Jagged Notes

When we’re babies, we have to develop object permanence. We learn that just because we don’t see something, doesn’t mean it doesn’t still exist. But I think I may have taken it too far – I think everything is permanent. Which is weird and hard to explain since we know things have a tendency to fade, expire, change, get erased, etc. We’re continually told that ‘nothing lasts forever’ and yet my…

I always tell myself that I want to post more often, yet when I go to write about something, I pull up my journal and write it in there instead. I know that it’s because there’s no judgment in my own writings. There’s only one person… maybe two… who might ever actually go through and read my journal. It’s not like my younger days when I had to have a lock on it. Do they still do that? Have locks…

There are a few other bloggers that I follow and one of them suggested picking a word for the year. At first, I thought that was absurd. To put one word for an entire year just seems impossible. There are 365 days in a year, how could anyone chose just one word? I’m not even the same person at the end of the year that I was at the beginning of the year. The only word that comes to mind that would…

I came across this screenshot the other day and part of me felt…at ease. I have often struggled to put into words all that I am feeling. I absolutely love it when someone finally does. I am sharing it with you today in case anyone else out there wants to feel at ease as well. I hate it when people I like leave my life. I know that sounds quite obvious, but I feel like it still needs to be said.…

I started writing this post in November, but there was just… too much to work through. In November 2024, Donald Trump won the presidency … again. I remember my husband and I staying up until the early hours of the morning waiting for the finalization of the counts. I can’t even describe to you the devastation that came over both of us. The next day, we were quiet. The whole apartment was quiet.…

Hello, 38 – Welcome! I’m so sorry for the … situation you are entering. I am very excited to meet you and get to know you and hear all of the wonderful things you would like to do during your stay. But I do want to let you know that you are coming in at a rather.. tumultuous state. I’m not really sure what happened or why, but it’s where we are. The previous tenant, 37, was doing the best she…

Dear 37, You’ve done a lot! It’s just been amazing — you’ve been amazing. You got another tattoo in January of 2024. Like, you didn’t even wait until the year was settled a bit. You watched Barbie… and cried. It’s really amazing how much someone can relate to a movie. Somehow… somehow!… the road in front of the apartment sprung a leak. It literally broke through concrete and you had a whole…

I know that you’re not supposed to judge a book by it’s cover, but let’s face it – in the literary world – you do. When you’re walking through a bookstore, you know that the second an interesting cover catches your eye, you pick it up and read a synopsis on the back to see if you’d actually like the story. And that’s OK. If all the books in the world had basic covers, I’m sure it would take you…

We went out to eat the other day at Eat N’ Park during the lunch rush. It was almost full; only a handful of tables left vacant. The sound was that of people talking over people talking over people. We were given our menus, the full booklet – plastic texture. The menu was about 5 pages long. As I looked around, I found it amazing. There was a time, not too long ago, when only a dozen tables…

Photo by Jessica Lewis ud83eudd8b thepaintedsquare on Pexels.com Dear 37 – Hello and welcome. I am happy you are here and hope you enjoy your stay. I know that you are nervous, but don’t worry, 36 did a great job of getting things ready for you. In fact, she made an entire LIST for you to work off of! I can’t promise it will be easy, but I know that we will end the year exhausted and…

Dear 36 – You got off to a slow start, I will admit to that. For about the first four months of the year, it was business as usual. But then things started to pick up a bit. First, you went an got to see Bruce Campbell! Definitely fun. Then there was the yearly tattoo convention. Seeing a bunch of artists and being around others who love tattoos is always interesting. You also experienced a…

I remember the very first album I ever had. I would say ‘bought’, but I was like, 8. The album was TLC’s ‘Crazy, Sexy, Cool’. I know, I know, entirely inappropriate for an 8 year old. I don’t know why I liked it. I think it was the sound. Before them, all I heard was country music, Madonna, and Michael Jackson. For whatever reason, I was just drawn to them. I had their cassette tape and I would…

I remember when I first starting writing this blog. I had previously had one that I wrote in for several years, and moved to WordPress. Blogging was taking off and everyone was a blogger. I mean, you didn’t need any certifications, training, or letters after your name. All you needed was a computer and wifi and you were good to go. All of that started dying down once Vine, TikTok, and Instagram…

I know that you probably have a word that you don’t really like saying. No matter how old you get, you just don’t ever feel comfortable saying it. Most people don’t like saying the following words: moist, panties, menstruation, vagina, creamy, or squirt. I’m sure you have other ones as well that I haven’t mentioned. But the point is: we don’t like saying the word. Whether it’s how the word…

Have you ever broke up, got divorced, quit your job, or anything that results in a break and thought: am I the problem? Normally, when I had a breakup or left a job, I had friends and family to tell me: You’re so much better off without them! They didn’t know what they had! They didn’t realize how good they had it. You’re such a great person and you deserve so much better. If you do not have a…

When I was growing up, being vulnerable was a bad thing. You didn’t want others to know that you were vulnerable, because that was a sign of weakness and a way to alert anyone (enemies or otherwise) that they could take advantage of you. Photo by Liza Summer on Pexels.com It was especially bad if you cried. Crying was associated with being fragile… like a baby. Sure, you could cry tears of joy,…

Dear 36 Year Old Me, Hi! Hello! Welcome! I hope you like what I did with the place. There are some tattoos and I painted my toenails a nice purple. I got a tri-color highlight in my hair. It’s not bad. It’s still in good shape, if you ask me. Photo by Jessica Lewis Creative on Pexels.com Anyway, look —I’m gonna be honest — the last tenant, 35, was a fantastic tenant. So, you got some big shoes…