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Absolutely fascinated by Ryan Guzman’s (correct) belief that Eddie is entirely unaware of the romantic undertones that are peppered through his relationship with Buck. Or he’s not exactly unaware, but all those pieces of pepper are individual details and he can’t see the bigger picture, like putting a puzzle together while only looking at the pieces but not at what he’s got so far. He’s too naive to put things together. He’s never once considered it. If Buck were to confess to him, he’d be genuinely shocked. And Buck won’t, of course, confess, because if Buck is in love with Eddie, that’d break all the rules he’s set for this relationship. So Buck is ignoring the elephant in the room and Eddie is so zoomed in on specific parts of the elephant that he doesn’t even know it’s an elephant. He thinks that microscopic view of maybe-skin-or-an-iris is normal best friendship. Buck is “I’m not in love with Eddie obviously but if i was i wouldn’t be able to care about that rn bc I have a job and it would ruin the friendship rules I mentally gave us if he knew”. Eddie is “I want Buck to be with me all the time and I often think of him as my husband in my head and I want him to touch me and stay with me and I’ll do anything he asks of me and I worry about him a lot and whenever I think of growing old Buck is right next to me every step of the way also growing old. We’re such platonic best friends :)”. And that creates their wonderful dynamic where Buck dances around it all and Eddie is taking his hand and dancing with him because yay, they’re dancing. He loves dancing with Buck. Buck’s such a bad dancer. Ha ha.

buck who is already so defensive and so twisted up in knots internally about his relationship with eddie and so careful to draw a line for himself and others to make absolutely clear that everyone knows that he knows that eddie is straight, and so he is NOT pining after him because that would be pathetic and buck does NOT want people to think he's pathetic. but he's not really thinking about any of that right now because they're in a bar in the middle of nowhere and he just spite-ate three plates of food while eddie glared at him from across the table. and now they're fighting and he's feeling crazy and feeling like his brain is all full of bees and he doesn't even really know what he's saying but he can feel it amping up and he knows eddie's going to lash back at him or calm him down, one of the two, but fighting with eddie like this is fun. actually. sometimes. at least once he stops being annoyed. it will feel kind of fun by the end. and it's a fight they've had before in different forms. so it's fine. but he forgets where they are and he makes a little too much of a scene and those guys step in and before he really knows what's happening eddie's out of his seat and getting in the guy's face. and buck feels like he just got a bucket of water thrown on him and he's begging eddie to just let it go but the guy is calling eddie princess and eddie's glaring at the guy now except not in the same way he was looking at buck. and the assumption is obvious, that everyone thinks they're something that they're not. something that buck has been SO CAREFUL to make sure everyone knows they're not. because he knows eddie's not. and he doesn't want people to get the wrong idea. any more than they already have. and maybe buck himself has never even really dealt with homophobia like this before, but he feels like it's a little bit his fault that eddie's the one dealing with it now. because he's the one who was making a scene. he's the one who forgot himself. and it all happens so fast that before he can say anything else, they're back in the car and the silence is really heavy and he's just like well. i'm sorry. for calling you gloomy. i'm sorry i got us lost. this is my fault. even though there's a lot more to apologize for than he even knows how to say. and the worst part is, eddie's not even mad, he's just like no it's fine. it's fine, buck. we're good, you and me. and it would make all of this not-being-in-love-with-eddie stuff a LOT easier if eddie would just say something like "it's not your fault they got the wrong idea". or something. but eddie doesn't say that. he's just like no, it's fine, it was both of us.

just thinking about how andrew garfield said peter was jewish and bi and also said mbj should play mj and also how he was devasted when they ended tasm franchise and also how when sony and disney signed to make mcu spiderman the contract said peter had to be white and straight and cis and also how they made tony his father figure and “forgot” about uncle ben and how they stole miles’ story and how they demonized the working class by making them villains despite peter in the comics being poor and constantly struggling and how now he’s a billionaire’s puppet and both villains were created by tony essentially idk how peter didn’t like see that pattern HELLO anyway and how mcu peter is literally just white miles did i already say that and how stan lee literally said “one gender is enough” in terms of peter being bi and how they somehow did good casting but still managed to butcher both mj and peters characters in the new movies and also funny how the mcu spidey movies are basically iron man 6 and 9 and

one of the things I love most about the buddie dynamic is how they are both crazy as fuck about each other but Eddie just is more nonchalant about it. Like Buck has that crazy girlfriend energy, Buck will break Eddie's ankle because he's jealous (and no, I do not think he wanted tuberculosis' attention) but Eddie will put a man he's known for a year and a half into his WILL as his son's GUARDIAN and then use it as ammunition to be like "come on, you're not expendable. See, look what I did a year ago without talking to you about it" and then be like "what do you mean that's not normal?" And act like you're the weird one for questioning it