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@liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

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I'm keeping this blog only so people will see this:

Almost everything posted about my personal life here was a lie. I told stories about other (nameless) people that were really combinations of several different stories. Them being based off of true stories isn't an excuse, but it is an explanation for why I thought it was OK.

I lied about being paralysed, I lied about my weight (I'm not actually fat I think), I lied about what country I live in (never Angola nor Japan), I claimed to be Black/Japanese, despite not being either. The correct word would be "brown". I didn't think it would matter, but ultimately it's still race-faking and is very disrespectful. I claimed a professional NPD diagnosis (not true, I thought I might have symptoms but that's not the same). Not to mention the transmisogyny of having a transfem scapegoat to my story and falsely claiming to be a transfem on @ihavebrokenmynoseeighttimes . I am truly sorry.

On another post, I implicated a trans woman of being a transphobic psy-op because she said bottom surgery and voice training are evil. I don't know if I was wrong to or not. But it was probably projection.

I was admittedly not in a stable mental state when I was doing this, and on an emotional level I think I felt what I was saying to be true, though I knew logically it wasn't. This doesn't diminish the harm of what I did or my responsibility for it. I am sorry. I will be trying to reach out to everyone who I know believed what I said to show them the truth, and then I'll permanently log off.

The lie of a post referenced

reminder to click for palestine

I'm also not an adult despite saying I was

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intersex-confessions

perisex trans and enby people using shi/hir pronouns is just like using intersexist slurs to describe yourselves

you don't get to "reclaim" that

fuck you

.

thistleclaw-and-miku

Wait what do those pronouns mean? I have no idea how they're bad /gen

liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

They're a combination of she/her and it/him used for intersex characters (and now people, as the terms spread) that are meant to be slurred and fetishised. The reason they don't just use she/him is because the intention is explicitly to make it clear the characters are not full humans/people.

A non-intersex person saying they use these pronouns is sorta like a white weeb calling themself a chink

thistleclaw-and-miku

Thank you so much! /gen

liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

Hi prev, could you delete this post? No fault of yours, it's just that I use the ch-slur in it (in a clinical sense, but) mentioning I'm Asian, but since I'm not East or Southeast Asian it was wrong/racist to use it. Thank you!

intersex-confessions

perisex trans and enby people using shi/hir pronouns is just like using intersexist slurs to describe yourselves

you don't get to "reclaim" that

fuck you

.

thistleclaw-and-miku

Wait what do those pronouns mean? I have no idea how they're bad /gen

liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

They're a combination of she/her and it/him used for intersex characters (and now people, as the terms spread) that are meant to be slurred and fetishised. The reason they don't just use she/him is because the intention is explicitly to make it clear the characters are not full humans/people.

A non-intersex person saying they use these pronouns is sorta like a white weeb calling themself a chink

thistleclaw-and-miku

Thank you so much! /gen

liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

Hi, could you delete this post? No fault of yours, it's just that I use the ch-slur in it (in a clinical sense, but) and mention being Asian, but since I'm not East or Southeast Asian it was wrong/racist to just type it out. Thank you!

liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

There was a very thin, very yt trans woman at my local queer setting™️, and at some point she commented to me (a fat black trans man), that "If [I] want to be treated like a big black man, that's exactly what [she'll] do, haha!" (implying she was afraid of me. I am paralysed and did not approach her).

I feel poorly, because as the whole group has gotten closer, she's opened up to me a lot, but not apologised. I am kind to her, but she's not my friend, and I know it's upsetting her.

I just wish I could be a better person, because I know how incredibly difficult it is for trans women to just exist in the current climate. But honestly, I can't help but fucking hate her.

Even around other "trans freaks", I am still treated like an object of terror. My masculinity is something to be horrified of, but simultaneously, it's just me wishing to be masculine.

I AM a big black man, goddamnit, and I don't deserve to be treated like this for it. I miss the days when white queers at least pretended to respect me. I wish I could smile and forgive but I don't.

liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

Prev, I'm sorry for lying to you, can you delete your reblog? This didn't happen, the girl doesn't exist, I'm not Black or paralysed or fat or anything I claimed. I explain in my pinned if you care. Thank you.

liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

There was a very thin, very yt trans woman at my local queer setting™️, and at some point she commented to me (a fat black trans man), that "If [I] want to be treated like a big black man, that's exactly what [she'll] do, haha!" (implying she was afraid of me. I am paralysed and did not approach her).

I feel poorly, because as the whole group has gotten closer, she's opened up to me a lot, but not apologised. I am kind to her, but she's not my friend, and I know it's upsetting her.

I just wish I could be a better person, because I know how incredibly difficult it is for trans women to just exist in the current climate. But honestly, I can't help but fucking hate her.

Even around other "trans freaks", I am still treated like an object of terror. My masculinity is something to be horrified of, but simultaneously, it's just me wishing to be masculine.

I AM a big black man, goddamnit, and I don't deserve to be treated like this for it. I miss the days when white queers at least pretended to respect me. I wish I could smile and forgive but I don't.

liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

Prev, I'm sorry for lying to you, can you delete your reblog? This didn't happen, the girl doesn't exist, I'm not Black or paralysed or fat or anything I claimed. I explain in my pinned if you care. Thank you.

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liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

There was a very thin, very yt trans woman at my local queer setting™️, and at some point she commented to me (a fat black trans man), that "If [I] want to be treated like a big black man, that's exactly what [she'll] do, haha!" (implying she was afraid of me. I am paralysed and did not approach her).

I feel poorly, because as the whole group has gotten closer, she's opened up to me a lot, but not apologised. I am kind to her, but she's not my friend, and I know it's upsetting her.

I just wish I could be a better person, because I know how incredibly difficult it is for trans women to just exist in the current climate. But honestly, I can't help but fucking hate her.

Even around other "trans freaks", I am still treated like an object of terror. My masculinity is something to be horrified of, but simultaneously, it's just me wishing to be masculine.

I AM a big black man, goddamnit, and I don't deserve to be treated like this for it. I miss the days when white queers at least pretended to respect me. I wish I could smile and forgive but I don't.

liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

Prev, I'm sorry for lying to you, can you delete your reblog? This didn't happen, the girl doesn't exist, I'm not Black or paralysed or fat or anything I claimed. I explain in my pinned if you care. Thank you.

liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

There was a very thin, very yt trans woman at my local queer setting™️, and at some point she commented to me (a fat black trans man), that "If [I] want to be treated like a big black man, that's exactly what [she'll] do, haha!" (implying she was afraid of me. I am paralysed and did not approach her).

I feel poorly, because as the whole group has gotten closer, she's opened up to me a lot, but not apologised. I am kind to her, but she's not my friend, and I know it's upsetting her.

I just wish I could be a better person, because I know how incredibly difficult it is for trans women to just exist in the current climate. But honestly, I can't help but fucking hate her.

Even around other "trans freaks", I am still treated like an object of terror. My masculinity is something to be horrified of, but simultaneously, it's just me wishing to be masculine.

I AM a big black man, goddamnit, and I don't deserve to be treated like this for it. I miss the days when white queers at least pretended to respect me. I wish I could smile and forgive but I don't.

liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

Prev, I'm sorry for lying to you, can you delete your reblog? This didn't happen, the girl doesn't exist, I'm not Black or paralysed or fat or anything I claimed. I explain in my pinned if you care. Thank you.

liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

There was a very thin, very yt trans woman at my local queer setting™️, and at some point she commented to me (a fat black trans man), that "If [I] want to be treated like a big black man, that's exactly what [she'll] do, haha!" (implying she was afraid of me. I am paralysed and did not approach her).

I feel poorly, because as the whole group has gotten closer, she's opened up to me a lot, but not apologised. I am kind to her, but she's not my friend, and I know it's upsetting her.

I just wish I could be a better person, because I know how ridiculously difficult it is for trans women to just exist in the current climate. But honestly, I can't help but fucking hate her.

Even around other "trans freaks", I am still treated like an object of terror. My masculinity is something to be horrified of, but simultaneously, it's just me wishing to be masculine.

I AM a big black man, goddamnit, and I don't deserve to be treated like this for it. I miss the days when white queers at least pretended to respect me. I wish I could smile and forgive but I don't.

liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

Prev, I'm sorry for lying to you, can you delete your reblog? This didn't happen, the girl doesn't exist, I'm not Black or paralysed or fat or anything I claimed. I explain in my pinned if you care. Thank you.

liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

There was a very thin, very yt trans woman at my local queer setting™️, and at some point she commented to me (a fat black trans man), that "If [I] want to be treated like a big black man, that's exactly what [she'll] do, haha!" (implying she was afraid of me. I am paralysed and did not approach her).

I feel poorly, because as the whole group has gotten closer, she's opened up to me a lot, but not apologised. I am kind to her, but she's not my friend, and I know it's upsetting her.

I just wish I could be a better person, because I know how incredibly difficult it is for trans women to just exist in the current climate. But honestly, I can't help but fucking hate her.

Even around other "trans freaks", I am still treated like an object of terror. My masculinity is something to be horrified of, but simultaneously, it's just me wishing to be masculine.

I AM a big black man, goddamnit, and I don't deserve to be treated like this for it. I miss the days when white queers at least pretended to respect me. I wish I could smile and forgive but I don't.

liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

Prev, I'm sorry for lying to you, can you delete your reblog? This didn't happen, the girl doesn't exist, I'm not Black or paralysed or fat or anything I claimed. I explain in my pinned if you care. Thank you.

liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

There was a very thin, very yt trans woman at my local queer setting™️, and at some point she commented to me (a fat black trans man), that "If [I] want to be treated like a big black man, that's exactly what [she'll] do, haha!" (implying she was afraid of me. I am paralysed and did not approach her).

I feel poorly, because as the whole group has gotten closer, she's opened up to me a lot, but not apologised. I am kind to her, but she's not my friend, and I know it's upsetting her.

I just wish I could be a better person, because I know how incredibly difficult it is for trans women to just exist in the current climate. But honestly, I can't help but fucking hate her.

Even around other "trans freaks", I am still treated like an object of terror. My masculinity is something to be horrified of, but simultaneously, it's just me wishing to be masculine.

I AM a big black man, goddamnit, and I don't deserve to be treated like this for it. I miss the days when white queers at least pretended to respect me. I wish I could smile and forgive but I don't.

liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

Prev, I'm sorry for lying to you, can you delete your reblog? This didn't happen, the girl doesn't exist, I'm not Black or paralysed or fat or anything I claimed. I explain in my pinned if you care. Thank you.

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liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

There was a very thin, very yt trans woman at my local queer setting™️, and at some point she commented to me (a fat black trans man), that "If [I] want to be treated like a big black man, that's exactly what [she'll] do, haha!" (implying she was afraid of me. I am paralysed and did not approach her).

I feel poorly, because as the whole group has gotten closer, she's opened up to me a lot, but not apologised. I am kind to her, but she's not my friend, and I know it's upsetting her.

I just wish I could be a better person, because I know how ridiculously difficult it is for trans women to just exist in the current climate. But honestly, I can't help but fucking hate her.

Even around other "trans freaks", I am still treated like an object of terror. My masculinity is something to be horrified of, but simultaneously, it's just me wishing to be masculine.

I AM a big black man, goddamnit, and I don't deserve to be treated like this for it. I miss the days when white queers at least pretended to respect me. I wish I could smile and forgive but I don't.

liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

Prev, I'm sorry for lying to you, can you delete your reblog? This didn't happen, the girl doesn't exist, I'm not Black or paralysed or fat or anything I claimed. I explain in my pinned if you care. Thank you.

liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

There was a very thin, very yt trans woman at my local queer setting™️, and at some point she commented to me (a fat black trans man), that "If [I] want to be treated like a big black man, that's exactly what [she'll] do, haha!" (implying she was afraid of me. I am paralysed and did not approach her).

I feel poorly, because as the whole group has gotten closer, she's opened up to me a lot, but not apologised. I am kind to her, but she's not my friend, and I know it's upsetting her.

I just wish I could be a better person, because I know how incredibly difficult it is for trans women to just exist in the current climate. But honestly, I can't help but fucking hate her.

Even around other "trans freaks", I am still treated like an object of terror. My masculinity is something to be horrified of, but simultaneously, it's just me wishing to be masculine.

I AM a big black man, goddamnit, and I don't deserve to be treated like this for it. I miss the days when white queers at least pretended to respect me. I wish I could smile and forgive but I don't.

liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

Prev, I'm sorry for lying to you, can you delete your reblog? This didn't happen, the girl doesn't exist, I'm not Black or paralysed or fat or anything I claimed. I explain in my pinned if you care. Thank you.

liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

There was a very thin, very yt trans woman at my local queer setting™️, and at some point she commented to me (a fat black trans man), that "If [I] want to be treated like a big black man, that's exactly what [she'll] do, haha!" (implying she was afraid of me. I am paralysed and did not approach her).

I feel poorly, because as the whole group has gotten closer, she's opened up to me a lot, but not apologised. I am kind to her, but she's not my friend, and I know it's upsetting her.

I just wish I could be a better person, because I know how incredibly difficult it is for trans women to just exist in the current climate. But honestly, I can't help but fucking hate her.

Even around other "trans freaks", I am still treated like an object of terror. My masculinity is something to be horrified of, but simultaneously, it's just me wishing to be masculine.

I AM a big black man, goddamnit, and I don't deserve to be treated like this for it. I miss the days when white queers at least pretended to respect me. I wish I could smile and forgive but I don't.

liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

Prev, I'm sorry for lying to you, can you delete your reblog? This didn't happen, the girl doesn't exist, I'm not Black or paralysed or fat or anything I claimed. I explain in my pinned if you care. Thank you.

liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

There was a very thin, very yt trans woman at my local queer setting™️, and at some point she commented to me (a fat black trans man), that "If [I] want to be treated like a big black man, that's exactly what [she'll] do, haha!" (implying she was afraid of me. I am paralysed and did not approach her).

I feel poorly, because as the whole group has gotten closer, she's opened up to me a lot, but not apologised. I am kind to her, but she's not my friend, and I know it's upsetting her.

I just wish I could be a better person, because I know how ridiculously difficult it is for trans women to just exist in the current climate. But honestly, I can't help but fucking hate her.

Even around other "trans freaks", I am still treated like an object of terror. My masculinity is something to be horrified of, but simultaneously, it's just me wishing to be masculine.

I AM a big black man, goddamnit, and I don't deserve to be treated like this for it. I miss the days when white queers at least pretended to respect me. I wish I could smile and forgive but I don't.

liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

Prev, I'm sorry for lying to you, can you delete your reblog? This didn't happen, the girl doesn't exist, I'm not Black or paralysed or fat or anything I claimed. I explain in my pinned if you care. Thank you.

liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

There was a very thin, very yt trans woman at my local queer setting™️, and at some point she commented to me (a fat black trans man), that "If [I] want to be treated like a big black man, that's exactly what [she'll] do, haha!" (implying she was afraid of me. I am paralysed and did not approach her).

I feel poorly, because as the whole group has gotten closer, she's opened up to me a lot, but not apologised. I am kind to her, but she's not my friend, and I know it's upsetting her.

I just wish I could be a better person, because I know how ridiculously difficult it is for trans women to just exist in the current climate. But honestly, I can't help but fucking hate her.

Even around other "trans freaks", I am still treated like an object of terror. My masculinity is something to be horrified of, but simultaneously, it's just me wishing to be masculine.

I AM a big black man, goddamnit, and I don't deserve to be treated like this for it. I miss the days when white queers at least pretended to respect me. I wish I could smile and forgive but I don't.

liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

Prev, I'm sorry for lying to you, can you delete your reblog? This didn't happen, the girl doesn't exist, I'm not Black or paralysed or fat or anything I claimed. I explain in my pinned if you care. Thank you.

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liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

There was a very thin, very yt trans woman at my local queer setting™️, and at some point she commented to me (a fat black trans man), that "If [I] want to be treated like a big black man, that's exactly what [she'll] do, haha!" (implying she was afraid of me. I am paralysed and did not approach her).

I feel poorly, because as the whole group has gotten closer, she's opened up to me a lot, but not apologised. I am kind to her, but she's not my friend, and I know it's upsetting her.

I just wish I could be a better person, because I know how incredibly difficult it is for trans women to just exist in the current climate. But honestly, I can't help but fucking hate her.

Even around other "trans freaks", I am still treated like an object of terror. My masculinity is something to be horrified of, but simultaneously, it's just me wishing to be masculine.

I AM a big black man, goddamnit, and I don't deserve to be treated like this for it. I miss the days when white queers at least pretended to respect me. I wish I could smile and forgive but I don't.

liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

Prev, I'm sorry for lying to you, can you delete your reblog? This didn't happen, the girl doesn't exist, I'm not Black or paralysed or fat or anything I claimed. I explain in my pinned if you care. Thank you.

liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

There was a very thin, very yt trans woman at my local queer setting™️, and at some point she commented to me (a fat black trans man), that "If [I] want to be treated like a big black man, that's exactly what [she'll] do, haha!" (implying she was afraid of me. I am paralysed and did not approach her).

I feel poorly, because as the whole group has gotten closer, she's opened up to me a lot, but not apologised. I am kind to her, but she's not my friend, and I know it's upsetting her.

I just wish I could be a better person, because I know how incredibly difficult it is for trans women to just exist in the current climate. But honestly, I can't help but fucking hate her.

Even around other "trans freaks", I am still treated like an object of terror. My masculinity is something to be horrified of, but simultaneously, it's just me wishing to be masculine.

I AM a big black man, goddamnit, and I don't deserve to be treated like this for it. I miss the days when white queers at least pretended to respect me. I wish I could smile and forgive but I don't.

You don't hate her for being a trans woman you hate her for her bigoted views and rightfully so. Do not feel bad you deserve to feel comfortable too. That doesn't make you a bad person. Remember you do not have to be nice to be kind.

liedaboutbeingblackreadmypinned

I'm sorry for lying to you, can you delete your reblog? This didn't happen, the girl doesn't exist, I'm not Black or paralysed or fat or anything I claimed. I explain in my pinned if you care. Thank you.

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