Jordoss

Today now was is now

I am not what’s discarded

I am what to you is no more

I am something to someone

Not you I’m sure

I’m definitely me to myself

Unable to talk

Death was my companion

2 wives were it exposed to

Funny, they couldn’t live without me when I was dying

But the found the strength to throw me when the money was there for the taking

I was informed I don’t understand

And I indeed do not,

It’s for my benefit they

They must untie the knot,

Why save me from death

Just to scrape my heart raw,

Why rape me of wealth

The ones I did adore,

Tis pain my bedfellow now

Not wife one or two,

My life that much more shallow

Now alone in pains remorseless hue

Hamburger and fish cocktails this time.

No scallops, no chips,

Not the same now I find.

I woke again alone, you far from me,

No more our house a home,

Only a relationship travesty.

Each day I’m lost, acting like I’m around,

If only you’d known the pain so profound.

I’m here not really but beyond here I must go,

A future ahead confounds me,

A present all I can flow.

Your contact devastates me,

Devasdatingly so, your face would surround me but now never more I know.

I warned this is madness and for me I do so now show,

A loss that surrounds me and may never let me go.

I warm I cold I feel each day go but this loss that surrounds me is more than i can stop grow.

I hope this is the joy and culmination of your dreams,

Ten years and your money will surround you but not with me I fear.

Once

Twice

Three times

No Angel

A wife said your mine

I’ll keep you I’m able

I came back to life

To her to be near

Now she says I’m not

Who she can stand to be here

Death my friend

I’m sorry I let you go

Come back again

Let’s have another show

My heart is too

No more is the vision

Of once I woke to

Gone, the way of water a drain ran through,

Gone unholding, my hands had once knew,

Gone, only longing

A memory now blue,

The colours are gone,

Only now Grey and Blue,

I love you but i can’t live with you

I want to be single

Your killing me

I don’t want to be married

You can’t look after me

No money is worth this

Have you found somewhere to live

I might come back to you

I’ll always love you

I want the house signed over to me

How much money do you need

I didn’t want a divorce

All I wanted was a separation and separate finances and not live with you but I still want to be married

I can’t meet your new granddaughter

I want you out by 25/12/25

It’s my house not yours

I don’t know what I’m doing

To my children you said

Your father is happy with the way things are, I have to have change, he has to leave

I said you need to see a specialist

You and I can stop seeing solicitors

Lets just take a step back

You said

NO

I know what I want

I want you out and my house in my name

And now it will be

You will have the house but not me

For in all of these words

Not a hearts gift occurred

Not my love utterred once

Just my name ruthlessly pronounced

Lie letters portrayed

A solicitor’s trade

No love is there here

Just want of our joint value commandeered

Full crocodile tears

To beget what is so endeared

I wish you happiness and joy

Without me underfoot or coy

I’ll be nowhere near

Lets hope that in my future you disappear

No longer my cheeks will have tears,

Hopefully not for many years

I’ll move on and dispel