Librowyrm

As a fellow animorphs enthusiast, do you have any thoughts? Do you think it would have changed much?

Not really. I don't think Tobias cares much about the sex of his hawk body, and I don't think the other kids would talk about him as a girl if he was in a girl hawk, if that's what you mean -- they morph across sexes all the time and never have much to say about it except for that one time really early on that Marco complained about being a "girl wolf". Being a hawk is a radically different experience than being a human already, and I don't think that female hawkitude is any closer physiologically or socially to female humanity than male hawkitude is. I think the main difference, if Tobias had a female hawk body, would be slightly different teasing from Marco.

Specifically because I want to post my original work online where someone can easily access it, like my mutual @derinthescarletpescatarian does. Which means I must not post it on AO3 because that goes against their TOS for good fandom-protecting reasons.

But I love the layout of AO3. I love making long detailed author's notes at the end of each chapter of my fics to explain why I made certain decisions I made, because I can't shut up about my own work once you get me started. I love the scene breaks, and the way you can add chapter summaries, and organise things into series, and tag stuff so people can find it if that kind of story is what they're after.

And I can't do that in blog posts. Not the way AO3 does.

(self-imposed OCD exposure therapy this week is only being allowed to check my personal email twice a day instead of every 13 minutes because i'm obsessively waiting on an important email. and also i can't re-read the emails i've already sent to obsess over whether i sounded "normal" or not)

AAAAHHHHHHHHAAA AAAAHHHHHHHH AHHHH AHHH

AAAAHHHHHHHHAAA AAAAHHHHHHHH AHHHH AHHH

a lot of my ritual behaviors are "checking"

self-guided ocd exposure therapy can be as simple as resisting the urge to check if your door is locked more than once and sitting with the discomfort until it passes without engaging in any reassurance rituals.

it can look like sending an email and resisting the urge to re-read it over and over again obsessing over your wording, sitting with the discomfort until it passes without engaging in any reassurance rituals.

some of my rituals are also "avoidance"

in which case it can look like checking your email inbox you've been obsessively avoiding because you're anxious about receiving a specific email you don't want to see.

and YEP! ☝️