happy they have a team again

hollanov in a softer world

re my conspiracy theory that the stupid plane crash was supposed to be a suicide attempt, in addition to the plot and pacing and causality issues,

is that actually a lot of shane's bizarrely self-effacing behavior makes sense if instead of a plane crash that didnt' happen the crisis was a suicide attempt. like when would you reasonably feel like you need to completely shut down your emotions about all your worst nightmares coming true as you're being forcibly outed, having your career destroyed, and being abandoned by all of your friends? and why would shane, who is not a pushover, not expect ilya to show up for him and check in on him? why would he accept ilya mocking him about it?

on the page as written it kinda seems like the answer is "because your partner doesn't care" or "somehow you don't have any emotions about it?" but it would actually make a ton of sense if the answer was that these things happened under circumstances where it had recently gotten so bad with ilya's mental health that he attempted suicide. then it makes sense that shane is downplaying and erasing and minimizing his feelings, and that everyone else is too.