A few years back, around the time that the Supergirl and Wynonna Earp shows started gaining traction, I opened a whole new account, new email address, the whole 9 yards, it is, @supergirlspurgatory. I did that because I didn't feel like I was doing this blog justice by primarily posting and reblogging content for those shows. This blog was always about talking about me, talking about my life as a young woman coming into the world and thusly coming out of the closet and coming to terms with my sexuality as a lesbian. Over the last several years while I've been neglecting JustAKnightInShiningWhatever, I've grown and changed as a person, a lot. I've found love, I've lost love, I've broken hearts, I've had my heart broken, and most recently, I've had an incredible woman come into my life who I have fallen hard for and who accepted me despite my bent and broken soul, and has managed to heal my heart. Now, I just want to say, the last 11 months that she has been in my life, they have been a journey, an incredible voyage. I've learned so much, I've grown so much, I've become acquainted with what true happiness is. I am finally at a point in my life, where even when I go through tough times, I can't help but thank the heavens for the beautiful life I have been gifted. Now, all that being said, as I write this, at 6.30 AM on Friday, the 17th, of April, 2020, the world has fallen into turmoil and chaos. I think we were all hopeful that 2020 was going to be a new, beautiful, and amazing chapter in our lives. Now, I'm not saying it isn't, or in the very least, it doesn't still have the potential to be. But as it stands now, things are difficult. The world is overrun by a pandemic that I don't think the majority of us saw coming. The United States is being ran by a president who doesn't seem to know what he's doing, and I believe the majority of us are still wondering, how he managed to get elected into office. Many of us are ill, many of us have lost our jobs, many of those who are still working, are having to do so from home, and those who are still able to go to work, are risking their lives everyday, as they could be exposed to the virus at any time. Personally, I was laid off from my job. The first job, I think that I have ever truly enjoyed, with a team that I loved and miss dearly. Before being laid off, I had a close call with the virus. I had many of the symptoms in mid-March, and had to fight to get tested. Fortunately, the test came back negative. But I was still required to quarantine for a full two weeks. As of today, I have been home for 33 days. I was lucky, and was able to see the special girl in my life, right before I got sick. But I have not seen her since, because she lives 7 hours away, and lives on her family ranch with her mom, who is immunocompromised. This is the longest we have gone without seeing each other since meeting. It's hard, I miss her desperately, but we're doing what we need to do, to not only protect ourselves but to protect our loved ones as well. As the pandemic continues, the days get longer and lonelier. I find it more and more difficult, each day, to find things to keep my mind busy. I've had to stop following the news because it just gives me more and more anxiety and fills me with more and more fear. I choose instead to rely on my family and friends who I am in regular contact with, for daily updates on the important things and I avoid all the rest. But I have read and heard a few amazing things in this time. I've heard that the hole in the ozone layer is getting smaller and at a rate quicker than we've ever seen. Large cities across the world, like Los Angeles, New York, Hong Kong, Tokyo, and many others, are seeing huge improvements in their air quality and pollution levels are incredibly low. I read an article about thousands of sea turtles laying eggs on a beach that they hadn't done much laying on in many years because of pollution, littering, and human interference. Companies like General Motors, Ford, and Dyson have switched their factories around so they can start producing respirators to help with the mass shortages that hospitals in the United States are facing. Many clothing companies have halted production and started instead, making face masks, to help protect not only health care workers, but also the general public, who still have to go out for work and groceries. This is just the tip of the iceberg when it comes to the amazing stories that I've heard and I hope to continue to hear more. I think that it is important, to look for these positives right now. It's all about finding the small things in each day to bring you joy. Reach out to an old friend that you haven't spoken to for a while, and have a phone call or video chat to catch up. Make your favorite meal to enjoy. If you're at home with family, friends, or roommates, take some time to learn something new about them. Pull out a board game, from the back closet, and play it together. Read that book that you've been putting off. Watch a new movie that sparks your interest or watch your favorite movie again. Go through your closet and put together a pile of clothing to donate to your local thrift store. Get online and do some research on a topic that's always interested you. Make an effort to learn something new. The world is going through a tough time right now. Please, please, please, try to find things to bring you at least little happiness, everyday. On that note, I'm going to end this post. I hope it brings at least one person some sort of comfort. I'm going to make an effort to post regularly on this page from now on. So you'll be hearing from me. -M
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