#about raye

Yes, another version of this. Deal. 😆

I'm always changing and growing, revising my life and what I'm blogging about. I joke that I'm a gossip columnist (because I do refer to other celebrities besides Jared Padalecki and Jensen Ackles), but it's only to share my other interests.

So what are my interests? The purpose behind this blog?

Many things. I title it Ramblings Of A Writer for a reason. I write and boy, do I ramble!

I’ll also be redoing my masterlists to make it easier for folks to find certain posts. I won’t be redoing posts—no need to do that, but perhaps reposting information being redone. Like “Version 2 with new stuff” or better organized information and having those on the masterlists instead.

Let's begin with me:

Who am I?

My online nickname: Raye

Pronouns: She/her

Astrology: (Western) Pisces, (Eastern) Metal Monkey

Country: United States

I am anti (and I make no apologies):

Anti Danneel/Anti Elta

Anti Misha

Anti AAs

Anti Destiel

Anti Hellers

Anti Cockles

Anti Abuse

My ‘custom’ tags:

#Jensen Supportive (I believe I'm the originator)

#Music Choices by lightofraye

#lightofraye on abuse

I also frequently use #Jensen Concern, though I am not the originator (like I thought I was!).

Tagged by the awesome @nancylou444 ❤️❤️❤️

What's the origin of your username? I originally had rrahuntersblog, then changed it because it was too... I guess personal... is the best way to describe it. I wanted a different username but the one I originally wanted was taken, so I came up with 'lightofraye'. It suits me better.

OTP(s) + ship name: I... actually really don't have one? Uhm. Let me rephrase that--I don't have many and I don't know if they count as ships? I mean... Buffy/Spike actually happened and I feel their relationship was better (er... after Spike got his soul and worked on himself I mean) than Buffy/Angel. Otherwise.... uh... Matt/Karen (Daredevil), Jean/Logan (X-Men). But nothing hardcore, honestly. When I was into the show or movie or whatever, I had minor ship feelings, I guess, but never anything that continued for years.

Favorite color: I have an order! Silver, light gray, white, light blue, teal.

Song stuck in your head: Currently I have this song stuck in my head:

Weirdest habit/trait: Uh... I have to do things in a certain order. Like when I shower. Or get ready in the morning. If the routine works for me, I stick to it hard and if there's a disruption, it throws me off all day.

Hobbies: Writing! So much writing. Occasional artwork. Reading. I do game at times--current favorites are Baldur's Gate 3, Dragon Age: Inquisition, and Stardew Valley.

If you work, what's your profession?: I work in the welfare department.

If you could have any job you wish, what would it be?: Published author and/or screenwriter.

Something you're good at: I humbly submit I'm a decent writer.

Something you hate: Abusers. Seriously. Be it verbal/emotional, physical, etc. I won't tolerate it.

Something you collect: Oh... I have a collection of figurines/statuettes. Books! So many books. I have a mini semi-precious stone collection (largely amethyst and aquamarine, but I have a few others). I used to collect seashells. Lost them. :(

Something you forget: I genuinely have a gap in my childhood memory--right around when my unfortunate sexual abuse happened, and so my mind literally blanked out most of it, even moments that were definitely not part of the abuse. Just... don't remember. I only know I don't remember because my second brother told me of some moments and I stared at him going "I don't remember XYZ."

What's your love language?: Honestly there's an overlap. Words of love-acts of love. Don't just tell me you love me and your actions say otherwise. I demand, need, both.

Favorite movie/show: Ohhh boy. So.... Daredevil (Netflix TV). WandaVision (accurate portrayal of grief, my gods). The Big Bang Theory. The Good Place. Moana. Brave. Star Trek: TNG, Star Trek: Deep Space Nine, Star Trek: Voyager, the Star Trek movies (old and new). Star Trek: Discovery. Star Trek: Strange New World. Picard. Supernatural. Lucifer. Wonder Woman (the one with Gal Gadot). Black Panther (rest in power, Chadwick Boseman). So many....

Favorite food: Fettuccine Alfredo, definitely. Chicken pot pie.

Favorite animal: Cats! Big or small, all of them.

What were you like as a child?: Pre-abuse? A wild, fearless child. After-abuse? Scared, shy. Still quite shy and reserved.

Favorite subject at school: Art! And English.

Least favorite subject: Math, the sciences (I... struggle with a lot of it).

What's your best character trait?: Uh... my mutuals wanna answer this because I am honestly stumped?

What's your worst character trait?: I have resting sad face. No, seriously. I've had people ask me if I'm okay and I'd be like "Yeah, I'm fine." Them: "You look sad." Sigh.

If you could travel in time, who would you like to meet?: Uh. Ah! Leonardo da Vinci! He'd be an interesting subject to talk to.

tag but you don't have to. ❤️❤️

Waiting for a CT scan to ensure no internal issues right now.

So glad it wasn't serious despite what it looked like on the surface.

I may write a post about what led to me needing to go, but not tonight.

I was talking to a fellow mutual when I stumbled across an old post of mine on Facebook. According to the memories and time stamp, it was from six years ago today.

You see, every so often, when I get some new Facebook friends or "followers", I tend to share a quick biography of myself so they know what they're getting into. Me, as a survivor, child of deaf adults, a mother, and so forth. This way there aren't (hopefully) rude surprises.

In writing that one bio, a line caught my eye and I decided to bring it up in a separate post. The line in question?

"I'm an open book but hold lots of secrets."

It suited me perfectly.

Because it's true. People may say I overshare, but the truth is, that's barely the surface of the complexity that is me. I'm contrarian. I contain multitudes.

I'm a victim and a survivor. I'm a fighter, but in the quietest of ways. I'm a deep ocean with a still surface and a riptide underneath. I'm slow to anger, but sometimes with a quick temper. I wear a mask and yet am so vulnerable, I can cry at the drop of a hat.

Parker cares a lot about his skin care especially after he realised his freckles were caused by him not caring about skincare products in the first place. He actually spends time researching the best sunscreens on the net.

Raye initially planned to be a stylist or work in the fashion industry. She couldn't afford college classes and decided to make use of her looks to be an Instagram model and ended up creating an OnlyFans account to monetize even more. Soon, that initial plan was abandoned totally as she found immense success on OF and being an influencer with massive following on social media.

(Ale)Xander finds amusement in people watching, taking notes on how ridiculous the average person can be especially at eateries or even the grocery store. He even sketches people who have caught his attention in a random pieces of paper or napkin he can find.

Gareth loves to crochet and picked up the hobby when he was a teen. He took it up to bond with his ailing grandmother at that point of time while she was in his parents' home. This adept skill with the needles somehow translated to him being a skilled surgeon. Still crochets at home to destress. His daughters find it odd and fascinating at the same time.

Jac doesn't like getting a mani pedi weekly but she has to do to keep up with appearances. She also hates long ass nails that render her fingers useless. She keeps the mani simple but sharp enough to cause hurt should the need arises in her line of work.

🕒what’s the longest time they went without engaging in sexual activity with a partner? [masturbation doesn’t count]

Lunara can go without very long. Her sex drive is quite mild and she's much more consumed by her job more than anything. So it could last months honestly. Probably a year the longest. Raye is... Does 24 hours count? 🤣 she's a slut. Whoops.

💦what’s their immediate post-orgasm reaction?

Lunara is clingy after an orgasm. She'd want to cling onto her partner for as long as the waves are still waving. Does that make sense? Heh. Raye is giggly and rough. She'd be tugging or pulling or even scratching anything as she rides it out.

🤪what’s the wildest place they’ve ever done something sexual?