologies).
The links will be defunct due to changing my Tumblr name. So just switch out rrahuntersblog to lightofraye and it'll work. I'm reworking those too! Bear with me!
My first About Me.
My second About Me Redux.
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When you wish upon a star
Makes no difference who you are
Anything your heart desires
Will come to you
If your heart is in your dream
No request is too extreme
When you wish upon a star
As dreamers do
Fate is kind
She brings to those to love
The sweet fulfillment of
Their secret longing
Like a bolt out of the blue
Fate steps in and sees you through
When you wish upon a star
Your dreams come true
Don't know why. That song came to me as I saw that gif/video. May our wishes and desires come true. Reblogging for us all.
God. The way Jared here... as Sam.... just... absolutely gutted, grieving John... and Jensen, as Dean... stoic, trying to hold it together... and in the end, that tear escaping....
Oof.
Early seasons of Supernatural, how you always kill me.
Early in the mornin' I still get a little bit nervous
Fightin' my anxiety constantly, I try to control it
Even when I know it's been forever, I can still feel the spin
Hurts when I remember, and I never wanna feel it again
Don't know if you get it 'cause I can't express how thankful I am
That you were always with me when it hurts, I know that you'd understand
I don't wanna lose control
Nothin' I can do anymore
Tryin' every day when I hold my breath
Spinnin' out in space pressin' on my chest
I don't wanna lose control
Sometimes I still think it's comin', but I know it's not
Tryin' to breathe in and then out, but the air gets caught
'Cause even though I'm older now and I know how to shake off the past
I wouldn't have made it if I didn't have you holdin' my hand
I don't wanna lose control
Nothin' I can do anymore
Tryin' every day when I hold my breath
Spinnin' out in space pressin' on my chest
I don't wanna lose control
I need you to know I would never be this strong without you
You've seen how I grow, you took all my doubts
'Cause you were home
I don't wanna lose control
There's nothin' I can do anymore
I don't wanna lose control (Oh-oh-oh, oh, oh-oh)
Nothin' I can do anymore (Anymore), anymore
Tryin' every day when I hold my breath
Spinnin' out in space pressin' on my chest (Pressin' on my chest)
I don't wanna lose control
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am I crazy or are all of your master link links broken? Every time I click it says something went wrong!!
Hi there!
Sorry about that! I never got around to updating the links! They were broken due to me changing the name of my blog and that's why they weren't working. It's still a little wonky due to how Tumblr works, but they've been updated if you go to the specific post now! (I had a few hours of free time so they should work now!)
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This post was a submission from @redhoodieone but if someone reblogs it then it looks like I posted it directly. 😂 Ah, Tumblr, Tumblr. Credit for the post goes to her, not me.
They make it sound like it was such a great story about Danneel when it was just a Good Samaritan story that happened TO Danneel and him. Like… okay? I’m glad she got her stuff back but so? It’s nothing SHE did?
They’re really desperate for crumbs about her, wow.
So I’ve messaged by someone who was at the con and said Jensen brought up Danneel several times. A mutual listened to the videos and confirmed. And nearly every time, it was a negative and toxic way. Made me headdesk.
I know the stans will go “But that’s just their humor!”
No.
No.
It’s a red flag! 🚩
And people laugh.
He did the same when he was asked about the OTH reboot at the Countdown premiere. He said that if Danneel ‘asked’ him to be on the reboot, he’d be on it—no choice in the matter. Again, people laughed.
Everyone laughed and went “Yas Kween!”
No autonomy at all for Jensen. Zero. This isn’t cute. This speaks as to why he’s barely home. This speaks to battles over power in an unhealthy marriage.
A marriage isn’t about fights over power. About who gets one over the other. It should never be about that.
But his stories do that over and over again. Math questions and everything else.
Maybe they’ve been married for 16 years, but I sincerely doubt it’s been ‘happily’….
Edit: a mutual reminded me of this.
Why—WHY—did Jensen think this was funny to say? All it does is point to Jensen saying he’s avoiding any kind of intimacy with his wife!
