I unleashed real darkness into the world and was proud of it.

A lot has happened. A lot that has changed my heart and my mind and I haven’t felt like coming back, but for some reason I feel obliged to share this on my blog.

Over the summer there was a death in the family that I’m still processing, and I was very close to this person and so I took time off to evaluate everything. It wasn’t tragic, but something that I had expected, but it still hurt like a bitch.

A friend of mine tried to kill himself recently and even though he failed, I still feel as if he succeeded. My best friend was successful years ago. He’s better now, but it fucking traumatized me.

That being said, I don’t really know if I feel like coming back. Right now, I’m fine. The sort of fine that the dog in the comic says while it’s surrounded by fire while smiling to itself. But as part of being the Sherlock fandom, I can’t keep up and I can’t continue to contribute to anything - even though most of the time all I did was reblog from others.

These fights I have had with people who didn’t ship Johnlock or were against people who DID ship Johnlock - are completely in the past and I just don’t want anything to do with whatever is currently going on or what will go on. Just please leave me out of it. I don’t want to be a part of it anymore. I’m sorry to the enemies I have made. If you have chosen to still hate me at this point regardless, that’s your choice. But between you and me, I believe it’s time to bury the fucking hatchet and agree that life happens, and we can’t hold on to some stupid shipping war over fictional people.

I will not be deactivating my blog, as I have said earlier, I have no idea on whether I feel like coming back or not. Even if s5 comes, I don’t care about it. But perhaps I’ll keep my blog active as a means of nostalgia. Who knows.

I admit I’m a bit all over the place right now. I feel as if I’m a different person. Shit changes you.

For those of you who are following me, thanks for sticking with me for so long. Time will tell if I pop in again in the future.

As for now, I’m going back on hiatus for the time being.

Love you all.

Like I would never tell anyone, “No, you should play along with Mofftiss, because they’re up to something and it could be good,” or “don’t shit on my pro-Mofftiss post just because you got issues with them,” or “if you leave TJLC you were never a TJLCer in the first place.”

People come and go. I don’t hold it against those that give up. I do however don’t like it when some of our own drags another because they were done™. And I especially hate it when someone who “used to be” part of TJLC/johnlock attacks one of us. But the whole “losing faith/moving on” thing? That’s perfectly relatable.

lol Nonny wow. I gotta be honest with ya. I’m loving all this examining of someone who has different views than you.

I will always be a TJLCer. I’m not going to stop just because of what happened. I don’t trust Moffat and Gatiss and it makes me wary to speculate that they could be up to something, whether good or bad. I shipped Johnlock way before this damn show. I don’t expect to be swept off my feet in the future by Mofftiss but I will never stop believing that there was something fishy going on and that the show was headed for johnlock. I will admit, there’s always something fishy going on. But there are going to be days when I’m s-l-i-g-h-t-l-y interested and then there are going to be days - like today - when I’m sort of done with the bullshit. I’m allowed to have my own opinion, just like you with yours.

Mycroft comment and “Sister! There’s always something!” from ASiP we’re literally the only things. And even that could have been Johnlock subtext because the first error made on the show is assuming someone is straight

That was the whole point, John correcting Sherlock that Harry was actually Harriet and also a lesbian. [Sherlock = actually gay] Sherlock had assumed John had a brother since the significant other was “Clara” and of course, it’s natural for some people to believe it was a straight relationship because at first assumption Harry is a man’s name. [casuals thinking Sherlock is straight] Turns out, we and Sherlock were wrong and told that John’s sibling was not only a sister, but gay.

Moffat’s whole “If you’re not reading the subtext then hell mend you” is complete and utter bullshit, since there’s literally NO SUBTEXT about Sherlock having a sister.

Other than Mycroft’s “You know what happened to the other one,” I still don’t get how we can be told we weren’t paying attention. The concept of show with Sherlock having a secret sister somewhere is lunacy. Especially when you think about how overwhelming they made johnlock appear throughout the series.