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TW: mental health
Hey guys. So I have had a rough time recently. I keep trying to come back here but I can’t and I am really struggling and I am so sorry I keep saying “I am back” but I never am and yeah I have really let you all down. There are a few things I have to tell you.
So first of all, I am really depressed. It is really bad and I am trying my best to do everything I can to get out of it but I am failing. It has zapped my ability to do anything and I am sorry to you all.
Second, I realized I was adding a lot of my own trauma to the stuff I was writing. Situations where I felt trapped and silenced and really uncomfortable and I have never done anything with this and tried to solve it only writing it. I realize now that adding it to my writing isn’t helpful to me or my healing.
So this is what I have to say, I love you. I love all of you so much. I am sorry I keep being a disappointment. I am not going to write anything for a bit, but I will be going back into what I have written and change the parts that are not helpful for my healing. I hope you guys are ok with that. Also I want to say that I am back but barely. And to all of my close friends on here who have supported me and just been awesome people by existing, I am so sorry I have been a shitty friend to you recently. Anyways, I love you and yeah. I might write more later, idk. I just hope you all know how much you mean to me and how badly I feel.
Edit: I also will be creating side blogs for shit so that you can see things in a more organized way. I am currently not comfortable with any of my fics being read at the moment and I am really sorry. If you see my fics up, if you could message me that would be great. I will be making all of the posts private until I have taken out my own trauma from it and I am so sorry for this mess. When I am comfortable with it being read I will reblog it on a side blog that I will be naming on this post soon. Also the responses i have been getting have made me tear up a bit and it is going to take me some time to process everything and I just want to say thank you.



















