My Unspoken Thoughts..

I can’t do this anymore, such a cliché line. But it is how it is.

I’ve known this long before, at the back of my mind since the very first serious fight, i felt the lost of respect i felt that trust then have faded from your every choice of words. I felt it, i knew it, i just did not, could not accept it.

I was caught by the past, by the happy times i could not let go. I could not admit that i know were headed for doom.

And now, i can’t contain it any longer. All the sadness, angger, all your lies, bulls, and shits! I cannot tolerate any of it anymore!

It’s like you’re this one big furr ball of shitness and you’re giving off so much negativity, and it’s dragging me down to doomsville.

I should have just ran off of the bus when everything was talked down, í regret thinking we both could hitch another round hoping it’d take us to happy ever after.

For good, i am now saying my goodbye!

If i were to be selfish, i would be asking you to stay. But i love you that much to let you go, because i myself isn’t sure if i would be able to stick to that decision when time comes.

I know it’s hard, especially on your part but you must be strong, you will get through this, we both will, in time.

I pray and dearly wish that God give you all the courage to endure the hurt you’re feeling now, and that when the time is finally right, he’d bless you someone that will love you much more than i did, and wouldn’t let you get hurt the way i did.

I do love you, i hope you know that. And that this is for the better. Please be strong. Have the courage to let go. We both have to.

I surrender who i've been for who you are,

for nothing makes me stronger than your fragile heart.

if I had only felt how it feels to be yours,

well, I would have known what I have been living for all along,

what I've been living for..