Laura B

Hello there, I've been busy, so I couldn't do anything for Murphy's birthday. Canonically we don't know when it is (I'm still side-eyeing Twelve Months for not giving us that date), but well, in my headcanon, her birthday is May 1st, it just goes so well with Harry's October 31st. Anyway, so, yeah, I couldn't write a fic about it, but I might try to cook up something for the weekend, if you have ideas, they are welcomed.

On a similar note, just wanted to give everybody interested a heads up that Month of Murphy, you know, the yearly event where we dedicate a whole month to honor Murphy's memory, will be taking place again this year.

So, like every July for the past 4 years, there will be a Month of Murphy this year!

while yes dru is evil and a vampire she's still obviously very upset about what happened to her and those moments seem to be her times of lucidity, not delusion. not to mention that she's already been beaten out of the notion that she can escape angelus, she tried to as a human and it didn't work, it likely won't work now either, especially if darla sides with him. but with spike around there's someone who basically always takes her side and fights to keep angelus away from her. who is, at least, a buffer between her and her tormentor. he also takes care of her and validates her, something neither darla or angelus seem to be interested in doing at all.

i feel like people tend to intellectually remember what happened to her but forget that it you know, has long lasting consequences when say, they evaluate her behavior in late s2 when angelus comes back. like... yeah ofc she goes back to appeasing him and shit. spike's a wheelchair and she was beaten into shape to be "daddy's little girl" (gag) YEARS before she even MET spike. her abuser is back and her defender is out of commission not to mention her whole view of reality has been actively warped by the most narcissistic sleezoid around.

and all the reasons why people love spike or point to as why he's better with buffy or whatever.... dru was the one who saw those first and picked him because of those. like... it's wild to see people act like they spent a loveless century together and spike was just used the whole time when we SEE them literally in love, he states MULTIPLE times she means so much to him and we get an OUTSIDE SOURCE CONFIRM THEY HAVE "AFFECTION AND JEALOUSY FOR EACH OTHER". we have the spike we know of today because drusilla saw the hero in him and wanted him to rescue her. and ya know, he kinda did. multiple times. over a century of deep, mutual horrifying love. you only even GET spike and buffy in the same ROOM because he loved dru so much he saved her from a mob, traveled with her across a continent (maybe 2 depending on direction) and over an ocean for even a SHOT at a cure. like... cMON.

Hello there, I've been busy, so I couldn't do anything for Murphy's birthday. Canonically we don't know when it is (I'm still side-eyeing Twelve Months for not giving us that date), but well, in my headcanon, her birthday is May 1st, it just goes so well with Harry's October 31st. Anyway, so, yeah, I couldn't write a fic about it, but I might try to cook up something for the weekend, if you have ideas, they are welcomed.

On a similar note, just wanted to give everybody interested a heads up that Month of Murphy, you know, the yearly event where we dedicate a whole month to honor Murphy's memory, will be taking place again this year.

So, like every July for the past 4 years, there will be a Month of Murphy this year!

❤️💙💛GRACEFUL💛💙❤️

As of this morning I was reluctantly looking for jobs because I love my job and don't want to leave it, but see: $10k raise problem solver.

As of noon today this was no longer an issue, because my boss called me with the news that I was getting a $10K merit raise.

I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. This is roughly $200 extra per paycheck. Enough to pay off debt faster, rebuild my savings, and spend a weekend a month in Milwaukee getting obscenely laid. The sex I'm going to have on $200 extra per paycheck. You can't even.