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thinking of making a fic inspired by that one time mike called foxy brown
🥷🏾’s be lying-michael jackson
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warnings: none, just pure fluff.
synopsis: your boyfriend lies to you, but not for the reasons you would think.
word count: 615
the looney tunes theme song blasted through the living room of the hayvenhurst estate, michael’s big brown eyes glued to the television as he lounged across your sofa, your body sat next to his.
your pink sketchpad laid across your lap, a slightly sharpened pencil in your dominant hand. you had told yourself that you wanted to find more hobbies to pursue as a new year resolution.
you’ve never been the best at drawing but you were determined to become better at it. you’d ask michael for tips since you would always catch snippets of his drawings and doodling, some of the best artwork you had ever seen.
but you never showed him yours though. it would be like comparing a kindergartner’s doodling to picasso’s artwork.
“come on mama, you’ve been drawing for the past hour lemme see what you got.”
his calm voice called out to you. you held the sketchpad tight against your chest as he his body shifted, hovering over yours. his arm nudging yours with that charming smile written all over his face. gosh he was so fine.
“no mikey, you’re probably gonna laugh at it.”
“i promise i won’t, just lemme see.”
you rolled your eyes and reluctantly flashed the sketchpad in his direction. a blank expression filled his face as he caught his bottom lip in between his teeth.
“well, do you like it?”
you watched as his wide eyes intensely scanned the paper. his index finger wrapped around the coils of his afro, his face focused like he was in a deep thought.
“mmhm,” you heard him mutter under his breath before rapidly turning his eyes back to the television.
“mmhm mikey, that’s all i get is a mmhm.”
if looks could kill, your boyfriend would be a dead man. you didn’t know what to be offended at more, the fact that he lied to you or that he didn’t like your drawing.
“ugh, you little liar.”
you stomped off and scurried into the kitchen, michael just two steps behind you. jackie and jermaine standing at the counter, they snickered between the two of them as you and michael stormed in.
“hey little mama, what did he do this time,” jackie asked, cackles escaping from his lips as jermaine tried to hide his laughter as he continued to eat his bowl of ice cream.
“i need your honest opinions since your brother here can’t give me one. what do y’all think about my drawing.”
you held up the sketchbook towards them. there once joyful expressions dropped to a look of seriousness, their mouths at a loss of words. they glanced at each other before looking back at you and your sketchbook.
“it’s nice, right jermaine,” his voice cracked as he called out to his brother. you watched as the eldest brother fiddled in his hair, just like michael.
“uh yeah, very abstract,” an awkward smile plastered on his face, his eyes told a completely different story.
“oh my goodness, a family full of liars, i feel like i’m going crazy.”
“look babe, the drawings not bad you know.”
“but it aint good either.”
“jackie, shut up. listen, i’m sorry i lied to you, i just didn’t wanna hurt your feelings. but if it makes you feel any better, i’ll teach you how to draw.”
you couldn’t help but smile as you felt his hands wrapped around your waist. your forehead rested on his before he pressed a sweet kiss into your lips.
“sounds like a plan. but you’re not completely off the hook yet mister, i hope you know that.”
“can y’all take this sappy shit elsewhere, it’s making my ice cream taste nasty.”
“oh shut up jermaine.”
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، summary𓈒 jermaine calls just as he promised, inviting you over to hang out...
، pairing𓈒 jermaine Jackson x black!fem!reader
، warnings𓈒 no use of y/n, J*seph being an asshole, fluff, kissing, the jackson siblings doing a lot, a shy jermaine (look at the picture, he happy asl)
، notes𓈒 uhhh yeah. Enjoy? (Go read this if you’re JUST getting here!!!)
Can you do a story on protective Jermaine and really sweet reader like she’s a bit innocent and naive
My Sweet Baby
Might’ve accidentally made her more aloof than anything my bad
You're the sweetest person Jermaine has ever known. He loves you to pieces and everybody knew it. The issue was you were too sweet for your own good. Sweet as sugar in fact. He did all he could to protect you.
"Ma'am would you be interested in buying my mixtape. I gotta feed my family." A guy said as you walked around the grocery store with Jermaine.

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me and you (drabble/mini fic)
michael jackson x black reader
It was early in the morning, around eight o'clock, and you were up getting dressed to go help your close friend produce their newest album. You were damn good at your job, so when they needed someone to bring their project to life, you were the first person they called—and you had zero problem stepping up. The only real dilemma was figuring out who was going to watch your daughter, Aurora, for the day.
You had assumed Michael would be completely tied up, buried in the studio finishing up tracks for HIStory. But the second you brought up your predicament, his face lit up. He was more than eager to take the day off just to stay home with her.
“—That way I get to spend more time with, Tiny,” he had exclaimed, using the sweet nickname he’d given her the very day she was born. Back then, her small frame had looked so fragile in your arms, practically weightless like a little porcelain doll. You remember the soft wet laugh that escaped him as he whispered through joyous tears about how adorable and tiny she was. You suppose the name just stuck.
So now, here he was, sitting on the edge of the bed, the mattress sinking slightly under his weight with a 6 month old Aurora cradled securely in his lap. She was contentedly gnawing on a teething toy, both of their eyes locked on you as you moved around the room putting the final touches of your outfit together.
"I should be back hopefully around seven," you said, checking your reflection in the mirror one last time. "Just call me if you need me, or if anything goes wrong."
"Mama, relax. I can handle it," he said gently, rising from the edge of the bed and strolling over to where you stood. Your daughter rested contently on his hip, her tiny hand clutching his shirt while she gnawed on her teether.
He slid his free arm around your waist, his large palm settling on your stomach and pulling you flush against his chest. "Look at my baby lookin' all sexy and professional," he murmured, his dark eyes trailing down your simple setup of a white button down and a pair of tailored wide legged dark-wash jeans.
Normally, most people wouldn't dress up just to head into a studio session, but you always insisted on looking put together wherever you went—you never knew who you might run into, and your presence was part of your brand.
"Boy, I always look sexy and professional," you retorted without missing a beat, a confident smirk curling your lips as you adjusted your earring in the mirror.
Michael let out that low, soft giggle of his, leaning in to press another warm, lingering kiss, this time to your neck, his breath hot against your skin. "Can't even argue with you on that one," he hummed, his chest vibrating against your back. "You look good, Tinka. Real good."
He shifted Aurora slightly on his hip, and the little girl let out a happy, babbling noise, reaching out one chubby hand toward your hair. Michael caught her wrist with effortless gentleness, kissing her tiny knuckles before looking back at your reflection with a proud, dopey grin.
"See? Babygirl agrees with me," he teased, his hand sliding down to your side, thumb rubbing small, comforting circles into your hip bone. "Now stop worryin' about us. We’re gonna have a full day of playing, watching cartoons, and probably driving the staff crazy. Right, pumpkin?"
Aurora just kicked her feet against his stomach in response, entirely pleased with her daddy.
With a final confirmation, you smoothed the imaginary wrinkles from your pants before turning around to face Michael. Looking at the two of them now, you can't help but notice how similar they look. From the shape of their eyes to the curves of their cheeks. Even when she smiled, there was something unmistakably familiar about her expression, as if you were looking at a mini-Michael. The longer you looked between the two of them, the more similarities seemed to reveal themselves. It was almost as if God deliberately put you through hell for nine months, just for you genes to barely make an appearance.
Though the thought alone was enough to bring a small involuntary smile to your lips, though it only lingered for another moment before you pulled yourself out of it, remembering you still had somewhere to be. You glances at your watch, realizing that you could afford to get lost in your fluffy thoughts for much longer.
"Alright, appleheads, I'm out. Be good for daddy." You leaned down, pressing a soft kiss to your daughter's forehead before straightening up. Your attention shifted to your husband, a small smile tugging at your lips as you leaned in closer.
"And you be good, too."
"I'm always good, girl," he replied with a goofy grin.
You only laughed softly, leaning up to press a few quick pecks to his lips before pulling away. For a moment, you lingered there, taking in the warmth of the quiet little scene with your family before finally grabbing your things and heading downstairs.
"I love you guys, I'll be back later," was the last thing heard before the door closed, leaviing Michael and Aurora standing there in the soft quiet of the foyer. Michael let out a small breath, glancing down at the little girl in his arms.
They’ll be fine, you thought as you slid into the backseat of the car.
“C’mon, baby, just eat it. Your mama would literally strangle me if she knew I didn’t feed you.” Michael whined softly, sitting just a few inches away from Aurora’s high chair. A small plate of oatmeal sat in front of her, the spoon still hovering patiently between them.
You’d been slowly transitioning Aurora from milk to solid foods, which sounded easy enough. In practice, however, Michael had discovered that convincing a six-month-old to eat was an entirely different story.
He’d been holding the spoon up to her mouth for what felt like a whole three minutes now.
Aurora hadn’t budged.
As the gentle parent he wanted to be, Michael didn’t want to force her. If she wasn’t ready to take the bite, he’d rather let her decide for herself. So he simply waited, keeping the spoon near her mouth while she stared back at him with an expression that was almost suspiciously serious.
“For daddy?” he pleaded softly. “Please?”
Aurora only blinked.
Michael blinked back.
Neither of them moved.
“…Tiny.”
Another slow blink.
He sighed, lowering the spoon slightly.
“I bet you already know you got me wrapped around your finger, huh?”
Aurora responded with a tiny babble, her little hands resting against the tray of her high chair.
Michael’s couldn’t help the way his face immediately softened.“Yeah, you know..”
He lifted the spoon again, bringing it toward her mouth without rushing her.
“Just a little taste. That’s all daddy’s asking for.”
Aurora’s eyes followed the small pink spoon before drifting back up to his face. And there they were again—those big, round doe eyes that looked identical to his own.
Michael paused.
He stared at her for a second, then shook his head with a quiet laugh.
“Man… you really do have my eyes.”
Aurora simply stared back at him, seeming completely unbothered by the realization.
“Okay, pretty girl. One bite.” He patiently held the spoon out again. “Then you can decide if you like it.”
For a few seconds, Aurora only stared at the spoon, her little brows furrowing as though she were carefully considering his offer. Then, finally, she opened her mouth.
“That’s it,” he murmured, gently guiding the spoon between her lips. Aurora took the bite, and for a moment, Michael watched her closely, waiting for the inevitable grimace he’d been expecting. Instead, her little face brightened.
Her eyes widened, and she made a soft, pleased sound before opening her mouth again, this time reaching toward the spoon on her own.
Michael broke into a grin. “Oh, now you want some?” He let out a quiet laugh, scooping up another small bite and bringing it toward her.
“There’s my girl. That wasn’t so bad, was it?”
Aurora eagerly accepted the next bite, her tiny hands patting against the tray as she babbled happily. Michael could only shake his head, smiling to himself.
“Look at you,” he murmured. “Actin’ like you ain’t just had daddy fighting for his life over one little spoonful.”
After a bath, and a full day spent playing and practicing tummy time, the house had slowly settled into a quiet evening. And your ass still wasn’t home.
Michael had decided to put on a movie, figuring the two of them could relax for a while. He searched through his collection of VHS tapes until he finally found what he was looking for.
Peter Pan, his favorite.
He slid the tape into the VCR and made himself comfortable on the plush sofa in the living room, stretching out as Aurora settled against his chest. She was freshly bathed and dressed in a soft pink onesie—the same one her grandmother Katherine gifted you during the baby shower—her pacifier bobbing gently between her lips as her wide eyes remained fixed on the television.
Michael glanced down at her before looking back at the screen. “This is my favorite movie,” he said softly. “Which means it’s gonna be your favorite too.”
Aurora gave no response, too captivated by the colors moving across the television. Michael smiled to himself.
“You know why I call your mama Tink?”
He paused, though he already knew he wasn’t getting an answer.“’Cause she reminds me of Tinkerbell. Full of personality, cute and feisty…” His smile grew softer. “And loyal. She’s always been by my side.”
His gaze returned to the television, but he wasn’t really watching the movie anymore. His thoughts had drifted somewhere else entirely. “She’s given me so much,” he continued quietly. “A better perspective on life. Love…”
His eyes lowered to Aurora. “She gave me you.”
His fingers gently found one of her tiny coils, carefully twirling it around his finger before letting it spring back into place. Aurora remained perfectly content against his chest, her little body rising and falling with each quiet breath.
Michael swallowed, his expression growing thoughtful as he thought about you, his sweet girl. “I wanna be the best for her,” he murmured. “For you, too.”
His hand moved slowly along her back, almost absentmindedly. “I wanna be the father I never had. Somebody you can count on. Somebody gentle. Somebody you never have to be afraid of.”
He looked down at her again, his voice barely above a whisper now.
“I wanna’ be your safe space, y’know?”
Aurora shifted slightly against his chest, her tiny fingers curling into the fabric of his shirt, causing Michael to smile.
“I promise,” he whispered. “I’m gonna’ be good for you and your mama.”
For a while, he didjt say anything else. The movie continued playing in the background, the soundtrack Michael grew familiar too playing softly in the background as the two drifted to sleep in the warmth of each others presence.
About seven hours later, you finally returned home.
After thanking your driver, you stepped out of the car and made your way toward the front door, already looking forward to nothing more than a hot shower, the comfort of your bed, and the comfort of your husbands arms.
You unlocked the door, stepped inside, and quietly closed it behind you before locking it again. A tired sigh escaped you as you kicked your heels off near the entrance. You’d get them later.
“I’m back,” you called softly into the house.
When you didn’t get an answer, you furrowed your brows slightly, glancing down the quiet hallway. “Mikey? Tiny?”
Still nothing.
Curiosity pulled you farther inside, your footsteps growing quieter as you made your way toward the living room. Then you stopped.
The sight in front of you instantly melted whatever exhaustion had been weighing on your shoulders. Aurora was curled comfortably against Michael’s chest, her tiny body completely relaxed as she slept. One of his arms rested protectively around her, his own head tilted slightly against the back of the plush sofa.
The television was still on, the ending credits of what you could only assume had been some Disney movie slowly rolling across the screen.
You couldn’t help but smile. “Aww, my angels…” you cooed to yourself.
You carefully stepped closer, doing everything you could not to wake them. For a moment, you simply stood there, taking in the sight of your husband and daughter sleeping peacefully together. It was almost too sweet to interrupt.
You leaned down, pressing a gentle kiss against Aurora’s forehead before moving to Michael and leaving an equally soft kiss against his.
With one last glance at the two of them, you quietly turned away, finally making your way upstairs for that long awaited hot shower.
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Is it just me or I be writing lil smut based off my own experiences? 🤭
just me…? oh ok well oh well….
my favorite thing is when i'm reading a fanfic and the author writes something that lmk that they're black and then i check their page to see that i'm right. it feels like we're interlinkedddd
How I feel being the same ethnicity as Michael Jackson because yes it definitely is a flex and I know #those fans are mad as hell they can’t relate lmaoo
Here me out..eater!Marlon. I swear it's the mustache and the juicy lips 😩
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summary: early morning snack
contains: mdni, 18+ oral (f receiving), slight daddy kink (appears twice)
notes: i love getting marlon requests
“wake up baby, wake up” your boyfriend Marlon whispered in your ear gently shaking you awake “what is it Marlon” you mumbled sleepily, rubbing your eyes
“i want some” he purred softly, giving you a kiss on your jaw while slowly pulling you’re panties off with only two fingers
you let out a drowsy groan, barely able to keep your eyes open “what time is it?” you muttered looking towards the window “barley seven am baby” he replied as his fingers began to gently brushed against your pussy lips
“somebody’s gonna hear” you say as you watch him make his way down between your legs, he paused just for a second, looking up at you, his mustache brushing against your inner thigh “i’ll be quick ..just be quiet f’me”
his hands slipped under your knees, lifting and spreading them gently as he settled into place. you let out a soft sigh, your head heavy on the pillow, still very sleepy
slowly, deliberately, his tongue finally made contact, lapping your pussy up with unhurried strokes
“fuck..” you whimpered softly, one of yours hand reached down blindly, resting on the top of his head, lazily guiding him closer
“that’s it baby” he murmured against you, his voice vibrating right against your skin
he began swirling his tongue with a pressure that made your hips instinctively twitch “oh my gosh Marlonnn” you whine
he paused for just a second, lifting his head slightly, lips glistening in the as he looked up at you
“i know you're still sleepy baby” he whispered "but i need you to keep it down” you looked down at him and nodded “okay daddy” you whispered back
he smirked and latched back onto your pussy, you let out a soft gasp, your thighs trembling as you tried to stay quiet for him
he didn't slow down, his tongue was slicking over your clit in slow, gentle laps that grew wetter with every second. the soft sounds of his mouth working against you filled the room, a heavy, sloppy rhythm that left no doubt about how thoroughly he definitely was taking his time with you
a broken whimper slipped past your lips as his lips and tongue combined drove you crazy
he used one hand to keep your thigh pinned gently back, giving himself full access as he buried his face deeper and deeper while swirling his tongue in agonizing circles that had you biting your lip just to keep from crying out
“look at the mess you're making” he murmured huskily against your skin, not stopping for even a breath as his lips dragged over you
his tongue finally pushed you over the edge. your breath hitched sharply and you let out a muffled whimper as your hips bucked weakly against his mouth “fuck fuck fuck daddy m’gonna cum!”
you squeezed your eyes shut, fingers tightening in his hair while the intense wave rolled through you, leaving your body heavy, warm, and thoroughly spent
Marlon held you steady through every last spasm, his lips staying pressed soft and firm against you until your orgasm finally finished
he used his tongue and lapped up away every trace of the wet mess he’d made, his mustache lightly brushing your sensitive skin until you were completely clean
satisfied, he pulled back, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand before crawling back up the mattress. he pressed a long, soft kiss to your forehead, his chest warm against your back as he pulled you close and wrapped a heavy arm around your waist
“you did so good baby” he whispered softly against the back of your neck
exhausted and completely satisfied, the heavy fog of sleep rolled right back over you. nestled against his chest, listening to his breathing, you drifted right back off into a deep slumber
…
you and Marlon sat side by side at the dinner table with the rest of his siblings
“are we gonna discuss elephant in the room” Jermaine said with a mouth full of food, pointing his fork toward Marlon
“what elephant?” Marlon asked his eyes looking up from his plate “the elephant being that this is technically your second meal of the morning” Jackie said nonchalantly before eating a spoonful of grits
“what are you talking about” Marlon asked scrunching his face up in confusion
the brothers exchanged looks before looking directly at you, you looked up from your plate, you immediately felt your face grow hotter
“sorry about the noise…”
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.✦ ݁˖ Stalker || Jackie Jackson (Part 2)
Jackie Jackson x Reader
Part One
𑣲. Summary: You've been a stylist working with the Jacksons for a year now. It wasn't long before Jackie started taking a special liking to you; for more than just your stylistic expertise. When he finds out that some creep has been stalking you, he's willing to do anything to make sure you're safe.
𑣲. Tags: Stalking, Heavy Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Descriptions of Violence Against Women, Triumph Era, Use of AAVE & N-Word, Makeup Artist!Reader, Pining, Anxiety Attacks
𑣲. WC: 9.7k
You can still smell the gentle scent of bubble bath on your softened skin even though you exited the bath half an hour ago. You'd never felt as though you needed to soak your troubles away in a steaming hot bath more than tonight. So that's exactly what you did, buried in towering, foamy bubbles with just your head sticking out of the soapy water. For about an hour the warmth of the water leaving no part of your stress-torn body untouched and the soothing scent of bath salts melted your anxiety a bit.
You lounged in the hotel bathtub in total silence until you felt as though enough stress had dissolved into the water for you to be able to sleep. Afterwards draining the bath felt somewhat cathartic, as if with the water, your pent-up emotions somehow went down the drain with it.
Whilst you soaked, paranoia several times had tried to kick down the door of your mind and ruin the moment. But you breathed through the sickening feeling trying to seize you by your neck. Deep inhales of the humid air around you that carried a floral scent right to your brain to dissolve the worry. You swished yourself gently in the steaming water and refused to add to the contents of the bath with your own tears. Your eyes still felt dry as the desert floor anyway, you doubted there'd even be any contents left to spill onto your cheeks.
You're no longer ignoring or rationalizing what's been going on the last few months, you just want to be in control of when it gets your energy. You've finally confessed out loud what's happening but your heart hasn't really stopped racing since seeing that shadow peering up at your window last night. The memory takes a blinding hold of your mind's eye like a flash bang every couple minutes when your thoughts aren't actively focused on something else.
Thinking back to the reassuring softness of Jackie's brown eyes gives you the strength to chase the intruding memory away. His presence has a way of doing that, filling you up and smoothing you over with security and stillness. You don't exactly remember when his effect on you came into being. It's a buzzing warmth that starts in your chest like a flickering flame, then rises to your cheeks. It's probably reached the point that you should actually assess those feelings and how deep the roots of them go.
He's your client and an international star. You tell yourself that your feelings were solely brought on by proximity and humans inherit attraction to the unobtainable. That argument loses more and more of its validity in your mind by the day.
Talking to Jackie about everything did relieve some of the consuming sense of distress you've become too acquainted with. Even if he had to pull the words from being locked away in your chest behind layers of denial and avoidance. The ear he'd lent you did grant your nervous system some form of stability. You can inhale a breath without feeling like your throat is being squeezed by panic. The strength and warmth of his touch had a lingering effect that keeps you from trembling even in his absence.
You were a person before this stalker situation, and you're still one now. You refuse to let that perverted excuse for a human being control you or steal any moment that you've claimed as your own. Such as soaking in a hot bubble bath and winding down for the night like you always do after a long day at work. This time is for you.
On top of the aroma of jasmine bath soap on your skin sits the warm notes of your favorite body butter. The combination of scents acts as reins keeping your stress at bay, though you're almost sure that surface-level calmness won't last. Maybe if you believe hard enough, it'll stick around. The cotton fabric of your pajamas brushes and rustles softly against your skin like a blanket that follows your every step. It's a constant warm hug that you very much need.
Your feet haven't entirely returned from their pruned state, and your recent steamy bath has your skin still feeling supple and fresh. Your hair is tied down and you're tired enough to get into bed and not get out of it until morning. It's late, the bright red numbers on the alarm clocking sitting on the desk across your hotel room read 1:17am. The plush carpet of your suite transitions to cool tile beneath your feet as you entire your little kitchen. The amber hue of the stove light provides just enough visibility for you to begin to throw a cup of tea together.
Your hotel room is dark apart from the soft glow of the stove light climbing up the kitchen walls, casting tall shadows of yourself and everything around you. The dim light that shines with the warmth of candle light illuminates that walkway leading to the kitchen; darkening to indigo before reaching the living space. The sizable expanse of your suite is dressed in the contrast of golden orange and midnight blue. The moon makes her presence known via a pale glow peaking around the curtains shading the sliding door.
You grab a mug from the cabinet, fill it with water and plop in one of the herbal tea bags the hotel provided before placing it in the microwave. As you stand beneath the stove light, listening to the hum of the running microwave, the darkness behind you sits on the back of your neck. It claws at your back like a bunch of ghostly hands upon which is written a different negative emotion.
It's a cold feeling that penetrates beneath your skin and raises the hairs at the nape of your neck. Like the Boogeyman slowly enclosing his violating arms around you from behind. You cling to the illumination of the small light and refuse to turn around to check your surroundings. You've already checked the door and windows and sliding back door five times. Doing so again would just stoke the fire of your paranoia.
On one hand, after everything that happened last night, you're glad that your job required you to stay in a hotel for the event. Commuting for home would be too time consuming and wouldn't allow for you to be on standby like the group needed. So for the week of talk shows and events the guys had scheduled; the tour managers put the stylists and assistants in the same hotel as the stars to make things run smoother and quicker.
You're grateful for the experience, of course. The hotel is so nice. But your room is on the first floor, the ground floor and you hate it. Behind the couch is a glass sliding door on the other side of which is the well-manicured grounds behind the hotel. Maybe any other time you'd be fine with it. But given your current situation, that door feeds your fight and flight until the weight of both of them threatens to crush you.
You locked it and shut the curtains, but neither made you feel any better about it being there. Just knowing its there lines the walls of your stomach with the bad kind of butterflies; your mind has already imagined every awful what-if.
You've checked to make sure it was locked probably closer to ten times than five. You even contemplated pushing the couch against it, you still might; you don't really see how you'll sleep if you don't. The beep of the microwave pulls you from your thoughts and for a moment seems to chase the whispers of anxiety away. The tinge of excitement you feel about trying the new, fancy tea the hotel makes is a small but welcome comfort.
Cupping the warmth of your mug between both hands, you take a few steps to the couch and plop down on the thick cushions. You don't bother turning on the lamp sitting on the table at the end of the couch. You think that flicking on the light would immediately draw attention to your room at this hour; and that's the last thing you want. So you enjoy the first sweet, piping hot sip of your beverage in only the light the kitchen can spare you. The tea is hot and floral but carries the sweet, summery flavor of mixed berries at the same time.
You let out a deep sigh, sinking back deeper into the cushions of the plush piece of furniture. In your mind the last twenty four hours run to and fro. The events of the day have long since wrapped up and despite everything, you feel accomplished. Your commitment to your work is grounding you more than anything. Jackie and the guys had finished their hair and makeup on time and made it into the limo when they were supposed to. Before the group had left for the events you'd scanned over and accessed their appearance briefly.
You wanted to ensure that your team had diligently followed your styling instructions and potentially catch any wardrobe malfunctions. As your meticulous gaze scanned over their appearance, you felt pleased with how your team had pulled the other guys together. It was a good feeling, a sureness that fit nicely around your heart.
Every curl on their heads was defined and carried a sheen that's sure to catch the stage lights and disco lights nicely. All of the outfits that you'd put together for each of them paired nicely with the other members. Enough expression to display their individuality, but enough subtle complementary elements to still make them look like a unit. They all were bedazzled in some way with various rhinestones so that they sparkled even in daylight. They are your canvas, and despite the state of mind you worked in today, you were pleased with being able to bring the picture in your mind to reality.
You bring your lips to the smooth rim of the mug and savor the lovely scent the herbal liquid fills your nose with. You're just seeking any sort of comfort you can find in anything, even little things. Your shot nerves need it more than ever.
You feel hyper aware of everything around you, every sensation and sound. It means you take in the comfort of the moment much deeper and they can remedy your trepidation with greater efficiency. But it also means you're fighting your hyper awareness of the bad that's making you want to curl up into a ball in the bathroom and lock the door. You try your hardest to use your heightened senses to accept the comfort your soft pajamas and sweet cup of tea can offer.
You sigh a deep breath across the steaming surface of your drink and the air that returns to you smells like a meadow in May. Another hot sip blesses your taste buds with its sweet and mellow earthiness then warms your throat on the way down. You hum, fluttering your heavy eyes shut as if that will better allow for stress to phase out of you.
As you down the beverage in near darkness in your temporary living room, your gaze stays fixed on nothing in particular. Your eyes glaze over lost in thoughts that all seem grave to pick apart into digestible pieces. In the theater of your mind you're replaying everything from that car outside your house last night, to how Jackie's hand felt holding yours so gently. The strength of his fingers, the comfortable weight of his palm that swallowed yours so wholly. His touch became a tether keeping you from falling off the ledge of hysteria.
Upon your couch you sit with your legs tucked beneath you, the mug clasped between your palms warms them nicely. Your nerves pick up the heated sensation and it feels to spread all the way down to your toes. Within yourself you flip through emotion after fear after comfort then back to warring the anxiety that won't get down from your shoulders. You feel like you need four more heads and a new nervous system to adequately be able to sort through everything.
The last twenty four hours of your life has filled your mind with so many contrasting emotions to go through and moments to unpack. Remnants of all of them still sit up on your cells. The stomach-churning panic you'd felt peeking through the blinds watching that silhouette watch you. As well how Jackie's secure touch, strong hands and earnest umber eyes felt like kisses of toasty sunlight. The protective strength of his aura alone made you want to cry, but you felt as though you'd embarrassed yourself enough already.
One wouldn't expect a star like him to instantly and selflessly become a wall to shield you and hold you up when you needed it; but he did and the tenderness he displayed melted you as much as the revealing of such tenderness surprised you. The pad of his thumb feels to be tattooed to where he'd wiped the hot slick of your tears from your cheek.
The largeness of the man made you feel safe to open like a flower does, not as if you needed to shield yourself. You know Jackie, you've had hundreds of hours of conversation with him as he's sat in your chair for the last year. But until earlier today, you didn't know such a softer, sentimental side of him existed.
You stretch your toes cozily from underneath your cotton-clad thighs where they're currently tucked. A shadowy indigo blankets the entirety of the living space and all of the furniture in it. The pale, white glow of moonlight from behind the curtains shines in rays on the black tv screen. Your palms have absorbed most of the heat from your mug, and you're savoring taking every bit of it into your bones. The feeling chases away the chill of uneasiness that the dark persists in trying to sow in your belly.
You absentmindedly raise your mug once again to indulge in another sip of your tangy-sweet beverage. That's when you hear something that causes the rim of the mug to stop mid-air before it reaches your ready lips. Your whole body freezes, your bones feel to become buried under feet of ice the second the sound of someone trying the sliding door hits your ears.
Your blood goes from a natural, flowing warmth to feeling frigid cold and as if it isn't moving in your veins at all. The sound of someone trying to open the sliding glass door from the outside is the only sound that fills your suite. It echoes through you and punches you in the gut, knocking all the wind out of your lungs. You can hear the handle quietly jiggling from behind the curtain covering it. A chill hits you like you just opened the front door during a blizzard.
The remaining liquid in your cup becomes rippling waves as your hand supporting its handle starts trembling instantly. You can feel and hear in your ears every pounding pump of your heart and the adrenaline-dense blood it expels. Hot tears instantly conjure from the purest, most condensed form of fear you've ever felt and prick the corners of your ears.
You stay frozen in terror upon the couch, widened eyes now stinging with tears unable to turn to face the sound. Your heart is thumping at the back of your ribs so intensely that it almost hurts. You listen to the handle and lock of the glass door jiggle and click from the other side of the curtain.
A quiet, teary whimper trembles past your lips that you can't help. Your mind is racing at a million miles per hour and perceiving everything in slow motion at the same time. Every one of your limbs feels to weigh a thousand pounds but you know that you have to move or run or do something or you won't be doing anything ever again. But shock has immobilized you.
You stand up as quietly and carefully as you possibly can and it feels like it takes an eternity for you to get on your feet; which feel like they're no longer attached. The moment you do the weakness in your knees nearly causes you to collapse under your own weight. Your hand quakes as you sit your mug on the coffee table. The deafening ringing in your ears bears witness to the feeling of being concussed by sheer panic and none of your breaths seem to inhale entirely.
The second you've sat your mug down you sprint to the bedroom so fast that the still air of your room whistles in your ears. You go to slam the door but ease up just in time to catch it from cracking into the door frame loudly. You don't know if the attempting intruder saw you, you just care about getting away and barricading yourself. The moment it shuts you lock it, everything in your mind is blinding white and ringing and moving at light speed. As if by pure survival instinct you without thought push the arm chair in front of the door.
You stumble back from the door over your own feet until your back crashes into the wall and you slide down it. You sit on the floor next to your nightstand, heaving deep painful breaths that aren't doing anything to oxygenate you.
Hot burning tears soak the skin of your cheeks as they fall with no end in sight. Your eyes must be the size of grapefruits, you're staring at the barricaded door like it's the death angel itself. Surely your eye color is no longer visible on account of adrenaline having blown your pupils to an expansive blackness that renders your irises invisible.
Your hand frantically slaps across the wood surface of your nightstand in search of the phone, your wide, darting eyes never leave the door. You don't know if there's still two doors between you and the stalker or just one at this point. Once you've secured the phone in your grasp you jump from sitting on the carpet to kneeling to be able to reach the dial pad. Your arm is quaking like jello on a roller coaster when you lift the phone to your ear. Oceans of burning tears blur your vision in the dark and your trembling hand can't seem to dial the number of Jackie's room fast enough.
The thrumming buzz of the dial tone rings once, then twice and you're begging to whatever god will listen that he picks up. It's late, closer to two in the morning than one in the morning. Your mind hadn't even thought to call the police. Jackie is closer, faster and surely gives more of a damn. It feels like it takes an eternity of supplications to a higher power before you hear Jackie pick up and the dial tone ceases. You exhale a shaky sigh of half-relief that eases the sharp tension in your chest only a bit.
You don't give him the chance to say anything, the hard plastic of the phone shivers against your earrings. "J-jackie." You whimper, your shaky voice strains into the phone, that's all you can manage to get out. A desperate part of you which currently makes up all of you wishes that would be enough for him to get the message.
Your throat is closing tighter and tighter from the anxiety attack rolling over you like dark, consuming storm clouds. There's a painful, aching lump in the middle of your throat that makes your words exit your trembling lips weak and hoarse. You barely have the strength to word what's happening, it's like your lips are numb and your brain has been reset by panic. You start to feel lightheaded and brace your other hand on the edge of the nightstand. Your spirit threatens to leave you.
Jackie can hear the wetness of your tears in your voice and immediately sits up in bed. The blur of drowsiness wears off instantly, the fear in your voice blows the fog of sleep away. He went from half-asleep to the most alert he's ever been the second he registered the trembling dread in your shattered voice. "Hey suga, what's wrong?" His voice is deep and raspy with the remnant of sleep but one could practically hear his furrowed brow through the phone.
His stomach sinks through the floor and he's already feeling the effects of adrenaline hitting his blood stream. He throws back his blankets and swings his feet out of bed, elbow resting on his thigh as he holds the phone to his ear. All of the worry he was feeling during his conversation with you earlier is washing over him again but with ten times the intensity.
You struggle to inhale a stinging, shivering breath, every inhale pricks the lining of your throat like barbed wire. You feel the blinding white of panic gripping you tighter and tighter by the moment. You're helplessly losing the battle against maintaining any sort of calmness. "I-I think he's here, someone's trying to get into the back door." You whisper into the phone, the sentence fumbles into a desperate, choking sob at the end. You feel like you're going to heave up everything you've ever eaten. It wouldn't surprise you if the concentrated terror poisoning your blood has grayed your hair entirely.
Jackie jumps to his feet which yanks the phone into the air from his nightstand. His heart rate quickens like a man ready for war beneath the flesh of his bare chest. "Don't move, I'll be right there. Call the police." He sternly commands into the phone, then the line goes dead. He didn't bother hanging up, he just dropped the phone onto the floor and b-lined it for the door barefoot and bare-chested.
Luckily both of your rooms are on the first floor. He can look straight out of his sliding glass door and see yours across the manicured field. He sprints out of his bedroom and into the dark living room to look out of his back door. He strains his eyes a bit, through the darkness of night he can see a shadowy silhouette standing at your back door. Under the moonlight he makes out the outline of a man at the entrance to the room he knows to be yours.
That's all he needs to see, he throws open the glass door so hard that it slams into the door frame with a loud crack. Taking off with the speed of a medalist into the moon-lit night; barefoot atop the dewy grass as he sprints towards the masculine figure.
Jackie's eyes never leave the creeping silhouette as he crosses the grassy area with determined speed. His heart races with every swift step, his palms are burning from the blood his wrath has flooded them with. His primal desire for violence blocks out anything else in his mind. The cool night air whistles in his ears as he zooms past the back patios of the other rooms, closing in on his target.
The line clicks dead against your ear, but immediately you feel safer just clinging onto the thought that he'll be with you soon. You're not stranded with a monster where no one can hear you scream, help is imminent. So is this nightmare being over, you hope and pray. Without hesitation you do as Jackie said and call the police, shakily explain the situation and give the address of the hotel.
This all has become the realest it possibly could be so quickly. Of course you stay put behind the barricaded door of your bedroom as you call the authorities. Despite how your brain is racking and racing you cannot begin to comprehend how this stalker knew you'd be staying in this hotel. The thought rends your mind into fragmented pieces of disorientation and horror.
Between the overdose of adrenaline in your blood and the fear rattling your bones you feel like your head is no longer even attached to your shoulders. You stay curled up in the dark corner of your bedroom with your knees hugged tightly into your chest. Eyes pinched shut and trying your hardest to cleave to the glimmering hope of the soon arrival of help and safety.
The strength of Jackie's long legs carry him to his destination with whizzing speed under the pale moonlight. In seconds he's across the dewy field and steps away from having his mitts on the perpetrator. His large hands are already balled into tight fists, his pulsing veins carry the rage in his simmering blood stream straight to his brain.
The creep is still trying to peek through the glass of the door and fidget the handle open; so focused on trying to get to you that he's entirely unaware that he's prey while preying. The older man suddenly hears fast, stomping footsteps tracking across the damp grass right behind him. By the time he turns around, Jackie is tackling him to the rough concrete. His unkept head of balding, oily hair splays over the ground when his head cracks into the asphalt of the patio.
The stalker tried to take off but only got half a step in before Jackie lunged at his waist and slammed him onto the hard ground. The man is old enough for streaks of grey to be in his long beard and wearing glasses that Jackie knocks off when he delivers a devastating punch straight into the man's head.
The back of the man's skull cracks into the concrete at the impact. Jackie doesn't hesitate or ask any questions before viciously attacking him. He saw enough, he saw exactly what you had told him. He knows what this man was trying to do and the thought fills his stomach with rage and disgust. He'd seen the basest of humanity with his own two eyes.
The horrible, grotesque details you'd recounted to him earlier as well as the trembling fear in your voice on the phone make his every strike into the man's face stronger and more damaging. Every flash of you in his memory drives his tight fist harder into the man's skull with a fleshy thud. The sheer force of his strikes causes his boney knuckles to glide across the surface of the man's skin and split it open like a razor. Behind Jackie's darkened, wild eyes plays the ashen-faced, quivering pile of nerves that you were before him this afternoon, that this monster has reduced you to.
The stalker's hands try to weakly block the lightning fast punches but the attempted barrier doesn't stop Jackie from deepening the bulbous knots on his forehead. "What the fuck were you doing?!" He yells into the man's bloody, bludgeoned face between blows, the words growl from the back of his throat. The man tries to shield himself again but to no avail, Jackie is much younger, faster and stronger than him. Jackie's teeth grit against each other under the pressure of his clenched jaw, he's got your stalker totally pinned under his weight.
The ghostly moonlight is just enough for him to see the glint of panic in the man's eyes as he drills blow after blow into his skull. Jackie's body is burning up all over, he can't even tell that his fists are wearing a thick layer of still-warm blood. The deep, crimson blood spilling into the criminals eyes from the gash on his hairline appears to be black under the darkness of night.
Jackie's nostrils are flared, his neck is burning with a scalding heat that's spread across his cheeks and over his entire scalp. With the strength of his large hands he grips onto tight fistfuls of the mans shirt and begins slamming him into the concrete over and over. After less than a minute in Jackie's grasp the perpetrator has one eye swollen shut, a mouth full of blood and deep reddish-purple bruises splotching across his pale face.
His rage is blinding him even more than the darkness of the night could. When such rage is born from protectiveness it becomes a devastating force for one to be on the receiving end of. He picks up the weight of the man's torso with ease by this shirt and slams him over and over into the stony concrete.
"Fucking perverted ass piece of shit!" Its not long before the stalker goes limp and gives up, any strength to fight back has been beaten and battered out of him. But Jackie doesn't care, he slams him again and again into the concrete and the sound of the harsh impact is grisly and exactly what he wants. His brown eyes are now blown to the same shade of blackness as the night sky above this violent scene. Beads of salty sweat trickle down his temples as he slams the pummeled man again and again against the ground in a blind rage.
Every time he hears his bone and flesh thud sickly into the concrete something in him is satisfied; it's the blood lust that arose in him the second you recounted to him what this man had been doing to you. How he's violated you, dehumanized you and with his perverted actions threatened to take you away from him forever.
He won't let that happen, he will never let such a vile beast make you just a memory to him. Jackie wishes not to think about what could've happened if the man had succeeded. The flicker of those what-ifs lace his rage with a fear that drives his punches deeper and with greater ruthlessness. Like if he strikes the object of his disdain into oblivion, those fears will no longer plague him.
He seizes a tight fistful of the man's greasy hair, so close to the scalp that he rips a few strands out. With his other hand he drills deep, cracking blows into the side of the man's face. Bone on bone, the sound of breaking flesh and the blood that spills from it scores the violent scene. Jackie's bare chest heaves with hot breaths as he sits pinning the creeper beneath him and bashing his face in further with his free hand. His other keeps the man from being able to move an inch. The tightness of his grip won't allow it.
His wailing strikes of rage eventually begin to deliver a sense of satisfaction to his adrenaline-washed brain. With every connection of his fist to his target's beaten face his unbridled indignation becomes a sense of justice that settles in his chest.
The man's arms are limp by his side on the ground now, Jackie's ragged breaths are hot and deep as he pants from such an exertion of energy. He thinks, since this pervert wants to make a victim out of a helpless woman so bad; he'll show him what it feels like to be a victim to a bigger, stronger man. One that's showing him even less mercy than he showed while tormenting you for all these months.
The door of your hotel room clicks shut behind the four police officers that are finally leaving your temporal abode. The energy in the space feels like it's been permanently contaminated. The chaos has left physically, but it still hovers in the air spiritually. The sense of tension and stress lifts from you only slightly when the cops exit your room; leaving you and Jackie with only the presence of each other. The moment the back of the last officer disappears behind the door, Jackie's attention is on you.
The silence is deafening and feels impossible to penetrate. Jackie doesn't at first, you can't. He wants to reach out or say something, but he feels as though if he breathes on you the wrong way, you'll shatter. He wants to scoop you up and hold you until all of your pain has been chased away. He desires it so much that the urge becomes an ache that he ignores for the sake of respecting your boundaries.
Jackie's softened eyes are on you in your fragile state, but your reddened eyes are glazed over and watching the horrid memories playing on repeat behind them. Only your body is present, not your mind. Your mind has retreated deep into itself in search of a sense of comprehension that it hasn't the wherewithal to find. You're standing barefoot in your plum purple pajamas in the living room. The ringing of shock bouncing from wall to wall in your brain won't seem to ever stop.
Your puffy eyes are dry and still pink, your waterline is a burning red and your face is still ashen with shell shock. The terror you've endured tonight shook you down to your cells and shook some of your color right out of them. No physical harm had come to you, and yet you look no less like you've been in a fight for your life. Jackie can only pray that your radiant glow will return to the supple expanse of your skin and to your eyes that now wear trauma like contacts. He can only pray that soon you'll cease to quiver and to see you again, not just what this awful situation has reduced you to.
Your arms haven't unwrapped themselves from being tightly hugged around your torso in what feels like hours. You're traumatized and it's a coping mechanism, you're guarding yourself. The cops could see it, and Jackie can as well. The sight breaks his heart more than it did them. So does your thousand-yard stare and unending shivers that aren't because you're cold. He can tell that the trembling is coming from a deep part of you that's been touched, not just a surface scar.
You bear the appearance of a ghost, a beautiful one, but it's if you can't bring yourself to exist here with him right now. A woman whose soul has fled her body to save herself and isn't quite ready to occupy the vessel she thought she almost brutally lost.
Jackie is shirtless, barefoot and his knuckles are bruised, bloody in places and aching. The majority of the blood isn't his, some dried drops of crimson are speckled across his mahogany skin in other places. The sight had definitely raised the eyebrows of the police.
Just the air alone stings the raw skin of his fists where his rich skin has been scraped away to show the whiter layer beneath it. Though his hands pulse with pain and his raw skin burns, he'll take that pain over the pain of having been able to do nothing to save you. It's a pain that allows the feeling of accomplishment to fully enter his blood stream. He doesn't think he'd feel satisfied without it. Most importantly he knows the other guy is in a lot more pain.
Despite everything he's just glad that he was in a position to take needed action. He never wants for you to be in a situation where you need saving, but he'll never rush to save you slowly or begrudgingly.
He'd just spend an hour having a conversation with the LA police in such a state. Giving statements, signing papers and filing a report of everything that he could remember. He did his best to be helpful, but his main concern is your recovery. Not what the police had written down or what tabloids could possibly have in the news by the time the sun shows herself at dawn. He'd answered all of the officer's questions, given his name and finished your sentences when you didn't seem to be able to.
There was a split moment where he worried that the cops might take him in based on the state they found him in alone. Standing over an unconscious white man whose face was beaten in and bloody. Whose eyes were blackened to a bruising purple and swollen shut. It was exactly the scene that men in their line of work love to see, because of how much room it leaves for them to create a narrative. One that ends with him serving a life sentence and his name tarnished in the media for doing what he knows was honorable.
But you had vouched for him, explained the situation to the police and told them that he was your boyfriend protecting you. The second part is true, that first part he can only wish will be the truth one day.
The cops peeled the criminal from off the concrete surrounded by his own blood and put him in cuffs. It took three men to drag his unconscious body to the back of the police car. The cover of darkness hadn't revealed the reality of how severely Jackie had beaten the man. But when the cops dragged the man's limp body through your living room, he saw the uncensored aftermath of his version of justice; and so did you.
It was the first time that you'd actually laid eyes on the man that's been tormenting you for months. It felt impossible to inhale a single breath when you saw him. His stringy grey hair was oily and patchy. Even though you watched as the cops dragged him away, you could barely even make out his specific features apart from age, race and gender.
You've never seen such a gruesome sight, the man's face was bloody, bashed in and deformed from the force of Jackie's blows. The creep looked like he'd been pushed off a cliff and tumbled all the way down. Knots across his face that were deeply purple and rimmed with yellow, blood spilled into his eyes from the gash above. Even if he were conscious, he probably wouldn't be able to walk anyway.
Your once darkened space in which only the stove light shone, is now fully lit by the ceiling lights. The silence that hovers in the room is heavy and not quite peaceful once the officers leave. Four men in blue and heavy body armor had arrived to your room in less than ten minutes after you called.
The cops had gotten the attendants at the front desk to open your room door, you had stayed curled into a ball behind your make-shift barricade. The only way you knew what was happening was by the sound of several boots walking hastily and heavily across the floors. When the officers threw back the curtain covering the perpetrator's attempted place of entry; they were met with the type of grisly scene that a man only has the rage and strength to cause over a woman. The way Jackie loomed over the man's body with such a primal territoriality and how he fists couldn't seem to unclench.
In their line of work, they've seen the exact, battered and bloody markings of this sort of circumstance hundreds of times. It had 'lovers rage' written all over it. There are some parts of a man that only a woman can reach and activate, the officers witness the aftermath of that happening in Jackie. The wounds a man causes upon another man for the sake of love are always deeper, more merciless, more vicious. The darkened look of wrath in his eyes that melted into the most tender concern only when looking at you made it obvious.
It almost made the officers immediately believe you when you said that he was your boyfriend and not some crazy batman wannabe from off the street.
It feels like the door clicked shut days ago by the time you finally bring yourself to speak. The silence was uncomfortable like a necessary process that one must go through but loathes the entire time. Neither of you broke it though, those few minutes of weighty silence needed to exist. The whole time Jackie had been watching you attentively, wanting to do or say something but not having the slightest clue what could help. He'd kiss your lips until they're numb and let you soak his bare skin in tears if that would help. He just couldn't bear your unresponsiveness.
The situation is so delicate, he's struggling with feeling like he couldn't possibly soften himself enough to tend to you without bruising your petals. So he awaits you to tell what comfort he can offer. Some would say that he's done enough, maybe he has. But the idea of leaving you and simply going back to bed after all of this hadn't even come to mind. The stalker is in custody, the reports have been filed, but his feet can't seem to take him to any place where you aren't.
At last you break the thick quietness once you manage to pull yourself from the grasp of your own mind. "Thank you, Jackie." Your tired, bloodshot eyes at last meet his from their previous place of staring off into space. The late hour and night of tears have made your voice grow hoarse but your tone is so deeply sincere, breathlessly grateful.
The second he goes from just looking at you, to you finally looking at him, Jackie feels as if he can finally breathe. A breath that he didn't realize he had been holding became renewed when your gaze finally met his. His pessimistic anticipation had lied to him, in your eyes he still can see you. Your light is still there despite his fears that it had been swallowed up by the cruelty of the world. Your dark lashes are damp, streaks of tears have tattooed your cheeks, and yet you still look like a renaissance painting to him.
Your voice is soft and impalpable like if you speak any louder than just above a whisper, your own voice will startle you. Everything around you and within you already feels so tumultuous and overwhelming. Your body feels cold despite the air being room temperature and the soft lightning stings your eyes like blinding surgical lights. Your broken voice says all of this without the need of the words. Everything just feels so heightened and overstimulating.
His presence stills you, he doesn't even have to say much. The rounded softness of his eyes keeps your feet on the ground. You take a gentle step closer to where he stands a few feet away against the wall. Your face hangs with a tiredness that sleep would only partially solve and your arms are still hugged around yourself. "Thank you for taking action so quickly and doing what you did. You went out of your way, I'm sorry that I had to disturb you with all this." You thank him and apologize all upon the same hushed, heartfelt breath. Your tongue isn't speaking your heart is, you're grateful for him down to the deepest parts of you.
Every syllable from your lips is drenched in gratitude that it almost pains you that you could never accurately articulate the depth of. Your mind may still be reeling too quickly for any of tonight to have truly sunk in yet. But it took no time or thought for you to become sure that you've never felt more indebted and appreciative than you do for Jackie.
Yet still the slightest, slimy feeling of embarrassment slithers in your belly. You're sure that you look a hot mess right now, it feels nearly mortifying to have all of this happen in front of the super star. You never meant to involve him in any of this or for him to see this raw, unwalled side of you. And yet now he's bashed a man's face in and talked to the police on your behalf about a situation that he had every right to have distanced himself from.
He is still your client, your relationship is valuable to you but it's also a professional one. You feel so exposed thrown into this vulnerable situation where you had to call a man for help that you've never seen off the clock. The gratefulness you feel is deep-seeded and overwhelming, but there's also that sheepish feeling pricking you because of how much extraneous trouble this has caused him.
Your eyes are glossy as you look up at him, if he didn't know any better he'd say he was looking at a doe. Even in such turmoil your pretty, warm-hued features put a spell on him. The color palette of your rich skin, honest eyes and fleshy lips combine to make up your face which is the only piece of art he's ever cared about. Or at least, it's the only piece of art he can remember caring about now that he knows you.
He hated hearing you apologize, he hates that you feel the need to. It feels like being punched in the chest, he wants you to see what truly motivated his actions and accept it. He didn't do what he did because he felt obligated or to get you to stop pestering him with your problems.
You truly have no clue how far he'd go for you, day after day in your presence his addiction and devotion to you has grown in secret. He's willing to war against every thought of doubt and unworthiness in your mind until you see that you are the goddess that the palace of his heart is dedicated to.
He doesn't want you to apologize, he wants you to fall into his arms and let him protect you like this forever. He doesn't want you to feel sorry, he wants you to accept all of the things that he's willing to be for you and see his love as your right. To own him, possess him, to be the first person you call when things are going wonderfully or horribly. He wants you to let him be your knight. He'd ran to your rescue with such a sureness in what he was doing and going to do, but you feel as though you're inconveniencing him.
Jackie reaches out to gently place a strong hand on both of your round shoulders; his touch feels like being shielded inside a sturdy brick house. He knows that he said he'd wait for you to initiate the type of comfort that you want; but he can't let you feel like you're drifting alone in space. His large palms cover your shoulders, he caresses the area up and down so carefully. "Don't be sorry, don't be sorry you didn't have a choice, you were in danger." His voice is tender and fervently assuring, almost sounding like he's begging you to not even think that way, because that's exactly what he's asking.
An exhausted tear rolls down your cheek and his thumb is there to swipe it away immediately like it's a reflex. He views his flesh as a handkerchief to absorb your tears and his body as your wall of protection. Your fleshy cheeks is soft as silk and dampened from salty tears under his swiping thumb. The contact feels so right, but not exactly like he can rest in it yet. For a gesture that comes to him so automatically, it still feels risky because he doesn't want you to take it the wrong way. He can see that you need consolation, but he's not entirely sure that he's in the appropriate position to give it.
Your droopy eyelids softly close the second his skin makes contact with yours. The bare feeling of him puts warmth back into your chilled bones so nicely that such little contact nearly makes you hum. "Hey what did God give me all these muscles for if not to help pretty damsels in distress?" He tried to lighten the mood any way that he could. The chuckle he tried to push out to add to the effectiveness of his joke ended up being only a soft but genuine smile.
You smile, you didn't think that you could or remembered how to, but you managed to smile at his jest woven with honor and compliments. Your heart swells for the first time tonight with a safe, honeyed warmth and not the kind that burns you alive and leaves in unrecognizable ashes. The quick flash of a brighter expression on your face shoots sweet relief into Jackie's veins. Then just like that the smile quickly fades back to a hanging exhaustion that shows through every muscle on your face.
You exhale a deep sigh that stretches lungs and your gaze falls towards your feet. "I don't know how he knew I would be staying here." You sound truly drained because that's exactly what you are. Too drained to even begin to ponder the answer to your own question, your stomach couldn't handle it anyway.
Even beginning to think about how obsessed and deranged that man must be to have figured out you'd be staying here tonight feels like being stricken with consuming sickness. The feeling of violation is so deeply penetrated that you feel like you need new skin.
Jackie hushes you before you go down a mental path that will only stress you out more. The reports are filed, the cops are gone and your nightmare is in custody. You don't have or need all of the answers now, and he knows you'll run yourself ragged searching for them. It's nearly three in the morning and this has surely been the worst night of your life. He just wants you to rest and not try to piece everything together tonight. He squeezes your shoulders a bit firmer as if he's holding you back from your own mind that's threatening to spiral again.
His chestnut brown skin makes the muscles of his tone chest so clearly defined, your face stops just at his collarbone. The faint scent of soap and clean sheets still sit atop his smooth skin. Caged between his large arms and sturdy chest feels like the safest place you've ever resided.
Jackie leans down slightly from his towering height over you, still steadying and holding you by your shoulders. His new closer position brings the warmth of his face closer to your own. His body moves closer to you subconsciously, displaying his need and desire for his words to really, truly sink into you. "It's over now, you need to get some sleep, suga." His words break up the anxiety growing in your mind and cut your thoughts off from their distressing destination. His hickory-brown eyes are soft but stern as he holds your gaze. He won't let anxiety whisk you away again, especially not now that everything is over.
The sweet terms of endearment that he so casually uses for you never fails to ignite heat under your cheeks and across your nose. It's always suga, mama, ma, they roll off his tongue easily but it never feels crass. Jackie naturally is a soft-spoken man, but in moments like this, when he's looking at you like this and holding you in a way that professionals don't hold each other; his voice becomes even softer than it usually is.
Soft like a bed of down feathers, so tenderly mellow that you feel his words penetrate your skin down to your bones. His voice just has a way of vibrating through you in the most delightful way. "I don't think I'll ever sleep again." Your confession is honest and echoes of defeat which seems to be the only realistic lens to view this matter through.
Jackie internally winces at that, the worst part is understanding why you said it and feel that way. It's more than warranted. He can hear the seriousness of the fatigue and depletion in your voice. He knows that you're going through it mentally right now, he can see it all over you physically and spiritually. Even still, hearing you verbalize it pricked him because that made it all the more real.
"I don't think I can be alone, I just--" Your head falls towards the floor again with a heavy sigh. The thought of being alone right now terrifies you like a colossal, bottomless black hole. Your eyes pinch shut with exasperation. You've never before felt the tormenting sensation of being so deeply tired but feeling so disturbed and fearful that sleep seems like an unreachable concept. Your exhaustion warring against your trauma feels like an immovable object meeting an unstoppable force and you're caught in the middle without a say.
You look up at him again, an idea lifts you gaze back to his. "I know this is a wildly inappropriate ask but. . ." You pause, your words feel stuck to the back of your lips with super glue. For a moment the cascading fear that saying what you want to say would be an embarrassing and inopportune mistake, stalls you. "Would you stay with me, even if it's just until the sun rises?" Saying it feels like a mix between relief and awkward anticipation.
Jackie runs his warm hands up and down your arms in soothing strokes. Something flutters in his belly at your request but he swallows it back down hastily. "Of course, mama. If you'll have me." He obliges earnestly, the fact that his face is even closer to yours now somehow goes unnoticed by both of you. That's how natural it feels. "Anything to make you feel safe, I'll be right here on the couch." His eyes glance over to the sofa behind you.
He already didn't want to leave you after everything, he doesn't think it would be right and certainly not beneficial. But he could think of no way to voice that without sounding like he was being slick and taking advantage of the situation.
You lift your hand to wrap your dainty fingers around his firm bicep. "No, I mean--" You begin, that awkward, bashful feeling glues your lips together again. Your soft eyes flick back and forth between his expectant ones in hopes that maybe he can read your mind, but that doesn't happen. "With me. . Jackie." You elaborate, your words puff from your lips mousy and timid, displaying your embarrassment at your own boldness for asking such a thing.
But you're asking innocently, just for company; another person's presence would keep you from spiraling and torturing yourself with anxiety all night. Just the thought of being alone in this hotel room after everything makes you quiver.
Jackie's eyes widen slightly, heat clings to the back of his neck. "Oh." The single syllable doesn't carry the tone of rejection or revulsion, just genuine surprise. He tries to hush the tingling feeling behind his ribs, but it takes off with no regard for his consent. He's trying to play it cool but the way his eyelids rapidly blink as he digests your request gives him away slightly. "Yeah, If that's what you need right now." He'll do whatever you ask, whether you mean that you want him to sleep with you, or to sleep with you.
Instead of risking looking like a pervert, he decides it's best to just wait and see how things go. It's not that he automatically hopes for your request to be a less innocent one, but he'd like to be mentally prepared if it is. Either way he wouldn't deny you.
A breathy, awkward laugh leaves your lips. "Thank you, I'm sorry, I'm so embarrassed." You hate to rope him into all of this but he's here and sweetly willing and you just need someone around you right now. You've known each other for a year, had hours upon hours of conversations, some would call that a friend. Maybe what you're asking of him you'll regret come morning when the clarity of daylight hits you. But right now you'll just rest in the comfort he brings and take his willing yes for a willing yes.
Jackie softly cups your face between his hands, a bold move, but it feels so right for both of you. He gently angles your self-conscious gaze up to look at him, and you let him. Under his touch he can feel tension loosening from you, you let him see how his touch melts you. The firm safety of his closeness draws a sweet docility out of you that only makes him want to protect you more.
Your cheeks fit perfectly into the curve of his large palms with room to spare. "You don't have to be, I told you I gotchu." He assures you tenderly, his thumbs brushing over the softness of your cheeks. At this point, both of you know that this isn't how friends, and certainly not professionals behave with each other. But the two of you also know that now is far from the right time to address that with each other or within yourselves.
When you get to your bedroom, Jackie lets you get into bed first. He wants you to get comfortable and claim whatever space you want, then he'll put himself where you want him. You throw back the thick white duvet and settle between it and the crisp sheets covering the mattress. Your pillow feels softer under your exhausted head than any pillow has ever felt. Then Jackie carefully gets into bed next to you, he lifts the duvet and slides in beside you but not too close. His weight dips the mattress behind your back where you lay on your side in a fetal position. You immediately feel rest wash over you the second he's next to you. His size swallows you up but it's a wonderful, safe feeling.
He's not touching you, he's far too nervous to. This is for you, and the last thing he wants is for you to regret having him here. He lays flat on his back staring at the ceiling, your body is so warm and beautifully formed beside him. Laying besides you feels like laying besides a flawless resting deity carved from a material too valuable for his hands to touch. It's paralyzing and suffocating but exhilarating and there's no place he'd rather be.
"I own you, Jackie." You whisper in the darkness, you want to get the words out before sleep soon sweeps you away.
"You never owe me." The warm breath that carries his words blows across the back of your neck. How could you own him when there's nothing he wouldn't do for you?
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I just got done reading a magazine article @themichaeljacksonarchives.com, and Michael talks about all his brothers and what they like just little facts and stuff. Michael said Jermaine has a talent in cooking so can you write a fic about Jermaine inviting reader over and he cooks for her? It could be date night for the two of them, or he could cook for her and invite her to meet his family🥰🥰. The magazine said his specialities are enchiladas, tacos, and Italian lasagnas. We love romantic Jermaine
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Chapter VII: Dress/Right and a Wrong Way
synopsis: caught between your unfaithful fiancé jackie jackson and an undeniable connection with michael, you must navigate love, betrayal, and the price of following your heart while working as their stylist on tour. will you give into your desires or keep it in the closet? this is a fic set in the 80s for the messy bitches who live for drama! it has multiple chapters but each chapter can be read on its own tbh
authors note: i highkey put my all into this chapter. i really love it and hope you do too! again, im not a native english speaker so dont come for me please. this is an unapologetically black fanfic. if youre not black you are more than welcome to read this but just keep it in mind. feel free to comment or send me a message mwah💋
previously
TW: infidelity, strong language, drama
August 2nd, 1984 | Los Angeles 00:00AM
Your pov:
Part I: Dress
There you were, standing in front of his hotel room.
Room 250.
Michael Jackson.
The note trembling between your fingers.
"Ask Jackie about New York."
Desperate for reassurance, you raised your hand to knock on his door.
As you got closer, you heard muffled voices. It didn't take long before you recognized Michael's laugh... followed by Amara's.
Michael was flirting with her.
Your heart shattered as they burst into sweet giggles.
Then everything went quiet until you heard the sound of a belt being unfastened.
Your eyes were stinging, trying to fight back tears.
Baby pink fur slides dragged the hallway floor while your vision was blurred with salty tears.
I've got to talk to Michael about this tomorrow, you thought to yourself once you made it back to bed.
You lay alone while your fiancé was doing God knows what.
August 2nd, 1984 | Los Angeles 8:00AM
Michael's pov:
I was up early and planned to pick up my python Muscles to take with me for tour.
I rolled over. A woman's body lay beside me, her face pressed into a pillow, wearing nothing but neon green lace panties.
Amara.
I moved silently, not wanting to wake her up because it would mean I'd have to take her to Hayvenhurst with me.
I left the room certain Joseph would find some excuse to send her home before the concert.
I had moved on, throwing myself into my animals and my music.
I even started seeing a nice girl but now she was standing in the way of me and the woman I truly wanted.
I began to think she might like me back when I saw my date Amara walk out in that ugly dress.
She's far too talented to make a mistake like that.
Last night I thought I saw a glimpse of jealousy in her eyes. Whether it was real or wishful thinking, I couldn’t tell.
But God, the tight lace against her brown skin interrupted each and every thought I had.
My heart longed for her. My mind refused to forget that she belonged to my brother.
August 2nd, 1984 | Hayvenhurst 8:30AM
“Somebody wants to see you,” Bill said, entering the living room.
“Me? It’s 8 in the morning on a concert day. Who wants to see me?”
My question remained unanswered until I peeked out of the window.
A silhouette in a fancy dress approached through thunder and rain.
Her.
She wobbled in her Louboutin stilettos on the pavement of our driveway. She was a beautiful mess.
“Bill, please excuse us for a moment,” I asked, signaling for him to leave the living room.
Without question, he moved upstairs.
“Y/n?” I said as I opened the door for her.
She walked past me without a word.
Drenched.
Eyeliner running.
Her soaked dress clung to her skin.
“Michael,” she sighed. “We need to talk.”
“Would you like to take a seat first? I can make you a cup of tea? Give you a blanket. Anything?”
“No,” she snapped. “I need you to listen to me, Michael.”
My sister LaToya had told me stories about her acting this way around my brother, but this behaviour was unusual whenever she was around me.
“I’m listening.”
For someone so desperate to talk she didn’t say much. She silently fidgeted through her purse until she found what she was looking for.
“Say it ain’t so, Michael,” she said, holding a note in front of my eyes.
“Ask Jackie about New York.”
My gaze shifted between the note and her.
Her eyes pleading for comfort. Truth.
The woman standing before me was nothing like the unbreakable stylist I knew backstage.
Instinctively I reached out and brushed my hand against her cheek, tracing circles with my fingers. I couldn’t help but admire her face.
How dare Jackie play a beautiful woman like this?
I leaned forward, my fingers slipping over her cheek, enjoying those blissful seconds.
“You’re part of the Jackson family now, y/n. Please act like it. I can't do anything for you."
Bliss transformed into shock as she placed her hand over mine and yanked my hand off her cheek in a quick motion.
I stepped back, shocked by her reaction.
“You act just like your daddy, Michael,” she shouted turning away from me.
“Pardon?” I said trying to pull her back.
She moved fast and before I knew it I could see her walking down the driveway from the window.
“Let her go, Mike,” I heard Bill say behind me.
“Believe me, Bill, I’ve tried. I feel for her.”
“She’s engaged, brother.”
I slid into a chair, pondering my next move.
“Make sure you drive her back to the hotel safely. Can you do that for me?”
Bill nodded. “For sure.”
Your pov:
And so you walked.
Your red bottomed stilettos suddenly became impossible to walk in. You wobbled off the driveway passing by Michael’s pets.
As you got closer to the gate, you heard a car drive behind you.
Two honks.
“A foxy lady like you shouldn't have to go through all that. Let me take you back to the hotel,” Bill said out the window.
Of course Michael sent him, you thought.
“Sure,” you said stepping into the car.
“Thanks, Bill,” you said leaving the car.
You felt a shooting pain in your foot as your heels clicked against the hotel floor.
When you entered your room, Jackie stood in front of the door. His fingers tapped restlessly against his leg.
“Lady, where the hell have you been? Sneaking out at night like a teenager while you are engaged? Without no sign of life!”
He gave you some space to explain your actions.
Your mouth stayed shut.
“Got LaToya going nuts thinking her homegirl went missing,” he continued.
“Oh, so now you worried about me?”
His eyes narrowed. “The hell you talm bout?”
“You wanna know what I’m talking about, Jackie? Here, I’ll show you!” you shouted, holding the note in front of his face.
“The fuck,” he said inspecting the note.
His gaze diverted from the note to yours. He noticed you doubted his faithfulness. “Hey! Don’t tell me you believe in this.”
“I don’t know what to believe, Jackie. You tell me.”
“Baby, I ain’t got nothing to say because it ain’t true. Whoever gave you this is wicked.”
“Nobody gave it to me. It was just there,” you cried.
“Oh no, baby, please don’t cry,” Jackie muttered, wiping your tears.
“So, are you gonna tell me about New York?” you said between sniffs.
“New York was strictly business. I was practicing with my brothers that’s all,” he answered, stroking your face. “And that’s how it got into your purse. It ain’t some mystery. It’s someone in the family, baby. They’re pulling a prank on us.”
You nodded. “I see.”
“I’m sorry you had to go through this. I will take care of it. I promise.”
“Jackie, I’m gonna need some distance. Regardless if you cheating or not.”
“Distance? We engaged. Don’t be telling me you're giving up on us 'cause I-"
You walked out of the hotel room without hearing his full response.
No matter what you asked, you knew he wasn’t gonna tell you the full truth. But that didn’t mean he was fully lying either.
You gave him the benefit of the doubt. For now.
Part II: Right and a Wrong Way
August 2nd, 1984 | Los Angeles 10:00 AMMichael’s pov:
After a short visit to Hayvenhurst, I was back at the hotel.
The frantic rainstorm had passed, leaving LA with sunshine. We were leaving for our show in about two hours
In the meantime, I sat by the hotel pool accompanied by some of my brothers. Enjoying the calm before the storm on tour.
Jackie was nowhere to be found. I figured he was hungover in bed due to his mindless drinking last night.
"Hot damn, she looks good," Jermaine said eyeing a girl in a red bikini across the pool.
"Jermaine, please, now is not the moment. We playing a show tonight," I laughed. "I'm gonna go get myself some water."
I got off my sunbed and walked over to the bar on the other end of the pool.
“This gon’ be the last time you pull a trick like that. Next time you will be dealt with, Tito. Trust!” I heard my brother Jackie shout from afar.
Tito frowned. “Man, stop running your mouth. You ain’t gon’ do nuffin’.”
"Hey, hey, hey," Randy interfered, his hands separating the two.
“You think this is funny, don’t you?”
“What’s funny is that you are threatening me over something I don’t even know about,” Tito answered calmly.
"Tito, please, just don't say nothin'. It's not worth it," Marlon said lazily while lying on a sunbed.
"Shut up," Jackie snapped at Marlon. He then moved Randy out of the way to get at Tito. “That woman is part of my future. I put a ring on her damn finger. Denise was nothing but a fast car from New York. A mistake!” he shouted stabbing a finger toward Tito with every word.
“Man, back off,” Tito shouted, pushing Jackie into the pool.
His body disappeared into the water. A while later, he resurfaced and climbed out of the pool.
His face twisted with rage while he stomped toward Tito
"Jermaine, get him out of here!" Randy yelled, afraid of his coming actions.
Jackie then stood eye to eye with Tito. Their foreheads touching. They looked as if they could kill one another.
“Do it then!” Tito spat in his face. "Do it!"
Jackie's jaw tightened. "You ain't gotta tell me twice."
He raised his fist into a ball and delivered a hard punch to his face.
Tito wiped the blood off his busted lip then swung back at him.
My brothers aviators flew off as they witnessed the chaos. I couldn’t bear one more second watching it.
While hands were being thrown I ran away looking for LaToya.
My knuckles banged against her door.
“LaToya, it’s Michael!”
She opened the door instantly.
“LaToya, why did you do that?”
“I don't know what you're talking about, Michael.”
“You wrote that note, didn’t you?”
She bit her lip whilst staring into space.
“I did but it’s not out of malice. She’s my best friend and I technically didn’t say anything nor point a finger at anyone.”
“Jackie and Tito are going at it at the pool because of us.”
“Is Tito fine?” she gasped.
“No. Those punches should’ve been ours, yet here we are. Untouched,” I answered.
"What are we gonna do now, Michael? You're not gonna tell on me, are ya?"
"I won't, but we gotta come up with somethin'. Quickly," I answered.
"Joseph's gonna kill me when he finds out I wrote that note. And y/n… gosh, our friendship will be dead and gone," she sighed, pacing back and forth.
"I doubt Joseph or Jackie would think it's you. It doesn't matter, listen, we gotta be quiet, LaToya or else…"
Her eyes widened in panic. "Or else what?"
"Or else they're gonna start questioning us. You don't say a word to y/n about Jackie's unfaithfulness or leave another letter like this."
Her gaze dropped to the floor. "I just wanted to help her."
"Say you won't do it again, Toya. Please, this is family," I insisted.
She nodded followed by a short "Fine."
Knocks on the door.
"No room service needed," she shouted.
The doorknob turned.
"It's me. Talking 'bout some room service," Joseph mumbled stepping in. "Now what in the hell…," he continued once he noticed my presence.
"We're talking about Muscles," she lied.
Joseph didn't care. "LaToya, Michael, pack your bags. We goin' back to Encino."
"But, Joseph, I thought we were playing a show tonight?" I asked.
"Show's cancelled. We need to get the hell up outta here before them tabloids show up and tell all our business."
He walked out, leaving the door open behind him.
August 2nd, 1984 | Hayvenhurst 3:00 PM
There I was in my room. Sitting on my bedroom floor while an unfinished demo of The Way You Make Me Feel blasted through the soundsystem.
I envisioned y/n during the process of the track. I laid my head back against the wall, biting my lip as I thought about the lace tightening against her breasts.
My daydreaming ended against my will, once Randy stepped in. "Mikey, Joseph wants you. Get up."
I gave him a nod and got myself off the floor.
My palms grew damp as I walked behind Randy toward Joseph's office.
My brothers, sisters, mother sat on couches in the dimly lit room. Joseph sat behind his desk filled with paperwork.
"Sit down, Michael," Joseph said, looking up from his papers.
I chose a seat next to my mother.
Once settled, my father began his speech.
"I suppose you all know why we're here. So, let me get this straight, if anybody got a problem, address it now. Put it on the floor," Joseph said eyeing each one of us.
"They're playing with my future, Joseph. I was tempted only once. It was a one night stand and they know that. Y/n means everything to me and I won't let anyone take her away from me. Especially by a foolish note," Jackie cried.
You only feel sorry because you got caught, I thought to myself.
Jackie spiraled further, leaving Joseph even more frustrated.
"Enough!" he shouted as he lifted his hand in the air, signaling him to stop his sob story.
"Listen, I don't give a damn about who's cheating and who's not. But what I won't accept is tarnishing our family. Our brand, you hear me? That woman is our stylist. We need her for the tour!"
Everyone nodded silently.
"What matters… is the Jackson family, you hear me?" Joseph said. His eyes gliding over everyone in the room. "Now, if anybody disagrees with me, let that be known right about now. But what we're not gonna do is go behind someone's back. Writing a note like a little rat. What kinda sense does that make?"
As those words left his mouth, I looked to Latoya. She sat next to Janet, avoiding my eyes at all costs.
Guilt.
"Please, excuse me," I said, standing up from the couch.
I couldn't endure the tension any longer. Desperate for relief, I hurried to the phone in my bedroom. I had to make a call to Y/N. I was ready to tell her. Everything.
August 2nd, 1984 | Burbank, LA 3:30 PM
Your pov:
You sank into the sofa of your apartment as you ugly cried in the arms of your roommate.
"Honey, I can't believe someone did that to you," Jody comforted you while her hand rubbed against your back, listening to what had happened.
Across the room, your other roommate, Rochelle sat in a black leather chair, turning from side to side as she stroked her chin thoughtfully. "This sounds like some bullshit to me. I know Jackie and he is a good man. That note? I mean, come on, who does that? This gotta be some prank. I bet it was Randy. You know how he can be nasty, girl!"
"I hope so. I'm not even sure if he's cheating. It's just that I'm so overwhelmed," you cried over the voice of a news reporter on TV.
"And all of this is happening while I'm stuck with him on tour," you sobbed, reaching for a tub of Ben & Jerry's cookie dough ice cream on the coffee table.
The phone rang.
"That's for me. I was expecting a call. I'll be back in a moment, okay?" Jody said, giving you an encouraging smile.
She disappeared.
"Whatever happens, you gon' be alright. We're here for you anytime. Just reach out and we'll be there."
"Thanks, Rochelle," you sighed, digging your spoon into the ice cream. "I needed to hear that."
Jody moved swiftly into the living room. "Y/n?"
"Yes," you said, looking up.
"It's Michael. He says he needs to talk to you. Now."
a/n: LaToya played baddd!! She's really playing with that note lmao. I can't wait to write the next chapter and have y'all on your feet. Thanks for reading and leaving comments, i appreciate all of you! :3
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warnings: none, just pure fluff.
synopsis: your boyfriend has never seen mean girls. it’s only right that you force him to watch it.
word count: 700
“c’mon babe, i’m ready to press play,” you called out to michael from the living room of your shared home.
“i’m coming jeez, making the perfect bowl of popcorn takes time you know, it’s a science to it,” he chuckles as he plops down next to you on the sofa, placing the red bowl filled with popcorn onto your lap.
you giggled as he pressed his soft lips against your cheek before taking a handful of popcorn into his mouth as you pressed play on the remote.
it was friday night, no kids, no noise, just you and michael. since it was rare to have a night to yourselves, you and michael decided to have a movie night.
“what movie did you pick mama?”
“one of the best movies of this year, mean girls.”
“ can’t be that good, don’t think i’ve seen it.”
your mouth was left agape. how dare he?mean girls was one of the best chick flicks of all time.
on wednesdays we wear pink? get in loser, we’re going shopping? stop trying to make fetch happen? she doesn’t even go here?
he had to be joking.
“babe, you’ve seriously never seen mean girls?”
“what’s the big deal,” he chuckled at your dramatic response. you rolled your eyes as the two of you snuggled up against each other as the movie began.
“gretchen, stop trying to make fetch happen! it’s not going to happen!” you chuckled as you watched regina argue with gretchen.
“oh my gosh, she’s so mean i hate her,” you heard michael murmur under his breath as his eyes watched the tv screen intensely.
“hate all you want, you can’t deny how iconic she is.”
“i guess you’re right.”
“regina wait i didn’t mean for that to happen.”
“to find out that everyone hates me i don’t care.”
“oh my gosh mikey wake up this is the best part,” you nudged his shoulder, making him pop his head back up and focus on the television.
“i wasn’t sleep, i was just resting my eyes.”
“do you know what everyone says about you? they say that you’re a homeschooled jungle freak, who’s a less hot version of me. yeah.”
you watched his hands cover his mouth as a loud gasp left his lips as he watched regina get hit by the bus. he grabbed the remote from you and immediately paused it.
“oh my goodness, i know she was mean but they didn’t have to kill her.”
you couldn’t help but to bust out laughing. michael watched in awe as you clutched your stomach in between giggles.
“mikey, babe, she’s not dead.”
“what do you mean she’s not dead. she just got hit by a bus, like a whole bus.” his eyebrows furrowed, face full of concern and confusion.
“baby, we have to finish the movie,” you managed to say as you wiped the tears that were about to fall from your eyes from laughing so hard.
he hesitated at first but pressed the black play button that sat at the top of the remote. a sigh of relief escaped his lips as he saw her reappear on the screen moments later.
you rested your head against his shoulder, his arm snaked around your body, hand resting on your bottom.
every so often, you’d sneak a glance up at him, the way his eyes were glued to the television, studying each character like a test. this go round even laughing at the jokes and innuendos throughout the last few moments of the film. you sat up as the end credits began to roll.
“so, what did you think?”
“it was surprisingly good. at first i thought it was just the plastics that were the mean girls but then it dawned on me that every girl in the movie was kinda fake.”
your eyes lit up with excitement.
“exactly babe. see, i knew you would love it.”
“so i guess we’ll have to start wearing pink wednesdays now, huh?”
you cupped his face in your hands, locking your lips with his.
“okay, now should we watch waiting to exhale or legally blonde?”
“waiting to exhale.”
“smart man.”