I am slowly going insane

discovering sexualities that I've never heard of before is fun, especially when one suddenly links to me.... I've always been kind of confused about my sexuality - being very open about sex and talking about it to everyone, yet the mere mention of me having sex with someone makes me want to run away. i write erotic short stories and fanfics, yet i can never imagine myself in those situations. i thought that these sexual urges would appear at some point and that my body just wasn't ready for it, but they haven't appeared. in comes aegosexuality. hits the nail on the head with my thoughts and feelings. its liberating to have a name for this, especially because i went around believing that I'm just a "voyeur" - i am not. i just cannot imagine myself in sexual scenarios.